I cleared my voice: "You can take care of your illness, don't think too much." Wen Jing has always wanted to find time to come and see you, and I will come with her next time. Many diseases have a lot to do with the health of the mentality, and if you are optimistic, you will definitely be able to overcome the disease. ”

Zhen Xian bit her lip, "If you bring her here and show your affection in front of me, you will trap me in injustice." She grabbed the clothes on her chest and looked at me pitifully, "Don't be so cruel, okay?" You don't know what it's like. I'm still waiting for you, but you've gone away hand in hand with others. I can only look at your back. ”

The mouth is full of bitterness. After returning home, Wen Jing said that she was going to see Zhen Xian, but I only said, "Let's go through it, now her condition is unstable." ”

"Ah," she opened her mouth wide in surprise, "is it life-threatening?" ”

"Just talking about instability, it's not certain that there is such a thing."

"Life is so impermanent," she sighed, "no one can know what will happen in the future." Seki," she looked at me with sparkling eyes, "so we have to cherish each other more." ”

I hugged her and kissed her on the forehead. "Hmm. We all need to be healthy. ”

Finally went to see Zhen Xian with Wen Jing once. She has changed hospitals, she is in good spirits, and her skin is almost transparent. When Wen Jing went to the bathroom, she accused me with big eyes: "You really brought her here, Guan Ship!" ”

"She's kindly wanting to visit you."

"You know I don't want to see you."

"Then I'll take her away when she comes out."

"You!" She hated, "Do you have to do this to me?" Guanshu, do you really want to be so cruel? ”

If I have to be cruel to someone, then I'm sorry.

It was cruel a few years ago, wasn't it? I've come out, why can't she get out? It's not that we don't say goodbye, we have definitely broken up. A relationship has been over for so long, what are you still doing with it?

She's so stupid.

When Wen Jing and I walked out of the hospital hand in hand, she asked, "Zhen Xian looks pretty good, not like a sick person." ”

"Hmm." When facing Wen Jing, I felt a little empty. Sometimes I really get too close to Zhen Xian. Although there was nothing I couldn't tell outsiders about meeting her, the deception made me uncomfortable. I hate that feeling.

Zhen Xian is my first girlfriend who grew up together, how can I refuse her thoroughly, I don't think most people can do it.

I hadn't seen her for a while after the weather was warm, and she hadn't contacted me. The world seems to have become too peaceful all of a sudden. I like Wen Jing to be by my side, no matter what I say, I am happy. After two months of trying to conceive and not winning the lottery, she was so anxious that her eyebrows were knotted, but she comforted me: "It's not so easy to win the lottery, let's continue to work hard." ”

Then he dragged me to bed to do my "homework".

I like the quiet and crisp personality, almost not beating around the bush, we are so harmonious. For Zhen Xian, if there is no affection, there is no more, and now in my world, there is only work and quietness.

It was not unpleasant to receive a call from Zhen Xian again that day. She said, "Come to me, I have something to tell you." ”

When I arrived at the hospital, she was hanging needles, and her whole body was submerged in the snow-white bedding, which shocked me to see. I don't like the snow-white color of the hospital, it seems to be equated with death at any time. Zhen Xian slowly opened her eyes, her black and white eyes, and her dry voice: "You're here." ”

"Hmm." I sat down on the edge of the bed, "Are you alright?" ”

"It's okay, don't look at me because I'm weak and weak, it's just because I have pneumonia. You know that my immune system is under attack, and I am more susceptible to getting sick. ”

"You're going to be fine." I took her hand. Her hands were soft and boneless, and in such a slightly hot climate, it was still frighteningly cold.

A beautiful smile bloomed at the corner of her mouth. Hold my hand up: "I like you to hold my hand like this." ”

"Don't think about it. Let's rest. ”

She closed her eyes and opened them again. "If it's still here, it's more than three years old now."

I frowned: "What's still there?" ”

She closed her eyes and whispered, "Yangyang." ”

My heart was shocked. I looked at her in disbelief, Yangyang...... She opened her eyes again, "You can't believe it, do you?" I can't believe it either...... I don't tell you all the time, I want to keep it to myself; Unfortunately, it was left in my belly for less than three months. It must be a punishment for our wayward impulses. ”

My heart was beating violently. "When you break up, you ......"

"I didn't find out until the United States." She smiled wryly, "It's dramatic, isn't it?" If I hadn't gone then, would we have been married? ”

I grabbed her hand so hard that my heart was pounding in my chest and my arms were bruised. So we used to have children between us? I can't believe it!

Zhen Xian comforted me: "Guan Jian, we are still very young. ”

I withdrew my hand slightly, looking bitter. "There is a price to pay for stupid things you did when you were young. I'm sorry to leave you alone. ”

At that time, she was in a foreign country and had a miscarriage, she must have been very bitter, right?

"I'm not afraid of any of this, I'm afraid that I'll never get you back." Her eyes turned red, and two lines of tears fell.

I hugged her and patted her gently. She cried and convulsed, grabbed me by the hem of my shirt and asked, "Can you come back to me?" Come back to me, okay? ”

I don't know how I got out of the hospital in despair, so I subconsciously drove and drove away. By the time I came to my senses, I was already on the highway. If I don't want to die, I can only concentrate on driving.

I drove for hours to the beach, which once had many of our memories, joyful and painful. Even talking about breaking up is here.

I became a statue here, and sat all night. But I thought about something, but I didn't have a specific idea.

The tragedy is over, and I can't create any more tragedy. Maybe in this life, I'm destined to be sorry for her.

When I returned home, I saw Wen Jing's anxious and panicked face, my heart suddenly tightened, and I took her into my arms fiercely, ignoring her scuffle, I kissed her lips, desperately wanting her to rub into my body. We kissed and and loved intensely on the couch.

I am grateful to Wen Jing for her tolerance towards me, and she can trust me with all her heart as long as she says "I love you". Later, Zhen Xian called me a few times, and I either didn't answer, or I made it clear to her that no matter what we had, what was in the past was in the past.

I can't hurt her and hurt Wen Jing again.

Can't do it.

I remembered that Wen Jing once said that running away with a child alone was irresponsible to herself to others and children. I suddenly felt this way at this time, although Zhen Xian didn't run away after knowing that she had a child, she could choose to tell me.

In that case, we may not end up like we are today.

She may have stubbornly thought that I had to bow my head first. But I don't even know what she thinks, how to bow her head?

At the end of the day, we're all too tough.

When I was on a business trip to Australia, I was so far away from Wen Jing that I found that I really missed her. Every night with her video is still not enough. On my third day in Australia, there was a knock on my door. After opening the door, he was stunned on the spot.

"Zhen Xian?"

"Surprised, huh?" She wears a thick down jacket.

"Hmm. How did you get here? ”

"I'm looking for you."

I had to get out of the way, "Come in first, it's cold outside." ”

I was surprised what she was doing alone. She said, "Will it disturb your work?" ”

"No, it won't. But...... I'm going to have a video with Wen Jing in a moment. ”

"Oh." Lowered her eyelashes, "You have a good relationship with her." ”

"Hmm. She is my wife. ”

Zhen Xian looked at me: "Will you go to church tomorrow?" The one we've been to before. ”

I came back many days later, and it happened to be Wen Jing's birthday. I called her good friends and asked them to come home for dinner in the evening to surprise her.

Sure enough, when she came home and saw me, she jumped and screamed with joy, happy like a child. "Why did you come back?"

"Aren't you happy?"

"Of course not."

I haven't seen each other for a long time, so I'm naturally a little more intimate than usual. She pestered me about what I had seen in Australia, and I said, "I'll take you next time." ”

"Okay. I reluctantly agreed with you. ”

I touched her hair, full of pity. "Wen Jing, I miss you very much."

"I know, I can see it at a glance."

"Oh?"

"Look at me, look at me, it's like a mouse seeing rice."

"yes, yes." I threw her on the bed and threw herself on it, "Then I'll start eating rice now!" ”

The two of them frolicked in bed for a while. A few days later, Wen Jing was ordered by me to go to the hospital for a blood test, and the pregnancy and ketone results told me that I was going to be a father.

I was so excited that I began to act cautiously, for fear that Wen Jing would miss a little. She was very unimpressed: "I'm so nervous with you, I'll have prenatal depression if you're so nervous!" ”

I laughed, "I just want you to be careful." ”

"I'll be careful, don't be neurotic, or I'll break down!"

As a father-to-be, the mood is naturally too good to say. It's the first time I have such a real, fatherly feeling. received a call from Zhen Xian after a period of time.

"I'm emigrating."

"Oh." I was a little surprised.

"I heard you're going to be a father, congratulations."

"Thank you." Between us, so alienated. After a conversation in church that day, I think she's completely let go.

Wen Jing and I said, "Zhen Xian is going to emigrate, let's find a time to see her?" ”

"Okay. I'm tired of being at home every day, and I'm about to get moldy. ”

"Won't you find fun on your own?"

"Hmph, lock you up at home and see how you find fun." She was very despised.

I put my arm around her shoulder, knowing that she had worked hard these days. Every morning and evening, I hold the toilet and vomit in the dark, and it will be even more uncomfortable to go to work and be at home. "Otherwise, if you have nothing to do, you can occasionally come to the company to help me and supervise me by the way."

She blinked, "Do you really need supervision?" ”

"I'd love for you to supervise."

She laughed: "I'm not going." If you don't even realize this, will you still close the ship? ”

I joked to her: "It is said that children are the third party between husband and wife, and I am so suave, aren't you afraid?" ”

She touched her stomach and her eyes were sharp: "If you dare to mess with flowers and grass outside, just go." ”

I grinned and hugged her: "Where do you dare?" But I just want to say, you're in the company, I can look at you when I miss you. ”

"Let me be Miss Wallflower there when you don't want me?"

"It's Mrs. Wallflower, isn't it?"

Then I was subjected to domestic violence. But even so, I'm happy to do it.

When Zhen Xian left, we didn't go to see off the plane. She didn't let her go, and Wen Jing said, "Maybe she saw that we were uncomfortable, so she didn't want to go." ”

It may be easier for a woman to understand a woman. How fortunate I am to marry a good woman who is empathetic.

That night, I was doing official business in the study, and when I heard a quiet scream outside, my hands and feet were so frightened that I ran out and asked what was going on.

"It's moving, it's moving." Wen Jing pointed to her stomach with a shocked expression.

I rolled up my sleeves and climbed into bed, "Did Xiao Xi move?" ”

"That's right!" She looked excited, "In this place. ”

She put my hand on my belly, which was already slightly bulging, and didn't move for a long time. I bowed my head and kissed her on the abdomen, "The little guy is so strong, can he move at such a young age?" "It's only 15 weeks and 5 days.

"Well, that's amazing!" Her face glowed with motherly love.

I put my hand on my stomach for a long time before I suddenly felt something tremble in my palm. I looked at her: "Are you moving?" ”

She nodded violently: "yes, yes, do you feel it too?" ”

"Well, it's fun." I shouted to my stomach, "Xixi, move again." ”

It's a pity that people ignore me.

For a long time later, there was such a period of time in the evening that belonged to the three of us. Even if the baby is still in the womb and never comes out.

Wen Jing dug me up from my sleep early in the morning, and said with a smile: "I'm going to have a prenatal checkup today, can you go with me?" ”

"Yes." My wife is the most important thing, and of course I am responsible.

We went to a private hospital. The public hospital was crowded, and the queue was often too long, so I was afraid that it would be too hard, so I contacted the best obstetrician and gynecologist in a private hospital.

Today, I will have a blood test to see how the child is developing with ultrasound. I can see the baby's little body on the screen, her little silk in the mother's belly, and two fists on both sides of the little head.

For a moment, my eyes heated.

Wen Jing wiped off the couplant on her stomach and asked the doctor, "Is the baby developing well?" ”

"It's good, it's a week or two older than the actual gestational age." The doctor said with a smile.

Wen Jing smiled and looked at me, and after hooking my hand out, she asked, "Have you seen the baby's appearance?" ”

"Yes, it's not very clear, but it looks like me."

"......," she laughed, "you're narcissistic. ”

"Isn't it normal for girls to look like their fathers?"

Wen Jing looked at me in surprise: "Is it a girl?" Did you see that? ”

"I want to look so good, I should be a girl."

“…… That's what you guessed. She then grinned, "Great, I've recently taken a fancy to a lot of beautiful girls' clothes on the Internet, and I'm worried about boys in my life, so I can't buy them!" Go back and shoot them all. ”

"......" is really a defeated mother.

Finally, her early pregnancy reaction passed, her appetite began to improve, and I no longer controlled so much, and she ate whatever she wanted.

"Guanshu, I think you're more cute than ever."

"Thanks for the compliment."

She tiptoed to kiss my face, and I quickly shouted, "STOP, what are pregnant women doing on tiptoe?" Mom said you can't raise your hands or stand on tiptoe. ”

Her face was half darkened: "I just said that you are cute, can I take it back?" ”

"I can't." I bowed my head and kissed her on the cheek and wrapped my arms around her waist, "Let's go, glutton, there are still a lot of delicious foods in front of me." ”

Her eyes lit up. The first three months of early pregnancy had depressed her, but now her appetite has improved, as if she wants to move everything into her stomach.

When I got home, I vomited again. I patted her distressedly: "Look, this is the price of gluttony." ”

"It's better than not being able to eat at all," she said optimistically, pulling me to the balcony, squinting at the great view outside. "Guan Jian, is there any news of Zhen Xian recently?"

"Nope."

"Oh." She nodded, with a smile on the corner of her lips, "Yes, Li Li seems to have it too." Xiaowen gets married next month, and everyone is really happy. ”

"That's right." She leaned into my arms and watched the sun go down together.

Everybody is happy, that's what we all want. Looking sideways at the quiet and gentle face, the past is pouring in like a tide, sweet and bitter, all frozen in history.

Now we will always be happy, and we will all be happy.