......In the golden color of the field of vision, accompanied by a sound of footsteps, there was a pair of vague black shadows, walking towards me little by little from outside the light, and finally, the pair of straight long legs half-squatted in front of me, squatted down, stretched out their arms, it was a black leather sleeve, it was a slender hand as white as jade, and that hand, it slowly held my hand.

It's warm, but not wanted.

"Don't touch my ......"

Shaking off that hand, I struggled to get up by myself, trying to ignore Lin Zeyuan's pale face, which could be said to be pale.

I've rarely seen him look like that, but I don't want to care.

I didn't want to hear what he said after I got up, and he said—

"This is the price of immortality, you will see again and again that your loved ones die before you, and you ...... Helpless, you have to get used to it. ”

I heard him say to the end, suddenly covered his ears, pursed his lips, closed his eyes, and forcibly put down the pain and hysterical desire/desire in his heart, in fact, I knew very well in my heart that what he said was right, such a thing would not be in the minority in the future, but I couldn't do it! Even if you have lost the most important person several times, you still can't get used to it, and you still can't get used to it!

After a long time, he closed his eyes and took a deep breath to calm his mood, and when he put down his hand, he heard Lin Zeyuan say again, "Although Tang Gongru has a contract with the fox, he is only a half-immortal after all, and he has a lot of merits, and there will be a good reincarnation after death, if you don't believe it, you can go to Yama." ”

Lin Zeyuan's words played a very comforting role, and I raised my head suddenly: "What you said is true?" ”

I thought that Tang Gongru would no longer exist anymore, just like Chen Jiangyan!

Outside the light, next to the wedding dress, Lin Zeyuan just bowed his head and didn't speak, but he made me happier than anything he said, at this moment, tears came out again, crying and laughing, he picked up the wedding dress on the side, crying with joy, and his heart was surging!

Lin Zeyuan didn't speak for a long time, and it wasn't until I completely calmed down and looked at him that he said, "Now, don't you still want me?" ”

I looked at him, slowly put down the wedding dress, and then slowly straightened my back, trying to make myself look less embarrassed, but looking at him very calmly and rationally, and said lightly: "Yes." As you can see, I just died of my husband, reasoning...... Now it's a widow, and you shouldn't come in. ”

I didn't say this because I was angry, but I felt that I should really wait for Tang Gongru, no matter what he became, I had to wait.

But what Lin Zeyuan said made my heart shake: "I heard what you said, he didn't marry you, if you have to add this widow title to yourself to anger me, then ...... Your goal has been achieved, I am sad and angry, but now that you are also married, we are not even. Do it all over again, okay? ”

What Lin Zeyuan said was also indifferent, without any coercion and temptation.

I really rarely see him like this, especially his pale face just now flashed in my mind, to be honest, I seem to have seen that kind of paleness, in Huang Liang's eyes, in his eyes, I have seen ...... Such a pale self.

Once he married Hu Qianxue, and once he hugged Hu Qianxue before he died.

Either way, it's when I love him the most, so I'm in pain.

Therefore, Lin Zeyuan should be serious, but ah...... I didn't know what was wrong, I closed my eyes and thought deeply about whether I should give him a chance, but I couldn't find the feeling I had at the beginning, the determination that I had to be with him.

Especially when I walked to the wedding dress, thinking about everything I had done for him, and then thinking about my life, my time and time again......

In the end, I lowered my head, smiled bitterly, and still chose to give up.

"Oh no, we can't do it all over again."

I looked at Lin Zeyuan, at the only person who has been by my side since the beginning, at this man who I have crossed more than 300 times to change my life against the sky and want to be together, this time, we finally have nothing to stop us from being together, but my heart refuses to continue to move forward.

"Why?"

Lin Zeyuan's voice was also very light, but the look in his eyes was unforgettable.

When I saw his pain, it was like seeing myself at the beginning, and at that moment I really hesitated, should we be together? But when I touched the phoenix crown, I could actually think of Tang Gongru looking at the phoenix crown with a smile affectionately in my mind, and my heart instantly hurt fiercely, and then, I returned to calm, "Because I see it, whether it is great sorrow and joy, whether it is great ups and downs, in the end, no matter what, it is better for a relative and friend to die, friends are scattered, or alone, there is no any bonding, just to please yourself, it will be more pleasant." ”

I really didn't think that after going around a circle, I actually returned to the original point, back to the lonely self, but I was also relieved, as if a tug-of-war competition with hard work finally ushered in the final ending, but I felt that it had not yet drawn a perfect end, and there was still something missing, and when I raised my eyes, I happened to see the bird carved on the antique grid, and suddenly remembered a song I liked very much before, called "Thorn Bird"——

"Have you ever heard a song?"

When I asked Lin Zeyuan, he was clenching his fists, his face pale and solemn.

He's looking at me, waiting for me to continue—

"In that song, the bird that sings in it is called the Thorn Bird. Thorn birds, from the time they are born and grow up to the time they can fly alone from their nests, will constantly look for thorn trees. The thorns were full of sharp thorns, but the sharp thorns could not stop her, for that was its fate, and its destiny was to find the thorn tree, and when it did, it plunged its petite body into one of the longest, sharpest thorns.

At that time, the thorny bird will bleed, shed tears, and sing happily.

The singing is very poignant, very moving, tactful as the sun, as if it can sing the beautiful feelings of the world...... But it was so caught in thorns that it could no longer fly, and it could only wait for it to sing the end of its life, and when it died of exhaustion, it would become a thorn with its body—

Blood is the nutrient and the meat is the fertilizer. ”

When I said it, my mind was full of all the things that Lin Zeyuan and I had from before to after, and I finally understood what I didn't understand at the beginning-

"In the past, I was very puzzled.

Why are there such birds in the world?

Why is there such a stupid bird who knows that it is harm, but still desperately rushes into it.

Scold! ”

When it comes to silly birds, I can't help but want to laugh.

Laughing, but with tears, because until now, after all kinds of experiences, I finally know-

"Fate exists,

Existence is justified.

Lin Zeyuan, I am the stupid thorn bird, and you are my thorns. ”

When I said it, my mind was full of the lyrics and melody of that song—

"Maybe it's just to wait, a hundred centuries, that we can discover the beauty of true love, the flowers of agave do not mean gorgeous, and choose to burn themselves to continue true love...... Just like the fateful tragedy of the thorn bird, but brave, exchanging life for the brilliant ending...... I cross the hurt, the most beautiful answer, is your love ......"