Chapter 105: Self-abandonment
"Hey."
I had been sighing for a short time before my phone suddenly vibrated violently.
It wasn't until I was screaming in my pocket for a while that I realized that I came out with my phone and answered the call, in a calm and indifferent tone.
I'm really not in a good mood, no matter who calls me, it can't stir up the slightest stir in my heart.
Of course, Li Feng should be excluded from this candidate, after all, Li Feng is the culprit who caused me to become like this.
"Xiao Fan, are you okay? I've heard all about Ruiyun. ”
The call was from Zhao Gang, who always got the news related to me in time, and cared for me and loved me at the first time.
If I hadn't thought that I had never known Zhao Gang before, I would probably think that the two of us had known a great friendship before.
However, the fact is that Zhao Gang and I only became friends during this time, but we have a lifelong friendship.
Even across the phone, I could hear the worry and anxiety in Zhao Gang's tone.
He's really putting himself in my shoes, but he's a limited person and can't do much.
"I'm fine, Brother Gang."
I only felt that the tip of my nose was a little sour, and the tears that I had suppressed just now were almost about to soak out of my eyes.
Many times, Zhao Gang is no different from my biological brother for me, both mentally and practically, he has given me great support.
In the end, I still sighed slightly, swallowed the sourness in my stomach, and tried my best to say this to Zhao Gang in a calm and indifferent tone.
I'm a man, there's no reason to go to other people's backs and cry when I encounter something, I don't think I can do such a thing.
"You must not get into the tip of the horns, if the sharp cloud is gone, we can create another sharp cloud, as for the splendid one, it will be even more dispensable."
Zhao Gang probably guessed my temper, and didn't keep dwelling on this issue, and simply began to persuade me as soon as the topic changed.
Zhao Gang has always been a very optimistic person, and no matter how big the blow is, it is not a serious matter for him.
What happened to me today, Zhao Gang frowned slightly when he learned about it, and then came over to comfort me with a wide heart and a fat body.
It's just a pity that I don't have such an optimistic personality as Zhao Gang, and this incident is almost a devastating blow to me.
Every time I think about the days I was proud of in the past, I can't help but fall into self-blame and regret.
How deep my hatred for Peng Suwen is, and how angry I am at my own blindness.
"No, Brother Gang, I will never create Ruiyun again in the future, I can't beat Li Feng at all, I lost from the beginning."
I let go of my hand with some weakness, letting it hang freely next to my body.
After this incident, I can be considered to have completely recognized it, and I probably can't compete with Li Feng at all.
From the very beginning, I have been in Li Feng's calculations, every step I have taken, everything I have done has been asked by Li Feng to go.
I still question myself in the end, I'm so useless, can I really take revenge on those things one by one from Li Feng's hands.
I wasn't sure, but I felt like I couldn't do it.
"What do you mean by that?! Even if you experience a failure, you shouldn't be so self-defeating! ”
Zhao Gang can be regarded as someone who knows me, and as soon as he hears him, he knows that I am a little self-defeating.
Zhao Gang sneered, and didn't control his temper, so he sneered at me directly.
In Zhao Gang's opinion, I, Fan Xiaoyun, am only in my twenties, and I am not even in my thirties, and I was completely hit because of such a setback.
Should such a thing be done by a young man, should not!
It is precisely because of this that Zhao Gang has been looking at me with such hatred, and he can't wait to pull me out of the deep ditch directly.
"Peng Suwen is Li Feng's person, he deliberately approached me from the beginning, and the entire Ruiyun couldn't take out a penny, and all the money went into Peng Suwen's pocket."
Zhao Gang's tone didn't stir up the slightest ripple in my heart at all, I just smiled bitterly and explained to Zhao Gang.
The reason why Zhao Gang thinks this way is because he doesn't know the cause and effect of this incident, and he doesn't understand how much humiliation and blow I have endured in it.
But if Zhao Gang could understand me a little bit, he wouldn't say such a thing with a big grin.
I can understand Zhao Gang's behavior and attitude, but this does not mean that I can rise directly according to Zhao Gang's ideas.
"Fuck me, don't be too sad, at least, at least we have successfully summed up the lessons and recognized the true face of Peng Suwen's dog mongrel, and we won't lose."
Zhao Gang subconsciously wanted to scold, but just after scolding two words, he shut up and stopped saying that, and changed his way to persuade me more tactfully.
In fact, Zhao Gang carefully summed it up, this can be regarded as spending money to buy lessons, there are no other losses, this is not a loss.
It's just Peng Suwen's slut raised by a son of a bitch, he had better pray that he won't fall into the hands of him Zhao Gang in the future, otherwise he will definitely let this dog go around without eating!
"The whole Ruiyun is gone, and the splendid is gone, hehe, I lost, I lost completely."
Recalling the bits and pieces I have experienced with Peng Suwen during this time, and even all the things that happened on this day, I have no expression except for a sneer.
Speaking of which, I should still blame myself, blame myself for having no beads to think of that kind of dog thing as a good brother.
It's a pity that Ruiyun and the employees in Jinxiu are just honest ordinary people, but they have suffered such a big change because of Peng Suwen.
I only hope that those people can also find a good job in the future, and don't delay their lives because of this incident.
"You are still young, there are infinite possibilities in your life, besides, winning or losing is an uncertain thing, and you are not a god, how can you distinguish everything clearly."
Zhao Gang had no choice but to sigh, he also knew that this kind of thing could not be sorted out by talking about it.
It may be better for him, but for me, Peng Suwen is a good brother who gets along with me day and night, and the two of them may not know how many things they have done together.
Now I suddenly learned that what I thought was a good brother was a dead liar at all, and if I were to replace him, I would definitely be a little unacceptable.
It's just that I'm still so young, and my future life is so long, I shouldn't be depressed because of this setback.
"It's all my fault, if I hadn't lured the wolf into the room, Peng Suwen wouldn't have had a chance to get close to Ruiyun at all."
I showed a somewhat bitter smile, no matter what Zhao Gang said, I was still immersed in self-blame and guilt.
Peng Suwen, Peng Suwen, he really hurt me.
Now every time I think back to the bits and pieces between me and Peng Suwen from acquaintance to acquaintance, I can't wait to be able to tear Peng Suwen's ugly face directly.
If he hadn't been deliberately pretending to deceive me, I wouldn't have lost so badly.
But I was also at fault, why didn't I have two more eyes at that time to see Peng Suwen's true face.