I saw a passage on Weibo yesterday, maybe most people who love to listen to songs will feel this way,

"When you have a fixed playlist, you rarely listen to new songs, but if you accidentally hear something you like when you pass by a street one day, you will download it and cycle the single to death, so it's not that you can't love someone like you loved the original person, it's just that you haven't met the best yet, and if you accidentally meet it, you will definitely find that you will love more." Yes, as far as I'm concerned, I really feel this passage.

The deeper I love and the more I care, the more it hurts, so I listen to the familiar playlist and want to get used to being alone, but after I met Ling'er at the beginning, from getting used to it to not getting used to it, and then to this feeling of hot and cold, I really feel that I really want to be alone?

I talked a lot with Ling'er's friend Qiu yesterday, and she also told me a lot, maybe what she said makes sense, of course I understand!

But I feel like there's something I can't put down, I'm afraid of Ling'er's impatient state, what I say and do is wrong, I feel redundant, I would rather she be really angry and quarrel with me or beat me, it's much better than that feeling of impatience, at least let me know where I didn't do well enough, but .......

Sometimes I quietly think there, am I too wishful thinking, I always want to put something into my time with her, cherish, tolerate, accommodate, understand, but never asked her if she wants it, I only know, everything given to her, never given to others, and now I have never thought about giving it to others, maybe just like Qiu said is very right, she is an independent and assertive person, and we are all insecure.

It's really like what Qiu said, I think she always says that she likes to be quiet, and she likes to stay alone quietly, so sometimes my interruption is really superfluous, it's my own wishful thinking, just like the day before yesterday, I feel like air, it's superfluous, and it's boring to laugh at myself.

I've tried it many times, maybe it's the wrong way, it's really hard to get into her heart, although she looks strong on the outside, she must have a lot in her heart, but she won't say it easily.

Comfort yourself! Hehe! Sometimes it may not be that the other party doesn't care about you, but that you take the other party too seriously, and sometimes you always feel that others ignore you, but in fact, you may be too idle.

So why not practice driving, create, and exercise during the holidays? Maybe at this age, after what has been experienced, no one wants to please anymore, and you can be with whoever you are comfortable with, including friends, and stay away when you are tired.

Pleasing others is far less pleasing than being happy yourself. It is better to be lonely than to go against your heart. It's better to have regrets than to compromise.