Cheng Rao ignored Qiao Yaoyu's shock, her expression and demeanor were still calm, she moved her lips, and said, "I have been going to Jingshan Temple before, and the host over there has helped me a lot, I think it's good to go there." ”

"What a fart!" Qiao Yaoyu couldn't help it, "I said, sister, do you know what the concept of being a nun is?" Not to mention that you have no desires, you have to be a vegetarian for the rest of your life, and your current body will be malnourished sooner or later! Have you ever wondered what we will do when you go to become a monk? Can you bear to leave your aunt alone at home? ”

Qiao Yaoyu was really angry.

Hearing Qiao Yaoyu say this, Cheng Rao glanced at the suitcase, and after a few seconds, she spoke: "You can go to see me, at any time." ”

"Auntie agreed?" Qiao Yaoyu is now more concerned about this issue.

Cheng Rao: "Well, I agreed. ”

Qiao Yaoyu: "......"

He probably knew why Huang Ping agreed.

After going through so much, her biggest wish is that Cheng Rao can live safely, so no matter what she wants to do, she will not stop her.

It's really sad to be a mother.

"It's not as scary as you think." Cheng Rao looked at Qiao Yaoyu's expression and knew that he was also worried, so she took the initiative to say to him: "The host is very good, I think I can calm down there." ”

Qiao Yaoyu thought for a long time, then walked up to her, raised his hand and touched her hair, "Do you want to get bald?" ”

He was very serious when he asked this question, and he could see that he was really distressed about her hair.

Cheng Rao was amused by Qiao Yaoyu, and after laughing, she said, "No." ”

Qiao Yaoyu: "Then what if you suddenly don't want to become a monk in the future?" Can it be vulgar? That's what you say, right? ”

Qiao Yaoyu didn't understand these things.

Cheng Rao nodded, "Yes, but I shouldn't do that." ”

She really likes the environment of the temple now, it is quiet and dusty, which allows her to forget a lot of distractions from the outside world.

She had heard before that if the living were to chant for the dead with sincerity, the dead could quickly enter Elysium.

She knew it was just spiritual sustenance, but she believed it.

In the second half of her life, she wanted to accompany Xiao Ye in this way.

Qiao Yaoyu stared at Cheng Rao for a while, in fact, she had a lot of things to persuade her, but at this moment, she couldn't say anything at all.

He was silent for nearly three minutes, and then asked her, "How deep is your love for Xiao Ye?" ”

Hearing Qiao Yaoyu ask, Cheng Rao's action of cleaning up her hand paused.

She looked down at the bracelet on her wrist, a "Y" on it that glittered in the light.

Cheng Rao pursed her lips and said four words: "Deeper than the sea." ”

Qiao Yaoyu: "......"

Probably because he didn't love, he really didn't understand.

couldn't bear to hit Cheng Rao, so he could only be silent.

In fact, objectively speaking, Cheng Rao's current state is much better than he imagined.

He had always thought that Cheng Rao would not be able to think about it again after remembering the previous events, but she didn't do it.

She is in good mental and physical condition now, especially after returning from that trip, she looks much more cheerful than before.

But the matter of becoming a monk...... Well, he doesn't quite understand it anyway.

However, even if you can't understand it, it's hard to say anything.

What Qiao Yaoyu is worried about now is Wei Chi's reaction after knowing about it.

Yu Chi said before that he would always wait for Cheng Rao, but - Cheng Rao is now going to become a monk.

This means that she wants to cut off all the feelings between men and women, and the six roots are pure, and it also means that there will never be any intersection between her and Wei Chi.

I can't even see each other.

Qiao Yaoyu, as a bystander, felt sorry for Wei Chi after knowing about it.

So, as a party to the Wei Chi......

Thinking of this, Qiao Yaoyu pinched his eyebrows.

He suddenly couldn't bear to tell Wei Chi about it.

He thought about it, although Wei Chi said that he would always wait for Cheng Rao, but if Cheng Rao really became a monk, he shouldn't be so persistent, right?

Maybe Cheng Rao also took this into account and went to become a monk......

Qiao Yaoyu felt that the logic in the middle was too confusing, and he couldn't go well with a logical genius.

However, it also responds to that sentence - love has no logic.

Later, Qiao Yaoyu didn't ask Cheng Rao about it again.

**

After Cheng Rao packed up her things at home for a few days, she was ready to set off for Jingshan Temple.

On the day she went to the temple, Huang Ping, Qiao Ruzhang and Qiao Yaoyu sent her to the mountain together.

It was sunny and windy that day.

Cheng Rao was wearing a white sweater with black jeans and a pair of canvas shoes of the same color as the sweater.

Before coming, she had made an appointment with Wuhe in advance, and when Cheng Rao stepped into Jingshan Temple, Wushe was waiting for her in the courtyard.

After Huang Ping and Qiao Ruzhang saw that there was no other host, they saluted him.

Qiao Yaoyu didn't understand this, and only smiled at him.

Huang Ping: "My daughter will be handed over to you, I hope you will take care of me." ”

There is no other host: "Please rest assured, the girl is destined." ”

Huang Ping: "Thank you, Master. ”

He smiled, looked at Cheng Rao, and said, "Come with me." ”

At the end, he added: "Don't come with your relatives." ”

Huang Ping, Qiao Ruzhang and Qiao Yaoyu were originally going to follow, but after hearing him say this, they had to stop.

Cheng Rao glanced back at the three of them and nodded lightly, signaling them to rest assured.

After that, she followed the host.

Huang Ping stood in place, looking at Cheng Rao's back, tears poured out unconsciously, she covered her mouth, for fear that she would cry out loud.

Qiao Ruzhang can fully understand her state of mind at the moment.

He opened his arms and hugged Huang Ping tightly in his arms, hoping to comfort her with such an action.

He knew very well in his heart that Huang Ping didn't want Cheng Rao to become a monk at all.

However, the child was determined to do this, and she couldn't bear to stop it.

Although she said before that she did not plan to fall in love and get married in the future, if she didn't leave home, at least she still had a chance.

Now, she has chosen this path, which is tantamount to strangling all possibilities in the cradle.

She is determined to defend herself for Xiao Ye.

They are helpless, and there is nothing they can do.

Love itself can't be logical, no matter how good Wei Chi is, Cheng Rao doesn't like it, no one can do anything.

Qiao Yaoyu stood next to him, and when he heard Huang Ping's sobbing voice, his heart was panicked.

**

Cheng Rao followed the host to the meditation room.

He introduced her to a middle-aged nun.

"This is Zong Ru." After making an introduction, he went out first.

Cheng Rao got dressed under Zong Ru's instructions. It was the first time in her life that she had worn such clothes, she was small in frame, and now she was thin, and her robe was loose on her body.

Zong Ru helped her put on her clothes, and couldn't help but sigh: "You are too thin, you will have to eat more meals in the future." ”

Cheng Rao nodded, "Okay." ”

Zong Ru said: "The host said that you are destined, and after I glanced at you, this feeling is even worse." I hope you have a good time at Jingshan Temple in the future. ”

With that, she bowed.

Cheng Rao replied to her with the same gesture and bowed slightly.

After changing her clothes and putting on her hat, she followed Zong Ru out of the house.

Then, he took Cheng Rao to the shaving ceremony.

He had already said before that Cheng Rao didn't have to shave, so the ceremony was just a formality, mainly to give her the Dharma name. The ceremony was not long, and it was over in ten minutes.

Cheng Rao's legal name was taken by no other host, called "Huikong".

Cheng Rao likes the name very much.

After the ceremony, Cheng Rao went to say goodbye to Huang Ping and them.

After Huang Ping saw Cheng Rao come out in such clothes, her mood that had just calmed down was surging again.

She covered her lips and tried her best not to cry in front of Cheng Rao, but her tears were disobedient.

Seeing Huang Ping crying, Cheng Rao's eyes also warmed up.

She pursed her lips and said to Huang Ping, "Mom, you can go, come and see me next time." ”

Huang Ping didn't speak.

Cheng Rao assured her: "I'll be fine here." ”

"Remember to take care of yourself." Qiao Ruzhang knew that Huang Ping was so sad that she couldn't speak at this time, so she could only bring her instructions to Cheng Rao for her.

After listening to Qiao Ruzhang's words, Cheng Rao nodded and said, "Uncle Qiao, my mother will ask you." ”

Qiao Ruzhang: "Don't worry, you take care of yourself here, we will come to see you regularly." ”

Cheng Rao nodded. Qiao Yaoyu looked at Cheng Rao like this, and her mood was extremely complicated.

In fact, he wanted to say that Cheng Rao still looked good in this nun robe, but he couldn't say it, because he knew what this dress meant.

Qiao Yaoyu stared at Cheng Rao for a while and said, "I'll come to see you next week." ”

Cheng Rao said "um", "You guys go first." ”

Ten minutes later, Huang Ping, Qiao Ruzhang and Qiao Yaoyu left.

Cheng Rao watched the backs of the three of them disappear, then took a deep breath and turned around and walked towards the meditation room.

From today, she is going to start a new life completely.

………

On the way back, Huang Ping was crying all the way, Qiao Yaoyu was driving in the front row, and Qiao Ruzhang was sitting next to Huang Ping, wiping her tears with a paper in her hand.

Huang Ping needs to cry at this time, and it is useless to persuade anyone-

All Qiao Ruzhang could do was to be by her side.

**

In the blink of an eye, Cheng Rao has been coming to Jingshan Temple for a week.

She didn't know much about the rules of the temple before, and this week, she was basically groping.

On weekdays, she follows Zong Ru to chant sutras.

The days of the temple are very peaceful, and after coming here, Cheng Rao will not carry her mobile phone with her, and when she has nothing to do, she will sit in the courtyard and blow a cold wind.

**

At the end of November, it was getting colder and colder in L.A.

Wei Chi didn't know anything about Cheng Rao's renunciation, and the two hadn't seen each other since the last time she was drunk and had an "accident".

Wei Chi wanted to go to her, but found that he couldn't find any reasonable excuse at all, and he was busy with work at the end of the year, so he hadn't contacted her for more than a month.

I remembered to contact Cheng Rao again because of her birthday.

Cheng Rao's birthday is December 20th, a date he has always remembered.

It's also strange to say that he is not a person who likes birthdays, but Cheng Rao's birthday has never been forgotten since he first heard it.

The 19th and 20th happened to be Saturdays and Sundays, and he didn't have a lot of work this week, so he could find time to meet her.

However, he knew very well that Cheng Rao probably didn't want to see him.

But, he still licked his face.

On the evening of the nineteenth, Yu Chi bought a cake at Cheng Rao's favorite cake shop before, and drove to her house with the cake.

The wind was blowing outside, Wei Chi was wearing only a thin coat, and he was carrying a cake in his hand, and a gust of wind blew, freezing people to gnash their teeth.

Wei Chi raised his hand and pressed the doorbell, and after waiting for more than a minute, the door finally came.

The person who opened the door was the aunt of the family, and Wei Chi also knew her.

He grinned at his aunt as a greeting.

The aunt had a good impression of Wei Chi, and when she saw him coming, she immediately invited him in.

When Wei Chi came in, Huang Ping happened to come down from upstairs.

Seeing Yu Chi coming, she walked up, and when she was about to ask, she saw the cake he was carrying.

Huang Ping reacted at this time, he came here for Cheng Rao......

After realizing this, Huang Ping felt extremely guilty in her heart.

When Cheng Rao went to Jingshan Temple, Huang Ping never knew how to tell Yu Chi.

There was no contact during this time, so the matter was put on hold.

She has been holding on to the luck mentality, hoping that time will cure him, and that he will not be so persistent.

Huang Ping didn't speak for a long time, Wei Chi touched his nose and said, "Cheng Rao will give you a cake for tomorrow's birthday, she ...... Not at home? ”

He was a big man, and when he asked the latter question, his voice trembled.

"Yu Chi, Cheng Rao, she-"

Huang Ping moved her lips, halfway through her words, she still didn't know how to tell Yu Chi about Cheng Rao's trip to Jingshan Temple.

Seeing Huang Ping's sad expression, Wei Chi's face immediately tensed: "What's wrong with her?" What's wrong? ”

"Don't worry, it's not a big deal." Huang Ping knew that Wei Chi was thinking too much, so she immediately said to him: "She's fine, it's just ......."

Huang Ping sighed, and finally said the next words: "She went to Jingshan Temple." ”

“…… What do you mean? Hearing Huang Ping say this, Wei Chi's eyelids jumped twice suddenly, and his breathing slowed down a little.

"She's a monk." Huang Ping said more directly this time, "It was her own request, and I respect her choice and wishes." ”

Monk...... Finish?

Wei Chi put the cake in his hand on the coffee table, raised his hand and rubbed his eyes.

Then, he asked Huang Ping: "When is it?" ”

Huang Ping said: "Last month, it was more than ten days. ”

Wasn't that the last few days after the two of them had slept......

Thinking of this, Yu Chi suddenly clenched his fists.

He thought about thousands of possibilities, but he never imagined that Cheng Rao would finally make such a choice.

"She's been over there for more than a month now, and the last time I went over, she said she wasn't going to have a birthday."

Huang Ping expressed Cheng Rao's wish to Yu Chi, "Yu Chi, aunt really thank you, but Cheng Rao's current situation ...... I'm still saying the same thing, don't waste any more time on her. ”

These days, Huang Ping has always been embarrassed to contact Wei Chi.

She knew very well that Wei Chi would definitely not be able to bear it after getting the news.

Sure enough, looking at his expression at this time, Huang Ping's heart tightened.

Such a good young man, why doesn't Cheng Rao like it?

She knew very well that she couldn't help but feel emotional, but seeing Yu Chi in such pain, she was really uncomfortable.

“……”

Yu Chi couldn't say a word, and the hand on his side clenched into a fist.

Became a monk......

Was she so desperate to draw a line with him?

He's not stupid, and of course he understands the meaning behind this choice-

She is saying that she will only live for Xiao Ye in her life, and never accept anyone into her life again.

Wei Chi only felt that his brain was buzzing, his right eyelid was beating non-stop, and the speed of his heartbeat was gradually increasing.

Before, he always thought that it would be okay to wait.

He comforted himself that his life was so long, and he could always wait for the day when she figured it out.

He kept telling himself to be more patient and give her some time to accept reality.

Therefore, for more than a month, he endured missing her and did not come to her.

Who knows, so many things have happened in the more than a month that he has not come.

He doesn't know how to do it at all now, keep waiting?

Still is...... Just let it go?

Huang Ping looked at Wei Chi for a while and let out a sigh.

She said to Wei Chi: "Cheng Rao's temperament is like this, she is too persistent, none of us can stop her." Yu Chi ...... You don't have to wait for her any longer, you two, it's completely impossible. ”

Huang Ping knew that the second half of her sentence was particularly cruel, but it was undeniable that it was true.

She must take advantage of this time to explain the facts to Wei Chi, otherwise, in the future, he will only be more painful.

After listening to Huang Ping's words, Wei Chi's eyes were already scarlet, although no tears fell, but they were more worrying than tears.

"In the final analysis, Cheng Rao is sorry for you, Wei Chi, you deserve a better girl, the two of you have no fate, and it is also Cheng Rao's regret to miss you."

Wei Chi never spoke, this was the first time he had been so rude in front of Huang Ping since he met.

Before that, no matter how bad his mood was, he would not ignore Huang Ping's words.

But this time, he couldn't say a word.

The impact of this incident on him was too great.

Huang Ping didn't mind Yu Chi's attitude, just because she fully understood Wei Chi's feelings.

"You still have decades in your life in the future, I believe that you can meet a girl who is good to you, but Cheng Rao does not have this blessing." Huang Ping continued.

Wei Chi still didn't answer.

He stood there, his shoulders trembling slightly.

It went on like this for more than ten minutes, and he finally spoke. The voice was hoarse to the extreme.

"I'll go first." These four words have consumed all his strength.

Huang Ping nodded and said, "No matter what, Wei Chi, thank you very much, even if you and Cheng Rao are not together, I will treat you as family." If you need my help in the future, you can come to me at any time, as long as I can help, I will do my best. ”

Wei Chi didn't answer, and walked out of the house in a daze.

Huang Ping sent him to the door, and after watching him get into the car, he sighed and turned to enter the door.

Wei Chi got into the car, put his hands on the steering wheel, lowered his head, and remembered what Huang Ping had said before.

She went to Jingshan Temple......

Jingshan Temple ......

He once believed Hua Lin's words and thought that Cheng Rao should at least have some attachment to him.

He kept telling himself to give her time.

Unexpectedly, in the end, it turned out to be such a result.

But he knew very well that it was no wonder that Cheng Rao was no wonder.

This path was chosen by himself, and all the consequences should be borne by himself.

Before, he thought that he understood her love for Xiao Ye, but now, he suddenly felt that all his previous understanding was very shallow "self-righteousness".

How much does she love Xiao Ye?

He didn't dare to think about it.

Perhaps, this relationship has long gone beyond love and turned into faith.

A faith that will be defended to the death.

Before, he thought that Cheng Rao committed suicide for Xiao Ye, which was already very cruel;

Only now did he understand that she wanted to go with Xiao Ye, and it didn't seem to be so cruel.

The cruel thing is that she chose to live, but sacrificed for him at the cost of the rest of her life.

Wei Chi lay on the steering wheel for a long time and didn't move, he thought he wouldn't cry, but tears still dripped down the corners of his eyes.

He didn't like to cry, and he didn't cry much before.

He is a soldier and has always looked down on people who cry for affection, both men and women.

However, Cheng Rao made him the most hated by himself.

**

After Wei Chi left, Huang Ping sat on the sofa alone, looking at the cake on the coffee table, in a daze for a long time.

Thinking about Yu Chi's state just now, she was really distressed.

Although he has only been with Wei Chi for more than a year, as an elder, Huang Ping really likes him.

She doesn't know how many times she has sighed, if the person Cheng Rao likes is Wei Chi, then how happy she should be-

Huang Ping opened the cake and saw a card inside, the words on the card were in fair Song style, stroke by stroke, which should have been handwritten by Wei Chi himself.

[Happy Birthday to You] is a very simple and simple blessing, and his signature is at the checkout.

After Huang Ping saw this card, her nose was sour and she cried directly.

After hesitating for a long time, Huang Ping still picked up her mobile phone and sent Cheng Rao a >

She took a photo of the card and cake and sent it to Cheng Rao.

………

When Cheng Rao received the news, she was already ready to sleep.

She clicked on the picture sent by Huang Ping and saw the words on the card.

It's also magical, it seems that this is the first time she has seen Wei Chi write.

He writes quite like a schoolboy.

Huang Ping: Yu Chi brought you a birthday cake.

After Cheng Rao read the message, she put her phone aside and did not reply.

She believed that Huang Ping would understand what she meant.

**

Wei Chi stayed in the car for a while, then stepped on the accelerator and started the car.

He drove fast all the way, but his brain was not very clear, and the whole person was floating and confused.

His mind suddenly flashed the pictures of him using Xiao Ye to threaten Cheng Rao, when she was well-behaved, compromised, and aggrieved to cater to him.

He remembered what Cheng Rao said to him when he regained his memory-

"I just want to do it with Xiao Ye."

Thinking too much about things on the road, coupled with his own bad state, he ran the red light like this-

An SUV on the opposite side crashed straight into it, and he hit the steering wheel and brakes at the same time, but it was too late-

The windshield in front of him was shattered.

Before he passed out, he tasted his own blood.