Chapter 143: Essay "One Hundred and Forty-Five"

Rui, in fact, I wanted to accompany you well in the afternoon, even if I just sat quietly and looked at you like that, I didn't want to say what I wanted to ask for your forgiveness, because I knew that it had left a deep imprint in your heart, but I still couldn't help but say it, because I felt that this feeling couldn't be dispersed like this, after listening to you say so much, I also knew that it was my stubborn way and disrespect that caused too much damage to your heart, in fact, you said so much, I really figured it out thoroughly this week, Why do you say that you think you love me more, why do you say that I am not responsible, selfish, there will always be some problems, yes, I have been since I was a child because everything was arranged by my parents, clothes to reach out for food to open my mouth, it can be said that there is nothing to worry about, until I joined the work to go to Liulin, I lived independently for two years, cooking, laundry, I only understood what life is, only to understand that as a man, I must be mature, steady, responsible, responsible, obviously, although my heart is mature, but I did not pay attention to details, I always think in my heart, but I don't do it, or I just say it.

I didn't take responsibility, because I felt it myself, I always felt cautious, and there was no kind of man boldness, when I should stand up, I really realized it this time, but it was really too late to understand, you said all kinds of bad things in the afternoon, I admit, a lot of really you don't say it I always think I'm doing a good job, think about it, I really didn't fulfill the responsibility of a boyfriend, didn't give you the kind of security you wanted, but also said that I did it well enough, I really can't wait to find a crack to get into, it's normal for couples to quarrel together, but if you don't recognize the existence of the problem, it's really scary, so I really thought about it later, because I want to live well with you, I think about what our future life will be like, I must be more assertive, more responsible, and more capable, in order to give you a better state of life, so that you can have a sense of security, absolutely no longer just talking, I will really work hard, all say that marriage is realistic, firewood, rice, oil, salt, sauce, vinegar, teaWhy is tea in last place?

Because although the first six are realistic, tea still needs to be fresh and elegant in your life to adjust a certain spiritual life, so these days I am seriously thinking, you have a temper, you like to buy, but you don't lose your temper when you see me, and you don't want to buy everything you see, if you can't even tolerate and understand the right person you care about, then what else to talk about, I really regret understanding too late now, no regret medicine to take, but I really hope you can tolerate me for the last time, Let me go on with you, let me continue to listen to you pick up my shorts, continue to say that I am ugly, continue to say that I am unbearable, I will silently laugh as before, because this feeling makes me know that you still care about me, and you know to talk about me and remind me.

I'm bothering you again, but I really don't want us to break up like this. Please be forgiving one more time!