Xu had just drunk beer, and his stomach suddenly rolled, and he ran away uncomfortably holding his stomach.

Propped up on the sink and looked at himself in the mirror, his face was pale and thin like a skeleton.

This is the first time in a long time that I have taken a serious look at myself.

I wanted to slap myself a few times, but I still wanted to be with him, but I had to push him away.

Finally, he left, and I was pretentiously sad again.

It's just a shit.

Miss Linzi walked in, patted me on the back with a concerned face, our eyes met in the mirror, and the smile on her face seemed to explode, which was particularly bewitching.

I know she's showing it off.

"Mu Mu, I told you a long time ago that you and Yi are not suitable. If you had been wise at the time, you would have let it go directly, and you wouldn't have to regret it after hitting your head and bleeding. ”

Avoiding her hand, he pretended to be relaxed and said, "Thank you, Miss Linzi." I'm just a tendon, stupid and stubborn, but I don't regret it. Rice, just don't eat it! I wish you happiness and a smooth journey! Good bye! ”

Strode out of the bathroom, took the bag, settled the bill, and walked away directly.

Maybe I just like to do it, and now I can finally grow, because the person who tolerated me infinitely finally withdrew, and no one would indulge me, so I didn't dare to mess around anymore.

I went home quietly, knowing that I was in a bad mood, and I didn't take the initiative to talk to me, so I washed up and went to sleep.

I lay in bed, not sleepy.

Full of regret and regret.

N times I took out my mobile phone to call him, but I gave up N times.

What right do I have to ask him? The one who said I would not continue was me.

Suddenly, my phone lit up, and I sat up excitedly, thinking it was him.

It turned out to be the number that helped me unmask my aunt.

"Congratulations on your new life! I won't bother anymore. ”

I hurriedly dialed the number and waited for a long time, but no one answered.

I didn't give up and continued to call, but I heard a phone ringing outside, and when I went out, it didn't ring again, and my mobile phone just came with "Hello, the user you dialed is temporarily unanswered......"

Puzzled frown, he snorted again.

The voice rang at the same time as I was on the phone.

Panicked, is it ...... That person actually......

After searching for the sound, I finally found the phone in the corner where some cardboard boxes were stacked.

Stay where you are, motionless.

That person turned out to be Su Tian!

But what is she trying to do?

The more I thought about it, the more scared I became, when I had nothing, she took me in and comforted me, but why, did she secretly send those to me instead of saying it directly?

Back in the living room, staring straight at the phone on the coffee table, sitting up straight, waiting for her to come back, I needed a reasonable explanation.

It didn't take long for her to come back in a panic, and after seeing me, before the words came out, she saw her phone, knew that it was exposed, and did not rush to explain.

Unhurriedly, he changed his shoes and sat down next to me.

"Sure enough, you found out."

"Why?"

"I just want to do something for you and make yourself feel better."

"I have already let go of that incident, you didn't ......"

"But I can't let go, don't you know this feeling better than I do?"

She took out her cigarette and smoked it violently, with a skilful movement, like a veteran.

However, this was the first time I had ever seen her smoke.

"I didn't expect you to smoke."

"Because you don't like it, I haven't let you know. Mu Zi, in fact, there are many things that you have not known all along. ”

"Can that tell me, why is this happening? You can tell me, anything. ”

She smiled bitterly and flicked off the ashes of her cigarette, "Even if it's my deformed heart, I don't have the courage." I'm afraid you'll laugh at me, and I'm even more afraid you'll avoid me. ”

“……”

I didn't understand what she meant, and I always felt that there was a layer of ambiguity in my misunderstanding.

"Remember the little fat guy who often came to you and asked you to teach him how to draw? Later, didn't he transfer schools and leave for no reason? Actually, he left because of me. ”

"You can scold if you want! I've always been a wicked woman anyway. ”

"Su Tian, tell me, why?"

"Because I don't like you around other people."

“……”

I immediately understood.

She did so many things, never to snatch anything, but to worry.

But what did I do wrong to mislead her and cause her to become like this?

I can't remember what went wrong.

I met her when I was in the sixth grade of elementary school.

I grew up in a private school, but it was because our school stood across the street that I had the privilege of knowing her.

At that time, I rode my bicycle to and from school by myself, and once when I came home from school, I heard a few classmates drooling that the fried pho on Jinxiu Street was delicious, and I couldn't hold back for a while and went.

I thought it would be a very beautiful small shop, but it turned out that there was only a roadside stall at the entrance of the Aokien community.

And the exaggerated fried pho is one of them.

Looking at the "black smoke miasma", I wanted to shake my head and leave, but I couldn't hold it, so I bought a copy and ran away.

But I had just ridden for a short while, and suddenly someone grabbed my bike, and that nasty guy was Su Tilt.

At that time, her face was blue and purple, but she did not cry, and threatened me to take her away.

And just like that, we got to know each other.

Her family background is not very good, her mother is a gambler, her stepfather is an alcoholic, and her life is very fast.

And that day, her stepfather drank high again, and had a big fight with her mother, who was not lucky, but he threw all his anger on her, and she was beaten by her mother and stepfather so that she didn't even have the strength to cry.

I remember when she cursed them viciously, cursing them not to die well

Sure enough, her curse was fulfilled.

At the end of the second semester of sixth grade, I saw her several times, but I didn't see a wound on her face, and she smiled more.

thought it was her mother's stepfather who had changed his past and turned to the right.

When I asked, I found out that they were all gone.

Her stepfather was delirious from drinking and fell from a tall building, killing him instantly. And her mother, who had a lot of gambling debts before, left them and ran away.

Because her stepfather died on someone else's turf, the boss was innocently asked to pay her 30,000 yuan.

She was still young, and her gambling debts were written off, and she took the money herself and lived alone.

I was very stupid at the time, the first time I heard about such a thing, I was inevitably a little scared, so I ignored her for a long time, until we were in middle school, and the schools were very close to each other, and we met again.

That's when we became good friends and had a secret base.

It's just that I didn't think that such a pure friendship would be misunderstood, and even hurt her.

"Su Tian, I'm sorry! It's that I didn't ...... you."

"It's not your fault. Mu Zi, I have to confess one thing to you, that stray cat of yours was killed by me. I can't stand the fact that you value it more than I do. Ever since you had it, every word has not left it, and I'm jealous. ”

"But it's an innocent life, and in retrospect, wouldn't you be afraid?"

I didn't blame her, I just felt a little sorry and sorry for the cat. I wanted to save it, but I killed it.

"You always thought that I said bad things about you to Dong Chen that day, and framed you for going to a hotel with a man to open a room because I liked him, in fact, what I always wanted was for the two of us to be happy together."

Hand her the phone, probably I also knew, I don't want to stiffen the relationship and not be able to continue.

Having lost so much, what I fear most now is losing.

No matter what she's done in the past, I don't want to worry about it anymore, as long as I can maintain this relationship.

"Stop thinking about the past and get some rest." Get up and go back to the bedroom.

"Mu Zi, Dong Chen's mother, I pushed him downstairs."

Frozen in place, looking down at her in a daze.

"Su Tian, do you know what you're talking about?"

"I'm very sober, and since you know all those things, I'll just tell you everything. Dong Chen's mother, it wasn't his father who pushed him downstairs, it was me who pushed it. ”

"But at that time, it was clearly said that when you arrived at Dong's house, Aunt Dong had already fallen. You still want me to testify for you, are you lying? Am I committing perjury? ”

It was like having my heart bone drained and I was slumped on the couch, and the guilt hit me and pressed against my heart.

Uncle Dong was sentenced to 12 years for that incident, and later died in prison because of pneumonia.

This incident has always been a wound in my heart, and I feel that it is a bit excessive, depriving Dong Chen of his father's love.

I know that in his heart, he has never blamed Uncle Dong, even if his temperament changed greatly after he lost his job, he would always violently beat their mother and son, but he still loved his father, the hero in his heart.

But now she tells me that Uncle Dong did not make a mistake, and that I joined her to kill an innocent person.

"Why are you doing this? Why do you do this to me? ”

"When I went to Dong's house that day, they were really arguing, and his father did slap his mother. I rushed in and stopped him, but his mother was not convinced and started arguing again. I didn't want to push her, but she was too noisy, so I pushed her, and she tripped over the table leg and fell. ”

"I was scared and didn't know what to do. But he suddenly sobered up, looked at his hands, and shouted in fear, 'I killed someone', I didn't want to be locked up, so I lied. ”

"And he's not a good person, he beats people at every turn, I also helped Dong Chen, didn't I? Otherwise, how could he get the opportunity to study in Japan? ”

Her face was calm, without the slightest guilt, my heart trembled, why was she so cold?

"But he died, because he was in prison, and he died. Don't you feel guilty? Su Tilt, why did you become like this? ”

"Everybody's changing, isn't it? You're not the same as before, you're not as headstrong as you used to be, and you don't need me anymore. ”

She looked at me in disappointment, as if I owed her.

"Does Dong Chen know? If he knew, you ......"

"He knew it from the beginning. Why else do you think he would be looking for me? It's just revenge. ”

Dong Chen even knew.

From beginning to end, I was the only one who was kept in the dark, sold and stupidly helped count the money.

It turns out that the joke has always been just me.

"Go and turn yourself in! I ......"

A voice suddenly came from the doorway, interrupting me, "It's all over, so why bother?" I don't blame you! ”