Shiyin made it so high-profile just now, coupled with the voice before Rongguang, in fact, everyone here knows about Wei Chi buying condoms.

Jiang Mingcheng was really surprised, although Wei Chi had been in love before, but every time he brought it up, he had no desire, and all his energy before should have been on the task.

Before Wei Chi said that he liked Cheng Rao, Jiang Mingcheng was quite surprised.

Now he is buying condoms again, which is even more shocking.

Although he had seen Cheng Rao once before, Jiang Mingcheng was still very curious.

He already knew that Yuan Xiao and Cheng Rao knew each other, and after thinking for a few seconds, Jiang Mingcheng asked Yuan Xiao: "What kind of person is Cheng Rao?" ”

Yuan Xiao lowered her eyes, thought for a moment and replied: "There is flesh and blood." ”

After Jiang Mingcheng heard Yuan Xiao's description, he smiled lightly, raised his hand and rubbed her hair, his movements were gentle and doting: "It seems that you like her very much." ”

"Hmm." Yuan Xiao shrunk her neck back.

"Then make an appointment another day and have dinner together?" Jiang Mingcheng thought thoughtfully, "Let me see, what kind of person can subdue the boss." ”

Yuan Xiao: "......"

Jiang Mingcheng reminded him like this, and Yuan Xiao remembered that after returning to Los Angeles, he had not contacted Cheng Rao.

In fact, she still wants to be friends with Cheng Rao seriously, because she has lived a lonely life since she was a child.

Yue Li was also quite surprised when she heard that Yu Chi had someone she liked, especially the condom incident just now, which completely subverted her understanding of Yu Chi.

To say that they have been in contact for a long time, Wei Chi has always been the most serious one among the few people they have a good relationship with, and this seriousness is reflected in all aspects.

Unexpectedly, he still has such a side.

Women have gossip hearts, although Yue Li is not nosy most of the time, but today he couldn't help but ask Chen Jing beside him: "Who is the woman that the eldest brother likes?" ”

Chen Jing: "I don't know, I haven't seen it." ”

Yue Li: "Oh. ”

Then there is a cold field that lasts for a minute or two.

Couples who have no feelings are prone to this situation when they communicate.

After the cold scene, it was Chen Jing who spoke first: "Are you curious about the eldest brother?" ”

Yue Li: "Just a casual question." ”

Chen Jing smiled, "Well, pay attention to your identity." ”

Yue Li: "......"

**

Cheng Rao's illness has not fully recovered, and she took the birth control device again, her stomach hurt so much that she fell asleep after returning home, and she didn't wake up until nine o'clock in the evening.

After glancing at the time, she didn't plan to get up again.

There is nothing to consume, and there is no need to eat dinner.

Cheng Rao got up and went to the toilet, and there was a slight tingling sensation underneath.

Sheung Wan's decision was made after Xiao Ye's death, and she went to the hospital by herself without telling anyone.

She herself was well aware of the potential risks of Sheung Wan, but she went anyway.

Cheng Rao stood in front of the washbasin, took a palm of cold water, slapped it on her face a few times, and then looked at herself in the mirror.

She felt that in the more than a year since Xiao Ye left, she seemed to be possessed by something.

What is the use of wearing a contraceptive ring?

Looking at the person in the mirror who was as pale as paper, he was in a trance.

Even Huang Ping has walked out of the past, should she let it go?

Xiao Ye......

Cheng Rao's lips twitched, and she silently repeated his name.

If only he were still alive.

When Huang Ping came back, it was already eleven o'clock in the evening, and Qiao Ruzhang sent her back.

Her whole person was haggard, her face was yellow, her dark circles were large, and she completely lost her usual delicacy.

Qiao Ruzhang helped her into the living room, and after watching her change her shoes, she looked worried: "Otherwise, just find someone to manage the company for you, in the United States, my experts have made an appointment, and your body can't wait too long......"

"I'll settle this matter first." Huang Ping said, "Cheng Rao doesn't know anything now, and I don't want her to know about these things." ”

Qiao Ruzhang pondered for a moment, and then asked Huang Ping: "Don't you think that you have protected Cheng Rao a little?" ”

Huang Ping pursed her lips and didn't speak. Is it over? Probably yes.

Since Cheng Xun's death, she likes to take on all the things alone, and always feels that Cheng Rao is still young, and she tries not to let her know some bad things about the Cheng family.

"The child has grown up and should take responsibility for herself, you talk to her and she will understand." Qiao Ruzhang sighed, "Actually, Cheng Rao is a good boy, but her personality is a little flawed. ”

"It's all my fault." When it came to this, Huang Ping couldn't help but blame herself.

Qiao Ruzhang patted Huang Ping's back, "Don't take all the responsibility for everything on yourself, the child is too closed now, and when she starts a new relationship, it will be fine slowly." ”

Speaking of this, Qiao Ruzhang asked Huang Ping: "What do you think of Yu Chi?" ”

Huang Ping recalled for a moment, and then said: "It's good, it's a professional ......."

Speaking of this, the expression on Huang Ping's face was a little embarrassed, "I don't really want her to find a boyfriend who is engaged in such a dangerous profession." ”

Xiao Ye's previous incident had hit her hard enough.

"Well, I'll discuss this with his parents." Qiao Ruzhang said, "In fact, his parents and the old man are also trying to find a way to let him change jobs, and he is the only son left in the family......"

"Left?" Huang Ping keenly captured the word.

I always felt that something was wrong.

As soon as Huang Ping asked, Qiao Ruzhang remembered that he hadn't introduced the situation of the Wei family to Huang Ping.

After thinking of Wei Zhi, Qiao Ruzhang couldn't help but sigh.

It's a pity for this kid.

Qiao Ruzhang recalled, while saying: "The Wei family originally had two sons, Wei Chi is the eldest, and there is a younger brother below, who is three years younger than him. The two brothers have had a good relationship since childhood, and later the two went to the special forces together and were selected for the peacekeeping forces...... Young man, full of enthusiasm, but unfortunately there was an accident during the mission. ”

Huang Ping was terrified when she heard this. After listening to it, she sighed again: "Her previous boyfriend is almost like this." ”

"Don't worry about this, now that the Wei family has only one son, it is a matter of time before he changes jobs, and he can't afford this risk anymore."

When Qiao Ruzhang said this, Huang Ping also felt that it made sense, and nodded thoughtfully.

Later, I had an epiphany: it was a little too early to think about this.

At this stage, it is impossible for Cheng Rao to accept anyone.

………

Cheng Rao took anti-inflammatory drugs on an empty stomach, and her stomach hurt terribly before going to bed.

She covered her stomach, covered her head with the quilt, and fell asleep through the pain.

This night, I slept until ten o'clock the next morning.

When I opened my eyes, the harsh eyes from the outside shone in, and my eyes were a little uncomfortable.

Cheng Rao raised her hand to cover her eyes, and when she raised her hand, she aimed at the bracelet on her wrist.

Cheng Rao stared at the bracelet for a long time.

The air in the bedroom seemed to be still, staring at the bracelet, Cheng Rao's memory seemed to return to that day-

Xiao Ye's family background is not good, and he is barely well-off.

After the two of them were together, Xiao Ye often worried about the future of the two of them.

He always said that he wanted the best for her.

This bracelet was a gift he gave her for their anniversary.

Cheng Rao remembered that the sun was very strong that day, and she and Xiao Ye went back to school together after having lunch outside.

Walking on the tree-lined path of the school, Xiao Ye suddenly stopped and pressed her against the trunk of the tree.

He stood against the light, but Cheng Rao could still see the smile on his face and the desire in his eyes.

"...... in broad daylight" Cheng Rao was embarrassed by him.

Suddenly, Xiao Ye lowered his head and kissed her forehead.

Then, he took out a small black box from his pocket and handed it to her.

“…… What the? Cheng Rao took it suspiciously.

Xiao Ye leaned into her ear and kissed it, and said with a smile: "Open it and take a look." ”

When she opened the box, she saw the bracelet.

To this day, Cheng Rao remembers every detail of that day clearly.

She remembers how happy she was when she received the bracelet and how the two of them kissed on the school's boulevard.

That night, she wore this bracelet and went to a hotel near the school with Xiao Ye to open a room, and the two of them rolled all night.

She remembered Xiao Ye kissing her ear and promising her that he would marry her.

They had just finished a fight at that time, and she hugged him tremblingly, and kissed him......

Recalling the past, Cheng Rao's chest was suffocated and a little suffocated.

She came back to her senses, raised her hand and touched her eyes, touching the moist liquid.

She looked down at the liquid in her fingertips, and then up at the sun outside.

It turns out that the sun at the end of August is also so strong.

**

In three days, it will be her and Xiao Ye's anniversary again.

Thinking of this, Cheng Rao covered her head with the quilt again.

Perhaps, such days should come to an end.

Cheng Rao lay at home for two days, during which she basically lay in the room, and the meal was also brought to her by the nanny and aunt.

Huang Ping doesn't seem to have come home, and Cheng Rao has never seen her away from home for such a long time before.

The dinner on the day before the anniversary was also delivered by the nanny aunt. Eating tomatoes and egg noodles at night, the nanny aunt put the tray on the desk next to her and said to Cheng Rao: "Eat the noodles while they are hot, eat them to warm your stomach." ”

"Hmm." Cheng Rao answered, walked to the desk and sat down.

She pursed her lips and thought for a few seconds before asking, "Just me eating alone?" ”

The nanny reacted quickly, and immediately understood what she meant, and then showed a relieved smile - this was the first time she heard Cheng Rao ask about Huang Ping.

Although the question was a little tactful, it already reflected her concern for Huang Ping.

If Huang Ping knew about this, she would definitely be very happy!

"Your mother will be back soon, and I'll call her—" The nanny's voice was unconcealably excited.

“…… No, she loves to come back and not come back. Cheng Rao picked up the chopsticks and lowered her head to eat.

Although she said this, the smile on the face of the nanny aunt never disappeared.

"Go ahead." Cheng Rao saw her laughing, and she felt uncomfortable.

"Okay, okay, you call me after eating later, and I'll clean it up."

The nanny aunt knew that Cheng Rao was embarrassed, this child was actually not very good at expressing herself, and she could understand it.

After she left, Cheng Rao was eating noodles while staring at the opposite wall in a daze.

To be honest, when she asked that question just now, she felt abnormal.

In the past, Huang Ping occasionally didn't go home for a day, and she would feel happy and quiet. But now, the idea of worrying about her was born?

At this time, the sentence that Yu Chi said before flashed in his mind - he does not know the blessing in the blessing.

Was she really like that before? Cheng Rao pursed her lips.

She didn't know that Wei Chi's words could have such an effect.

Tomorrow is her and Xiao Ye's anniversary, and Cheng Rao plans to go to the temple. So, I went to bed not long after dinner.

**

The next morning, Cheng Rao got up early in the morning and went downstairs before seven o'clock.

After going downstairs, I ran into Huang Ping.

After not seeing her for a few days, Cheng Rao found that Huang Ping looked a lot haggard and looked like she was sick.

Seeing her haggard appearance, Cheng Rao unconsciously remembered Huang Ping's previous cough......

"Why did you wake up so early today?" Seeing Cheng Rao so early, Huang Ping couldn't help but be a little surprised.

Cheng Rao: "I have something to go out." ”

Huang Ping: "If you're not in good health, don't run around." ”

Cheng Rao: "......"

If Huang Ping counted her like this, she would definitely refute it. But today, looking at Huang Ping's haggard appearance, Cheng Rao moved her lips, but she couldn't say a word.

She bypassed Huang Ping directly and went to the restaurant.

I'm going to drive later, so I'll have to eat something to replenish it.

Cheng Rao ate three slices of bread, a boiled egg, drank a cup of yogurt, and after eating, she picked up the car keys and went out.

Before Huang Ping could ask her what she was going to do, she had already left.

Huang Ping was helpless, so she could only look at her back and shake her head.

The nanny aunt next to her saw this scene and said to Huang Ping: "Actually, Rao Rao still cares about you, you haven't come back for the past few days, and she asked about you last night." ”

Hearing what the nanny aunt said, Huang Ping was stunned for a moment, and then a trace of joy flashed in her eyes.

“…… How did she ask? When he spoke again, his voice trembled.

A strong woman in the workplace can only be so moved when facing her loved ones.

The nanny recounted what happened last night, "You also know that Rao Rao has been very closed to herself all these years, and she is not very good at expressing herself, but I can see that she is still very worried about you." In the end, it's a mother and daughter, you're good, she thinks about it. ”

Hearing this, Huang Ping's face softened a little.

Suddenly, I felt that what I did was worth it.

………

The journey to the temple took more than two hours, and Cheng Rao was attentive all the way.

She was able to drive when she was sixteen years old, and now she has been driving for more than eight years, but she still pays more attention when driving long distances.

Because it's a weekday, it's not a lot of cars to tell you to get on.

Cheng Rao looked in the rearview mirror, and there was only a black SUV behind her.

But she didn't think there was anything wrong, on the highway, there were cars following behind, it was too normal.

Cheng Rao continued to concentrate on driving. More than two hours later, the car was parked in the parking lot near the temple.

Every time Cheng Rao came over, she would park her car here.

After getting out of the car, she put the car keys back in her bag and hurried in the direction of the temple.

Because she was in a hurry, she didn't notice the man who was following her at all.

The man was still wearing a tracksuit and was standing two or three meters away from her.

When she turned to leave, the man followed and entered the temple with her.

After Cheng Rao entered the temple, she first went to find Wuhe to host.

I thought he would be very busy, but I didn't expect him to sit in the meditation room, and when he saw her coming, he didn't have any surprise or surprise.

Cheng Rao put her hands together and owed to him, "You're not busy today?" ”

He smiled and said, "You also came here today last year, I remember." ”

Cheng Rao was a little surprised, and after being surprised, she praised him again: "You have a good memory." ”

Without him, he stared at her for a while, and said with a smile: "It seems that you have been in good shape recently?" ”

Cheng Rao: "Huh? ”

"It's much better than the last time I came." ”

Is it much better? In fact, Cheng Rao herself has no such consciousness at all.

Probably this is the so-called "authority fan".

Without him to host but laughing silently, he knew that Cheng Rao must have something to say when he looked for him.

Sure enough, after the silence, Cheng Rao spoke: "Today was originally the anniversary of my third anniversary with him. ”

Back then, they also made an agreement that they would go out on a trip together on the third anniversary, to Hainan, or somewhere else, in short, there must be a sea.

Then stay in a hotel by the sea and watch the sunrise together.

In retrospect, it seems like these agreements were a long time ago......

"Go to the pillar incense?" There is no other presiding over the proposal.

Cheng Rao said "um", nodded, and followed him out of the meditation room.

As soon as she opened the door, Cheng Rao saw a black shadow flash quickly.

It was fast, so fast that she thought she was hallucinating.

When I tried to look at it again, the calm in the temple had already returned.

Cheng Rao raised her hand and rubbed her brows, feeling that she was probably really hallucinating.

It may be that the fever of the other day has not subsided.

Cheng Rao came to Xiao Ye's tablet with him. She knelt down and took three sticks of incense.

When she kowtowed, she had already made a decision in her heart.

…… I'm sorry, Xiao Ye.

The past was too painful, and from today, she wants to learn to let go.

After putting on the incense, Cheng Rao stood up.

He asked her, "Have you found the motivation to start a new life?" ”

Cheng Rao shook her head, "No." ”

She has no motivation anywhere, she just has ideas.

She has lived too smoothly since she was a child, she has never lacked material aspects, and she has no desire for emotional aspects.

So along the way, what you want is basically at your fingertips, and there is no motivation at all.

"Take your time, you're still young." He said with a smile, "If you can let go of your obsession, you're already in the sea of bitterness." ”

"......" Cheng Rao did not speak.

Actually, it's sad in the end.

He glanced at Xiao Ye's tablet and said to Cheng Rao: "He will also be happy for you." ”

Cheng Rao licked her dry lips, "Can I see him again in the next life?" ”

She never believed in the afterlife, and she was disdainful when she heard others talk about it.

But now, I began to hope that there really would be an afterlife.

"In the next life, the next life says, live this life first." He said to her, "Be young, live happily, don't trap yourself in a cage." ”

yes, don't trap yourself in a cage.

In fact, Huang Ping told her something similar, and Jiang Feng also told her.

Especially Jiang Feng, almost every time they met, she would say bitterly, but she had never heard of it.

Thinking of this, Cheng Rao took a deep breath.

She looked up and looked at the host, "You're right. ”

She got sick, went on birth control, and later did a series of self-torture things, all because she didn't let go of her obsessions.

"He probably wouldn't want to see me like this." Cheng Rao looked down at the bracelet on her wrist thoughtfully.

"There must be many people in this world who love you, and the most fearful thing is that you choose to turn a blind eye." He said, "Tear down the walls of memories and self-enclosure, open your eyes and take a good look at the world, the people who love you are outside the city." ”

- The people who love you are outside the city.

When she heard this, Cheng Rao's heart tightened a little.

Suddenly, there was a feeling of enlightenment.

She came back to her senses, nodded, and then said to the host, "Okay, I see." ”

"It's good to understand." The host nodded without him, very pleased.

………

On the steps outside, a man in a black tracksuit stood against the door, his head bowed, backlit, his features shrouded in shadows.

Listening to the conversation between the old and the young, the hand on his side subconsciously tightened, and finally clenched into a fist.

The green tendons on the back of the hand are bulging, winding and hideous, like an angry dragon.

**

Cheng Rao stood here and chatted with Wuhe for a long time, he is an open-minded and transparent person, and he also experienced unforgettable feelings when he was young, so Cheng Rao can listen to what he says.

There is experience first, and then there is empathy.

His wife died of cancer at the age of 30, and after that, he escaped into the empty door, away from the red dust strife.

Cheng Rao admires him, because she knows how uncomfortable it is to be tortured by desire.

Those who can overcome their desires are worthy of respect.

After chatting with the host Wuhe, Cheng Rao had a meal in the temple.

During the meal, the host said to her, "From tomorrow onwards, you can stop eating vegetarian." ”

Hearing this, Cheng Rao's hand holding the chopsticks trembled.

Oh, yes...... She is a vegetarian for Xiao Ye.

Since it is said that you want to let go of the past, you should first learn to break this habit.

Cheng Rao nodded, "Okay, understood." ”

**

After having lunch at the temple, Cheng Rao said goodbye to Wuhe and walked in the direction of the parking lot.

Walking to the front of the car, Cheng Rao stopped and looked down at the bracelet on her wrist again.

Since it was said to forget, then it ...... There shouldn't be any need to wear it.

Cheng Rao closed her eyes and untied the bracelet with one hand.

She was so familiar with the bracelet that she knew how to untie it, even if she didn't look at it.

The moment the bracelet was released, she felt as if the shackles on her body had been untied at the same time.

Cheng Rao opened her eyes and looked at the bracelet lying in her hand, her eyes were a little astringent.

"Goodbye," Cheng Rao pinched the bracelet, her pale lips twitching, "Xiao Ye." ”

With that, she put the chain away and put it back in the compartment of her satchel.

In the corner not far away, the man clearly saw her series of movements and heard her whispering.

The moment he saw her take off the bracelet, he raised his fist and slammed it against the opposite wall.

The next second, the back of his hand was covered in blood.