To my unconfessed lover:

Haozi, I'm gone, and I won't be coming back this time.

Once again, I wish you a happy new marriage and an early birth of a precious son!

Didn't you ask me what kind of existence you really are in my heart?

I answer you now that you are indispensable to me.

But it's a pity that I still missed you after all, and I missed a beautiful love.

Until last month, when I heard the news of your marriage, I still fantasized that one day you would pierce this layer of window paper, and then we would come together.

But I didn't wait for such a day.

You married someone else.

I still remember that day after work, just after walking out of the company, I saw you standing on the side of the road, patiently waiting for me. The moment I raised my eyes to see you, I suddenly felt that I was so close to happiness.

However, it was only a second of time before I realized that I was so stupid.

Your sentence "Next month, I will get married, and my sister will come to cheer for my little brother" and pushed me from midsummer to cold winter.

I always thought that even if I didn't say it, you could understand, like my parents, you can understand each other with one look.

I also thought that even if it took a lifetime, you would spend it with me.

But I forgot, I'm not my little aunt, and you're not my little uncle, we don't have the same affection between us as they do, and it's impossible to cross that long and still have the same deep affection.

I don't blame you, it's not your fault, and I don't regret not showing my heart to you, but I feel a little sorry when I think that for the rest of my life, it will not be each other who will accompany me.

But I'm really happy for you, Cheng Su is a rare good woman, quiet, gentle, and always looks like an elegant gardenia, which I will never learn.

In fact, when we went on an outing together in the first year of high school, lying in the wind and talking about wishes, I knew that the woman you liked was like Cheng Su.

I also tried to work hard in the direction of everyone's girlfriends, try to keep my voice down when I speak, don't show my teeth when I laugh, learn tea art, learn ballet...... I've tried everything I could.

As it turns out, I really wasn't your beloved.

worked hard for a long time, but was quickly led astray by my parents' sentence "Just follow your heart, don't suppress yourself".

So, I reappeared in my original form and gave up changing for you.

Later, I told my aunt about the contradiction in my heart, whether I love someone in the end, whether I should change for him and become what he likes.

She told me, "If a person doesn't love you, even if you become perfect itself, you can't get into his eyes."

So, on the night of your eighteenth birthday, I was deliberately late, deliberately staying late, just to ask you if you would like to break the habit of eating raw eggs for me.

You jokingly rejected me, and then you were gone.

You don't know that the smile on my face at that moment is stretched, as long as you care about me a little bit and pinch my face jokingly, you will see my hurt tears.

And you, nevertheless.

Don't blame me for not wanting to change for you, but I know that you won't love me, no matter what I become, I restrain myself from moving my heart and stubbornly stand still.

I think I hate you, I hate that you don't want to take the initiative to approach me, I hate that you didn't chase me.

We've been friends for so many years, have you ever thought about me for a second?

Probably not! I don't think you have.

Even if there were, forget it, forget that it was me.

But I'm alone, how can I forget?

Tease you, I'm sure I can meet someone who is willing to understand me.

Remember to open the box and take the contents back.

Is it open?

That's the necklace you gave me, the moon that embraced the stars, and now returns it to you.

I asked for it at the beginning, and you were so reluctant, but now I willingly return it to you, and then give it to the person you really want to protect.

To tell you a secret about this necklace, it was designed by my mother, and she made three of them, one of which was specially left for me.

She told me that she wished someday a reliable boy would wear this necklace around my neck.

Therefore, after the other two were ordered, the third one has been placed in the "Dream Star City", waiting for its owner.

That Christmas, I wanted you to go shopping there with me, on purpose, on purpose to lure you there.

I think that any man with a long snack knows what she wants when he sees a girl staring at the necklace in the window.

But I'm still hurt by your sluggishness.

Are you really that sluggish? Or, is it just because the object is me?

Finally I pestered you and gave me the necklace, but I remember the frowning brow you kept on, like an undulating mountain bag.

I'm thinking, you're angry because you want you to wear the gift I bought with your own money, which hurts your face? Or because I told you about its design philosophy and scared you.

I'm never going to get an answer in my life.

You know what? When I went back that night, my mom saw the necklace and got angry. After knowing that I had bought it myself, I was even more furious and almost beat me.

Just because I was stupid for you, she was going to hit me for the first time.

At her request, I never wore the necklace again except for those few hours.

But you didn't notice it.

Haozi, why do I feel that in front of you, I have become so low? As Zhang Ailing said, I have fallen to the dust for you.

Even so, you still haven't looked at me with the eyes of a man looking at a woman.

After graduating from the doctorate, I avoided you as much as possible, went to the company to help, and numbed my nerves with busyness, so that I tried not to think about you.

But you always have to appear, and you have nothing to do, so you have to come to me, and I am like a stranded fish, and finally I am back in the water, and I am swept ashore by the waves all at once, and I repeat it.

What did you think at that time? Did you come to me because you wanted to see me? Then why don't you say anything? Just walk silently for a while, and then go back to school as if nothing happened?

When you think about that, you're pretty me. Don't you know that a girl's heart can't withstand such a toss from the man she likes?

What's even more annoying is that even if you get married, you still want me to help you choose furniture, and even the bed has to be accompanied by me to choose it.

When we were lying in bed, I wanted you not to marry Cheng Su and then stay with me.

But I turned my head and saw your smiling dimples, and said happily, "You think it's good, she should like it too!" ”

Listen, isn't it ruthless? This is your heart for me.

After choosing, I left in a panic, you feel inexplicable, you think I am playing the temper of the eldest lady.

Dear Haozi, why did you never know that I left you because I was jealous and sad?

Probably you don't care.

In your heart, am I really a gangster sister? can cover you, can tease you, but you always abide by your duty, stand in your position in a proper manner, and stand still.

I hate what you call me the most, and I'd rather you give me a nickname, call me by my name, or even skip it and don't call me directly, it's happier than hearing the word "Sister Xin".

At first, I didn't care what you called me, and I didn't think it had anything to do with feelings. It's like my parents, who have called each other by their names for a lifetime, and they haven't seen them break up.

But I don't know when it started, but I care. Probably since Cheng Su joined us.

You call her "Sushy", but you call me "Sister Xin", this gap is so dazzling that I can't afford not to care.

Have you forgotten that I am three years younger than you? Why the hell do you keep calling me that? Is it the phrase "I will cover you in the future" when I was a child? Or is it because I skipped a grade and is a few classes higher than you?

Haozi, help me apologize to Cheng Su, I've always been jealous of her. I obviously don't lack love, my parents love me so much, my aunt and uncle also love me, my grandparents spoil me, even my uncle's family loves me, but here you make me feel a lack of love, compare with others, and be jealous of others.

She is so magnanimous, I hope she will not be angry with me, and tell her that the person you love has never been her, and we are as innocent as lime.

Haozi, do you miss me? Do you suddenly want to see me? Will you look for me all over the world?

Sorry, I'm delusional again.

I shouldn't have said such things and ruined your relationship as husband and wife.

Forget it.

Not long ago, I received a postcard from my parents from different times of the Sahara.

My dad accompanied my mom across the Sahara again, and I don't remember how many times it was, no matter how many times, but the important thing is that my mom and dad are still in love, in love.

Once, I also fantasized that one day when we were together, we might be noisy, maybe cold, but in the end, we could still be reconciled.

The years have taught me that I was wrong, that you are not my Jose.

When I go this time, I will also go to the Sahara, on my own, alone, to travel the scenery that I once wanted to see with you.

I will send you a postcard, but will not leave a message, I decided to forget about you and start by not talking.

Farewell, Haozi, this time, I really won't wait any longer, and I can't wait.

Missed love will not stay at the original point.

Finally, sing "It's been quiet" again, for you, and for myself.

Empty street scene

I want to find someone to let go of my feelings

……

The love given to you has been quiet

In exchange for the care you give occasionally

……

Wishing you happiness! - Huo Suixin

Cheng Su held the letter that he accidentally opened, and suddenly felt a little at a loss.

She knew that Huo Suixin liked Fan Zhehao, but she didn't expect her to love so humbly.

Huo Suixin is obviously so proud, so unattainable, he actually loves a Fan Zhehao, and loves so low.

took the letter back, not planning to let Fan Zhehao know about it.

Even if she is married, she is not confident enough and is afraid that her love will be destroyed.

The two of them have been together for so many years, although they are not lovers, their relationship is not necessarily shallower than her and Fan Zhehao, or even incomparable.

It may be that he peeked at his letter, panicked, and did not hold it steady for a while, and the letter floated out of the window, carried by the wind, rolling, and gradually moving away from her sight.

And Fan Zhehao suddenly hugged her from behind, rubbed her face, closed his eyes obsessively, and for a long time, muttered, "Xinxin, you are so fragrant." ”