Frightened by his words, I broke away from him and sat up sharply, staring at him with wide eyes.

He chuckled helplessly, lay flat, took my hand, and stroked it carefully.

"He's the most shameless bastard, obviously he's too fragile, but he has the ability to be between us for so long, so I almost lost you forever."

frowned, I really don't understand what he said, is he the Shiragaki I know?

Why is he just a simple warm boy in my heart, and he is so hateful in his eyes?

Is he jealous?

Rubbing the scar on the back of my right hand back and forth, he looked up at me, "Don't you believe me?" ”

Shaking his head, he replied softly, "I don't know" and lay down again, looking sideways at him.

"Actually, I didn't say anything to him that day, I just told him that the person you love in your heart has always been me, and he is just a toy to pass the time.

Am I excessive? Just let him know the facts. ”

I didn't refute him, it's true, I may have really liked Kagaki, like a dish, like a toy, but that's all.

At that time, he clenched his fists unwillingly, but he did not come at me, because he did not dare.

I happened to have a dinner party, so I warned him not to bother you anymore and left. When I turned around, he struck me from behind. We had a big fight, and after both sides were defeated, he yelled, 'I will definitely take Anan out of your Shen family's cage,' and left.

I haven't seen him since then, and as for what he said in front of you, why he climbed to the top of the Shen family's newly completed building, slandered your reputation, and slandered me and the Shen family, I don't know. ”

"If it really has nothing to do with you, why would you be a thief and give money to his family? And help his father see a doctor? It's not like yours. ”

Lu Yuan committed suicide on Saturday after he met Shen Yu'an. It was an exceptionally bright summer afternoon.

I still remember that day I had prepared the divorce agreement and was about to go to the Zangjiao Gold House in the center of Shen Yu'an to find him to sign it.

As soon as I went out, I received a call from Lugaki.

He didn't speak, he just kept laughing, like the evening breeze, soft and cool.

After a long time, he said, "Anan, you really liked me, right?" ”

I didn't think much about it, and I didn't think that he was standing on the roof of a building of more than thirty floors at that time, and he didn't lie to him, so he silently refused to answer.

Then he misunderstood, thinking that I had acquiesced, and excitedly said to me, "Wait for me!" I will be able to take you out of that abominable cage and return you to the sky of freedom. ”

I couldn't hear it so much that I didn't know what he was doing.

He went on to say: "Anan, I will ride the auspicious clouds to the heaven that others cannot reach, and then stay in the misty clouds, looking forward to your return. Anan," and then his cry, crying extremely bitterly.

He said that he was in trouble, hiding in the real estate "on the other side of the clouds", asked me to call the police to help him, and said that he needed a press corps.

I believed him, called the police, and asked my brother to help me find a reporter.

I ran there in a hurry, and when I got there, I saw him standing on the side, shaky. The bottom was full of reporters and spectators, and there were many people on the roof, and Shen Yu'an was also there.

When I rushed up to persuade him to come back, what I saw was the shadow of him falling, and the hand that Shen Yu'an didn't have time to withdraw.

In my eyes, it was Shen Yu'an who pushed him down with his own hands, and it was he who killed Luyuan.

"So, he took advantage of me. I was sold by him, and he stupidly counted the money for him. Why haven't you told me all the time? I thought it was really you. ”

Thinking of that meeting, I tried my best to fight with Shen Yu, making the Shen family uneasy, and even sued him in court for Luyuan.

Because of this, Luyuan's parents kept making trouble, causing the Shen family to be on the verge of bankruptcy.

"Don't you believe me? I wanted to wait for you to calm down before explaining to you, but unfortunately you didn't give me that chance, and when I finally came home exhausted, you were already gone. Sissy, we missed it for many years. Don't let down the rest of the time, and do the rest of the way, okay? ”

"After so many years, am I stupid and miss out on happiness? You didn't blame me? Even if I don't have anything to do with him, I really give you a green hat. At that time, I really wanted to have a relationship with him, and then something happened. ”

He moved to my side, took me into his arms, and whispered in my ear, "I know, you're just deliberately angry with me." If you really want to do anything with him, it's a bit of an opportunity, a lonely man and a widow in the same room, but if you are a little lax, you can't get out of it. ”

"Didn't you ask me why I helped his parents? It's just a coincidence, his hometown, is one of the projects I supported to build. It's not because of guilt. ”

He replied with a faint "um" and closed his eyes and slowly fell asleep. Consciousness was sometimes clear, sometimes chaotic, and I didn't know how long I slept before I woke up again.

He fell asleep, leaning on my neck and sleeping soundly.

Raised his hand and touched his eyebrows, touched the obvious wrinkles at the corners of his eyes, and couldn't help but want to cry.

I've always blamed him for being immature and proving that he cares about me in a cold way.

Why shouldn't I? used "cheating" to retaliate for his indifference, but he didn't want to, but he hurt each other for so many years.

If we can all be mature and rational, and pull down our faces a little to say a soft word, will we be much happier?

Lugaki, I met at the class reunion, when he came to pick up his girlfriend home, we met for the first time, I got drunk, pulled him, said a lot of nonsense, and made a lot of trouble.

A few days later, we met again, and it was he who came to me and asked me to help him explain it to his girlfriend, otherwise his girlfriend would break up.

At that time, I was angry, and without saying a word, I dragged him to the hotel and opened a room.

I took the initiative to rip off his clothes, and just when I thought I was going to be confused to the point of betrayal, the last shred of reason woke me up.

After all, I didn't do anything to him.

And he did get broken up.

I checked his information and knew that he worked as a sales manager in a real estate company, with a very low salary, and he had to look at people's faces every day to get by.

So I was playful for a while, and I planned to buy him, keep him by my side, and accompany me.

At first he resisted, but for some reason, he insisted on his so-called principles for a week, and then obediently became my plaything.

Just like Shen Yu'an hugged left and right, I held Luyuan's arm, like a shameless swinger. The woman asked him to accompany me to the mall, to the nightclub, to the hotel, or even to go home.

At that time, Shen Yu'an and I had not moved to the wooden house, it was in a duplex two-bedroom apartment, and he rarely went back, and it became a cage for me to raise little white faces.

Shikagaki is very dedicated, he plays my plaything, and he never makes me angry. Until...... On my birthday, a man drank and drunk himself, and he tried to belittle me.

Because he was drunk and confused, he took him for Shen Yu'an and didn't resist. We were on the sofa in the living room, staging a spicy-eyed shot.

Fortunately, everything came to an abrupt end with the sound of the door opening.

Shen Yu'an came back, alone, neatly dressed, and brought me a gift.

He was furious and drove Shikagaki away, and then, as I wished, tore me apart, and we finally became one and slept together.

No man can stand his woman bringing her "lover" home, and Shen Yu'an is the same.

Since that night, he has been angry and weaving my nightmares.

We tortured each other and didn't communicate with each other.

This chasm lies in the middle, I have been hiding for many years, and he has been chasing for many years, until today.

It may have been that I woke him up, slowly opened his eyes, and smiled at me, "Why did you wake up?" Can't sleep? ”

Sit up, looking like you want to talk to me.

"I just think the two of us are very sad, others fall in love and get married, because they want to be happy and not be lonely. We both went for pain. ”

"Alright, maybe that's the right fit for us. You ran around the earth, and I followed suit. Finally, I go home, and you go back to my arms. It just happens to be a perfect circle. ”

Smiled bitterly, "You're really optimistic!" ”

"It's a fact, at least one thing I'm glad to have come out of that cage, followed her heart, and realized her dream. If we had been doing well, there would be no Nancy today, and there would be no Shen Yu'an who knows how to cherish it. ”

He let me lean into his arms, and the two of us talked for the first time.

The dim lights are quiet, and there is a kind of romance of candlelight and night talk.

"You're really scumbag."

"Well, it's scum."

"I'm not very good, almost worse than you."

"If I hadn't come home in time that day, would you have followed him?"

Lazy blinked, but I didn't know it myself.

Was I really drunk that day? Or is it fake?

Is it really impossible to tell the two of them? Or is it deliberate? Or is it a trick of fate?

I don't remember.

"Do you like children? That will see that you are very good to your heart, and the whole person is as soft as a marshmallow. ”

"Do you like it?"

"I don't like it, and I don't hate it."

"Me too. I'm good to her just because she's your niece, and I want you. ”

There was silence for a long time, and no one spoke.

Strangely, I didn't really feel tired, so I wanted to stay like this a little longer, in his arms, talking about the past, the stupid things that had happened.

"Sissy, stay with me, okay? You see, the whole world has been run all over by you, and there is nothing unusual about it, just stay by my side as the most ordinary person, and pass this life ordinarily, okay? ”

"You like to beg people, huh? Didn't we get married just a few days ago? Do you want to get married and get divorced and play again? I don't want to mess around with you. If you want to have that kind of work, you should sign up for a cooking class early and improve your cooking skills. ”

He suddenly turned over and pressed me, his lips attached to the corners of my lips, and he smiled lightly: "Well, everything is arranged by my wife." Wife, I want to eat, you. ”

Before I could react, he began to make trouble, igniting my long-lost desires.

When the charm faded, he put his ear to my ear and called me over and over again.

Soft-hearted, he glanced at him lazily, smiled and fell asleep.

No matter what happened, as long as I still love you after many years, and you happen to be still there, it's enough.

Like a dream, I heard a whisper, "Sissy, thank you for not driving me out of your heart." ”