Chapter 158: The heart is like ashes
On the fourth day, I was waiting for him to come back.
He had already gotten up since the dawn of the day, and watched as the yellow clouds on the horizon swallowed up the inky black little by little, until the light spilled through the gaps between the mist and sprinkled on the ground.
I was a little anxious, and I had a headache when I went to bed last night, and I always felt that it was not a good omen.
rummaging through the box, I found a light cyan shirt, embroidered with a few white plum blossoms from the front chest to the waist and abdomen, flowing in different colors in the warm light.
It's the hot season, and light green is the best choice. And I remember that Beiyu Jinchen also likes plain colors, and today is another special day, I really should freshen up.
Washed with water, slightly applied rouge, the face in front of the bronze mirror was beautiful and soft, those eyes were different from the anger and indifference when I was in the palace, and my hatred was dissolved little by little.
White hosta flowers, thin green for leaves. Because he thought its tassel was cumbersome, he simply dragged it down and pinned a single hairpin flower in his hair. The black hair is lightly pulled, and one or two strands of broken hair are placed on the side of the eyebrows, adding two points of agility.
I looked carefully at the person in the mirror, and then compared it to Chongzi's appearance, in fact, it should be the appearance of my biological mother.
Oddly enough, there aren't many places where I resemble her. I heard that she is a foreign race, so it is more delicate and dazzling, if the word "eyebrows and eyes are picturesque" to describe a good-looking woman, then she is a ingenious Suzhou embroidery painting.
I have heard from the second elder that my appearance is more like that of my father, and he is cold and arrogant, which is just the opposite of her bright and moving.
More than once in my heart, in my dreams, I depicted the appearance of my father, but after all, it was only a vague shadow.
After tidying up, I went to the yard to fetch water from the well to water the flowers, always having to find something to do for myself, and the closer I waited for the result, the longer it became.
Flowing water shuttles from the flowers and leaves and burrows into the dirt.
Even though I wanted to take good care of them, I still look sick today.
There is a little maid standing next to me, named Ruolan, she doesn't talk much, she is young, but her mind is very mature, so she was chosen to come to Nanxiang Courtyard to help take care of it.
"Is King Ling Ran still like that?" I asked casually, scooping up a scoop of water to rinse the mud stains off my hands.
Ruolan replied: "Since that day, I have been crazy, and I can't speak clearly, but fortunately, he didn't mention the matter of you, master." I heard that although the Seventh Princess was hit hard by his changes, she still didn't give up, saying that she must cure him. β
"He's lucky." After squatting for a long time, he stood up suddenly, feeling dizzy inexplicably. "Both women love him deeply, think about him, and don't know what virtues they have accumulated in their previous lives."
While they were chatting, the courtyard door was slammed open.
My first reaction was to take a few steps back and make a defensive stance.
"Pavilion Masterβ" I didn't know what the man looked like before he had already fallen, and the man was crawling on the ground, a long trail of blood dragged from under him.
Then he noticed that the token on his waist was the sign of the Night Pavilion.
I quickly called for help, and before I could get to me, he grabbed me by the ankle.
"Pavilion Master....... Dark Night Pavilion ...... Nope. β
His hands were covered in blood, and his fingers were clearly visible on the snow-white cloud socks.
Gone? I felt dizzy in my head for a moment, like I had just been squatting for a long time and not being able to stand up.
"What the hell is going on, tell me quickly!" I shouted like a madman, hoping that he would say something, or that I had heard him wrong.
But before the doctor could come, he rolled his eyes and froze on the ground.
I didn't have time to think about it, so I immediately prepared my horse and drove towards the place of the Night Pavilion.
The sound of the wind along the way poured into the ears, like many sharp knives, piercing from the outside to the heart.
I thought, faster, faster. I don't know what I can do on my own, but I want to go back.
This section of the road is the longest I have ever experienced, and every step is a torment.
When he approached the Dark Night Pavilion, his heart had already raised his throat. The door was surprisingly unguarded, and it was deadly silent, except for the small stream not far away.
I wish that when I went in, the second elder would give me a hug and say with a smile: "I made this decision in order to trick you into coming back." β
But when I stepped in, my eyes were filled with mess and bright red.
I didn't know what I stepped on on the soles of my feet, and I almost tripped over, but when I looked closely, it was an arm! The whole severed arm!
Subconsciously frightened, he took a step back, and the orchid embroidered clothes on that arm were Lan Zhi's......
I couldn't believe my eyes, but the silver chain on my wrist was a birthday gift I had bought for her.
"No...... This can't be ......" muttered and staggered in: "Xin Li! Angelica Angelica! Su Yanqing! Where are you...... Where are you? β
No one responded, and mutilated or intact bodies lay on the ground. They were all dressed in the clothes of the Night Pavilion, and they were all part of the Night Pavilion before!
Despair, Chongzi's heart that was finally adjusted after his death, this powerless despair struck again, even stronger than the last time.
The main hall was empty, and the blood stains on the dark seats had dried up. The second elder leaned against the steps below, with a sharp arrow in his chest, he closed his eyes and fell asleep, and the vicissitudes of dying old age were replaced by death.
The last taut string in my heart broke, and my throat was replaced by a suppressed choke.
The burn, both inside and outward, was scorched by a flame of despair.
I still remember the last words that the second elder said to me: "You are really like your mother, she wants to restore the country for him, and you want to give up the restoration of the country for him." O iniquity! β
Do evil? Was this really my doing?
"Emperor Dexin? It's time to wake up to your dream of restoration. "The familiar timbre, I never dreamed that Su Rong would call me Dexin Emperor Ji one day.
I stiffened my back, she was dressed in a simple, neat quiver-sleeved blouse, with different shades of blood on her dark red garment. She has been pretending from the beginning, and she is not a young lady who has been raised in the depths of the boudoir and knows nothing.
Behind Su Rong, there were many teams, and those people were dressed in outfits that I had never seen before.
Yu Guang saw the sign on their waists - the Dead of the Cold Sun.
Su Rong's extremely bright and sarcastic smile was reflected in her pupils, like showing off, like a sharp knife piercing the heart, there was no blood, because the blood had long been frozen and congealed.
I finally understood why Xiao Ling said to be careful of the person next to the pillow, from the beginning, this was a game, waiting for me to jump in.
"What about him?" My voice was much calmer than I wanted to be, and I knew I was restrained, holding back, even though I was on the verge of collapse.
Su Rong didn't answer, and the Hanyang dead soldiers behind him left a way on their own, and he walked out of the besieging army.
Different from the light blue shirt and warm smile of the jade boy when he first saw him, different from the gentle companionship of these days, he is wearing a short robe with sleeves, the close-fitting soft armor flashes with cold silver light, and the slender fingers are no longer used to hold the flute, but to hold the sword to guide the troops.
I tried my best to heal his eyes, but he didn't have me in his eyes anymore, or I didn't have me from the beginning. With such a cold gaze, without a trace of emotion, it seems that the person standing in front of him is not Liu Sujin, who gets along day and night, but Emperor Dexin, who has never known each other.
Perhaps, his blindness is also deceiving me, pretending to be blind, watching me panic like a clown, and seeing me believe those sweet words like a fool.
Liu Sujin, Liu Sujin, one wrong step, one wrong step, you finally pushed yourself to the point of no return......
The corners of the lips involuntarily rose, the more the smile gathered, the more it turned into a sad laugh, all the things that should cry became laughter, the more laughing, the more painful the heart, like a bottomless pit, slowly spreading.
A mouthful of white air exhaled in the mouth, diffused and disappeared, and was condensed into droplets by the cold air and landed on the cheeks.
"It turns out that your heart is really made of stone."
"You taught me one thing, and that is deception." I looked at him, I couldn't look into his eyes, I couldn't see his thoughts.
"I have lost countless people, but I have not failed you. I entrust my sincerity to deception, I feel so painful, all over my body, everywhere hurts......"
His thoughts gradually became disordered, and the killing intent rose from the bottom of his heart, and the red totem spread all the way from the back of his hand, crawling all over his face.
Let me, my people of Liangxi, atone for my sins with my life......