Chapter 200: Exhausting My Youth to Love You
"Sissy, don't go, don't leave me. Don't go, um......"
If it weren't for the fact that he had helped me take care of my heart, I wouldn't have sent this drunkard home and covered him with a quilt.
The moment I pulled up the quilt, I felt the urge to cover him.
Shen Yu'an is completely worthy of my treatment.
However, he still didn't make up his mind.
I can't be as ruthless as he is.
"You're lucky, next time, I'll kill you."
I turned to leave, but he grabbed my hand tightly.
"Let it go!"
But he turned a deaf ear, like a naΓ―ve child, hugged my arm contentedly, and smacked his lips happily.
Pulled out his hand and slapped it down, I hated him and hated him for always being like this, unconsciously teasing me, and looking like a joke.
He's always been like that, since I knew him.
He was awakened by the sudden pain, sat up in a daze, and looked at me in a trance.
"Sissy, you're finally willing to come here, Sissy, I'm ......" reached out to pull me, but I avoided it.
"Shen Yu'an, you're enough. The same routine has been used for so many years, and it has been used on other women, and it has been used on me, and it is disgusting. β
Ignoring him, he walked straight out of the room and out of his house.
But he chased him out, because he was drunk, his steps were messy, but he seemed more anxious and worried.
The tears I had been holding back finally broke the embankment.
This was the first time I ran out of this all-wooden house, and I don't remember it, but I felt that at this moment, all the past had popped up and was laid bare in front of me.
Especially, the hatred of him.
I accidentally stepped on a rock, stepped on the heel of my shoe, broke my foot, and it hurt so much that I didn't want to run anymore.
Squatting on the ground, stroking his ankles, I really want to cry like Mu Zi, cry all the stupidity of the past, and drive away all the sadness.
But he had already run over and took my hand away and examined my feet.
"It's all swollen, I'll carry you to the hospital." As he spoke, he squatted down in front of me, and didn't forget to turn his head and urge me, "Come up, otherwise tomorrow it will be very swollen, and I'm afraid your exhibition will have to be postponed." β
"What's your business! Walk away, don't want to see you. I'm annoyed when I see you. β
Standing up with one hand on the ground, he walked around him squatting on the ground and limped forward.
"Sissy, how long are you going to hide from me? Do you think that if you keep avoiding me and torturing each other, you will be atoned for? You don't owe him anything. β
He even had the face to mention that incident? The anger couldn't help but spew out, and he turned his head sharply, and roared out of anger.
"Shut up! Shen Yu'an, you still have the face to mention him, don't you feel panicked in your heart? Don't forget, you killed him. β
That scene came back to my mind, entangled, screaming, tormenting me.
Twelve years, and his ghost has haunted me for twelve years.
"Don't you dream of him? I see him every day, the bloody corpse, he even stood up, approaching me step by step, trying to strangle me. Shen Yu'an, my nightmare is all caused by you.
Are you really heartless? After killing him, what can I do as if nothing happened, and I still have the face to go back?
Shen Yu'an, unless you can erase that wound from the bottom of my heart, otherwise, I won't forgive you until I die, let alone go back! β
I caught a glimpse of him sitting on the ground depressed, his hands on the ground, and he looked very hurt.
With a sneer, he turned around and walked away slowly.
This time, he finally didn't speak again, and he didn't catch up again.
Unexpectedly, a person like him also has a heart, and he will feel guilty and heartache.
I thought he would stop bouncing in front of me for a long time, but when I woke up, I saw him sitting on the edge of my bed in disgust, frowning and drugged my bruised ankle.
The struggle of the conditioned reflex was pressed hard by him, and the pain almost made me cry.
The subconscious screams were blocked by me biting my lip, but he seemed to deliberately increase his efforts to force me to comply.
"Shen Yu'an, what's wrong with you? Trespassing on a private house, and still want to murder? However, this is very much in line with your cold-blooded temperament. β
The pressing hand paused, raised his head, and looked straight at me, his eyes bloodshot.
He's embarrassed, and I'm glad to see it happen.
"Heh, what's the matter, thinking of those who were killed by you, scared? Can't sleep? Deserve! You should also have a good taste of that painful taste. β
Stretched out his hand, grabbed his hand directly, and shook it, "Congratulations, you have successfully joined the Hell Organization, and you are ready to be in the company of despair!" β
snatched the medicine from his hand, wiped it well, and jumped to wash and change clothes.
By the time I got it out, he wasn't there.
The mood suddenly cleared the sky, humming a song, and holding a bag to the exhibition hall.
Before he could jump to the door, the door suddenly opened, and he saw a pile of food in his hand and a bunch of sunflowers in his left hand.
"I have already told Director Lu that your exhibition will be postponed to next Tuesday, which coincides with the National Day holiday, which can be regarded as satisfying the wishes of those audiences who come here to admire your name."
Naturally, I walked in, put down my breakfast, and went to my bedroom to find a vase and raise the bouquet of sunflowers.
"Why do you help me make a decision, it's my business, you ......"
"Just by virtue of your Huo Nanxi's name in my spouse's column. Xixi, whether you want to admit it or not, you are always my wife and a member of the Shen family. β
"You!"
I was so angry that I couldn't say a word, but he picked me up and stuffed me on the sofa.
"Eat first, women will age faster when they are hungry and angry. Try it, this is your favorite crab roe soup dumpling, I haven't eaten it for many years, see if it still suits your taste? No, let's go home and let Zhang's mother do it for you. β
Glancing at the buns on the coffee table, although he warned himself not to be seduced by his food, he still swallowed his saliva unconsciously.
"What I loved to eat in the past may not be like now. People are all changing, take your bun and hurry away! β
I'm afraid that I can't help it, so I don't look away from my face and don't look at the steaming buns.
"Sissy, you swallowed your saliva just now, why do you lie and say you don't want to eat? I know you hate me, and you can't do anything to me anymore.
But all I want is to make you happy. As long as you are relieved and live comfortably, it is enough for me to watch you laugh from afar. I don't ask for anything else.
Don't be angry with me, eat breakfast. I'll go to work first, and I'll bring you food at noon. β
The door closed softly and he left my little house.
After staying for a long time, I picked up the bun and took a bite, it was still the same taste as before, but I couldn't eat the happiness I had before.
Because of my foot injury, I couldn't do anything, so I snuggled up on the sofa, watched TV, slept well, and spent the morning bored.
At twelve o'clock, he came with lunch.
But I didn't do anything, I didn't mention anything, I didn't say anything, I just treated myself as air, and when I finished eating, I cleaned up and left with the garbage.
But I was completely indifferent to his efforts.
My heart had already been numbed by the guilt, especially to him, completely immune.
He would come every day, change my dressing, bring me food. He would tell me what he did all day, what interesting people he met, and what funny things he heard.
But he was always singing a one-man show alone.
He made himself a clown and made me laugh, but it often ended up being a failure.
After five days at home, my feet are healed. When I got up on Saturday morning, I went to "Bailu Bay" to see my brother.
If it weren't for Mu Zi coming to me last week, I wouldn't have known that my aunt was still alive and my brother was alive.
When she told her what she had to say, I burst into tears.
The aunt is still there, and the uncle is not unintentional to the aunt, they are the Biren who have been treated badly by the years.
That's nice!
My dad knew that he could finally rest in peace.
Actually, I know my father's feelings for my aunt, he is indeed a good husband and father, but I know that his favorite in his heart is his aunt.
When my mother died, I saw him burn all the pictures of my aunt that my aunt had treasured.
The remaining one, half burned, I picked it up, on it is a photo of him and his aunt, and on the back it is written: To, my favorite in my life.
At that time, I was disappointed in my heart, my father, the person I loved the most, was not my mother, the hero in my heart, but he became a shameless and obscene person.
I also disobeyed him more than once, quarreled with him, and rejected my aunt's concern.
But in the end, I was a child who lacked mother's love, and in the end I was defeated by my aunt's meticulous care and gentleness.
I have to admit that my aunt is like my own daughter to me.
Now, knowing that she is still alive and well, and that her relationship with her uncle has further developed, I sincerely wish her and am happy for her.
When I arrived, I saw the two of them kissing in the courtyard without shame, and the kiss was so devotive.
I couldn't tell what it felt, so I was a little shy, forced myself to close my eyes and not think about it, and hid in the car until they let go of each other and went home hand in hand.
I exhaled as if I was about to be amnesty, this wave of dog food was finally spilled, and I ate so much in the morning.
When I got out of the car and went in, I saw casually sitting in the restaurant with his chin on his head, motionless.
"What's the matter, baby? Who messed with you? My sister-in-law will go and kill him, and dare to bully our baby. β
She asked me for a hug, threw herself into my arms, and complained, "Little aunt, take me in!" Mr. Huo, Mrs. Huo forcibly fed the dog all day long, and if I stayed any longer, I would be strangled to death by dog food. β
smiled very unkindly, "Baby has been wronged, they are simply too much." Let's be upright and see if they dare to be arrogant! β
"Nanxi is here, what's wrong? Who dares to be arrogant in front of you? Shen Yu'an provoked you again? β
Mu Zi changed out of his sportswear, wore a casual suit, and walked down happily.
I followed my heart and was instantly coaxed, and I hurriedly denied it, "No, no, who dares to mess with me." It's just teasing. Sister-in-law, what about my brother? Didn't you go to the hospital for a check-up today? β
She had already sat down, took a sip of soy milk casually, and shrugged, "I'm not free today, we're going to climb the mountain and enjoy the red leaves today." Then come back on Monday afternoon and go back on Tuesday! Anyway, Professor Wang also went on a business trip. β
"When did you decide? How did I not know? "If you are not happy, you may feel ignored and ask very aggrieved.
As a result, Mu Zi raised his eyebrows, glanced at her, automatically ignored her grievances, and replied unconcernedly: "We didn't plan to take you there." Don't you have a lot going on? Don't practice the piano? The words are so ugly, and you give up after only one day of practice? β
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I was dumbfounded, in the past, they were "pets" to Suixin, everything depended on her, and they held Suixin in the palm of their hands. Just one accident, how did it change the physique of the two of them?
I actually started abusing my daughter!
I was quite dissatisfied with what they were doing, but I couldn't say anything, after all, I was their child, and I didn't seem to be an outsider to interfere.
But he still felt sorry for her, made an excuse, didn't dare to stay longer, and took her away from this "dog slaughterhouse".
The aunt and nephew went to have a big meal first, soothed and soothed the stomach stuffed with dog food, and went shopping frantically for a day. I was going to send her back at night, but Mu Zi's phone called, saying that it was inconvenient for them tonight, and asked me not to let her go home.
I was so shocked that I had nothing to say, and I was really sad for being able to have such parents.
Seeing her pouting dissatisfiedly and sulking, I thought it was funny again.
This family can really toss.
There was no way, her biological parents didn't want her, so my little aunt had to take her in and take her back.
But as soon as I opened the door, I was dragged inside, and then the door was locked from the inside.
"What are you doing? Got water in your brain? I ......"
"Shh~ Don't make a fuss, I'll show you something." Despite my struggles, the lights didn't turn on, and the smear took me to the rooftop.
And casually, just like that, he was locked out of the door alone.