As night fell, I stared at my neighbor's house with my chin bowed.

Even now, I haven't seen the true face of my neighbor's Lushan, but I'm sure that that person must be him.

If it weren't for him, he wouldn't have deliberately avoided us and never showed his face.

But when I was sure it was him, I was upset. He should know how much I miss him, why is he hiding from me when he's already back?

Are you unwilling to entangle me anymore?

If this is the case, then in the half month that our mother and daughter left home, the flowers and trees in the garden did not wither half a point, but took care of them better than when we took care of them ourselves.

I had only been to the next door before leaving, and I had only told the weirdo that I was leaving.

If he really doesn't love me anymore, he won't help me, and he won't send me jasmine potted plants every day.

The flower language of jasmine bonsai is: You are my life.

He's clearly confessing to me.

Then why doesn't he see me?

Lonely on tiptoe, as if I could peek through the next door neighbor's secret and see him as long as I stood on tiptoe.

Huo Nanyi, what are you thinking?

You know, I'm thinking about you, all the time.

His eyes stared at him without blinking, for fear that he would miss him in the blink of an eye.

My stomach growled, but I didn't feel hungry, I just wanted to see him, I missed his arms, I missed his taste, I missed everything about him......

Immersed in the memories of the past, I lost track of time.

With the sound of the piano next door, I drewd on the old days with him, until someone tapped me on the shoulder, and I woke up.

He turned his head in a panic, but he did it as he pleased.

"How did you get back? Isn't it the weekend? Not having classes tomorrow? ”

She glanced at me with a little disgust, "Tomorrow is Saturday, please Mom, can you care about your daughter and me?" I'm so sad that you're like this. A hurt look on his face.

"Don't be poor with me! Hungry, right? Wait, I'll cook you noodles. "I was about to go home, but she stepped forward and took my hand.

"No, I know you must have forgotten that I was going home, and you couldn't cook. I brought my own, the braised fish and corn rib soup from the happy family. He lifted the item in his hand.

She's really grown up! will take care of me.

However, I still want Huo Nanyi to come back.

Turning his head, he glanced at the next door and closed the door.

After dinner, we were all in the study, lying down and reading at will, and I sat at my desk with drawing paper in front of me, but I didn't write for a long time.

I looked at the wall clock on the wall, and at half-past nine, I frantically wanted to enter the next door neighbor's house to see the man.

Suddenly, with a heavy sigh, I put down my book, got up and walked over, and put away my drawing paper in three or two clicks. Then, without saying a word, he pulled me out of the study.

"What are you doing? What's wrong? "I'm the second monk in Zhang, and I can't figure out what this girl is doing at all.

She still didn't speak, so she pulled me downstairs and went out.

Out of the gate, "Don't you really want to know what your next-door neighbor looks like?" Then let's take a look and understand, otherwise I'll always be absent-minded, and I'll feel sorry for you when I look at it. ”

I struggled symbolically twice, my heart beating hard. Excited and nervous.

If it turns out that the next-door neighbor is not him, then ...... Can I really afford to be disappointed?

In the middle of my struggle, we were already standing in the doorway, and we had already rang the doorbell.

I stared straight at the closed door, expecting it to open.

However, my hopes were once again disappointed.

No one opened the door.

"It's weird, the next-door neighbor is too weird. Maybe he's a pervert, so it's better for us to ignore him in the future. "Murmuring as she pleases, she hurriedly dragged me home.

I didn't dare tell her my speculations, I was afraid she would be as disappointed as I was.

How can I wait until he returns?

Every day was the same, a pot of jasmine, an hour of piano music, the dark villa next door. And I followed his rhythm as if I had been controlled by him, and stood on the balcony for an hour every night to listen to him play the piano.

I also sneaked through the window of his house, but unfortunately I couldn't get in, and I didn't see half a figure.

The villa next door is like a haunted house, with no one and only a sound at certain times.

As usual, I stood in the corner of the balcony closest to his villa, waiting for him to start.

But before he could start, the sky began to thunder, and the rain fell and became heavier.

I didn't move, like I was stupid, and I kept that position, staring at the next door and waiting for the piano to sound.

After about half an hour, the hour hand was already pointing to 8:20, but the next door was unusually quiet, and there was no sound.

What's wrong with him? Why don't you play the piano tonight?

At the moment of my curiosity, the villa lit up as if by magic.

His eyes widened in surprise, and he couldn't believe that what he was seeing was real.

He turned on the lights!

The next-door neighbor turned on the lights!

A long, thin black figure was reflected in the window, and I could see his clenched fists and slightly frowning brows.

He's angry.

Could it be that something bad is happening?

Subconsciously waved his hand at his window and shouted, "Mr. Wonderful next door, what's wrong with you?" Why don't you play the piano anymore? I'm still waiting to treat my ears! ”

On the window, his movement was to drive away. He told me to go home.

He finally took care of me.

He jumped up excitedly, then made a trumpet shape with his hand, and shouted at him again: "Mr. Wonderful, can you tell me about your troubles?" I'll be your trash can, how about you play a canon for me when you're done? ”

This time, he didn't respond to me, and the villa was like a candle extinguished by the rain, and suddenly it was dark again.

I lowered my head in annoyance, I must have poked his pain point, otherwise why would it be dark again?

The heavy rain fell on me unceremoniously, and I suddenly felt a little tired, sat on the ground, leaned against the wall, and actually cried.

How can I be so stupid, how can I get him back?

I stood all night in the heavy rain, and instead of waiting for him to come back, I tossed myself sick.

The next day, there was a burning coal-like pain in my throat, and I couldn't say a word. I was so weak that I didn't even want to move my fingers.

Pretending to be dead lying on the bed, staring at the ceiling weakly, thinking about last night, tears fell again.

I didn't have the strength to get up and call the doctor, so I fell asleep in a daze.

When I woke up again, I was in the hospital, waiting anxiously by the side.

"Who brought me to the hospital?"

She shook her head and said she didn't know, just yesterday afternoon, the hospital called Uncle Huo, and then found Suixin and asked her to come and take care of me.

"Then you go and ask the doctor for me, who got me to the hospital?"

But she wasn't happy and looked at me angrily.

Then his eyes filled with tears, "Can you stop thinking nonsense." Daddy he's not coming back, he's dead. You don't lie to yourself anymore, okay? I know you miss him so much that you don't believe he's dead. But the truth is, Dad has left us forever and will never come back. ”

Tears rolled down her face, and she cried and begged me, "Mom, don't do this again, okay?" What if something happens to you and you want me to be alone? Please stop torturing yourself, okay?

The next-door neighbor isn't a dad, he's really not a dad. ”

With trembling hands, she took her phone out of her pocket and handed it to me.

"This is a picture of my next-door neighbor that I secretly took, you can see clearly, he is not Dad."

The person in the photo has a mean face, the edges and corners are not clear enough, and the eyes are not as gentle as Huo Nanyi.

It's not what he is.

"So Mom, don't hurt yourself stupidly like that in the future, okay?"

"It's really not him. But I like to listen to him play the piano and look at his window. Whatever I want, I like him. ”

She looked at me seriously and didn't say anything more, and after a long time, she said, "If you really like him, then go for it!" I'm sticking with you. But I have a request, please don't let yourself get hurt again. I went to call a doctor. He turned and left the room.

I saw disappointment in her back.

Although she told me that she didn't mind me remarrying, I knew that in her heart, she envied my love with Huo Nanyi.

Now, I finally can't hold on anymore and want to give up, which must have broken her best expectations for love.

But I don't believe it, it's not him.

Although the person in the photo does not resemble him at all, I would rather live in the lies I weave all the time, at least there, I have not lost him.

The doctor came and took my temperature, asked me about my basic condition, prescribed some medicine and went home.

On the way home, none of us spoke.

It took me a week to finally recover. During the week, I didn't go to class at will, so I asked for leave to stay at home with me.

I knew she was saying goodbye to me. She knew that I would go to great lengths to pursue my next-door neighbor when I got better, and she was saying goodbye to me, to me who belonged only to her father.

When she got up in the morning, she was gone. Leave me a note saying that there have been student activities in the last few weeks and that they won't be able to come back to see me on weekends.

Excuses, I know that's what she's doing.

She didn't know how to deal with her "changed mind" mother, let alone the object of my love.

I didn't rush to find her clearly, after all, only I believe that the next-door neighbor who doesn't look like Huo Nanyi at all is him. As long as he doesn't admit it for a day, I can't explain my "change of heart" at all.

I had breakfast and just went out when I saw my next-door neighbor come out. Rushed out as fast as he could, blocking him.

Grabbing his arm, he looked at it carefully, but he didn't find the slightest flaw.

Pi smiled and stretched out his hand, "Hello, Mr. Wonderful, I'm Mu Zi, your next-door neighbor." ”

However, they didn't want to talk to me at all, so I staggered and got into the car and left.

His rudeness and arrogance didn't dampen me, and I was never absent when it was time to show up. I didn't plan to let him go when I shouldn't.

I gave him the jasmine potted plants I received one by one, and I was afraid that he would not know its flower language, so I would say "You are my life" loudly every time, which made me feel like I was really crazy.

Last night, I smashed the glass of his house and managed to climb into his house. But he was ruthlessly thrown out, and then in the morning he came to me with a quotation to settle the claim.

Somehow, I was so happy to be pitted.

With a smile, he shoved a stack of thick bills into his jacket pocket, "Mr. Wonderful, are you short of money?" Then it's better to be like this, you accompany me, and I will pay you. ”

The despised white glance, stingy to say a word to me, turned around and was about to leave.

I jumped on top of him, my legs wrapped around his waist.

"I'm shy! I, I have tickets, but I don't have anyone to spend with me, so I'm very lonely. You don't know, do you? My dead ghost husband left me tens of billions of assets, which makes me worry about how to spend money every day! Why don't you help me? ”

He grabbed me by the thigh and tried to throw me down, and I took the opportunity to kiss him on the lips.

The moment my lips and teeth met, tears rolled down my face.

In this world, except for Huo Nanyi himself, no one has the ability to make me want to kiss again and again.

That familiar feeling, how could it not be him?

However, I managed to be thrown to the ground by him.

He left me with a back like that, and walked away resolutely.

I sat on the ground, crying with joy.

I knew he wouldn't leave me alone.

But why is he so indifferent to me?

Noisy bar, I don't know how many drinks I had, my head was dizzy, and I had a doppelganger to see everything.

But I just want to drink, I want to get drunk, and I'd better be so drunk that I don't think about him anymore.

I went to his house last night, and hid in his cup, thinking that in this way, he would tear off his mask of indifference and return to me.

As a result, all I got was his indifference.

I was thrown out by him again, and damn it, he actually taunted me for being "shameless".

It's obviously him who is shameless, but he wants to do this to me.

Picking up the wine glass and pouring it into my stomach one after another, I hate to think about him, I don't want to be so uncomfortable to think about it alone, but he doesn't care.

When I was drunk and completely unoriented, N more than one of his faces was reflected in front of my eyes.

He staggered over, raised his hand and threw it up.

"Didn't you scold me for being shameless? What are you coming to me for? Huo Nanyi, I hate you! Woowoo woo ......"

Leaning into his arms, he cried sadly.

"How can you do this to me? Do you know how much I miss you? Don't you know that I can't live without you? How can you bear to leave me for so long? You're going to avoid me when you come back, Huo Nanyi, you bastard! ”

"What do you say? I didn't hear it. ”

The anger was rushing to the top of his head, and he said he didn't hear it.

Pushed him away and barely stood firm on the bar, "Didn't you want to see me and deliberately avoided me?" Then you go! I don't want you anymore, I don't want to see you again! ”

Pulling his bag, he staggered to the door.

He's gone too far, how can this be?

There were a lot of people along the way, and if he hadn't followed me and helped me deal with the aftermath, I probably wouldn't have been able to get out of the bar.

But he doesn't want to come back, what is he doing with me?

Suddenly paused, turned around, and glared at him viciously, "Stop! He yelled at him.

He stood there obediently, not moving.

"What are you doing with me? Get the hell out of here! I don't want to see you again! ”

I turned around and continued to walk forward, I took a step, he moved a step, and listening to his footsteps, my heart was so annoyed that I just wanted to get rid of him, so I ran awkwardly.

As a result, he tripped over himself and almost fell to the ground, but he was held in his arms.

"Mu Zi, it's not that I don't want to look for you, but I don't dare. Now I'm not even a normal person, how can I find you, how can I drag you into the quagmire and ask you to suffer with me? I can't! ”

Hearing his explanation, I couldn't control my emotions anymore, like a landslide, simply and directly, all emotions rushed up, and I was about to suffocate.

"Mu Zi, I'm deaf. I can't hear your voice, your love, I don't know how to respond. I tried to convince myself to come back to you, but seeing that you were doing well alone, I backed down again. Now I can't give you the love you want, I ......"

Break free from him, look at him aggrievedly, and roar loudly: "Shut up!" You're just making excuses for yourself. All I want is always just you, not your money, not your impeccable perfection.

I love you, no matter what you become, whether you can hear me or not, I love you.

I just want to be by your side all the time, tired, with your shoulders to lean on. I'm sad to have you with me to watch the sea.

Huo Nanyi, I love you. I want you. ”

Struggling to stand firm, gritting his teeth and looking at him firmly. Even if I'm drunk now, I want him to know that I love his determination.

He stepped over in two steps, pressed the back of my head, and kissed me hard.

For a long time, he didn't let go of me.

I put my arms around his neck and smiled and let him ask for it.

After years of practicing kissing with him, I finally learned to ventilate.

I want to be like this, kiss the earth to the end.