Today, August 28th, I asked for leave from Head Liu and wanted to return to Maocheng early.

One is to send you back to school, and the other is because I can't calm down and perform well.

I don't know why, but the longer I was away from home, the more I felt that the next door neighbor was him. My heart was tugged at by something, and I wanted to go back early.

Because of her insistence, we came to Zilan City the morning before yesterday, and she said that she wanted to see the city where she was born again.

I was quite reluctant to come here, not because of the hardships I had suffered, but because I felt that this place was like the only pure land in my heart, and I didn't want to set foot in it again, I didn't want to dirty it.

But I didn't want her to be disappointed, so I still stepped on the land again.

When I stood at Zilan City Station again, I almost burst into tears, and the sad scenes before were replayed in front of my eyes, and my heart was moistened with tears again.

I found a hotel first, put my luggage, and then went to Beiyuan Street, we all wanted to see Sister-in-law Xu, she helped me too much back then, so I should go to see her.

She was still as enthusiastic as before, and her eyes were red with excitement when she saw Xinxin.

Back then, she gave more care to Suixin than I was my biological mother, and after so many years, she also had her own daughter, but her love for Suixin has not been reduced by half a point.

We stayed at her house until the evening, when she finally wiped away her tears and let go of her free hand and saw us off.

Sometimes I hate myself, so cold that I don't contact anyone, even the one who has helped me.

Before I knew it, we walked to the bar where I used to play the piano, and stood at the door of the bar, looking at the bar that had become more luxurious, and I didn't feel very emotional.

It's all changed, everything has changed, and I don't know if Sister Sun is still here.

In the end, I still mustered up the courage to walk in, anyway, I came, and there was nothing to lose by going in and seeing.

I didn't want to let me in, after all, it was quite messy, but she said that she wanted to see where I used to work, so she walked straight in.

For a second, my heart was empty. I used to be so unbearable, and the so-called work was not decent, I was afraid that she would look down on me like that and think I was despicable.

It turns out that it was just me living the belly of a gentleman with the heart of a villain, and she did not look down on me, but felt sorry for me.

Didn't find anyone we knew, and we were out again soon. When she got out of the bar, she had red eyes and stood still, looking straight at me.

After being stunned for a long time, she suddenly said, "If you didn't have me, wouldn't you have to suffer so much?" You don't have to work day and night, you can live a little happier. ”

Tears broke through the obstacles and fell, her heart was so soft, how could she blame herself like this? It wasn't her fault, the fault was me, it was always me.

He pressed her into his arms, "Mom, I'm sorry! I'm sorry for making you angry! He apologized, but it hurt me.

"It's me who should say I'm sorry, I'm sorry I was so bad to you at that time, I'm sorry!"

No matter how many times I say "I'm sorry", I can't get rid of the guilt in my heart, I give her cold violence, ignore her, and don't even say anything to her...... The evidence of my crime has always been engraved in my heart, and I guess it will not get better in this life.

Even if the bleeding finally stops one day, it will not heal into a scar. What I owe to me is not just love, but a complete memory.

This will eventually become the biggest shortcoming of my life.

The mother and daughter hugged each other, stood on the side of the road, and cried for a long time. Passers-by sighed, and we were immersed in our grief as if we couldn't see or hear at all.

If it weren't for the hunger that grumbled and interrupted us, we don't know how long we would cry.

Letting go of the tacit understanding, I pinched her dirty nose and cried and laughed.

"Mom, this is my happiest moment."

"Little fool! There's nothing to be happy about. Wipe your face quickly, otherwise you won't be able to enter the hotel later. ”

She wiped my face with a smile, then took my hand and jumped and dragged me towards the hotel.

It wasn't close, and we weren't going fast, but I still thought it was too short.

This is the first time I want to extend my time except for Huo Nanyi, and it is best to extend it indefinitely.

After eating, lying on the bed, she was so excited that she couldn't sleep, and pulled me to tell me about the world in her eyes at that time, and the me in her eyes.

I heard her loneliness and regret in her narrative, but I didn't complain.

I've never told her about all the mess I've been through, but she knows it. Most of them were figured out by herself, and some of them were told to her by Huo Nanyi in the years when she was still there.

If she hadn't told me, I wouldn't have known, and when I didn't know her identity, Huo Nanyi doted on her very much, and completely held her in the palm of her hand as her own daughter.

She apologized to me again for what happened in Japan.

I almost forgot about the episode, and I forgot to ask him why he did this to me and snatched the heart away from me.

It turned out that he was just trying to protect us, and because of a little awkwardness in his heart.

Since we met again in Zilan City and got together again, Leng Xingwei has been eyeing me and Suixin.

And he thinks that I am not worthy of Huo Nanyi, and he feels sorry for Huo Nanyi for raising children for others, so he has always wanted to get rid of our mother and daughter.

During that time, he colluded with the Black Emperor who had always wanted to kill Huo Nanyi, and plotted to destroy us.

As a last resort, he came up with such a way to make everyone mistakenly think that he would die under my violence at will, and I was also in prison, and nothing would happen again.

I really want to scold him to my face, I really hate the way he thinks he's doing it for me.

Huo Nanyi, are you okay coming back? No matter what you do in the future, I will believe in you unconditionally.

Unfortunately, he could not hear the prayer of my heart.

Last night, we came out of the snack street and were about to go back to the hotel, but we met Sister Sun.

Like an eighteen-year-old girl, she hugged her boyfriend's arm, hung in his arms, and smiled shyly.

I wouldn't have recognized her if she hadn't recognized us and called me first.

She excitedly dragged us to her house and pulled me to talk all night.

After listening to her story, I felt ashamed. She used to help me with no matter what she reciprocated, but I didn't even know the basics of her.

In fact, after we left Zilan City, she also left the bar.

The owner of the bar is a man she has loved for many years, a rich man with a heart of flowers, and his daily life is to indulge in flowers and show mercy everywhere.

She waited for him to grow up, waited for him to learn to love, but she still didn't wait.

In the eight years they have been together, she has had a fetus for him, and for him, she has accompanied many girls to the hospital to have a fetus.

She is a girlfriend and a mother. She gave him love, but also gave him maternal love, and even career support.

The reason why he became a maître d'être d'être was that he had not established a complete and healthy management system at all, thinking that as long as it opened, everything would be fine.

He is the shopkeeper, and Sister Sun solves everything alone.

But even so, he still felt dissatisfied.

On the Monday after we went to Japan, early in the morning, Sister Sun was sent to hell by a piece of news.

He's getting married.

The bride, but not her.

After she poured out her heart and lungs for him, he was going to get married. But he clearly said that he was unmarried.

It turned out that it wasn't that he wasn't married, he just didn't marry her.

Sister Sun's heart was like being pierced by ten thousand arrows, and she couldn't breathe in pain.

She hid at home for a day, thinking it was just hype or gossip that someone else had scribbled, and that he would soon make it disappear.

However, the truth told her that she was deceiving herself.

In fact, Sister Sun knew that woman. She is a girl in the adult club of flowery men, tall and smart, sweet and smart.

They have met, not only met, but also talked about men together.

Sister Sun felt that they were friends, or the kind of friends who could make friends.

It's a pity that she opened her heart to others, and others just took her sincerity as a joke.

The girl knew all the preferences of the flowery man, so she did what she liked, coupled with her young and beautiful, she actually hooked the flowery man.

They were married to their sons.

In the evening, Sister Sun went to the flowery man and wanted an explanation, but was ridiculed by the girl.

Sister Sun had an abortion and was still taking contraceptive pills all year round, so she couldn't get pregnant. She told the girl about this, but she didn't want to, and it became a handle for the loss of dignity after being betrayed.

The girl mocked her in front of the flowery man, she was still a hen that couldn't lay eggs.

The flowery man was indifferent and did not feel the slightest guilt.

I wanted an explanation, but in the end I had to leave in disgrace.

When I heard her say that she was almost drowned, my heart shook violently, as strong as Sister Sun actually committed suicide, the injury that person gave her can be described as fatal, otherwise she would not be like this.

The so-called Saion lost her horse and knew whether it was a blessing, and that time she took advantage of the torrential rain and a flash flood to jump. Not only did he not die, but he also helped her find a happy home.

Her now-boyfriend saved her.

He is the owner of a cake shop, who seems to be weak and weak, but he has a broad mind and infinite warmth and tenderness.

He clumsily warmed Sister Sun's broken heart with his love, and he chased Sister Sun for two years, two whole years, and never flinched.

Sister Sun loves him and sees her desperate appearance for love, very stupid, but stupid and happy.

I couldn't tell if it was love or resonance, but she finally nodded and agreed to him.

She said that on the day she agreed to be with him, he carried her around Zilan City like a fool, and he was so tired that he couldn't even speak.

Resting on his sweaty chest, she felt a wave of happiness. The smell of smoky sweat was the most fragrant smell she had ever smelled.

I am happy to see her find her happy home. After helping her cover the quilt, I turned off the lights and quietly left with my heart.

As soon as she opened the door, she saw her boyfriend leaning against the wall next to the door, staring at the door motionlessly.

Seeing his stupid look, I couldn't help but smile.

This man loves so stupidly!

After nodding politely to him, he strode out of the community.

I suddenly thought of Huo Nanyi, was he so stupidly guarding me and waiting for me when I didn't know?

So, a plan sprouted in my heart, I want to ignite my passion for him at this age when I have already passed the age of madness for love, go crazy for him, and fight hard.