I've seen him twice since I came to his house.

One was the day I first came, when I was a little embarrassed. Another time, it was Huo Suixin who was sick, and he came back to accompany her.

He's avoiding me.

And I, who occupies the magpie's nest, have no self-knowledge, and live very freely, just like my own home.

But I didn't try to seduce him anymore, I was afraid that the relationship would be too complicated, and I didn't have the courage to face it.

On the second day of staying here, I suddenly found that this place is very close to the Mu family.

I often stand in front of the window, looking in the direction of the Mu family, and peeping into my aunt's life.

My grandfather persuaded me to reconcile with my aunt, saying that it was not easy for her, and she suffered a lot of grievances for me and the Mu family.

I didn't really want to dissociate myself from her, but when I saw her taking men home one by one, and even having love in the courtyard, I didn't want to see her.

It's not that she's jealous that she always changes boyfriends, but that she rejects her.

I don't like that kind of emotional attitude for the sake of desire, and I can't accept it. I'm afraid that if I go back like this, the two of them will quarrel after chatting for a few words, which will worsen the relationship.

She stopped looking for me, and we didn't bother each other, and we went to our own worlds.

Living in his house, I have the illusion that I am his wife. I don't have anything to do every day, so when I go home from class, I accompany her to do homework, practice the piano and the like.

If he really comes back every day, it must be like a family of three.

Quietly looked at the casual who was painting seriously, her face, really has nothing to do with me?

I took out my phone and dialed the last private investigator who was willing to help me.

I asked him how he was doing, and he just said that he would give me the answer I wanted within the time limit, and he didn't say a word about what he had already checked.

Holding my phone tightly, I can't help but be a little panicked, and I finally want to unveil the past, why, I am suddenly scared?

"Mom... Auntie, look at my paintings, are you still missing something? ”

Holding her painting in both hands, she lifted it as high as she could, half-tilting her head, looking at me.

I took her drawing, looked at it carefully, and crouched down, "It's great to draw as you like!" Especially this struggling bird, panic and helplessness are all on the page, it's really great! ”

"Po~"

She quickly pounced, kissed me on the cheek, and turned to go upstairs with a smile on her face.

Touching the cheek that she had kissed, a sweet warmth rose in my heart.

After I was injured and lost my memory, the only warmth I have ever felt, except for what Su Tian and Sister Tang Li gave, is what the two women gave.

While feeling sweet, I also felt a trace of guilt, so I broke into their lives because of my amnesia and took away their feelings, but I couldn't afford to pay it back.

Around ten o'clock in the evening, I waited for my hair to dry naturally, and sat on the sofa in the living room to read.

The door opened suddenly, and subconsciously raised his eyes, and met his deep eyes, frowning, as if he was in a bad mood.

Nervously stood up and stammered, "You're back?" Have you eaten? Or I'll ......."

Realizing how unruly he was, he actually stood in his wife's position to talk to him, and he had the heart to bite off his tongue.

But he was at the door, and he didn't move for a long time, just staring at me, not knowing what he was thinking.

The atmosphere was extremely embarrassing, and he turned around and prepared to go back to his room, "It's been a long time since anyone waited for me to go home, and I'm really a little unaccustomed." ”

Listening to the sound of his somewhat chaotic footsteps, as he approached, the strong smell of alcohol irritated my nostrils, and turned again, "You drink?" ”

Seeing that he was a little shaky, he was afraid that he would accidentally fall, so he stepped over and supported him.

"Mu Zi, you..."

He sat him on the couch and poured him a glass of warm water.

He pulled his tie, but he didn't succeed in untying it for a while, and he was obviously very drunk.

"I'll do it!" I couldn't bear it, so I reached over and patiently unbuttoned my tie and shirt for him.

He didn't push me away, and his courage became even fatter, and he naturally asked, "Can you tell me why you drink so much wine?" ”

He suddenly grabbed my hand and held it in the palm of his hand, and I thought he was angry, but he pulled it so hard that I fell on top of him, half-sitting on his lap.

The smell of wine spilled over my face, burning my temperature.

"Mr. Huo, can I ask you to do me a favor?" He still didn't speak, just buried his face around my neck, "Can you please help me find that famous German brain specialist, the one who specializes in human brain memory?" ”

I only felt his breathing rhythmically hitting my neck, silent, and thought he was asleep.

Just as I reached out to push him, I heard him muffled back, "Huh? ”

"I want to know all about the past, good and bad. Can you help me? ”

He suddenly raised his head and stared at me with a little loss in his eyes, "Isn't it good to forget?" As long as you enter the happy memory of your heart, you will have no worries for the rest of your life, why be so stubborn? ”

"But I think we're very close, and I wonder why you're pushing me away? Pretend to forget yourself. ”

Spread his hands and walked unsteadily towards the stairs.

"Mr. Huo, we loved each other before, right?"

I don't want to forget love like this, and I don't want him to push me away again.

Walking over and hugging him from behind, with my face pressed against his back, I felt his body stiffen and seemed to be nervous.

"I don't care how much pain you have given me, I only know that even if I forget everything, you will always be in my deep memory, and you will never be completely erased."

"Tell me, okay? I like you and want to be with you. Don't throw me away again, okay? ”

No matter how much I asked, he didn't say a word, and in the end, he broke free of my hands, held on to the stairs, and slowly went upstairs to rest.

I don't know if it's the right thing to do, but staying with him, I feel more and more anxious to find myself, afraid that if I am a second late, he will leave completely.

But I didn't expect that after my temptation, he became farther and farther away from me.

The next morning, I saw him pack up his salute and go straight away.

I also comforted myself that he might have gone on a business trip, but it wasn't until the sixth day, when Chen Ke came back to pick up a forgotten document for him, that I knew that he slept in the office to avoid me.

The corners of his mouth opened bitterly, and he cried.

Does he dislike me like that much?

Originally, I packed my things that day and was ready to leave, but I hugged my legs and said nothing that I didn't want to leave.

Helplessly, he lost to her, and continued to occupy his home.

In the evening, I received a call from the detective, who said that he had almost found out and asked me to go over and get the results.

After changing his clothes, he hurried to leave with his bag, but he cried and begged: "Auntie, don't go!" Auntie, don't leave your heart, don't go! ”

I couldn't stop coaxing, so I finally had to take her with me and drive the car in his garage.

When we arrived at the agreed place, we waited for a long time, but we didn't see the shadow of the detective.

I lost my patience and called him to urge him, but the receiver just repeated the sentence "The number you dialed is empty, please check and dial again!" ”

“……”

I felt like I had been tricked. The private investigator must have been bought temporarily.

But who will stop me from going to the past three times or twice?

He?

At least I can only guess at him now.

After sending her home and putting her to sleep, I drove away again.

Went to his company.

At that time, it was already past eight o'clock in the evening, and there were almost no people in the company, just one or two who had just come out of work overtime.

I broke in, reached the top floor, and searched for a long time before I found the president's office.

As restrained as possible, he knocked politely on the door.

After getting permission, I walked in, and without looking up, he asked, "What's the matter?" ”

Straight over without answering, and when I put my bag on his papers, he finally stopped what he was doing and looked up at me.

"How did you get in?"

"You've bribed a private investigator."

His face was indifferent, and he didn't have a little weakness at all, as if it was really not him.

"Mr. Huo, why? Why don't you want me to get my memories back? Is it because you hurt me? What is the relationship between us? ”

Xu was forced to this point by me, he had no way to retreat, leaned back, and said indifferently: "We loved, that's all." ”

"Well, whatever you want, she's ...... Is it our child? ”

He stood up suddenly, walked to the window, and lit a cigarette in frustration.

I couldn't see what his expression was, only the smoke enveloped him, and it was gloomy.

Did I guess it?

"You've been to Sycamore Garden before, and the car parked under the sycamore tree downstairs in my room is yours, right? I remember the cigarette I picked up when I ran down that night, and it smelled like you. Also, the car, parked in the garage, a black Mercedes. ”

His movements were more ferocious, swallowing clouds and mist, but they could not hide the nervousness that he had well hidden.

Sure enough, I guessed it.

It turns out that he has always cared about me?

Then why can't you let it go, but you don't talk to me clearly and get back together? And to torture each other like this?

Approached him, walked up to him, stood on tiptoe, held his face, and made him look me in the eye.

"Tell me, why? You still love me, don't you? Then why not look for me? Even if you've hurt me in the past, we can talk openly and honestly and think about what to do next, right? ”

"Mu Zi, how do you want to go all the way to the dark? Forget me, and you can live happier than before. ”

"You finally admit it, you still love me."

Affirmed by him, joy outweighed worry. It seems that as long as there is his love, it doesn't matter if it hurts or whatever.

Throwing herself into his arms, "Then we'll be back together, okay?" I don't want to be without you in the future! Tell me about the past, okay? ”

Even though I was already like this, he didn't hug me.

"Mu Zi, you shouldn't think of me anymore, and you shouldn't fall in love with me again! Between us, it was a mistake from the start. ”

I was annoyed because of his phrase "it was a mistake from the start".

Are sincere feelings just mistakes in his eyes?

I'm just a stain on his life that he wants to get rid of, is it a mistake?

Grabbing his tie, he said bitterly: "Are you really so cold and ruthless? Is it so shameful to have loved me? ”

"It's all in the past, Mu Zi, when you wake up tomorrow, you will forget about me completely."

Scared, he let go and swallowed, "You, what are you going to do to me?" ”

"It's past you, it's just pain. Our feelings for you are only hurt. Erase everything and start your life again! ”

Lips trembled, I was really scared, knowing a little bit about him, was it also a mistake?

Want to erase my memory?

No! I don't want my memory erased!

Bumped into him and hurried out with his bag.

"Mu Zi, don't run away, I won't hurt you, I just help you forget the pain and implant new happiness."

"Don't! I don't forget! You can't erase my memory! No! ”

After yelling, he opened the door and was about to run, but he grabbed his wrist and pressed against the back of the door.