Part 136 Sun Yingchen: Don't cry
In fact, Lu Heng was still very distressed when he saw her pretending to be calm like this.
In Lu Heng's eyes, Sun Yingchen's good-looking peach blossom eyes seemed to have lost their smile all of a sudden, and there was a faint sadness.
"I heard that the lyrics you wrote for Xingchen have been on the major best-selling lists, congratulations." Sun Yingchen changed the subject.
Lu Heng didn't know what she was thinking, he just smiled politely, and then said, "Zhou Miao's bar is about to open, you know." ”
Sun Yingchen nodded: "I know about this, will you go that day?" ”
Lu Heng had a natural expression, and then said, "I heard that you are ...... graduate school entrance examination" He paused and said, "What are your plans next?" ”
Sun Yingchen shrugged: "Didn't I just fail the exam, you don't have to worry about my feelings, my iron-clad self-esteem, it's okay." She picked up the glass of water in front of her and smiled: "I should be like other graduates, submit my resume first, and then wait for the interview, whoever leaves me a light to turn around for me, I will go to whom's house." ”
Lu Heng thought thoughtfully: "Do you have an industry you like to do, you can't go with the flow." ”
Sun Yingchen drank most of the wolfberry water and put it down: "I'm just an ordinary person, where can I choose what I like to do, besides, I can't do what I like now." ”
Lu Heng immediately remembered the adjustment agreement about Heilan, he looked at her distressedly, a kind of guilt lingered in his heart, and he asked in a very calm voice for a long time: "Do you still care about that matter?" ”
Sun Yingchen leaned back on the sofa with his hands around his chest, and smiled indifferently: "I care if it's useful, who can give me justice, in fact, now that I think about it, I almost forgot all the details about that matter, but all that was left was Bai Siyuan's guilt for me, saying over and over again that he believed me, and forced me to sign the settlement letter again and again, in fact, what I care about is not the so-called justice returned, but his opinion on this matter." ”
Lu Heng listened quietly, did he interject about her and Bai Siyuan, just listened quietly.
Sun Yingchen suddenly seemed to have found a confidant, and said all the words in his depressed heart at once: "You know, what have I done for this relationship, when all the media were scrambling to report, he didn't give me a word, I thought of a lot of ways to find him, I even waited for him in Yunzhiduan for several days, I watched his car drive in front of me, I believe that he sitting in the car saw me waiting for him, I think Bai Siyuan shouldn't know how to face me at that time, Maybe they don't know how to tell me the so-called opening remarks, the last repetition. ”
Lu Heng looked at her, every time Sun Yingchen talked about Bai Siyuan, her eyes were full of tenderness, but it was such a look that made him crazy with jealousy.
"Finally I waited, and he told me he was sorry." Sun Yingchen's expression was indifferent, as if she was talking about someone else's business, but the sadness in her eyes couldn't deceive anyone, including herself, she smiled: "You may be tired of listening to it." ”
"Just say, I'll be your trash can today, you just spit it out today, and when it's over, you'll start again." Lu Heng smiled after speaking.
Sun Yingchen also looked at him, listening to what he said so simply, but even if it was so simple, her heart was so relieved, looking at Lu Heng's eyes like Bai Siyuan, as if looking at him through him, in fact, no matter when, Sun Yingchen himself couldn't deceive himself, although they had a salty and indifferent relationship, and even the breakup was so-so, but only she knew that she still couldn't let go of him, even if the two of them had gone against each other, as long as Bai Siyuan stretched out his hand to him, She'll still come back to him with a change of heart.
Yes, this is Sun Yingchen, her feelings for Bai Siyuan seem to have gone deep into the bone marrow.
At this moment, looking at the smiling Lu Heng, those good-looking eyes, clean eyes that are not mixed with any emotions, but she thinks about Bai Siyuan, her expression is a little psychedelic, but her heart hurts, how she longs to see him again, not to be separated by a TV screen, let alone miss him through words on the magazine newsstands, but Sun Yingchen knows that only when Bai Siyuan wants to see her, their meeting is meaningful, and love is the same, only when he happens to love her, the matter of I love you becomes meaningful.
Lu Heng saw Sun Yingchen looking at him thoughtfully, he knew too well, only looking at himself with such eyes, she was the shadow of Bai Siyuan from him, although Lu Heng hated such eyes, but as long as she was by his side, no matter what kind of eyes he looked at, he was happy.
Rosen has a saying that is too right, he said: "Lu Heng, shouldn't you be serious, are you willing to let go of your most important things or even give up as long as it is about her, Sun Yingchen She is just your weakness." ”
Yes, maybe from the beginning of the accidental delivery meal, their encounter has been destined for each other, but she never cared, and he has fallen deeper and deeper.
The second time they met at the bus stop, even if it was a casual glance, he could recognize her at a glance in his flickering eyes, and the third and fourth times he actually remembered it clearly, so that the bench where she and Bai Siyuan were lying was engraved with Sun Yingchen's words of love for Bai Siyuan, and every stroke seemed to be written by a primary school student, but that was the only evidence in their relationship that could record that they had loved each other.
How many times did Lu Heng want to destroy that chair, just like the snowballs she had carefully piled up in the courtyard of the Qingdao Hotel, he trampled every snowball hard, completely destroying all the evidence left between them.
But now he was actually happy, because of Sun Yingchen's sad appearance at this moment, he couldn't wait to be uncomfortable for her, and he didn't want to see her radiant eyes become so indifferent and warm.
"Sun Yingchen, please be happy." Lu Heng's voice was slightly hoarse, as long as she was happy, he was willing to give everything.
Sun Yingchen nodded, looked at him with a smile, the eyes of the two people intersected, and they met in the air, as if they had reached some kind of agreement, but Sun Yingchen's eyes were red, and she didn't know that tears could still flow from her eyes.
Lu Heng looked at her smiling tears, the sullen feeling in his heart was suppressed to suffocation, he reached out and gently brushed away the tears on her cheeks, the light liquid slightly carried her body temperature, but despite this temperature, it burned his hands.
"Sun Yingchen, don't cry."
Lu Heng looked at her, he knew that he couldn't wipe away his tears now, because the person who shed tears was not something he could comfort with a few soft words, she needed to cry and hurt herself, and then wipe her tears away, cheer up, smile, and face the world again.
Lu Hengduo wanted to tell her: 'Sun Yingchen, in fact, you are not alone in facing the world, you are not alone, every time you are sad, I can empathize, you will get better, and turn back into the Sun Yingchen who will smile no matter what happens, the first time you met, come back with that strange but warm smile. ’
Sun Yingchen, you have to become aware of how to enjoy life, instead of sitting quietly and waiting for life to give you a slap in the face.