Dingdong Dingdong...... The doorbell kept ringing, and I knew that it was Huo Nanyi again.

But I don't want to see him.

I hated him for taking away my chance to be with my children.

He knew how guilty I was, and just wanted to keep him for a while, but he ruthlessly took him away while I was asleep.

Buzzing, the phone rang, it was him, but I really didn't want to see him and I didn't want to hear him.

I turned off my phone and threw my phone on the couch. Rushing back to the room, he buried himself under the covers.

Four months have passed, but I still often dream of him, the child who died in my womb.

Even though my brain is a little confused now, my memory is declining, and I can't remember all the people I knew before, no matter what happens, I can't forget him.

A person who has left me before he grows up, but he grows deep in my heart, like a tree, slowly taking root and sprouting, and now, it has grown into a strong tree.

Sadness swallowed me up, but I could still hear the doorbell, like a talisman, still ringing stubbornly, without stopping.

I couldn't bear it anymore, so I slammed the door angrily, opened the door, and scolded with my head and face: "Are you sick?" I've said it all, don't bother me, get out! ”

He slammed the door shut, damn it, but he reached over and stopped at the door so I couldn't close it.

"Let it go! Otherwise, I'll kill you! ”

But he was indifferent, his heart was horizontal, and he pulled hard, but he still didn't let go, and he didn't even say a word, as if he wasn't caught in his hand at all.

Seeing the back of his hand, which had turned from red to purple, as if he had suddenly lost his strength, he couldn't hang down his hand, turned around and went home, no longer caring about him.

He closed the door, followed in, put down what he was holding, looked at me, and said, "Sit down first, I'll cook." "I carried the food into the kitchen.

This kind of thing happens all the time. He always found a way to force me to compromise and then managed to enter my house, cook for me, force me to finish eating, and wait until I fell asleep before leaving.

Every time, I don't know what he's trying to do.

I'm just a woman who can't even give him a child, and I don't know how to cherish him, but he just has to pester me, no matter where I go.

Now, the city I am in is just a small town, right in Qingshui City, a city south of Bimao City. And this town is called "Mo Linshui", but it is a small town surrounded by water on all sides.

I came here yesterday afternoon. I had been moving before. In those four months, I moved more than 100 times. And each time, the maximum is not more than three days.

As soon as I moved to a new place, he soon came, and at first, he cheekily broke into my house and lived in my house.

But after I taught him a hard lesson, he didn't come anymore. Mainly because he was afraid that I would really die.

Dealing with Huo Nanyi, beating and scolding is a waste of strength, and it is useless to him at all.

The only way that works is to hurt yourself.

As long as I force him with my life, he will obey and dare not hesitate in the slightest.

But this kind of love makes me even more sad, I can't even keep my only child, and I don't deserve to be with him.

When he took me to New Zealand, I was really depressed, I couldn't eat or sleep. All day long, in addition to nightmares, it is self-harm.

And he stayed with me and helped me out. At that time, I was also going to be like that, the three of us lived with him, and I had the child who died in my womb.

The doctor urged me to get rid of him as soon as possible, otherwise I wouldn't be able to save myself.

But I was reluctant, kept making trouble, and didn't go to the hospital.

Huo Nanyi also persuaded me several times, but I sternly refused.

It was me and his child, the only child, and I didn't want him to leave us like that.

Crying, forcing him to be helpless, he had to obey my heart, coaxed me and said, don't flow, we are a family of three, live well.

I did, after all, I could never really doubt him.

But I didn't expect him to live up to my trust.

Just after I was slowly coming out of the haze of my child's death, one day, after I was asleep, he called a doctor and took it upon himself to abort my child.

I was crying hoarsely and begging him, but he didn't do anything. It's like dealing with the enemy, fiercely.

The next day, I committed suicide by jumping into the sea, but unfortunately I was rescued by him.

After about a week or so, it occurred to me that I was going to punish him and make him more miserable than I was.

So, I said goodbye, returned to China alone, found a small place, and lived incognito.

But I overestimated my own abilities and underestimated him. I had just settled into my new place, but when I came home the next day, he showed up in the kitchen, made me soup, and took care of my life.

Unwilling to forgive him easily, he began to flee.

It's just that every time, I can't escape. It's like, I'm the Monkey King, and he's the five-fingered mountain, and I can't escape.

Collapsed weakly on the couch, not wanting to look at him again.

In fact, I also know in my heart that he did it for my good, but I was hypocritical and couldn't accept his approach.

You can enlighten me well, maybe I will......

No, I won't! If he hadn't taken advantage of me and dropped him, I would have died with him.

But I'd rather be like that than live like I am.

After the supervisor finished eating, he cleaned up the kitchen, came over with a glass of hot milk, and placed it on the table.

"Remember to drink before going to sleep. Go to bed early, don't stay too late, come over tomorrow morning and make you breakfast. ”

Turn around, and you're about to leave with the garbage.

"Huo Nanyi, go back! The Huo family can't do without you, and the group can't do without you. Don't waste any more time on me, my injuries can't heal anymore. ”

Seeing everything he has done for me, it is impossible to say that I am not moved at all, and I am not distressed at all.

In the end, he is also the person I love, how can I not feel sorry for him?

It's just that I really can't forget the past, and I can't let go of those things.

Now, I am almost twenty-nine, and I am no longer as willful as before, and I look down on some things, so I naturally let go of some things.

But there are some attachments that can never slip through the net, and they have always been buried deep in my heart.

Maocheng, I'll go back, but, not now. I will continue to pay the debt I owe, but it will not be so humble again.

"Don't be cranky, get some rest. Don't run anymore, I won't force you to do anything, I'm just afraid that you won't be able to take care of yourself, so I'll come and supervise you. ”

Took the door and left my house.

I haven't planned to run away anymore, so love is what it is! Anyway, I'm like this, no matter how much I toss, I'm still alive.

With the mentality of breaking the jar and breaking it, I started looking for a job. In the end, I settled on a cake shop opposite the kindergarten and worked as a waitress there.

Every day work is not busy, when I am free, I sit by the window, looking at the kindergarten door, a sitting is half an hour, by the boss lady said a few times, or dead do not change.

But the strange thing is that even if I was like this, she didn't fire me. Instead, a young part-time girl was invited to come over and share the work.

When the girls came, I had more free time, and sometimes, I could spare a few minutes to watch the children after class.

Whenever I see the innocent smiles on their faces, I imagine what that child will look like when he grows up and goes to kindergarten. Is it the same as them, carrying a schoolbag, holding my hand, smiling so brightly and cutely......

But when I think about it, it hurts too much when I return to reality, so I restrain myself and try not to think about it.

Gradually, I thought less about it, and the child appeared less often, and even sometimes, I would suspect that he hadn't been here at all.

After staying in Mo Linshui for more than half a month, I gradually integrated into the life of this water town, although I used to like to see the sea, but I was afraid of water. But now, I dare to walk into the deep water alone, and then open my chest and try to embrace the water.

After a few times, I actually learned to swim on my own, although the posture is not very beautiful, but the technique is passable.

Even though my life is normal, Huo Nanyi still comes to my house every day, cooks for me, and supervises me.

Today, he seems to have something to go back, but I didn't see him, and I felt very unwell, as if I was sick. Unconsciously, I have become accustomed to the life with him, even if I don't say a word, just there, but it has become the most eye-catching scenery.

As usual, after dinner, we walked south along the bluestone road leading to the center of the town.

The trail was tortuous, almost ten meters away, and there was a bend. In each bend, there are reliefs, after a long period of sun and rain, it is no longer very clear, but the outline is faintly visible.

I walked many times, but the farthest was the 200th corner, and the rest was never finished.

When I got to the 200th corner, I suddenly wondered what the scenery would be like at the last corner.

I looked at the sky again, and it was not very late, so I continued to walk forward, to find out, what was going on, what was going on.

I walked seriously, and I didn't pay attention to my back, if I hadn't been so tired that I was resting against the wall, a Samoyed suddenly ran up and licked my feet happily, I didn't know that he was actually following me.

"Why are you here? I thought you went back and didn't see you. ”

The words blurted out, but I wanted to slap myself twice, and I actually said what I missed directly.

He shouted, "Joy, come here." Then the dog ran towards him.

Holding it by the hand, he slowly approached me, "Didn't you always want a dog?" Well, I'll leave it to you in the future. "Hand me the rope.

"You don't want it anymore?" Squatted down, held Joy's face, and rubbed it, "Joy, he doesn't want you anymore, let's be friends in the future!" ”

Joy seemed to understand my words, jumped twice, and shouted happily, presumably in response to my words.

"How is everything going over there? Are my grandfathers okay? ”

"It's all good, it's just that your aunt hospitalized your angry grandfather."