Su Ning was woken up by a ringtone of her mobile phone, and when she opened her eyes, it was already past midnight, she was lying on her bed, Peng Tian hurriedly entered the house to get her mobile phone, and saw that she woke up.

"Awake? Something to eat? I cooked porridge. He touched Su Ning's head with a gentle face.

"You sent me back?" Su Ning sat up and asked.

“…… Yes, everyone will send you back together, and I will stay and see. He looked into her eyes, his eyes full of worry.

Su Ning felt a burst of silent thanks in her heart,

"Feeling better? Is it OK to drink some porridge? ”

While sitting in the living room drinking porridge, Peng Tian became interested in her bookshelf. Sitting on the armrest of the sofa, I swiped one by one, scratched one by one, and pulled it out to see that it was Haruki Murakami's "Men Without Women".

In such an apartment of more than 60 square meters, all of which are cheap IKEA furniture, she drinks warm porridge at the table, he reads under the lamp, the silhouette faces the lamp, his eyes look down, his eyelashes are like beige moth wings, resting on his thin cheeks, and the window is an ambiguous gray sky. Su Ning suddenly felt that this was closer to the real happiness that an ordinary person could bear.

After drinking the porridge, Peng Tian sat down, looked at her and said, "I still don't eat on time as before." ”

"Today is an accident," Su Ning couldn't help but mutter......

"I'll tell you a negative lesson." The corners of Peng Tian's mouth curled, and he couldn't help but tell her some of his own things and thoughts.

One autumn midnight when he was sixteen years old, he had an attack of acute appendicitis and rolled in bed in pain. Without saying a word, his mother put on a coat for him and carried him downstairs to stop the car to go to the hospital. After the operation, when he opened his eyes, the first thing that came into his eyes was his mother, sitting on the side of the bed, quietly watching him. Peng Tian felt an indescribable sense of relief, and that feeling was so good.

When he went home and went upstairs, Peng Tian looked at the seemingly endless stairs, and then looked at the short and thin woman next to him who couldn't even hold a gas canister, and asked, "Mom, how did you carry me downstairs?" Mother smiled faintly and said; You're a lot taller and heavier than your dad. ”

Peng Tian was a child who grew up in the countryside, his father died when he was ten years old, and his mother raised him alone, walking 30 miles of mountain roads every day to send him to elementary school, and later went to a middle school in the city, was admitted to a key university in Yunjing City, and finally crossed the ocean to study in the United States. Every step he took was farther away from home.

From the age of sixteen, he began to exercise and began to run long-distance running, from high school to college, from China to the United States. Morning jogging, all year round. He could not let a mother lose her only son, nor could he let a future wife lose her husband and a child lose their father. He must live well.

"Oh, that's not easy." After listening to Peng Tian's story, Su Ning sighed, about his family and background, she only vaguely understood a little when she was in love, but the other party's attitude made her feel that this was a topic that should not be touched, so she didn't ask. "So, you must also protect yourself, do you know?" Peng Tian looked at her, his eyes were focused and serious, Su Ning felt a little embarrassed, and avoided making eye contact with him.

Peng Tian looked at the time, got up and said, "Then I'll go, you have a good rest, there is still milk and toast on the table, remember to eat breakfast." ”

Su Ning felt very warm, but also a little ambiguous. Before Peng Tian turned to leave, she said, "Thank you......"

Peng Tian put his hands in his pockets, wearing a black round-necked sweatshirt, standing in the doorway. He smiled, "Silly girl." The door was opened, leaving a meaningful back.

Walked to the side of the bed, threw himself down, and wanted to press the command to forcibly shut down his body, but his brain did not listen to the command and was horribly awake. Maybe it's because the little person in the belly doesn't want to sleep, since pregnancy, the mother and the child are inseparable, the child absorbs the mother's qi and blood, and her body is no longer his own body, but shared with the child.

Peng Tian talked about her mother, which reminded her of her mother. Speaking of which, they are also somewhat connected by fate, her father died when she was thirteen years old, myocardial infarction, the whole thing happened so quickly and so suddenly, she didn't even have time to react.

She vividly remembers seven o'clock in the evening of the third day after her father's funeral, which was the time when the family used to eat and have dinner. As soon as the old pendulum clock flickered to this point, it rang "dangdang", and the sound was ancient and steady. The mother stared blankly at the old pendulum clock on the wall for a while, and then entered the kitchen, selecting, washing, cutting, stir-frying, washing rice, and cooking rice, every action was extremely solemn and full of a sense of mission. When dinner was ready, the mother served the meal as usual, set up the chopsticks, and when everything was finished, she called her daughter: "Ning Ning, it's time to eat." ”

In the future, Su Ning remembered having dinner at this hour. The days are always going on. It seems that everything is gradually returning to normal, going to and from school normally, going to and from work normally, as for the mother, I believe she is the same, Su Ning thought.

How difficult it is for a woman to raise a child alone and grow up, Su Ning knows better than anyone.

It's half past two in the morning, it's not a good time for a family call, you must call your mother tomorrow, you have to go home this week, Su Ning planned like this, exhausted the last bit of strength, wrapped in the quilt, and finally fell asleep, without any dreams.

When I woke up in the morning, it was already nine o'clock the next day. Su Ning sat on the bed, leaning against the window, and made a long stupe. She didn't even have a clue, she didn't know how to move forward.

At this time, her mother should have wandered around, came home from the vegetable market, took out her mobile phone, and dialed the phone. Waiting on the other end of the phone, the voice that reassured her rang.

After a long time, the phone was connected, and only her mother's breathing was heard as if she had just finished running.

"Mom, why did you go?"

"I didn't ...... I didn't do anything, I just took a walk. There was a hint of panic in his voice.

"Who are you walking with? Aunt Zhang? ”

"Aunt Zhang recently helped her daughter take the child. Why did you call at this time? ”

Su Ning listened to her change the topic, her words flickered, and she couldn't help but wonder, "If I miss you, I'll call." ”

Mom was obviously very useful when she heard it, but the words turned into nagging again, "You must eat well usually, don't think about losing weight all day long, girls are blessed with a little meat, do you hear it, you are not allowed to lose weight blindly." ”

Su Ning's nose was sour, and she asked, "Mom, was it very hard when you gave birth to me?" ”

"Ouch, that time really cost me half my life! I already had a heart condition, and I was considered an advanced maternal age, and the doctor said that it was dangerous to have a baby. When it was time to give birth to you, I couldn't give birth for a long time, and I was almost about to be pulled to a caesarean section, and finally tossed you out for a day and a night. When you were first born, you were ugly, your face was red and wrinkled, your hair was sparse, like a little mouse, but it made me sad, fortunately, the eighteenth female college has changed ......" As she spoke, Su Ning vaguely heard a man's voice coming from there.

Then, her mother said, "Hmm...... I'm going to cook, I won't tell you, you can go to work. ”

Su Ning was a little confused, "No, where are you ......" Before the words fell, the phone had already been hung up.

What's the situation? Didn't my mother secretly usher in the second spring?