I don't know when the wind picked up outside, it was very strong, and it was "whirring" outside the window, Su Ning heard the wind in her sleep, and her first thought was that the outside shooting of the program would be disturbed tomorrow, so that she could rest for a day. There was nothing around but the sound of the wind, and I don't know how I woke up.

Half past four in the morning.

Gu Cheng, who fell in love, said: "It's a lonely thing to see the dawn up. ”

What's wrong with her? She went online to open the webpage, typed in Ouyang Zhen's name, and looked at his photo on the screen, she fell into thinking again. He is too dazzling, she is too ordinary. Maybe that's what he can't say, that's why he refuses. They are simply at the poles of the earth, different species.

But why do his eyes always appear in her dreams?

You can't fall in love with him, right? Su Ning rolled over and buried her head in the pillow.

"Absolutely not!" She shouted.

He's just a handsome and golden playboy, and if it's just an emotional game, he's a good partner. You've slept with him, but that doesn't mean anything, don't fall in love with him. And the kid...... It's just an accident, she'll fix it herself. Okay, that's it, no repentance! Now be a good boy and go to sleep, if you can fall asleep, it means that you are not in love with him, there is nothing to be afraid of! Just a perfect person, but it has nothing to do with you, it's not good to fall in love with him, you know......

Su Ning persuaded herself for two hours, and it was not until the voices of people on the street downstairs gradually sounded that she finally fell asleep.

When she got up, it was already past ten o'clock, and she brazenly told the caterpillar that she had worked overtime all night last night and had to take a day off. Ten minutes later, my phone vibrated and I was shown the first version of the interview program in the afternoon.

Sure enough, a workday without surprises after insomnia, the boss is hell.

She registered at a maternal and child health hospital closer to her home, and checked again with a one-thousandth chance mentality, but there was no suspense, and the result remained unchanged.

The expressionless doctor glanced at the report card, did not raise his head, and asked, "Do you want it?" ”

"Huh?" Su Ning didn't understand.

"I mean, kid, do you want it?" The doctor aggravated his tone impatiently.

"Oh," Su Ning was a little apprehensive, took a deep breath, and seemed to have some kind of decisive decision, "Hmm...... No. ”

The doctor still didn't look up, "How many times?" ”

"What first few times?"

"I mean, how many pregnancies, how many abortions?" The doctor frowned, she had to face so many patients crying and howling every day, and everyone asked her to repeat the words twice, then she would not die of exhaustion.

"Once, oh, I mean, it's the first time." Su Ning was as weak and nervous as when she faced a teacher's question when she was studying.

The doctor finally looked up at her, as if surprised, "Don't you want the first one?" It may lead to recurrent miscarriages later on. ”

Su Ning was taken aback, she didn't expect such serious consequences. The billboards on the buses, the advertisements on the mobile screens of the subways, and the pamphlets on the side of the road all create the illusion that painless abortions are as common as a painless cold, and that all you need to do is get a good night's sleep. You won't even leave any suspicious wounds or evidence on your body to remind you of the cruel crimes you have committed.

There was a girl in her class when she was in college, very pure and beautiful, the kind of girl who couldn't help but joke with her when the instructor first started military training. She is also very introverted, blushing easily, in short, the first love face in most boys' minds. Until one day, a girl in the same dormitory with her, when she was eating with Su Ning and them, couldn't help but break the news that the girl was pregnant. The most bloody thing is that she doesn't know whose child it is.

At that time, Su Ning hadn't started to fall in love, and suddenly there was a sense of impact of shattering the three views, but she didn't expect Chen Xi's next sentence to be even more shocking, she said, in this school, there should be an average of at least ten people having abortions every day.

Seeing that she was in a trance, the doctor opened a list, "You go to have a B-ultrasound examination first, whether you want this child or not." ”

When she got up to leave with the list, she finally heard the doctor's voice soften, "Think about it again." It's a matter of two people, don't make the decision alone. ”

On the color ultrasound printing sheet, there is a black shadow, and inside is a small fingernail-sized spot of light, which is the gestational sac, which says that it will be about forty days for intrauterine pregnancy. Su Ning put her finger on that little bit of light, as if it was warm, there was such a villain in her body, it was incredible!

At that moment, she fell almost completely in love with it, and she looked greedily, and a strong feeling rose in her heart: it was very happy in my belly, and I was happy that it was about to come into this world. It doesn't have the gloom and hesitation of its mother, it's a new life, unhesitating, fearless.

She sat in the hospital until 2 p.m. before leaving for the office, trying to look safe.

As a result, not long after she sat down, Yang Ting, who was sitting next to her, turned her head and informed her with a strange expression that the caterpillar was summoning.

"Xiao Su, you've been out of work lately!" Pushing the door in, the caterpillar scanned her up and down twice with a speculative gaze.

Su Ning stammered, "Teacher Mao, I'm ...... I'm not feeling well these days. ”

"It's not a broken love, is it?" The caterpillar finally couldn't help but say.

"......" Su Ning was stunned for three seconds, and then said, "Yes." ”

"Which idiot dumped you?" The caterpillar then said, "He is blind and unworthy of you, and you should have gone astray." ”

Yes, yes, Su Ning agreed, making full use of this reason to win some sympathy points for herself, and diverted her attention by the way.

At this time, someone knocked on the door, looked up, and it was Peng Tian. The caterpillar immediately stood up, "Mr. Peng, is there something wrong?" ”

"Oh, it's fine." Peng Tian smiled lightly, "It's just to talk to Su Ning about the plan." ”

"Xiao Su, then you hurry up, it's okay here."

So Su Ning had to follow Peng Tian to his office like a resold hostage. Before this, it was a deputy general office who had changed jobs, and the style had not changed much, but a lot of bloated calligraphy, paintings, and literary ornaments had been removed, and he became much younger in an instant.

"I've read the plan you wrote, and there's basically no problem, it's just not atmospheric enough."

Su Ning listened in a daze, and tiredness began to erode her will bit by bit, not sleepiness, but boundless weakness.

"Those copywriting, narration, at first glance, are from your handwriting, sad, and beautiful."

Peng Tian babbled, and Su Ning only felt that someone was holding a sand hammer and there was a buzzing sound in her ears. She felt Peng Tian stretch out his hand and shake it in front of her eyes a few times, "Asu, your face is very bad." ”

She struggled to speak, "What? ”

"Didn't you eat at noon? You've had low blood sugar all the time. ”

Su Ning began to think slowly about the answer to this question, yes, I didn't eat at noon, what about in the morning? Did you eat last night? ……

She couldn't remember the last time she had eaten until she lost consciousness.