—————— second letter————————

[I thought she would cry alone for a while, but there was almost no time gap, she walked past me lightly and said calmly: "Go back, I'm tired. ”

After that, we went back to our old relationship and didn't have much communication.

She still lives according to her life routine, getting up to eat at the hour, reading and writing when she reads, playing the piano and painting when she meets a good day, taking a nap at noon, when it is her favorite hour, she will kick the keys in the garden with the keys, and when she is in a good mood, she can kick it all afternoon.

Shen eats at night, but lately she's starting to find a new pastime, going to the kitchen to steam and bake strange pastries.

He would mostly come to see her, no matter how busy he was, pushing the swing for her in the courtyard full of lights, and the two of them talked lightly, which was the only time I didn't have to be with her, and the only time she said, free.

I would pick her up, and she would usually go back to her room to wash up and go to bed.

She has a habit of sleeping like a child and never turning off the lights when she sleeps.

So I still don't know when she falls asleep every day, so I always stay awake in case she suddenly has something to do and go out.

"How can you do this!" Just three days after that incident, I heard them arguing again. This time she seemed to have lost all reason and self-control, and shouted angrily.

He gave him a look, and all the sentries except me retreated. If it weren't for the secret of the secrets, he wouldn't have easily withdrawn the protection.

But no matter how confidential it is, he will tell her everything like a family chatter, and usually, she just listens to it as faintly as firewood, rice, oil and salt.

This time, I don't know what she was angry about, it must be something special, but if something special happened, why didn't I know?

"You know what we're up against, both houses are protecting her, she's doing almost whatever she wants, and if it goes on like this, I don't know if I'll be able to keep you next time."

"That's why you've sacrificed so many people, your brothers, your sisters, and those who don't have anything to do with it are a piece of sand in your eyes, and you're going to give them away. But what you ruin is a person's life, a life, and you are suffering from it day by day! ”

"Do you think I'm willing? Am I such a cold and heartless person in your heart?! His voice suddenly raised, I don't think he had ever spoken to her so loudly, he had always been a reserved person, and even to us we rarely had such a temper shown.

She looked up into his eyes, and although I couldn't see the expression on her face, I could feel her surprise and indifference.

He suppressed his anger and said, "But we must sacrifice a few people to complete our big plan. If she shrinks back and is reluctant to be ruthless, there will be no hope of gaining power at that time, and what she can destroy is the people of the world, the people of the world! ”

"Then you will have all your bones and sit on the common people!" She said this fiercely and turned to leave.

This time I did not ask him, nor did I hide my tracking, but followed her all the way to the farthest corner of the manor, the pond with nowhere to hide.

Maybe only there can she presumptuously see the eyeliner around her, and she can also feel the far-fetched freedom uncontrollably.

The wind tugged at her clothes recklessly, and for a moment I suddenly wanted to hold her in my arms and cover her with all the sorrows and sorrows of the world. I admired the undisguised look of joy on her face as she kicked the key.

"Are you also involved in this matter?!" She had been quiet and suddenly turned her head coldly to look at me.

I was stunned: "What's the matter?" ”

"Second brother's business! Don't say you don't know! "She seemed to want to pour all her resentment out of me, which made me even more inexplicable.

"I really don't know. I've always been here, and I barely know anything about the outside world. What happened to him? ”

She was still very angry: "Is it in your hearts, only the big plan is the matter, and other people's lifelong life, other people's children and daughters can be sacrificed!" ”

"Dick? What's going on? ”

I suddenly felt a little weird, because I really hadn't seen in a long time, and I hadn't heard from him. A few days ago, he always came here from time to time to see us.

She wanted to blurt out something, but immediately hesitated, her expression changed from anger to silence, turned her face to look at the pond of a river, and said sadly: "He has changed, I don't know how long he can hold up the old way in front of me." He can sacrifice Tian Mei and his second brother for his so-called big plan, and one day it may be me. ”

"No—he did it to protect you. Even if the fire has been ignited, no one can stay outside, and only by moving forward can most of the people be saved. I intuitively dismissed her claim, but I still wanted to know what he had done to the dick.

She looked at me with a smile in her eyes, there was no coldness in her eyes, only sadness: "If one day, he asks you to save my plan, will you take care of the overall situation and keep the so-called majority of people as you say now?" ”

I was silent.

She closed her eyes and smiled coldly, and turned to leave.

I saw disappointment in her face.

But she doesn't know that I will be a general for generations, and I must obey orders, and I must not hesitate for the slightest.

Now that I'm hesitating, does it mean that in my heart, there is something more important than Shuai Ling, or someone? 】

—————— the third ————————

[I know what he did to the second child.] As she said, he destroyed all the love of his children because of the fulfillment of his plan.

So I haven't seen the second child since then, the second child who loves and hates among us, is decisive and calm, like a lamp that goes out.

I can't bear to stop from being so decadent, and I'm amazed at the power that love can destroy.

Little did I know at the time that the last time we were in a hurry was the last of our lifetimes.

Because of the second child, I avoided him during this time, just like her.

I'm a straight talker, and I'm afraid I'll say things on the merits as I did when I was younger, but I know that our identities have decided everything, and I can't make any judgments about his decisions and abandonments. I can understand his heart slowly hardening in this struggle, but I can't help but occasionally feel cold, the range of sacrifices he can accept is getting bigger and bigger, and the object is getting closer and closer, maybe it will be my turn one day, as she said.

But I had nothing to sacrifice, because I didn't want anything, and I wanted nothing to help him in his plan.

But I was wrong, he wanted more than anyone could have imagined.

"I can't see it, you have your own opinions." She suddenly smiled at me.

I pulled my attention back from my contemplation, bitter: "Maybe we all need to think calmly, he thinks about his boundaries, we think about his difficulties." ”

"If the original ideal was sacred and great, then everything we do now is just to accomplish that ideal, becoming more and more paranoid, more and more unscrupulous, and more and more unrecognizable. Maybe in the end, he'll lose everything—"

"But we will not give up on him at any time." I decisively interrupted her conjecture.

She looked at me in surprise, and the surprise and admiration in her eyes made her countenance so vivid.

She is a butterfly in the dream of the imperial capital, and she is a beautiful blessing given by God to the chaos of the world.

I felt that my heart was beating fast, and I couldn't concentrate, and she blushed slightly, and turned her face sideways with a slight smile.

"If—" she said softly.

"What?" I scrambled to answer, my heart beating faster and faster.

She seemed taken aback by my quick reaction, and we both laughed, and she hung her head and shook her head softly, "Nothing, nothing." ”

She frowned coldly for the people of the world, but she would smile like a flower because of my dullness.

I looked at the sky, and then looked at her thin body in the wind, worried that she was not able to withstand the night wind, and I was only wearing a single coat, unable to add clothes for her. ”

She stood up and walked a few steps, and suddenly looked back at me, the wind was blowing her hair around, and she stroked her hair and laughed, "How can you block me from the wind when you are so far away?" ”

I kept the distance a little closer, and I knew that being close would shorten the reaction time to emergencies, but I tried to ignore that for her.

She walked quickly behind me with her head down, and I could feel the tenderness of the wind blowing her long hair behind my back, and I froze in place and did not dare to take another step, for fear that one more step would narrow the distance between us.

She obediently hid behind me, and after a long time, she said in a beautiful voice: "Idiot, if you stand any longer, it will be really dark." ”

I walked forward in a daze, afraid that she would follow far away, and I didn't dare to look back.

At this time, she grabbed the corner of my clothes childishly, and still had that touching and beautiful voice: "Slow down, follow the loss and see how you compensate." ”】