Yes...... That's what Xia Xia said just now......

I pinched my hand until it bleed......

"Sister Fei's illness is getting worse and worse, and it has become so serious that Sister Song can't control it...... I know that Sister Song tried her best, and it was because she tried her best that it was terrifying...... The third brother also said that if it weren't for Sister Song, Sister Fei might have died a long time ago, and it would be considered earning to live until now and a few more years...... Sister Fei is such a good person, why does God treat her like this......"

I feel nauseous and want to throw up......

My illness, my illness is very good, I had it in early autumn, and I vomited blood, and I thought it wouldn't get better, but Song Lingjian has relieved me, and I haven't sent it again after that, I'm fine now, how can it get worse?

"It's all to blame on Jin Niang, it's all to blame for Jin Niang's bad-hearted woman! Sister Fei has no grudges against her, why is she so ruthless to attack her? You're still colluding with that man! Xia Xia gritted her teeth.

Jin Niang? Why is Jin Niang mentioned again?

"Those rust poisons are just smeared on the envelope, you have touched it a few times and it has stuck to your body, you can't bear it for a strong person like you, Sister Fei has grown up with those poisons since she was a child, how can she live a long life to be a hundred years old? …… Sister Song was afraid that the rust poison in your body would affect Sister Fei's condition, so she told me to separate you - but Sister Fei wanted to take care of you, wiped your sweat and covered the quilt, and told you that she was by her side when you were seriously ill......"

I couldn't breathe, my legs were filled with lead, and I couldn't even try to escape!

I almost forgot that I had the poison of rust deep in my body, and even if I rejuvenated it, I couldn't pull it out......

Xia Xia bit her lip and cried, and then bit her wrist as if I heard it to suppress her crying......

No, no, this must be a dream, it must be ......

Where did this dream begin......

Maybe I'm still in the indigo private room in the toast building, with the dripping ornament, lying peacefully and dreaming wildly, it must be......

I've been asleep for a long time, why hasn't anyone come to wake me up, why hasn't anyone woken me up yet?

But why is the feeling of numbness in the legs so real? Don't you feel pain in your dreams?

It must be an illusion, it must be an illusion.

I leaned on my legs against the wall, and I went back, and I had to go back to my room, and I went back to bed, and then I woke up from the dream, and everything that started to happen from the time I came out of the toast building, was fake...... I didn't go to the alley of Uncle Hei's house, I didn't hear Uncle Cai's worried conversation, I didn't go to Zhang's wooden courtyard, I didn't listen to Zhang's strange talk about the shadow of the sun, I didn't go home, Xia Xia didn't say what I said about my condition just now, no, nothing happened!

As soon as I entered the room, I quickly untied my coat and rolled it into the quilt without even taking off my coat, and I wanted to go to sleep quickly and wake up with my dreams.

Normally, on this cold day, I would fall asleep as soon as I entered the room, but now I was so nervous that I wanted to fall asleep so much, but the more I couldn't sleep, the stove was beeping, all the sounds were clearly visible, and upstairs there was the sound of beads falling on the floor.

I tossed and turned irritably, eager to get up and go upstairs to complain, she didn't care about the small things in the house, she would only annoy me when I was upset! I know it's not filial piety, but mother, can't you be sensible, can't you stay quiet like this all the time?!

I was thinking about this in a daze, when her quiet singing suddenly began to sound.

My rising anger dissipated at once—it was the third time I'd heard her whisper in my size.

Her singing voice is very beautiful, as if it can lock in all the beautiful scenery in the world, and evoke the softest memories in the heart.

"Since you left me, personnel are immeasurable. If it is not as good as the first wish, it is not what you know. After the dying dusk, the lonely man is set. Take off your skirt and take off your silk shoes, and go to Qingchi. Tie the hair with the pillow seat, and Huangquan is a friend. The king is regarded as a rock, and the concubine is regarded as a reed, and the reed is like silk, and the rock is not transferred......"

She sang the same song three times, I don't know if she made it up herself or where she learned it, the words sound very profound, the tune is sad, I was still very young when I first listened to it, my father just disappeared not long ago, in the middle of the night I thought of my father to cry, and then my mother sang quietly upstairs, when I heard the word "Yellow Spring", I was so scared that I didn't dare to cry, and I was angry for a long time; The second time I listened to it, it seemed like five or six years ago, I forgot what I was doing at any time, in short, in a summer dusk, I knew that I was endlessly screaming in the trees, and suddenly there was a beautiful song floating out of my mother's window, and the sound was so clear that it overshadowed the voice, floating in the sky of the town, as if the whole town had stopped at that time, stopped the hot and boring fan, and even held their breath, quietly listening to the soft singing of the butterflies in the imperial capital......

Since you say goodbye to me, the personnel are immeasurable, and it is not as good as the first wish, and it is not what you know.

Maybe it's because I've grown up, I seem to be able to understand the meaning, is my mother missing my father? Do you want to tell him about the things that happened around us during his absence?

Dad, if we meet under the Yellow Spring, where should I start talking to you?

The king is regarded as a rock, and the concubine is regarded as a reed, and the reed is like silk, and the rock is not transferred......

This sentence made my eyes wet inexplicably.

Thinking of their young faces in the dream, my mother put her hand on my father's palm and said to him, "The sky is thundering and the earth is hot, and I will never regret it...... What happened to the two people who swore at that time?

I was dazed and half-asleep, and dimly heard Xia Xia muttering outside: "This Fei sister, didn't you say to make porridge?" Where did you go? ”

Am I asleep? Or did you wake up?

"Sister Fei? Are you in the house? Xia Xia asked softly outside the door.

"Yes." I answered.

Xia Xia pushed the door in, looked at me and smiled: "I said that you, Sister Fei, have you come to the room to boil porridge?" ”

I stared at her face carefully, slightly tired, but there was no sadness, how could it be like I had secretly cried just now, was it really a dream?

"What's wrong? Tired, right? Then you can sleep, and I'll make porridge. ”

I pulled Xia Xia and asked, "How is Yan Cuo?" ”

"Sister Song said, mainly two days after Ming - Sister Fei, what are you anxious about, even if it is an elixir prescribed by a miracle doctor, it will not work so quickly."

My heart is still on it, I really want to confirm what I just said to Xia Xia, is it true, or did I hear it wrong? Because looking at her relaxed appearance now, she doesn't look like someone who said those words at all!

"Sister Fei, you are just in love with blind worries - look at you, you are sleeping in your clothes, and the hairpins are still on your head, so you are not afraid of poking your head." Saying that, Xia Xia untied my hair bun and carefully plucked the hairpin.

I saw that when she raised her hand to untie her hair, there were several tooth marks of different shades on her wrist where the sleeve had slipped off......

My heart sank to the bottom......

"No need......" I gently pushed Xia Xia's hand away.

"What's wrong?" Xia Xia was stunned.

"I don't sleep anymore and want to go out for a walk." I said calmly.

Xia Xia snorted and said, "Not long after I came back, I want to go out again?" Sister Fei, you've changed a lot lately, you never went out alone before, you had to drag me with you in life and death, could it be that you secretly made new friends and didn't tell me, right? ”

I smiled and said, "Where are the new friends for me - you are all busy, how can you have time to hang out with me." ”

Xia Xia looked at me thoughtfully.

I pushed her and said, "Just kidding, it's cold, I want to order some pig's trotters from Uncle Cai, and I can roast them around the stove in a few days." ”

Xia Xia smiled: "Okay, okay, I drool when I think about it-then Sister Fei, go early, come back before dark." ”

I smiled and nodded, and put the half-untied bun back up, Xia Xia hurriedly brought me the mirror, I looked at my face in the mirror, and the smile that was deliberately pulled out seemed to be frozen on it, so far-fetched and so false.

Dressed and ready to go, Xia Xiaru usually helped me to hold my suffocation to the door, sent me out with a smile, I also left with a smile, walked forward, turned my head and waved to her, she wrinkled her nose happily at me, and started at our army.

I turned around and continued to walk, turned a corner, and then stopped at the corner, sneaking a peek at Xia Xia, who was still in a daze at the door, her face no longer had that happy smile, but a thick sadness.

I leaned feebly against the wall, and everything was real......

When I got to the front of the medical house, I didn't even have the courage to muster up my hand, so I reached out and knocked on the half-hidden door.

Although I am a sick man, I rarely enter the door of the hospital, I am afraid of the smell of medicine, afraid of the pity in the eyes of the doctor in charge when looking at me, afraid that when I meet the townspeople in the hospital, they will come to ask for warmth and cold.

The doctor in charge walked out, because the door in the hospital was only half covered, and there was no window to let in the light, so although there was still daylight, it was already dark inside, and there was no light, which felt weird and gloomy.

The doctor in charge moved out halfway, blocking my gaze from exploring inside, and said to me in a hoarse voice, "Boss Yan?" It's really a rare guest, let's grab the medicine, unfortunately, the goods haven't been delivered in the past few days, and my medical center has to take a few days off, Boss Yan should please go back. ”

"I'm not here to grab medicine." I blocked the door.

The doctor in charge shrank into the darkness, seemed to be a little frightened, and said with a dry smile: "Didn't you come to grab medicine?" Are you still coming to see a doctor? Song Ling's arrow medical skills are much higher than the old man's ability to make a living, and the old man does not dare to claim to understand medicine in front of her. ”

I knew that Song Lingjian had soured this old doctor before, and it was probably because of this that he didn't want to do my business, so I showed goodwill: "Doctor Ji, I really want you to help me take a good look at it, it won't delay you too much, okay?" ”

The doctor looked at me hesitantly.

"Please, I'm really in a hurry, I can't go all the way to Liucun to find other doctors, right?" I said sincerely.

The priest went into the house, lit a candle at the counter, and said, "Just for a moment." ”

I followed to the hall and whispered, "I want the doctor to help me look at my old illness, I have been seen by you a few years ago, and then I was lazy, so I just drank and drank medicine according to the old prescription......"

"Although I haven't seen Song Lingjian's medical skills, but your Xia girl often takes the prescription she prescribes to catch the medicine, I have seen the prescription method, but the side door is very exquisite, the more ordinary people think, the habitual method of the medical canon, it is indeed much higher than the old decay, this is not angry words." The doctor in charge coughed a few times in a hoarse voice.

I turned my head to look at him, and his face was a little haggard, his eyes were swollen, and his face was blue, as if he was very sick—

The heart is sad in vain, and no matter how skilled a doctor is, he will get sick, just as a person who is in good health will die one day.