"Sister Li's suicide is a matter of time, and it may be a blessing to have this, if you don't experience blood and tears, how can you know that you still have a lot of nostalgia for this world?" Zheng Zhuzhu said as if he had already guessed something.

I smiled sadly, unspeakably uncomfortable.

Zheng Zhuzhu said in a blink of an eye: "You see, at least now she knows that there are us who care about her." ”

I choked back tears and said, "Yes, Jewel, I'm so glad I met you in these last days." ”

Zheng Jewel tilted his head sensitively.

I hurriedly explained, "I mean, I knew you before you got married, otherwise it would be really difficult to see you later, let alone have such a relationship that can talk about feelings." ”

Zheng Zhuzhu smiled and nodded, as if he had already accepted this fact.

I suddenly remembered the reason why she came, and changed the topic by the way: "How could Chen Bing mention Li Xue's injury to you?" Does he know you have a relationship? ”

Zheng Zhuzhu said: "When Lian's mother-in-law died before, I knew a little bit about it, and I also asked him about it. Today I happened to be in the yayuan with that nerd, and Chen Yashi came back with a lot of worry, and told me that Sister Li had an accident, so we hurried over to have a look. ”

I nodded, maybe Chen Bing was still relieved and wanted to ask Zheng Jewelry to find out some news.

"By the way, you have gone to the yayuan, do you know how Yun Niang is?"

Zheng Zhuzhu said: "After Miss Song sent the medicine to Han Gongzi, the situation seems to be much more stable. Huang Shibo strictly ordered the two aunts and maids to guard, and did not let people get close to him for half a step. ”

"Then, what about Lord Shangguan and Master Li? If this happens, they should be the saddest thing, right? ”

Zheng Zhuzhu frowned and said, "This is not very clear, I haven't seen them a few times since I went there, and the entire yayuan is lifeless, which makes people panic." ”

I nodded.

"Little daughter-in-law, Sister Fei, Dabao has chopped Chaila, come and see quickly, it's neat." Huang Dabao shouted outside.

Zheng Zhuzhu pursed his lips and said, "Sister Li is fine, and then you can only be tired to take care of it." I can't come out for too long, otherwise I'll be blamed by Huang Shibo for that nerd. ”

I nodded and said, "Well, it's good to be here, and when this is over, I'll go to the Zheng Mansion to find you in two days." ”

Zheng nodded softly, and I got up to see her out.

Huang Dabao carried an axe in the courtyard, with a smug face, and arranged the chopped firewood on the ground one by one, as if he was showing off his works.

"Let's go back." Zheng Jewel said to him.

Huang Dabao hurriedly ran over to surround her, and said to me reluctantly: "I just saw Sister Fei, and I won't let Dabao say a few more words before leaving?" Sister Fei is so reluctant to let you go. ”

I smiled and said, "I'll go to see you in a few days, and I'll have to prepare something delicious for me at that time." ”

Huang laughed and said, "Okay, okay, then I have to go back and think about some new styles, Sister Fei is reluctant to leave." ”

Zheng Zhuzhu pulled me and said, "Don't go to the yayuan in the next few days, it seems that you want to empty it on purpose, and I don't know what the plan is." Shibo asked my father to arrange a guest room in the mansion, and also explained that he could not go to the yayuan casually without an invitation after tomorrow, so it would be good for you to come directly to the Zheng Mansion to find us, and now your face is an amnesty order, just come in and find me. ”

I wondered, "Can't you go to the yayuan?" ”

Zheng Zhu said: "Xu doesn't want to disturb Yun Niang's rest, after all, life is at stake, it's always good to be cautious." ”

After sending Zheng Jewels, I hurriedly went home, Xia Xia was making dinner in Taomi, I briefly explained to her, saying that I would accompany Li Xue tonight, not go home to sleep, Xia Xia asked me in surprise, is Li Xue much better? Are we reconciled?

I didn't dare to say more to her, so I said a few perfunctory words, packed up some things and went back to Lian's house.

Before leaving, I also paid special attention to the courtyard, and there was no sound at all, it seems that Song Lingjian has not appeared yet.

I whispered to Xia Xia as I walked, "Did you see Song Lingjian?" ”

Xia Xia shook her head: "No, but she said that Yan Cuo will improve tomorrow, and it may appear - Sister Fei, you will come back early tomorrow, and it will be better if he wakes up and sees you on the side." She turned her head to look at the backyard, referring to Yan Cuo.

I touched her head and gave her a touching look of affirmation.

Back at Lian's house, Li Xue was still asleep and did not start bleeding again as I feared.

After getting something to eat and guarding her for a while, I went back to the side room to sleep.

Maybe there are worries in my heart, or other things, or I don't get used to sleeping in this bed, I didn't sleep well all night, and I woke up several times in the middle of the night, thinking about going to see Li Xue, but to be honest, because I was timid, I was forced to hold in the bed. I didn't dare to get up in the middle of the night and walk around alone, for fear that as soon as I opened the door, I would see Lian Xiao and Aunt Lian hanging in the air looking at me with pale faces......

Oh my God, my life will be two years shorter if I think about it again!

I covered the quilt and slept in a daze, extremely sensitive to the sound outside, now I only feel safe at home, there is Song Lingjian next door, there is a bell on the courtyard gate, and Xia Xia who gets up when he screams, and Han Sanxiao who comes to hide from the lazy supper on the watch, their existence is like silently guarding me.

It was until dawn, and the whole person was so tired that his hands and feet were weak.

Li Xue knocked on the door, there was no sound, but I suffered this yesterday, I pushed the door uneasily and looked, Li Xue had already gotten up, sitting on the edge of the bed, although her face was bloodless, but it was much better than yesterday.

"Woke up so early?" I pushed the door open and entered.

Li Xue turned her head to look at me, her expression was a little dull, and she said "En" softly.

"I'm going to get breakfast, don't think about doing stupid things anymore." I said fiercely.

Li Xue flattened her mouth sadly and lowered her head deeply.

I hurriedly ran to the kitchen, brought out the porridge that was warm there last night, and put dates in it according to Chen Bing's method, but I didn't have the leisure to peel and remove the core, I was afraid that Li Xue would do something stupid again, so I hurriedly ran back again.

Li Xue was still sitting like that, I put the porridge in front of her, and said, "No one else is meticulous and thoughtful, you can make do with it." ”

Li Xue looked at the porridge and said with a wry smile: "When did you start to become sharp, or did you just treat me like this?" ”

"Just for you, I think." I'll be honest.

Li Xue's eyes were red, and her appearance was heartbreaking: "That thing has been hidden from you for so long, and it has caused you to blame yourself for a dream for so many years, and now you should hate me." ”

I sighed and said, "Actually, I've figured it out, even Xiao's death has nothing to do with anyone, it's just an accident." I thought that if I died, I would not want the friends I loved to care about to live in guilt, I would want them to live well and remember me happily. Li Xue, no matter how much she loves and hates, she can't get Lian Xiao back. ”

Li Xue has long known this fact, but she has always refused to admit it, hiding her face and crying bitterly: "Even so, I want him to be the whole of my life, I am so afraid, I am so afraid that after letting go of him, I will forget him, only in this way can I hold on to him tightly, and I can make myself worthy of the oath he once worked so hard to give me......"

Seeing Li Xue like this, I was also so uncomfortable that I said, "How come? No one will forget Lian Xiao, if he makes himself unhappy every day because he remembers him, then isn't he also very sad? ”

Li Xue cried like a child.

I seemed to suddenly understand a little, and said, "Is this why you drove Brother Chen away?" Are you afraid that once you let down your guard against him, you will forget Lian Xiao and feel sorry for Lian Xiao? ”

At this time, Li Xue didn't shake her head again, but just cried louder.

"Poor Li Xue......" I hugged her and cried together.

Maybe it was because she was in love with Chen Bing that she punished herself in such an extreme way, she wanted to keep her complete wait for Lian Xiao, but she was afraid that her feelings for Chen Bing would become deeper and deeper, and she was afraid that Chen Bing would eventually replace Lian Xiao's place in her heart, after all, Lian Xiao died to keep his promise to her......

The love is the last resort.

And Chen Bing, in order not to bear the alliance of the governor, gave up his children's affection......

I told Li Xue to lie down and rest, ran to the kitchen by myself, and cried uncomfortably.

I think of Zhu Jing, who had an innocent face yesterday, and I also think of Xiang Zhou with an angry face. Zhu Jing said that he would rather be alone until he was old than let go of Xiang Zhou alone, and Chen Bing couldn't bear the pain and no longer moved forward for the sake of the political alliance, but my father gave up the mission of the Yan clan and those brothers who were willing to live for him and die for him, so is it really selfish for my father not to want beauties?

I started to review it all again, only to realize that my father was not as great as I thought.

Did they start by turning their backs on everything and coming here, and everything was wrong?

I can now understand the pain of Yan Cuo, the shame of living with mistakes.

At this time, there was a sound of calling the door outside, and a man's voice was a little unfamiliar: "Is anyone there?" Is anyone there? ”

I wiped my face, covered my crying face tightly with my collar, and went out to answer the door: "It's coming." ”

When I passed by the main house, I took a quick look inside, and Li Xue seemed to be asleep, without making a sound.

When I opened the courtyard door, it was a tall man with a long face, as if I had seen it somewhere, but it was not familiar, because I couldn't think of a name corresponding to him.

As soon as he saw me, he quickly said, "It's good that Miss Yan is still here, otherwise I would have to go around to Xiuzhuang to find you." ”

I frowned, I was half of my face blocked, and he actually recognized me?

"I'm sorry, I didn't think about it for a while, you are ......"

He smiled and said, "Miss Yan can't recognize me normally, I'm Kong Liang of the Yamen's case, working with Chen Bing." ”

I suddenly realized, I said that it was so familiar, it was that Kong Liang, Kong Liang from Anzhou. But why did he come here, and he came to me?

"Oh, I'll remember that, what's the matter with me in the hole file?"

Kong Liang said: "Don't dare, just call me Kong Liang." Chen Bing was on duty today, and I was out on an errand, and he asked me to come and see if Miss Yan needed help when I passed by. ”

This Chen Bing is really worried, I don't know if he is really on duty, or if he really doesn't plan to come again.

I gratefully, "I'm sorry for you." If Brother Chen asked, he would say that everything was fine here, please rest assured. ”

Kong Liang frowned, it is estimated that Chen Bing didn't tell him in detail what was going on, but just asked him to turn around and take a look, so he came over to ask as he was entrusted, and he didn't plan to study it carefully.

"Oh, okay, if it's okay, then I'll go first." Kong Liang seems to be a person who is not very good at words, and he will leave as soon as he hears that it is okay.

I nodded, I wanted to take this opportunity to ask something about Anzhou, but this would mean that he was doing something wrong, and it was not good to delay him, so I could only send him a gift.