I swallowed, and for the first time in so many years, I told her the reason: "Because the night before you got married, I had a nightmare, I dreamed - I dreamed that the three of us were happily sitting in the carriage to buy a wedding gift, I made a joke with Lian Xiao, and the carriage fell into the abyss, I always remembered, always remembered the expression on his face when he fell, and the next day ...... The next day, Lian Xiao really had an accident......"

Li Xue's lips trembled, and tears rolled down: "It's just a dream, what can it do?" ”

I continued: "I went with the people who went to see the accident, and even the place where Xiao fell off the cliff and the wreckage of the car were exactly the same as in my dream! Exactly the same ......"

Li Xue looked at me stunned, and seemed to feel incredible.

"It's so real, so real that I can't tell the difference between inside and outside the dream, we are by his side in the dream, and he is not so lonely...... But in fact he was left alone...... It felt so creepy, and it hurt, as if- as if I had dreamed of him, and if I hadn't had that dream, maybe he's—"

Li Xue laughed miserably: "If dreams can dream of dead people, then there will be no bad people in this world...... she suddenly choked up and cried, and said in a trembling voice, "I was the one who killed Lian Xiao...... It's ...... me."

"What?" Why should Li Xue blame herself?

Li Xue tugged at her chest, as if trying her best to soothe her emotions, and said, "I can't forget the last words I said to him before he left...... I begged Heaven every day not to bring him back to me, but to see him in my dreams, to take back the words I said before I said goodbye to him...... I didn't think of it...... I didn't think it was the last thing I said to him, I didn't think ......"

Tears rippled, like complaints.

I'm even more confused, what did Li Xue say?

"Two days before getting married, I had a quarrel with him, I asked him to stop shopping around after getting married, I hope he can settle down and spend more time with me, but he said that the matter of livelihood can not be changed in a while, and I hope I will give him two years to deal with it properly...... His half-push didn't make me very angry, I remember......" Li Xue trembled and wiped away the tears on her face, and recalled in a trembling voice, her eyes full of guilt, "I...... I lost my temper with him, and I said that when he really thought about it, he would marry me, or else he would live with him for the rest of his life......" At this, she was crying silently.

So?

So Lian Xiao hurriedly had to take a trip to the goods before marriage, because he had to settle the matter of stopping before marrying Li Xue, he ran out of Zixu and told the merchants one by one that he would not go to the goods in the future, he would guard his wife at home, and he would live a stable life...... He took advantage of the last trip to the goods, and happily made a lot of gifts, wanting to coax the bride-to-be who was losing his temper, and he wanted to fulfill his vows meticulously, without any mustard to fulfill the wishes of this life......

But no one thought of it......

He kept running on that road, but he could never reach it again.

As Li Xue said to him at the end, he went to Huangquan with his chariot......

"Every time I lose my temper he is unconditionally submissive, I just want to ...... I just want him to be by my side safely, I just don't want to be so anxious to always look forward to his return...... But I sent him to a dead end, he will never come back, he will never come back......"

I burst into tears, I didn't know that Li Xue was carrying such a heavy burden in her heart for so many years, so she punished herself like this, and put all the guilt on Lian's mother?

"Damn it's me, it's me...... Now that even the only mother who can make me pay for my sins is gone, I should go to them, how can I have the face to live in the world again......" Li Xue looked at her blood-red wrist and was overwhelmed with grief.

"So you guarded Aunt Lian for the first seven days, so selfishly blocked your father and mother from the door, and quietly committed suicide in the room?"

Li Xue just cried, for so many years, I always thought that she was very strong and supported everything that Lian Xiao left behind, in fact?

"Do you think that after you finish guarding Aunt Lian, Huangquan will be able to face Lian Xiao with dignity?"

Li Xue shook her head.

I stood up coldly, stared at her and said, "I really envy Lian Xiao, who married a wife who is willing to give everything and even her life, but I also sympathize with your father, your father is right, he should have never given birth to your daughter." You're the most ruthless person I've ever seen in this world, and all you've done is to fill in your guilt, but you've made your parents and other people who care about you look at you so powerlessly to self-destruct. Chen Bing is also stupid, but fortunately he woke up in time, you broke his heart, he won't come back in the future, whose sincerity is so worthless, can let others despise it like this? ”

Li Xue bit her lip and wept.

"Yes, I'm not worth it for him, it's not wrong for you to keep even filial piety, you are all my friends, I hope everyone is happy, I met a laugh and hello on the way, and I met a table during dinner. Now you can talk about it, lest one has a heart and the other is ruthless, lest he attract other people's jokes. ”

I don't know why I'm so angry, looking at Li Xue's mud and can't hold up the wall, I really want to shake her up hard and cheer her up! Spirit points! Sober up!

"I know he's good, and he deserves a better woman, not a survivor like me, an ominous person."

I glared at her incredulously, "You said it yourself, right?" Did Brother Chen say that? ”

Li Xue shook her head and muttered, "It's not important...... It doesn't matter......"

"So what's important? Is it the most important thing to keep a widow for Lian Xiao? ”

Li Xue bit her lip and cried again.

I was really suffocated by her virtue.

"Sister Li? Sister Li? ”

The loud voice of the young man sounded outside, I heard this voice a little familiar, but I couldn't think of anyone who would be familiar with Li Xue and call so affectionately.

Li Xue wiped her tears, and when she heard the voice, she seemed to wonder who it was.

I said to her, "You can rest for a while, and I'll go out and see who's coming." ”

As soon as I arrived at the courtyard, I saw a tall young man looking around, and when I saw me, my eyes widened, and I straightened my head and said, "Ah, I called Sister Li, why did I conjure up a flying sister!" Sister Fei - little daughter-in-law, Sister Fei is here! Dabao ran up and grabbed my arm, as if he was afraid that I would run away.

Zheng Zhuzhu was wrapped thickly, revealing a slightly pale face, looking at me worriedly, "Where is Sister Li?" I just heard from Chen Yashi that something happened to her, so I hurriedly came to take a look. ”

As soon as I opened my mouth to answer, Dabao snatched my words: "Yes, yes, it seems to be very serious-by the way, who is Sister Li?" Have I seen it? ”

Zheng Zhuzhu glared at him, looked at the firewood in the courtyard that had not been cut and said: "Don't make a mess, don't you always want to chop wood, there are a bunch of them, no one will rob you now, don't cut them all, you are not allowed to come." ”

Dabao flattened his mouth, walked to the corner of the courtyard and picked up the firewood knife, danced, and smiled happily on his face, and said, "Okay, okay, you guys go and get busy, don't tell my father that I do the work that people do." He held up his finger and told us to keep it a secret.

Zheng Zhu didn't pay attention to him anymore, pulled me to look at the red-hot main house, and said softly, "Are you inside?" What happened? ”

I sighed weakly, not knowing what to say. I don't know how deep their friendship is, and some things are hard to say.

Zheng Zhuzhu patted my hand and smiled quietly and gently.

"Sister Li, I'll come to see you." She said softly.

I pushed the door in, Li Xue was getting up to greet her, Zheng Zhu quickly walked over to help her, and said gently: "Don't come to these polite ways." She rolled her eyes and saw Li Xue's reddened gauze.

Li Xue was helpless and hid her hand in the quilt.

Zheng Zhuzhu looked at me sadly, and she should have known a rough idea.

Li Xue coughed and said softly, "Why is Miss Zheng here?" I ......"

Zheng Zhuzhu smiled and said: "Yes, I'm afraid that if I don't come at this time, I won't be able to see you at another time." ”

This Zheng Jewel is a pun on what a pun.

Li Xue really changed color, and looked at me resentfully, as if she was blaming me for telling others about her.

Zheng Jewel chuckled: "I'm getting married, now it's time to see one side and one side, and it's not easy to come out for a trip, but I'm not afraid that I will leave the town before I can meet in the future. ”

At this time, Dabao was already chopping wood, and Li Xue stared out of the door in distraction, but she couldn't see the woodcutter.

Zheng Jewel said: "Huang Gongzi said that he wanted to move his muscles and bones, Sister Li wouldn't blame him for finishing the work, right?" ”

Li Xue looked disappointed and nodded in a daze.

"It's almost the holiday, and Sister Li doesn't take care of her health, how can she drink my wedding wine at that time."

Li Xue frowned and said, "Is it really decided?" Isn't there any room for manoeuvre? ”

Zheng Zhuzhu nodded and said with a smile: "What is there to turn around?" That's good, too. ”

Li Xue's face was sad, and I was also uncomfortable.

Zheng Zhuzhu looked at the door and said: "Sometimes if you fight for too long, you will be so tired that you forget what you really want, miss the plum on the wall, miss the good season, miss the face of your beloved......"

"And what do you really want?" I asked.

Zheng Jewel pursed his lips and smiled, and said carefully: "Freedom, the only one." ”

Freedom, the only one, is a simple four words, but some people can't get it in their whole lives.

"If there is no morning and twilight, how can we talk about staying together?" Zheng Jewel summed it up like this.

I nodded blankly, she and Song Lingjian are simply two extremes, the same is reasonable, one is sharp and barbly, stabbing people to blood and tears, and the other is as gentle as cotton silk, which makes people feel sad.

After a while, Li Xue fell asleep weakly, and Zheng Zhuzhu and I retreated to the side room, which was still a mess, and there were still dried blood stains on the edge of the bed.

I was stunned, feeling a little chill in my heart, and said: "When she cut her wrists in the house, I was talking to her outside, if it was any later, maybe I would have pushed the door in and saw her breathless." ”

Zheng Zhuzhu calmly and gently played for me, her movements were a little clumsy, but very serious, and said abruptly: "You said that sometimes people are ridiculous, some people try their best to live, even if there is only a little opportunity, they have to seize it ruthlessly, take more breaths, and take a more look at the scenery in this world...... However, some people live well, but they can't think about it for a while, and they want to commit suicide, they don't know how many wind, rain, dew and frost this world has used to raise us, and they don't know how many people are guarding us with blood, blood and tears......"

I stopped moving, and I felt sad for a while, yes, I'm the kind of person who wants to live hard at every opportunity, and wants to enjoy the prosperity of the dying person, Zheng Zhuzhu is also half a person, but fortunately, she still has a chance......