After three years of struggle, I was finally able to get rid of him, but I was left with nothing.

No one cares about being happy and sad, no one will know about the forbearance and pain of three years, some of them have just ruined my future so easily, nothing, nothing can be left.

Many businesses around the street were closed, and I sat on a bench on the side of the road, with nothing but a long dress and shoes.

None of the thousands of lights in this city are lit for me.

It's like a wandering lonely ghost, no one cares, and even the occasional passer-by on the street looks at me with that kind of strange look.

I sat on a bench all night, watching the lights turn on and off, watching the crowd sparsely populated. Only then did he stiffen his steps and went to the corner alley.

When people are cornered, there is nothing that cannot be done.

I found a vendor on an electric motorcycle, exchanged my beautiful long hair for two red renminbi, and then sat at a roadside stall with ten yuan and ate a bowl of noodles, even drinking the bottom clean.

I tossed and turned in a small hotel for 30 yuan a night, sitting on the edge of my bed and looking at the small square world outside. I feel sad and pitiful.

I don't have an ID card, no family, no job, and even no education, and I still remember the look of the hotel proprietress looking at the lady sitting on the stage.

Nanwei took away all the goals and lives that I worked hard for in the middle of my life. It even took away the faith I relied on to survive.

But time never gives people the opportunity to be sad.

Even after a sleepless night, I went to the vendor early the next morning to buy two T-shirts and trousers, which didn't fit very well, but they were much better than the previous dress.

I went around all day and went to countless places for interviews, but none of the companies were willing to accept me, and those who had a little façade avoided me like a snake and scorpion when they saw me, and even the nightclub with a very hard backstage at the beginning, the acquaintances inside turned their faces and didn't recognize anyone.

Xu Jiaye wanted me to go back, bowed his head and admitted his mistake, and then An An stayed by his side.

He's just so shameless.

After wandering for several days, a small restaurant took me in pitifully, the proprietress of the hotel was a foreigner, and a very small stall had just opened, and there were almost no people, so I moved there that night.

Day in and day out, I never let myself be idle.

I always thought that as long as I earned enough money to travel, I would get out of here, out of this place that made me sick.

The proprietress in the store is amiable and occasionally cooks by herself, which also makes my sad and pitiful feelings have a long-lost warmth.

But I am Ning Nan'an, and when Xu Jiaye tied me to him, he offended many people for me.

Without Xu Jiaye's protection, I was like an ant that anyone could trample on, slaughtered by others, and the proprietress lady's stall was smashed beyond sight by my so-called enemy, sitting in the corner and secretly wiping her tears.

I looked at the meager banknotes in my hand, all of them on the table, and kept apologizing with my head down, boundless apologies and uneasiness.

I didn't want that.

I don't want to trouble anyone, but I'm like a plague, and everywhere I go is not safe, and all the shops I've stayed in will be forced to close down in less than three days.

I was hungry for five whole days, my clothes were ragged and sticking to my body, and I was penniless, and even the beggars on the street could suppress me with impunity.

I sat by the pond and washed my face with running water, but I could barely recognize the people reflected in it.

Dirty short hair, pale face, T-shirt dirty can no longer see the original color, and the tears that have been saved for so long have finally smashed into the lake.

The thoughts in my heart were flowing endlessly, and my eyes were full of desolation, which I never knew. One can be pushed to such a point.

I wiped away my tears, and I stood quietly by the lake, unexpectedly calm.

Nanwei was killed by me, she is lonely alone underground, anyway, the world has never treated me well, so why should I be a puppet manipulated by fate.

At least, at this moment.

My life is my own decision.

I didn't have any struggles when I jumped, I let the water rush into my nose, and it was difficult for my chest to breathe, but it seemed that beyond the pain, I felt a pleasure that I had never felt before.

So be it, and all will be at peace.

There's nothing left to bind me anymore.

My Nanwei, my sister has come to apologize to you.

……

Sometimes I have to say that my life is tenaciously terrible, and even though death is close at hand, I have been withdrawn.

I looked at the unfamiliar surroundings around me, and the sourness in my throat made me almost gause.

The white coat next to me saw me wake up and glanced at me lightly, "Little girl, if you have to jump into the lake if you don't want to open it, you will almost die." ”

My brain exploded, and I lay on the hospital bed without any strength, just smiling at the corners of my lips.

"You shouldn't have saved me."

Saved me. It may even be implicated.

"Little girl," the doctor took off his mask and smiled at me, "there is nothing in life that cannot be passed, if you are short of money, you can tell me, I will lend you first." How many people have tried so hard to survive, how worthless it is for you to die. ”

At the beginning, I had to go to a nightclub for Nanwei, just for that meager hope.

And now I easily want to give up my life.

But what can I do?

I couldn't find a job, I couldn't find a place to live, and I couldn't be seen by anyone. Someone wanted me to die, and my hope of leaving the city was dashed.

I barely stood up straight, looked at the small clinic, smiled palely, and dodged the needle in the white coat for the infusion, "Thank you." I don't need an infusion anymore, I'll go first. ”

He wanted to stop me, but I pulled him away, and he probably didn't expect that I, a dying person, could have such strength.

"I don't have any money, and it's a pure waste of resources for you to give me an infusion. You might as well leave that to the useful people. I pulled my lips and walked out of the hospital with a vague step.

I sat on the side of the road, staring at the crowd, I don't know how long I stayed, and then I slowly regained my strength.

It may really be cornered, and there is nothing that can't be done.

I stood up. I started picking up garbage, and when I saw bottles littered by someone on the side of the road, I trotted to pick them up, and even rummaged through the bins and cabinets to rummage through the trash cans to find the bottles in good condition. After being busy for most of the day, my vision was a little blurry, and I held the thirty-two pieces and five corners in my hand. Squatted under the overpass and laughed.

You see, I still have hope.

I have money.

Haha, I have money, and with money I can get out of here, and I can get rid of Xu Jiaye.

The city is still bustling with traffic, and the bright neon lights are strange. I don't know where a person suddenly came out, and he ran past me quickly and came to snatch the money from me.

I clutched it in my hands, unwilling to let go.

At that time, I had only one thought, this money was my life, my only hope. Without that, I really don't have anything.

I didn't even see the knife in the gangster's hand, I just screamed, and my voice was rough, "I beg you, don't take my money, you can do whatever you want, please, don't take my money." ”

I repeat it sentence by sentence. Sirens sounded around me, but I still clutched the hope in my hand.

When he stabbed me, I heard the sound of flesh tearing, but the money in my hand was still clutched tightly in my hand. Blood soaked my T-shirt and kept slamming it on the ground like fiery red tulips.

When I closed my eyes, I didn't know where the thirty-two pentagrams in my hand were scattered.

I'm really out of energy.

Others may think that this woman is crazy, and even give up her life for more than 30 yuan. But they don't know that money is more important than my life.

It may be insignificant for others, but for me now, it is an unattainable hope.

Some are in the clouds, some are crawling forward.

It's just me. In a dilemma.

……

When I woke up, I could vaguely see a man, I didn't know who he was, but the familiar smell made me instinctively repel.

I couldn't see it clearly, but I heard a man's voice.

"This woman is like a madman, only thirty dollars. Holding it in his hand, he didn't let go, he was almost out of breath, and he still had money in his hand, so he had never seen this kind of woman. ”

I smiled weakly in my heart, but I still couldn't breathe, and the feeling was several times worse than the feeling I had when I jumped into the lake.

Of course he wouldn't understand my feelings.

Then I heard the voice that made me feel like I was in the abyss, "Repeat what you just said." ”

"I said, she's a crazy ...... Yes! Before I could finish that sentence, I heard a terrible scream.

The room was quiet for a while, and then I heard the footsteps of Xi Suosuo, and then Xu Jiaye's cold voice, "Pull it down." ”

I know that the man is dead.

A slightly cool touch touched my face, slid across my neck, and finally loosely choked my neck, "An An, why do you say you are so ignorant." ”

The force tightened, and I was like a floating duckweed. Inside the teeth and claws, but there is no strength.

"Stay by my side obediently, you must know that only I am your salvation." His voice was low and hoarse, so gentle, but every word was like a knife. Knife by knife carved on the tip of my heart, painful.

Every time.

When I had the slightest hope, I was thrown down again, and my body was completely lost.

He was like the master of fate, easily playing with me.

I stayed in the hospital for a month and then returned to Xu Jiaye.

I have nothing but I am still alive, just because I need a chance, a chance to completely bring down Xu Jiaye, a chance to restore my freedom.