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"Zhu Jing walked in a hurry, and he didn't have some soft silver with him, these were prepared for him by several uncles and generals, he was arrogant and would not accept it, I hope the girl can accept it for him first, and then give it to him in another form."

"Uncle General? Is it Xiang Zhou? ”

Shangguan Yan nodded, and still asked uneasily: "How is he?" ”

"Naturally it won't be too good, who wants to leave his relatives and go on the road alone - when he came back, he kept blaming himself, saying that he was too heavy for fear of hurting Xiang Zhou, and after coming back, he drank some wine with Haipiao and them, and fell asleep while sitting and talking."

Shangguan Yan stared at the envelope, lowered his eyes and laughed softly: "It's all a family, how could they have a stalk for a heavy sentence." ”

Is this envy or nostalgia? Although they are not biological, they are as close as siblings, and he and Shangguan Li have inexplicably turned against each other because of Yun Niang's poisonous injury.

I know that he won't be relieved if he doesn't see Zhu Jing, it may be that Xiang Zhou and they have been entrusted, he is just fulfilling the request of a brother who is blocking his breath but can't help but worry.

I walked towards the small room, and Shangguan Yan really followed me willingly.

Zhu Jing lay on the small bed with her feet spread out, the bed was not enough for him to stretch, one calf hung on the edge of the bed, sleeping like a child.

I couldn't help but laugh and lightly went over to help him straighten the quilt.

Shangguan Yan stood on the side and watched. I must be like a worried old mother.

I was relieved: "Sometimes there are too many worries, it's not bad to get drunk and get a good night's sleep, I don't know how much he drank, Han Sanxiao is really not light or heavy." Don't worry too much, I'll take care of him. ”

Shangguan Yan nodded, turned around and walked out, I sighed in my heart and followed.

When I arrived in the courtyard hall, Shangguan Yan put away the moonlight egg jade, and the cold white light disappeared into his sleeve, and the sudden dimness made me very uncomfortable, and I squinted for a long time before I got used to it.

In the hall, there was only the dim light cast by the small lamp in the corner of the courtyard, and only Shangguan Yan's eyes that were still shining like water in the dim could be vaguely seen.

I found the fire fold on the table and lit the lamp, and Shangguan Yan said softly: "No need, I'll sit down for a while and leave." ”

I touched the teapot, and it was cold—

"The girl doesn't have to work, really." Shangguan Yan took my hand and gently stopped me.

My hands are hot, but his hands are cold.

My heart was beating fast, and I wanted to retract my hand shyly, but I was inexplicably nostalgic for this feeling, and I didn't dare to say a word, for fear that anything would interrupt this beauty.

Shangguan Yan didn't seem to notice it, and still held my hand and said: "I have lived with several uncles for more than ten years, and I have worked together for five or six years. I don't know much about them except for business, as if I am a complete stranger, and I am not even as good as ......you, girl."

I smiled, very cautious, and didn't dare to move my hands, for fear that Shangguan Yan would find out if I moved: "You big men, you won't talk about it like our girl's family, it's just that you can't always be duplicitous and unwilling to admit it, right?" ”

Shangguan Yan stared at me: "How do you say this?" ”

Just like Xiang Zhou obviously cares about Zhu Jing very much, but he always wants to put on a face to murder him, while hating him for leaving, and at the same time asking you to send silver, Zhu Jing is the same, on the surface, it seems that he is very afraid of Xiang Zhou, but in fact, he respects him and doesn't want to disobey him and make him angry. Once I asked him if such an old man couldn't find a girl after he understood the amorous feelings, but he said that he couldn't leave Xiang Zhou alone, and would rather not marry a wife in the future. ”

Shangguan Yan listened carefully, and a rare real smile appeared on his melancholy face: "There is such a thing? ”

I nodded and said, "Yes, last time I said that I wanted to change the broken sword spike for him, and he was reluctant, because he said that it was given to him by Xiang Zhou." ”

Shangguan Yan smiled: "I can't see that Xiang Zhou still has these careful thoughts. ”

"My lord, you are the same, Chen Bing told me something about you last time, in fact, he also hopes that sometimes you can sit down and chat and drink, like normal friends and buddies, it is one thing for you to be busy with business, and you can't ignore the friends who care about you. After all, life is short for a few decades, and the time to get together is even shorter, who knows when they will go their separate ways, right? ”

Shangguan Yan lowered his eyes and suddenly let go of his hand.

I'm lost and anxious, what's wrong? Did I say something wrong? Well said, he listened to it with relish, why did he suddenly react like this?

"The girl has known them for dozens of days, and she knows more than we have known in the years we have worked together." Shangguan Yan said gloomily.

"It's okay to talk about it, and while chatting, we talked about ......"

Shangguan Yan sighed lightly, and the vitality he had just recovered seemed to have suddenly turned into ashes.

"It's me who is too focused on patrolling the government and ignores them. People are not plants and trees, who can be ruthless? I can't let them give up everything and sacrifice everything to chase a dream that doesn't belong to them......"

I thought of Chen Bing, remembered what he said, the helplessness of giving up Li Xue in order to fulfill the promise to visit Shangguan Yan, and also remembered the heartache after I knew this fact, the sense of powerlessness that I would eventually lose.

"Perhaps...... Perhaps......" I hesitated, unable to say this lingering word that had been hovering in my heart for a long time.

"What?" Shangguan Yan stared at me with anticipation on his face.

I would like to say, maybe you can reconsider your dreams, maybe you can, you can stop for whom......

Maybe......

Maybe someone wants you to stay, will you consider it? Even if there is even a moment of hesitation?

I was reluctant, I was very heartbroken when I heard Chen Bing say that you would leave, I was afraid that I would never see you again in the future......

And finally—

In front of the great and noble dream, I really can't say this mundane wish, maybe he will be surprised, he will be disappointed, he will think that I am selfish, that I am narrow-

I swallowed the confession I wanted to spit out, shook my head, and changed the subject: "Perhaps, adults can chat with them more and drink alcohol, so that there will be a lot less sense of distance, and there will not be so many hidden words." ”

Shangguan Yan looked a little disappointed, and laughed at himself: "Maybe I'm not a good person to get close to, just like I have known the girl longer than Zhu Jing and Chen Bing, but they are already friends with the girl who can talk to each other, but to the girl, they are always just adults." ”

I hurriedly shook my head: "It's not-"

But my answer seemed to have disappointed him, and he looked passively at the night in the courtyard, as if he had lost faith in anything, and was no longer the reserved but confident man I had known him.

I still want to explain: "That's just a title, it doesn't mean anything...... Chen Bing is very easy-going, sometimes his virtue is like Han Sanxiao, ruffian, bad, he is also willing to say something about himself, he feels as if he has known him for a long time...... "And he likes Li Xue, Li Xue is my good friend, I hope they can be together, but I can't keep up with Guan Yan in the second half of the sentence-

Chen Bing said that he promised to patrol the government everywhere and would give up his children's affection, I don't want Shangguan Yan to feel guilty because of this, and I don't want him to be embarrassed, he will definitely fulfill Chen Bing, but now that Zhu Jing has left Shangguan Mansion, there are fewer and fewer people around him who can help, I don't want him to be so hard and lonely.

Shangguan Yan looked at me, calm and wise.

I'm a little weak-hearted, I don't dare to say anything about Chen Bing, for fear that he will guess something as he talks, so let's talk about Zhu Jing: "As for Zhu Jing, although he is much older than us, he is very naïve, like a big boy, he cares about us very much, often comes to see us, will tell me about my father's previous deeds, I seem to see a long-lost family member......"

In this world, apart from me, I am afraid that only he is most looking forward to his father's return, and that true and beautiful support is beyond the reach of Yan Cuo, who is the flesh and blood of the Yan family, how can I not have a sense of intimacy with him? He's like my family.

Shangguan Yan nodded indifferently and laughed at himself: "I remember when I was a child, you always followed me and called me Brother Bo, and I still remember that the day before the incident, my mother was very happy to sew clothes for me, saying that we would become a family in the future...... It's a pity that things and people are wrong, I am no longer the Yunbo I used to be, and I can only repay my sins with your Yan family, so it is impossible to rejoice together and recount the past......"

I didn't respond with red eyes, whether it was the frail and sickly Yun Bo or the melancholy and quiet Shangguan Yan now, it was the same in my heart. It's just that Fei'er, who always follows him and doesn't bend back when he looks at his face, has now become a timid coward.

No matter how many days have passed, his pair of fountain eyes have always been engraved in my heart, and the promise of "don't be afraid, I am here" is also like a beautiful and eternal vow.

But I don't dare to say half of these words, I don't want to leave more regrets and thoughts in the world.

That's it, just be a coward, and sleep alone with this inexplicable thought.

"How long will the adults stay in town?" I asked sourly.

Shangguan Yan looked at me strangely.

"Chen Bing said, you patrol the government in one place, more than a few years, less than a few months or even dozens of days, I count you as an adult, you have been in the town for almost four months, you ...... How much longer will you stay? "I'm worried he'll say he'll be gone soon......

Shangguan Yan said: "Depending on the circumstances of the case, the case of Jin's death has not yet been concluded, and my mother is unconscious, so there should be some time." ”

"If you're gone, will you come back once in a while? I mean—when you used to be on patrol, would you have made friends like us somewhere else, and would you have come back to see them once in a while? "I was a little nervous.

"We haven't made any friends elsewhere, so we don't have to go back to visit."

I nodded, a little distressed, because I couldn't understand their life of being busy with politics and forgetting to make friends.

"Then, if you go to other places to patrol the government in the future, can you come back to see me once in a while...... Guys? "I turned my eyes, my eyes were red, and I wondered if I would still be alive when he left and came back.

"There will be a while when we are leaving, as long as the political affairs here are not cleared, I-we will always be there, and the girl doesn't have to worry about it so early." Shangguan Yan said gently.

I bowed my head and said, "Isn't that afraid...... I'm afraid that one day you will suddenly leave in a hurry like Lord Zhao and them, and you won't have time to explain anything...... I'm afraid that you've been away for too long, and you don't know the way back, or we're busy with other things and we're out? What should I do if I can't see each other? Hehe...... "What if I wasn't there when you came?" I don't want to see you again......

Shangguan Yan sighed lightly and said, "That's right...... Last year, in this door today, the peach blossoms on the faces of the people were red. The face of the person does not know where to go, and the peach blossoms are still smiling in the spring breeze......"

I looked up at him: "Equinox? You mean that the day of the spring equinox will come, right? ”

Shangguan Yan looked at me and smiled.