"Haha. Optimism can be on the face or from the heart, and this is probably the former, which should be easier to learn. Actually, I'm quite similar to you inside, but I'm more cheerful on the outside! ”

Ling Xiaonan glanced at Lu Feng beside him, and thought to himself that maybe it was because we were connected by the same illness that we became good friends who talked about everything!

"Actually, I'm just hiding it deeper, so at least I don't hurt myself. What about you, has there been a turnaround in love? Ling Xiaonan once mentioned to him the girl he loved deeply, but for some reason, the girl always avoided him, and he didn't know what was going on now?

Ling Xiaonan lowered his head and said with a somewhat depressed expression: "I just sent a message yesterday, maybe it was her QQ online, so I ignored me, if it was her sister, she might have talked to me, desperate." Do you know what it feels like to have a heartache to the point of suffocation? I couldn't breathe, and my heartache spread until I didn't even have the strength to stand up. ”

Is it so serious? Lu Feng couldn't help but be a little surprised. Maybe it's because my pain hasn't reached that level, I just remember the night Momiji got married, I couldn't get on the Internet, I couldn't get through to her phone, I could only wait until dawn, I felt that I was just a thoughtless shell at that time, and my brain was white.

"Have you seen my signature file that says, 'I finally know what it's like to have heartache?', and I don't think it's specific enough to fully express my feelings, but I can't write a better sentence to express it. If you want to know, you can take a knife and stick it in your heart, and you'll understand how I feel. ”

Ling Xiaonan's move is really ruthless, if he cuts himself, wouldn't it be painful. Seeing his friend's heartbroken appearance, Lu Feng didn't know how to comfort him for a while, and tried to say in a cheerful tone: "It's still well written by yours: Do you know why you call you a pig?" — because you never knew how much I loved you. ”

Ling Xiaonan nodded slightly, and said with a somewhat complicated expression: "Yes, she doesn't know how much I love her, but she hasn't been happy now, and she won't be in the future." She was desperate, I was her last hope, she thought I wouldn't scold her, I wouldn't talk to her loudly. But yesterday I couldn't help it, because my heart was tired, so she was desperate for everyone. ”

Basically, there is no one right or wrong in emotional matters, he (she) wants to leave you, there is always something you can't satisfy him, looking back and thinking about the past days together, it's always beautiful. Lu Feng looked him in the eye and asked quietly, "I don't know how you met, why do you love so much?" ”

"Hehe, acquaintance? She was from the same school as me in high school, but we didn't know each other at the time. She didn't take the college entrance examination, she went to the armed police detachment as an operator, and after I worked, I enrolled in a part-time bachelor's degree, and she was a staff member of my school at that time. Later, it happened that she also joined our unit and became my colleague. ”

It's not easy, after a lot of turns, a lot of hurdles, the two finally got together, but the joys and sorrows are always ruthless, and the front of the first step is drip until dawn.

Under Ling Xiaonan's gloomy expression, there was a persistent heart. Even if the shortness of fate has long been doomed, even if it will still be separated forever in the end. But I regret today's fate, regardless of whether he lives or dies tomorrow.

Ling Xiaonan thought about it for a while, and then whispered softly: "Later, the two of them slowly got in touch more, and I found that she met all my requirements. Everyone has their own idealized standard, and I find that I can find it all in her. The first time I took the initiative to say that I liked her, the few I met before were all women who took the initiative, and I just climbed up the pole. ”

Lu Feng listened quietly, a feeling of déjà vu welled up in his heart, remembering that he was not standing on the rooftop of the sixteenth floor at that time, and for the first time he mustered up the courage to boldly say to Hongye that I like you, but unfortunately because Hongye had a boyfriend that his parents liked at that time, he politely rejected his confession, so Lu Feng's first love failed so lightly.

He sighed softly, maybe some losses are doomed, and some fate will never come to fruition. Loving someone doesn't necessarily have it, and having someone means you must love her well......

"I like to see her laughing, watching her wrinkle her nose and pouting, that cute look, although she is not young, but sometimes it is really cute, it is the kind of simplicity that I like."

Ling Xiaonan's face had an easily perceptible obsession and bitterness, but at this time, her voice was as gentle as a spring breeze blowing, and she said: "Her eyes are big, a little beautiful, very thin, about the same height as me, but the model is one size smaller than me, it feels very suitable for me." I like her appearance, and I like her personality......"

"I told her before the Chinese New Year that I liked her. But she told me that in this life, it is impossible for me to be with her, and she already has someone she likes. I told her, it's okay, I can wait, as long as you don't get a marriage license, I can wait forever. ”

You know? In fact, I have been waiting by your side, waiting for you to lean on my shoulder and say, will there be a day when your tenderness belongs to me, I will not make you sad again, let your tears flow again!

The friend's tone was so firm and powerful, that Lu Feng couldn't help but admire his deep affection. When I think of myself at that time, when I see the bright smile of the autumn leaves like the sun, and the lively figure, even the most troubles will follow.

And once Momiji is worried and worried, he seems to be burdened with a heavy psychological burden and becomes depressed.

For the joy of the king, for the sorrow of the king, the two hearts seem to be connected together, regardless of each other, the same joy and sorrow, is an inseparable part of the soul. But the one who makes your heart cold and hard is often the person who has been closest to you.

A smile blew, Ling Xiaonan's clothes fluttered, he was silent for a long time, and said slowly: "She and her boyfriend have been for six years, but they have confirmed that the relationship has been in the last year. But since that day, we started talking on the phone a lot, because every time she had a conflict with her boyfriend, she would cry and tell me, and then I would tell her jokes and make her happy. ”

"Tell me about her and her boyfriend? How do you feel in your heart? Lu Feng frowned and said suspiciously. I suddenly found that my friend around me was great, and I was moved by his infatuation.

"Yes, we have nothing to say, and I know more than her twin sister. But I could only be a bystander, comfort her, and try to make her happy. She said that with her boyfriend, there was nothing to say, and there were too many problems between them that there was no way to solve them, unless she didn't want anything. ”

Ling Xiaonan's heart was like a sharp knife, and he almost wanted to suffocate in pain: "After half a year like this, I have been depressed, listening to her say about her and her boyfriend, in fact, it doesn't feel very good, but I try to tell myself that as long as she can be happy, I don't care." Even though I pretend I don't care, I still feel the urge to cry in my heart. ”

That complicated mood Lu Feng understood, remembering that time when Hongye bought the wedding supplies from Ningbo, carrying a lot of dowry from Hongye, but the groom was not himself, and that taste was indescribably bitter.

Especially when Aunt Hua's family was helping to sort out things, although Lu Feng's face pretended to be indifferent, he actually had tears in his heart.