"Why can't you get out? Everyone wants you to live well, and I can even understand what my aunt meant when she left, don't you really understand? You just want to die, once you die, who will take care of you in the world if you leave your father and mother in the world? Lian Xiao's mother is a mother, and your own mother is not a mother? Who gave birth to you and raised you? How long are you going to toss? How long are you going to waste yourself until you're happy?! ”

Li Xue was crying, Chen Bing kept pulling me, and whispered: "Don't say it, don't say it anymore......"

"Brother Chen is indeed not related to you, he ran desperately without even wearing a hat, without breathing, he lit a fire for you to cook, chopped wood and carried water for you, and had to apologize to you, I can't stand it anymore, what is he trying to do? He didn't come on the first seven nights, he didn't come because something happened to the yamen, and he couldn't squeeze out of the way-you are not rare, how can people make faces to you! ”

"Don't be cheap, not at all, willingly, it's my fault first, Miss Yan doesn't have to excuse me......" Chen Bing pulled me, squeezed his eyebrows and asked me not to stimulate Li Xue anymore, just like Han Sanxiao reconciled from it before.

"You let her say, you let her say......" Li Xue's eyes were red, choked and cried.

"I said what's wrong with you? I said I can't say it? I hate people who joke with their lives the most, the most selfish and annoying people like you, who only care about yourself and others. I hate people like you the most, the most! I gritted my teeth.

Li Xue cried in a low voice, using the strength she had.

"Don't-don't, alas, what is this for......" Chen Bing had no idea, and he didn't know who to persuade, he lifted the corner of the quilt, and the gauze on Li Xue's wrist began to bleed again, he held her wrist distressedly, took out the spare gauze from his arms and wrapped it, "Miss Li's body is still weak, can you two sisters quarrel when you pick another one?" ”

Li Xue choked and cried, withdrew her hand, and did not let Chen Bing touch it.

I pulled Chen Bing and said, "Leave her alone, I always thought you were stronger than me, but what are you now?!" Brother Chen, if you let her die, we will watch from the side, wait, and when she dies, she will be buried with Aunt Lian, aren't you Lian's family, then I will give you a beautiful family funeral, so that your family will be together forever! ”

Li Xue stared at her eyes, her eyes flowed down, and she said to me more ruthlessly: "That's right, I am a family member in life, a ghost in death in a family, I am a surviving person of Lian Xiao, and I will always be." With that, she pulled back her wrist suddenly, the force was so small, but the resentment was so big, big enough to hurt a sincere heart who paid silently.

Chen Bing looked down at his empty hand, and took a step back sluggishly, the light scars on his eyebrows seemed to be crying.

The atmosphere was scorchingly quiet.

Chen Bing stiffly leaned over and picked up the broken bowl on the ground, and said lightly: "Even the early death of the family really made Miss Li so obsessed, can't anyone replace it?" ”

"Yes, I have been determined to be Lianxiao's bride since I was a child, and now and in the future, I Li Xue will be his wife for the rest of my life!" Li Xue gritted her teeth, as if she was repeating her curse, and refused to wipe the tears on her face.

Chen Bing nodded, smiled self-deprecatingly and emptily, and said, "I know." ”

"Brother Chen—"

Chen Bing said: "There is still porridge in the pot, if you are hungry, the girl remember to drink some." I can't stay here for long, so I'll take my leave. ”

Li Xue didn't leave anyone, and turned her back to us in disappointment.

Chen Bing walked out, and the wind was very strong, as if it was going to sweep him away from here.

I didn't send him either, I was afraid to see his lost face, and I didn't know how to comfort him.

After standing for a while, I said coldly to Li Xue: "Now you are happy." No one will bother you, and I'm gone. "Song Lingjian's spirit seems to be still in me, and if it were normal, I would have apologized to her a long time ago.

Li Xue didn't respond, and even the crying seemed to be gone.

I pretended to be angry and stepped on the floor, and quietly looked at Li Xue at the door, but she didn't turn around to look at me, so she quietly leaned over and looked at -

Oops!

There was a large patch of blood oozing from the sheets she was pressing sideways! Her eyes were closed tightly, and her face was stained with tears.

I hurriedly pulled her up, and the smell of blood snakeed into my nose, and I endured a huge disgust to replace the blood-soaked gauze and pour the golden medicine that Chen Bing put on the table.

Because of my experience in caring for patients, I didn't seem particularly busy.

After fixing the wound, I sat on the edge of the bed and looked at her quietly.

Li Xue snorted and asked me in a weak voice, "Is he really gone?" ”

I gasped and said, "If you go, no one with a face will come again." ”

Li Xue leaned on the head of the bed, crying pitifully, she didn't even have the strength to quarrel with me, and her voice was like a gossamer: "Then why don't you leave?" What are you doing with it? ”

I swallowed my breath and said, "Because I have no face and no skin, because I owe you, okay!" I'll get you some porridge, if you don't eat it, I'll really break off your friendship completely! ”

Li Xue didn't agree, I tied her wound tightly, walked out, and didn't dare to wipe the tears from the corners of my eyes until I reached the door.

Actually, I really want to hug her and let her live well, but I can't indulge her self-destructive choice like this, Li Xue, you deserve a better life.

As soon as I got to the kitchen, I screamed and was startled.

"Y-you're still there! Surprise me! I patted my chest and said to Chen Bing, who was stirring porridge.

Chen Bing took out the porridge and poured it out, and said seriously: "I was leaving, but when I thought that there was still porridge in the cup, if no one took care of it, it would be burned into a paste, so I was busy cooking it for a long time, and it was a waste, so I turned it back and planned to pour it out and warm it." He carefully removed the red dates from the porridge and asked me, "Will she eat some?" ”

I shook my head: "I don't know. I don't care if she eats or not, and no one can save someone who wants to die. ”

This is what Song Lingjian once scolded me like this, and even scolding words can be universal......

Chen Bing looked at me in surprise, his mouth was wide open, stupid, and there was a shadow of Han Sanxiao inside and out.

I shrugged my shoulders and said, "What's wrong?" Why do you look at me like that? ”

Chen Bing shook his head and said, "I just feel like I haven't seen her for a few days, and Miss Yan seems to have changed as if she has changed, and her words are amazing." ”

I helped clean up the jujube pits and said, "It's not angry yet, I'm really angry." ”

Chen Bing nodded and said, "I can see that the gas is not small - the porridge is ready, then, I'll go." ”

I pulled him and said, "Li Xue is also angry, if she doesn't care, she won't be like this." I have never seen her lose her temper like this since I was a child, she must have been dizzy by Aunt Lian's death. ”

Chen Bing smiled bitterly: "Really? ”

"She's been waiting for you for the first seven nights. I know that Yayun Niang's accident made you have no time to get out, you didn't mean to break the appointment, you can explain. ”

Chen Bing shook his head and said: "A breach of appointment is a breach of appointment, there is no need to explain." Since she still has a hurdle in her heart, then I can't force it - in fact, this is a mistake, and since she has the heart to stop, now is not the best time. ”

"What do you mean?" I don't understand.

Chen Bing smiled and said, "The matter has come to this, and there is nothing to hide from the girl." I came to help the family, half because the adults asked us to help the weak in the town, and the other half was because I was born in the market, and my mother was also a half-father and half-mother who brought me up, so I especially wanted to do something when I looked at these orphans and widows. At first, I just wanted to help, but after a long time, I always wanted to see her more inexplicably, and I was inexplicably happy when I saw her smiling, and I wanted to do everything I could to relieve her worries when I saw her frowning, and I was even more helpless when I saw her crying. I don't care what she thinks of me, if it is really God's favor that she has a heart for me, we will not have results. ”

"Why?!" I was amazed, if two people were happy, how could there be no results?

"I'm a political envoy who follows the adults around the government, this is just a place for us to patrol the government, we still have a lot of places to go, how can I bear the alliance with the adults because of the love of my children, I am in the alliance with the adults first, even if it is a promise, there must be a first come, then come...... I'm going to get out of here. Chen Bing's eyes were confused.

I feel out of breath -

"I don't have the right to let her wait for me, waiting is a cruel punishment. I can't selfishly pull her out of the fire and water and put her in another ordeal—since she said so, that might be the best outcome. Chen Bing pretended to smile lightly.

My mind swirled around with his words.

"It's a matter here, trouble girl. I'll go first. Chen Bing gritted his teeth, relentlessly, turned his head and flew away.

I hung my hands weakly...... yes, they're going to leave, they're always going to leave......

I stood alone in the kitchen for a while, but I didn't feel too cold, until the porridge was paste, and I slowly served it to Li Xue.

The porridge curled up on the bedside table, Li Xue didn't move, and I didn't ask, just looked at it with a blank face.

Li Xue turned around quietly, Xu hadn't heard movement for a long time, and felt strange.

I was still staring at the hot porridge and was silent.

Li Xue looked at me for a while, and stood up to eat porridge.

She eats quietly, like a child who has done something wrong and is now behaving in order to please adults.

"Is it delicious?" I asked her.

She gave me a timid look, shrank back into the covers, and nodded.

I didn't expect that I would have a scary day.

"Although I have a lot of friends around me who treat me well, but no man will be as careful and considerate as Brother Chen, turned over the jujube skin, and went to the jujube pit, but I think it's a little funny, we are all natives of the countryside, and we are not golden branches and jade leaves, and the jujube kernel was not noisy when I was a child, how can people become coquettish as soon as they grow up?" I couldn't help but laugh as I spoke, but there was no joy in this smile, it was very empty, so empty that I could hear the sigh of my soul.

Li Xue heard the sarcasm in my words, bit her lip, and didn't speak.

I leaned back in my chair, holding a fire stick and carrying the carbon in the stove, and recalled: "I remember when I was a child, we would just lie down and talk around the fire. Always say how it will be when you grow up, as if the future is very simple, even filial piety will stand behind you, he never mentions what will happen in the future, because he has always felt that there will be him in your future...... I never thought that there would be a change of heart in a disaster, but I couldn't avoid natural disasters and accidents. ”

This is the first time in all these years that I have so openly mentioned the name we all feared in front of her, Lian Xiao. Lian Xiao, I'll be able to see you in a few years.

"After Lian Xiao's death, I haven't looked for you again, not because I'm afraid to comfort you and accompany you, but because I don't dare to face you."

Li Xue burst into tears and looked up at me in surprise.