Xia Xia teased me while helping me start: "Sister Fei is really a person with a face, she was fierce to the third brother just now, a pair of sea drifters are like intimate big sisters, no wonder the third brother always says that you are biased." ”

I tapped her on the head and said, "If it were you, would you be better than me?" Han San smiled at that dead look, can you hold back and not get angry? ”

Xia Xia smiled: "Of course I can't help it, if it were me, I wouldn't be as dull as Sister Fei, I would have beaten him a few times." ”

I glanced at her and said, "Just know what to say!" I just asked you to help catch her together, and you knew that you were giggling on the side - okay, you don't need you here, you're tired all morning, let's rest. ”

Xia Xia didn't refuse, wiped the water stains on his hands and said: "A bunch of things, the cloth towel on that guy's body should also be changed, I won't be busy with the things in the front yard, I have to guard, by the way, take some handkerchiefs to the backyard to draw, but Sister Fei, you, when you are busy, you will rest, I will not serve on the side." ”

I nodded and said, "Go ahead, don't treat me as a lady who doesn't touch the spring water with ten fingers, okay?" ”

Xia Xia wrinkled her nose and ran to get busy.

I looked at her back and was distracted, any words of gratitude and gratitude were hypocritical, I just accepted it well, and then reciprocated well, and it was fine.

I will live seriously, be serious and happy, if I can, I also want to learn some words seriously, so that we can record the good times we had, and I will also let the sea drift paint our yard, the scene when we were together, and if I am gone, I will hang those paintings on the wall of the corridor, so that people along the way can remember that I have been.

Han San smiled, you heartless person, I don't want to be the second beloved, I have to add to your blockage!

I had just finished working in the embroidery room when I heard the pear bell ringing on the courtyard door.

Who will it be?

I pushed open the big window of the embroidery room and saw a person standing at the gate of the courtyard, standing with his hands behind his back, plain shirt and long clothes, black hair in a bun, obviously clear and handsome, but the back was indescribably lonely and tired.

My heart jumped violently, and I looked at this back seriously, is it Shangguan Li? Or Shangguan Yan?

Still is...... The mask of the Nightshade again? To be honest, I'm getting suspicious now.

"Is it Lord Shangguan?" I asked softly.

The person who came turned around, although he was haggard and vicissitudes, but who was Shangguan Yan if he wasn't Shangguanyan?

I hurriedly walked out, and by the way, I straightened my hair, I didn't clean up properly when I was messed up by Han San's laughter just now, I didn't expect that there would be a guest today, and I didn't expect that the guest who came would be Shangguan Yan.

"Why is Lord Shangguan here? Is there something wrong? "My hands restless on the back of the ground, tugging at the ends of my hair that are slightly knotted.

Shangguan Yan looked at me and smiled, this smile was the same as the smile when I met him in the alley last time, full of thoughts and unspeakable sorrow.

"Oh, I don't know where to go, so I'm here." The white of his mouth softly blocked his face, and his stiff smile was much more graceful.

I didn't know where to go, so I came here.

It's like the world is so big that there is nowhere for me.

How could Lord Shangguan, who was praised by everyone, have such an idea?

I looked at his clothes, and he didn't wear any clothes on a cold day, and there was still a way from the yamen here, so why did he come here wearing only a thin coat?

I hurriedly said: "Come in and sit down, I just vacated the embroidery room for guests, and the fire is also booming." It's better to rush early or late than to be in a hurry. ”

Shangguan Yan looked around in confusion, as if asking where the others had gone.

"Just had lunch, and the big guys are napping at home. Come on in, it's cold. "I just stood outside like this for a while, and I felt the cold wind get into the soles of my feet.

Shangguan Yan reluctantly pulled out a sad smile, nodded at me, and walked in slowly.

I just brought the chaise longue from under the eaves, and I haven't had time to lay a cotton mat yet, but the bamboo couch used in the summer is covered with a thick layer of mattresses, and a few pillows are thrown on it, Shangguan Yan doesn't know where he is sitting when he comes in, just standing at the door woodenly, and the soul of the original wise Neixiu seems to have been sucked away by something.

I patted the bamboo couch, threw the pillow aside, and said, "Sit here, the mattress is baked warm, if the shoes are wet, there are freshly washed and dried cotton shoes here, you can change them, and then put the shoes on the stove to bake and dry." I thought about it in pieces, and laid out the cotton shoes and something for him.

He stared at me dumbfounded, motionless.

I suddenly blushed, got up and said, "You see, I'm usually used to it, and I can't help but say a few words in pieces." It's not wet outside today, and it's not frosty, so your shoes should not get wet, hehe. ”

I kicked my shoes to the side in frustration, trying to smash my unseemly brain.

Shangguan Yan smiled gently: "With the girl, I can always feel a very detailed life, very warm, very real, it's good." ”

I smiled awkwardly, "It's all Rory's rambling little things, as long as it doesn't upset the adults." ”

Shangguan Yan gently put his hand on the futon and remembered: "The truest life is to be as detailed as the warm and cold notice, just like the swimming line in the hands of a loving mother, like the eyes of the ten-mile long pavilion ......"

He must have thought of Yun Niang who was seriously ill, and she must have done a good job with these meticulous care and care.

"But how many people can truly appreciate and cherish ......"

He was still blaming himself.

I didn't know what to say to comfort, and I didn't dare to look at his sad eyes, but looked sadly at the corner of the embroidery room.

The embroidery room is mostly wedding supplies, all of which are festive colors, so in comparison, I found that Shangguan Yan's face was very pale, his lips were not bloody, and his other hand was still stiffly placed on his knee, as if he was so stiff that he couldn't stretch out.

I asked softly, "Have you eaten it?" I still have some hot soup in my pot, would I like to warm you up with a bowl? ”

Shangguan Yan gently pulled out a smile and said softly, "I'm not hungry, thank you Miss Yan." ”

I scratched my head, and I didn't know how to answer, I wanted to ask about Yun Niang's condition, but I felt guilty about her and didn't dare to ask more.

"How's Yan wrong?" Shangguan Yan asked.

"How do you know—"

"What Zhu Jing told me this morning-" He lowered his head lightly and touched his forehead, his eyebrows furrowed, as if he was very distressed, and blamed himself, "Being a parent official in vain, I can't protect you at all-"

"Don't say that, my lord, even if you have three heads and six arms, you can't take care of everyone here - besides, Xia Xia said that Yan Cuo has taken a big turn for the better today, maybe you can wake up tomorrow." I comforted.

Shangguan Yan was still frowning, and I felt that he was very sad and troubled, which was completely different from the usual frown of pondering the case.

I sighed in my heart, I was so stupid that I didn't even know how to comfort him and make him feel relieved.

I turned my head and looked, there were books on the embroidery shelf, which were used by Song Lingjian to pass the time when he was resting in the embroidery room in the past, Shangguan Yan is also a reader, so he should be interested - I smoked a book randomly, and I didn't know what it was, so I handed it to him and said: "If you are bored, you can warm up this time, read the book to pass the time, and I will make some tea." ”

Shangguan Yan gently took the book I handed over, and a sad smile suddenly appeared on his face, and he read softly: "Chu Cifu." ”

By the way, I looked at Song Lingjian's dusty book and said, "Have you read it? If you have read it, you can change it - I don't know what these books say, this one seems to be the thinnest, and if it is thick, I am afraid you will not be able to finish it for a while. ”

Shangguan Yan flipped through the book in his hand lightly, stopped at a page, and looked sad.

How? Did I get the wrong book?

What is it talking about in this book? How could he have such an expression? What did Chu Ci say? Why don't I read more?

I looked at it, this book is not a pile of words like in other books, but a short line of words, like a long poem, a page is only a few dozen words, literate people can read it at once, what is Shangguan Yan staring at?

"What does this book say?" I asked curiously.

"The solid form is not convinced, but it is suspicious. Guang Sui before the painting, did not change this degree also. The fate is to stop in the quiet place, and the original and the twilight of the day. Alone and southbound ......"

I didn't understand a word.

Well, I really shouldn't have asked......

"Although I am not used to it, and my heart is uncertain, but I can keep my heart as it is, and it will never change. I don't care about the fate and suffering, I just want to take advantage of the end of time and go south alone......"

Before the end of time, go south alone? Why go south alone?

I smiled and said, "It's really strange that the person who wrote this word is really strange, how can you leave alone before the end of time, you should get together with your relatives and friends, and be happy together?" Is this book really Song Lingjian's? She doesn't seem to read such sad books very much, Han Sanxiao always says that she even reads books like a man. ”

Shangguan Yan didn't answer, just stared at this page in a daze, could it be that he was inspired by this poem and wanted to leave alone?

No way!

I snatched the book from his hand and stuffed it in*: "This book is all gray and worn, so don't read it." Let's change it. ”

Shangguan Yan smiled at the Xinsai book in his hand, and said, "This book is in line with the character of Miss Song. Meng Ben's tiredness is also, and women win. ”

I scratched my head and hurriedly lowered my hand, I must have looked stupid like this.

Shangguan Yan didn't look at me and smile like he used to and explain the meaning to me, but still fell into the whirlpool of his own thoughts.

He's the same today as last time, it's weird, it's so strange that it hurts my heart.

I didn't dare to ask anything more, so I said softly, "I'm going to make tea—there are a lot of books here, so you can pick and choose for yourself, my lord." ”

I walked out of the embroidery room, and looked inside uneasily before closing the door, Shangguan Yan was still sitting upright, with a sad face and red eyes.

I wanted to be by his side, even if I was too clumsy to do anything, and I wanted to sit so quietly that he would know that he wasn't alone.

Shangguan Yan, you say you are a lonely and footless bird, but when will you be willing to drop the perched branches? When will you be able to let go of so many burdens and self-protection in your heart and truly open your heart?

My eyes were red too.

I'm just starting to understand their feelings now, the truth of my father's disappearance has been revealed, how uncomfortable Shangguan Yan should be, he forgot everything here, and was once again distracted to be his third young master of Shangguan, to be a good official of the Qing government and the people, what did he do wrong, why should he recall everything in the past, he alienated Yun Niang for the girl's abandonment of marriage, and now he knows everything Yun Niang did for him back then, and now Yun Niang can't afford to be sick, how guilty he should be, does he want to leave everything here and continue to work in politics to help people alone, To relieve the guilt in your heart?

As soon as I thought of this, I hurriedly made tea, I was afraid that Shangguan Yan would leave silently!