"Now I don't have confidence in myself, I don't have confidence in life, I don't have confidence in everything I do. Once a person has lost his purest heart, he will not be able to lift anything. ”

Hongye's expression was gloomy, a bitter smile appeared at the corner of his mouth, and he sighed: "I will take the English test of the University in more than a month, but I am not even sure at all. ”

Lu Feng understands the learning dilemma that Hongye is in, it is true that the first semester at the beginning is the most difficult, like him, there are four remedial courses for Chinese language majors alone, these courses are not taught, and they have to rely on self-study, the difficulty can be imagined, but as long as you can grit your teeth and pass the assessment of seven or eight courses in the first semester, then you can see the light of day in the next cloud.

Thinking of Hongye's sad appearance, Lu Feng encouraged: "In fact, the people who really study at the University of Electrical Engineering are all adults who have already joined the work, and you have also seen that many classmates are still dragging their children to class. As long as you review, understand and do more exercises before the final exam, you will definitely be able to pass the exam every semester. ”

Seeing that Hongye was silent and still worried about this matter, Lu Feng had no choice but to agitate: "Do you think that everyone else can do it, but you can't?" Besides, the teacher over there also understands that students usually get up early and work in the dark, and they have to take care of the family every day, and it is not easy for everyone, so as long as you pass the exam, then everything is OK. If in a few years, it will be difficult for you to work hard, because people's memory ability will gradually decline with age. ”

"I don't allow you to live like you are now, as long as I am here, you will not be allowed to be lost. You also know that I didn't pull you to study so that you could regain your self-confidence as soon as possible, otherwise I would be very worried. ”

"You don't have to worry about it, it's okay. I've seen it very thoroughly now, and everything doesn't matter. I realized that I was already aging before I was old, as if I had entered old age, and everything was already understood. Scold! "Momiji finds that as he grows older, the more he experiences, he will always unconsciously immerse himself in memories, and he will always look back at his life, all the regrets.

"I'm also old, and I'm old in my state of mind. Especially during these days, my soul has flown nine days away, lost, dazed, confused in my heart, and everything is already difficult to grasp. Like you said, I'm not too young, and I should seize the opportunity, but I can't grasp it. If I could know my fate, maybe I would be able to grasp it. ”

Lu Feng drank the cup of light green tea in his hand, quietly looked at the trees outside the window, and remembered some past events. The person who missed, the departing footsteps, the road that gradually drifted away, are like the leaves falling gently in front of you.

To be honest, he admired Sun Shao'an's skill, knowing that there was no possibility of being with Runye, and knowing that it was a heartache that was cruel to each other, but he didn't look back, he knew that turning back would be more harmful to each other, so he resolutely chose the path that suited him, and no longer left a back and a fantasy.

Hongye trembled slightly when he heard this, the autumn waves rippled, and he said softly: "In fact, how many of everyone's wishes can be fulfilled?" It's too much. But perhaps you will be an exception. Because you're the exception! ”

A silver hook in the night sky, as clear as water, sprinkled with infinite clear light. Lu Feng's memory resurfaced the slightly yellowed wall, on which hung a pigeon-shaped kite, which was hand-sewn by the red leaves, pinning on the wishes of the two of them to fly their dreams, and now they stood there quietly, motionless.

It must have taken a lot of thought to come to Momiji, after all, it was the first time to make a kite by herself, and she had no experience in handicraft, so she had to explore it alone. Holding the sturdy and light skeleton of the kite, he couldn't help but admire the girl's ingenuity.

However, on the road of life, the scenery changes, there are many people, many things, destined to pass by you, just like the blooming of flowers, after all, you can't escape the fate of withering. I know that even if all the prosperity is integrated into the dream, waking up is just an illusion of prosperity.

"Last night I slept with Hua Hua, he had a tape recorder at home, and we were lying in bed listening to the tape." Lu Feng's breathing gradually became heavier, and his body trembled a little, obviously not calm in his heart at the moment.

I remembered that he listened to the tape with bated breath last night, and it was still the crying 'Where does the love go', and it was still his affectionate and regretful voice: The greeting team was far away, and I stood there alone, standing for a long time, with tears streaming down my face......

Who knew that everything in the world had a beginning and an end, and in the end, I realized that I should have grasped it a long time ago, but how would I know?!

In a trance, he saw the bamboo forest in his dream swaying gently, the emerald green bamboo leaves making a rustling sound, and the fresh air blowing in his face. The woman in white in the wedding dress was like a jade tree, her eyes seemed to be misty, her red lips and jade teeth were shining with a crystal luster, and she was staring at him stupidly.

At this moment, in my heart, all the past and the sweetness of the past suddenly flashed by, vividly. Back then, the pure fluttering long hair fluttered softly in the wind, the flower-like smile, the thick expectation, and finally the pair of tears, pretty eyes looking at themselves reluctantly.

"That tape is a birthday present from you, you must return it to me!" When you borrowed that cassette tape from me, my heart suddenly became empty, as if I had torn that unforgettable memory with my own hands. It was a testament to our good times, the voice you recorded for me on a hot summer day.

"Did you sleep well last night? Not bad! Momiji lowered his eyes and said softly.

At this moment, the clouds have dispersed, the bright moon hangs in the sky, sprinkling the moonlight like a thin smoke, and the stars in the sky are dotted like a diamond shining. Lu Feng looked at the beautiful night sky with a distracted look, and his eyes revealed an indescribable and inexplicable complexity, which was very distant and painful.

I remembered that last night he opened his mouth and inhaled heavily, but he felt that it was not helpful at all. Lu Feng raised his head, silently hoarse, tears slipped out of the corners of his eyes, and slid into his mouth, the bitterness was bitter to his heart. Could it be that all the long-held desires, hopes, and dreams have all come to naught at this moment?

He stood there quietly, his eyes swollen, and the sadness and sadness hidden in his heart could be completely perceived by outsiders. Momiji's heart twitched violently, and he gently stepped forward, came to his side, gently wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes, and said softly, hug me......

"Brother, what's wrong with you?" At this time, Hua Hua on the side heard his low sobbing voice, stretched out his little hand, and gently stroked his face. A damp, cool liquid slowly trickles down from above.

"Brother, are you crying, are you thinking about the eldest sister again?" Hua Hua flashed his dark eyes and asked, "If the eldest sister divorces one day, will you marry her again?" ”

Hua Hua's unexpected question made Lu Feng's thoughts hesitate slightly, this red dust remnant dream, a dream for ten years. In the cycle of time, the barrenness of a lifetime is guarded, and the barren land of a person is old.

How many years later, when I look back, I can still feel your tenderness in my heart, then, all my efforts and waiting will be worth it.