Chapter 164: Before Memory
Ling Xiaonan shook his head slowly, and said with a firm face: "No, true love is not a momentary passion, but a dull, that kind of faint warmth, as long as you look at each other, you can feel the warmth of each other." Love later becomes family affection, and family affection will not be forgotten with the passage of time. ”
"I only believe in family affection now, although I am sometimes afraid to go home." Lu Feng said with a little ambivalent mood.
Last night I had dinner with my father, and my father broke a salted egg with his own hands, and then silently handed it to me, and the small but deep love silently made me dare not look up for a long time. But I'm still afraid that they keep talking about marriage.
"Maybe you're stressed! In fact, my family also wants me to find a girlfriend soon, and every relative who moved this time said so. Ling Xiaonan's brows furrowed slightly, and he said with a headache.
"yes, I'm going on a blind date tomorrow." When Lu Feng said this, he felt depressed for a while. Blind date, blind date, I knew it was a useless game, two people who didn't know each other at all were led to know each other by relatives and friends, and two strange hearts came for the reason to be together.
"It's a real blind date!" Ling Xiaonan was slightly surprised, but when he saw his gloomy face, he comforted: "What are you afraid of, why don't you just go to see a little girl, what is there to worry about." ”
Yes, I heard what I told him just now, brother, I don't even have a boyfriend, but it's not our fault that we don't have it, we won't win the favor of others, and it's not our fault. Take your time, I believe Sister Lin is waiting for you to find her!
Lu Feng frowned slightly, and explained: "I'm either afraid, or I hate this kind of endless way of mobilizing the people. ”
Standing at the bridge of memory, in those seasons when spring went to autumn, I didn't know how many encounters I had sent, and I forgot how many hurried dispersions I had participated in when the snow fell. I don't know how many times I will have to play the role of a passerby in the days to come, and I don't know what season the next story will take place in a good time when the flowers are flying.
Lu Feng's eyes showed a look of exhaustion, and he said, "It's just that I think I should get married next year, and I want to live my own life." By the way, do you have any tips for chasing girls? ”
Ling Xiaonan hesitated for a moment, but finally taught without concealment: "You have to have a thick skin, and you have to learn to coax people with your mouth." Someone introduced one to me before, don't like it! Now I ignore her, and she ignores me. ”
"It seems that he has a crush on you, similar to the last time I met, hey, sometimes I'm really afraid of hurting the other party. It's just that living together without feeling will be painful! Lu Feng lowered his head and said in a very soft voice.
Ling Xiaonan thought for a while and said, "It's hard to say this, feelings still have to be cultivated." I went outside with her, and I didn't have anything to say, and I was very depressed. But my parents and relatives all said that her parents were civil servants and she worked at KFC herself. ”
It turned out that this was the case, and there was definitely pressure, Lu Feng said with empathy: "Then let's talk about it and try not to leave regrets." After all, finding someone with good conditions can reduce the burden on the family! If you really can't find the feeling, then you don't have to force yourself. ”
Hold a plain note of the years, fold the time, light the heart, listen to the good, pick up the happiness, and feel the happiness. With the wind and rain all the way, stepping on the time and shallow, the safety is properly turned into a long stream of water, like a small grass, growing according to the sun; Like a flower, blooming in time; Light and ethereal like a cloud, looking down on the past of the world.
It was late at night, and a few rays of starlight were sprinkled in the cold park, dim and lonely. Ling Xiaonan closed his eyes slightly and muttered, "Actually, I'm not optimistic, it's all superficial, but I won't show it on my face, so you think I'm happy." ”
The happiness on his face can be seen by others. Who can feel the pain in their hearts? Ling Xiaonan's face showed that signature smile again. He understands that smiling is sometimes an unspoken pain.
It's just that smile can still make Lu Feng's originally suppressed mood relaxed: "It's already good that you can face it with an optimistic smile on the surface, at least I can get happiness from your face." ”
"Haha, I still have this work, and what I have practiced is actually a smile or not, not from the bottom of my heart." Ling Xiaonan regained his cheerful smile and said, "I'll be happy, maybe one day I figure it out, that's fine, or can I really do it without her?" ”
Forget a person, it's hard. People always have that beauty in their hearts, even if it's memories. Lu Feng didn't move, looked at him intently and said, "You don't have to deliberately forget, even if it's a precious part of your life!" It's just that in the future, it will be difficult for us to love someone so sincerely until it hurts so much that we can't breathe. ”
"The words she cried to me that night kept ringing in my ears. She said to me, I thought you were different from everyone else, you would be good to me for the rest of your life, you wouldn't ignore me, you wouldn't scold me, you would only be nice to me, but now you've become like him. I'm used to it, you can scold if you want to, as long as you feel happy in your heart, I don't want to pay attention to you anymore, I'm dead, it's impossible for me to be with you in this life. ”
Ling Xiaonan's hands were clenched, his expression was distorted, and he looked up and smiled bitterly: "I only sent her a short message later: If I will be happy, then it will also be the joy of inserting a knife into my heart." ”
"Then why don't you tell her what you really feel in your heart, love is so hard." There was deep incomprehension in Lu Feng's voice.
"I was really at a loss for words, and she didn't give me a chance to explain. I told her I was sorry. ”
Ling Xiaonan sighed weakly: "But it's useless, it's useless to say anything, she is such a person." It's just that today my friend encouraged me and asked me to go to her and continue to call her, I called, but she didn't answer both times, and every time it rang until the line was broken, maybe her heart was too fragile. ”
"But that day you said you would ask her to dinner, and she was still willing. How can people become so fast, maybe she has some last resort. ”
Ling Xiaonan's expression was slightly dazed, and he lowered his head and counted carefully: "I have only made appointments with her three times in total, and the day before yesterday, I only had dinner twice." I've asked her N times, but she won't come out, what can I do. When she finally came out that day, I don't know how happy I was. I gave it a gentle hug. Although I didn't get it, I was still very satisfied. ”
Envious, he and Hongye have been with him for so many years, but he has never even held hands, Lu Feng looked forward to it: "I like to listen to this paragraph, because it is very warm, and I have the feeling of you holding her in your arms." ”
"It's only been a few seconds, so it's not very strong. But it already makes me happy. The smile on Ling Xiaonan's face gradually froze, and he said sadly: "If you want to know what it's like, then just think about what it's like for Zhang Wuji to hold Zhao Min." It's late, go home. ”
"Okay, tell me about your happiness next time!" Lu Feng smiled. This sad thing should be drifted away with the wind, leaving no trace, but those happiness can bring us happiness, give people the courage and strength to forge ahead, and let us be full of beautiful expectations for the future.