He Xiao almost ran away from home.

Holding his breath, he walked out of the military compound directly, for fear that Xu Xinyi would chase him out.

He walked to the parking lot, leaned against the car door, and subconsciously touched his trouser pocket, wanting to smoke, but he was empty.

Only then did he realize that he threw the cigarette home.

I was already irritable in my heart, but now I don't even have to smoke, so it's even more unpleasant.

Thinking of Xu Xinyi, his chest was as if it was pressed by tens of millions of catties of stones, blocked and stuffy, and he couldn't breathe.

The scene of her standing in front of him with her bare upper body suddenly flashed in her mind, the palms of her hands suddenly burned again, and the breathing and heartbeat that had just stabilized began to be disordered and cramped again, He Xiao pressed the sore temples hard, and there was a nerve in the back of his head that throbbed with pain, which made He Xiao anxious and upset.

He pulled the door open and got into the car.

Leaning back in the chair, I closed my eyes and tried to calm down.

The atmosphere of silence, so quiet that you could only hear your own heartbeat, was still so messy and disorderly, but it was still powerful.

After trying several times, he still couldn't calm down, He Xiao sighed depressedly, and finally grabbed the car key on the center console and plugged it in, then started the car and drove out of the army.

He Xiao drove the car aimlessly, dropping all the windows, and the wind poured into the entire carriage.

The night breeze was slightly cool, the speed was too fast, and there was a slight tingling sensation on the face, but it seemed to relieve a little boredom.

He was penniless and had no cell phone.

There was really nowhere to go, so he drove to the military subdivision.

The sentry at the door saw the license plate number and let him go directly, He Xiao drove to the army apartment building, parked the car, and went upstairs.

On the second floor, I walked to a door and knocked a few times.

There was no reaction in the room, and he knocked a few times very patiently, and the force was a little stronger.

After a few seconds, the door opened.

"Hey, who should I be, it turned out to be our Captain He, why did you come to the Humble House so late?"

An authentic Beijing accent came, and the words were ridiculous.

He Xiao was in the mood to joke, unceremoniously pushed away the man in front of him and walked into the house, opened the refrigerator with the attitude of the owner, and looked at it, there was no wine.

After that, he walked to the wine cabinet to take a look, directly picked up a bottle of vodka, unscrewed the cap, poured half a glass, raised his head and drank it all, the spicy alcohol slid through his throat, and He Xiao twisted his eyebrows uncomfortably.

"What's the matter? Still drunk? ”

The man walked up to He Xiao and patted him on the shoulder, noticing his solemn expression from just now, and then his tone finally retreated from all impropriety, and became a little serious: "Have you made trouble with that little ancestor of your family again?" ”

He Xiao was silent and noncommittal.

He drank another glass of wine, then leaned back on the sofa and said in a hoarse voice: "Bring me a cigarette." ”

The man took out the cigarette case, threw the whole pack of cigarettes and lighters on He Xiao, he also sat down on the sofa, poured a glass of wine, took a sip, and sighed: "This little girl is really persistent, how many years has this been, and she is still so obsessed?" ”

"Chen Yi." He Xiao's head rested on the back of the sofa, his eyes as black as obsidian, deep and blurred, staring at the ceiling blankly, and slowly spit out a thick white mist from his mouth, blurring his expression, "It's just a little bit ....."

"What's the difference?" Chen Yi was puzzled.

He Xiao was silent for a few seconds, reluctantly resigned to his fate, and then said in a deep voice: "It's just a little bit..... I just couldn't help it. ”

Chen Yi immediately came to his senses, was silent, and said, "Either continue to endure it, or simply accept it, try it....."

"Impossible." Before Chen Yi's words fell, he was interrupted decisively and resolutely by He Xiao, paused, and added, his tone was a little depressed: "I can't afford to try." ”

Chen Yi heard him say this, as a brother, it was more or less unpleasant.

"Aren't you going to put me at ease with what I said? I didn't know she liked you so much, and you didn't say it was her, so I just said a few words casually. ”

He and He Xiao are small, they grew up in a compound since they were children, from wearing open crotch pants together to taking the military academy together, they have known each other for more than 30 years, and he dares to say that he is the person who knows He Xiao best besides He Xiao's family.

Usually He Xiao won't come to him, unless he encounters something that can't be solved.

The so-called trouble is Xu Xinyi.

This is not the first time He Xiao has asked him for a drink.

The first time was three years ago, the second time was two years ago, and this is the third time.

The second time, one day two years ago, He Xiao suddenly came to him, and it was like today, after drinking a few glasses, he suddenly asked: "Do you like girls younger than yourself?" ”

"Aren't you talking nonsense? Which of my girlfriends do you see is older than me? I can't accept the love of my sister and brother anyway, and I can't be a year or two older! ”

He Xiao: "What if you are a teenager younger?" ”

When Chen Yi heard this, he looked at him in surprise: "Teenagers? Pedophilia is perverted! ”

He Xiao's eyes suddenly became serious, and he solemnly declared: "She is an adult." ”

Chen Yi looked at He Xiao's eyes and knew that he was probably serious this time, He Xiao, don't look at him now, before he was in military school, it was a little white dragon in the waves, tens of thousands of miles in a wave, his girlfriend changed every three days, and he was tired of it in less than an hour, and he kicked it.

But Leng Buding saw from He Xiao's eyes the compromise meaning of being suspected of falling in love but willing to be bound by the love of his children, Chen Yi was really a little overwhelmed and unbelievable.

It stands to reason that a good brother has found someone he really likes, and he should bless him, but as a buddy, he should explain the disadvantages to He Xiao the most, so that he has a number in his heart, but don't be blinded by love and this kind of thing.

"Alas, how do you say it, brother, before we went to military school, we could play as crazy as we wanted, what a student girl, Sister Yu, Lori, I want to soak a few bubbles, but we are soldiers now, soldiers can't help themselves, everything has to think twice, our work is special, do this business, suitable for yourself, the most important thing to understand yourself, a girl who has just become an adult, the hair has not grown, do you expect her to understand you? Expect her to be sensible and run the family? It's good if I don't make trouble for you, now, we really can't afford to play with these little girls, besides, all day long, I can't sacrifice my life for the country one day, and I sacrificed heroically......"

Before he finished speaking, He Xiao drank the last sip of wine, put down the wine glass, and left without saying a word.

Later, Chen Yi learned that He Xiao had an impossible person in his heart.

That impossible person is Xu Xinyi.

*

"You're right."

He Xiao finished smoking a cigarette, sat up, extinguished the cigarette butt in the ashtray, and then lit the next one, looking sluggish, unable to guess what he was thinking.

Chen Yi was right then, at least one sentence was right.

That is, he was raining bullets all day long, and he sacrificed his life for the country one day if he couldn't keep it.

The age difference and their relationship between uncle and nephew are actually not a problem for him at all, as long as he wants to, as long as he likes it, he doesn't take these external factors seriously at all, he He Xiao is a madman who does whatever he wants.

But Chen Yi said it in one word.

made him realize the real problem between him and Xu Xinyi.

He goes on missions all over the world, and he can't even do the most basic companionship, and if she is with him, she has to get used to being lonely and lonely.

If she is sick, he will not be able to take care of her by her side, and she must be independent.

Just like that night, she had a high fever, but she caught up with a sudden task, he had no choice but to leave her and leave resolutely, even if she was worried, she couldn't contact her during the mission, and she couldn't even give a simple word of concern.

The military love is very bitter, and he lives a life of one person with the status of two people.

She is still so young, she is also like other girls, longing for love, longing for happiness, she should be with someone who can accompany her anytime and anywhere, and can give her a clear future.

He didn't want her to suffer from military love, and most importantly, he couldn't give her any promises, let alone a clear and visible future.

If she is with him, their future is murky.

As he said tonight, when he went out on a mission, he broke his arm and leg when he was younger, and died heroically and lost his life.

If he dies for the country one day, this is also the glory of his life, but for her, this is a kind of irresponsibility.

Who can guarantee the future? He can't guarantee that he will be safe every time, and he can't even afford to promise the rest of his life, so what can he do with her?

So I chose to retreat, escape, and give up.

When she first confessed at the age of 17, he refused, out of surprise.

At her 18-year-old high school graduation ceremony, her second confession, which he refused, was out of love.

Tonight's rejection is still the same.

But tonight, she smiled and told him that she was not afraid of loneliness, that she could be independent, that she could take care of herself, and that as long as she had him in her life, it would be enough.

The way she laughs is really beautiful, and her eyes are pure and sincere.

It was really just a little bit, and he couldn't help it..... Put aside all your worries, hold her tightly in your arms, kiss her, and be with her.

But her last unfinished words dispelled all the confusion in his heart.

She was so paranoid that he guessed what she was going to say even before he finished speaking.

But I'm afraid, afraid of hearing the sentence "If you die, I will die with you." ”

How could he let her die? He wanted her to live a wonderful life, and she shouldn't have such a heavy vow in her life.

So he was ruthless and said the most cruel sentence, I don't like you, I can't give you anything but family affection.

Thinking of this, He Xiao sighed heavily, Xu Xinyi was really capable, so he was willing to give up.

remembers that on his thirtieth birthday, Yang Xi asked him why he didn't plan to start a family yet.

His answer was so understated: No, just live together, it's the same for everyone.

Yes, it's not Xu Xinyi, it's the same for everyone.

Even he made the worst plan, not marrying for the rest of his life, saving the future.

It's incredible to think about it, he He Xiao has never been an infatuated species, but now he has plunged into the love network laid by her, and there is no way to escape.

But, why did you like her?

Maybe lost in getting along bit by bit, maybe fell into her enthusiasm and bravery, anyway..... In his life, he lost to her.

Some hearts are excited, and it is difficult to recover from the beginning.