35 The Truth About Divorce
When Yanxi called, Buzhan had already rushed to his mother's residence in his father's car.
"I can't go to you today, there's something going on at home. Right... I'm sorry", she hung up the phone.
When I got up in the morning, I received a WeChat message from my father, saying that I had heard the news from my mother, so I hurried over. But when her mother saw her, she was a little scared.
Bai Chuyuan seemed to see his daughter's thoughts, and comforted: "It's okay, you are grown up now, your mother won't treat you like before." Besides, I'm divorced from her, and she's no more..."
"Isn't she my mom away?" , Buzhi asked rhetorically in his heart. The 17-year mother-daughter relationship will really have nothing to do with it because of a divorce paper from my parents? In fact, before hearing the content of their quarrel in her junior year of high school, she never doubted her blood relationship with her, but she just felt that her mother might probably be the person who said "cold by nature"... Although she was very reluctant to admit it.
The car drove to the vicinity of an old community, and my father inquired about the nearby residents according to the address, and soon found the house that my mother rented.
There was a knock on the door, but there was no answer inside. Could it be that you are looking for a mistake? Dad was about to call and ask. A woman walking up the staircase, holding a dish in her hand, lowered her head and was taking out the key in her pocket, and the moment she looked up, Bai Chuyuan and Buzhi were both taken aback. This woman with loose hair, only wearing cotton pajamas, cotton slippers on her feet, and a lazy woman, is really Ling Su.
When Ling Su saw their father and daughter, she hid her face and ran downstairs, but Bai Chuyuan caught up with her in three steps and two steps.
"What are you doing here?" , Ling Su's face was ugly, and he said with a faint breath. Don't look at Bai Chuyuan.
"Mom, Dad and I came over to see you. Are you okay? Seeing his mother's embarrassed appearance, Bu Yan formed a diametrically opposed image contrast with the delicate and noble woman before.
Hearing that he was called his mother for life, the corners of Ling Su's mouth twitched, and his eyes flashed with tears.
"Xiao Ran...", she looked at Bu Ran, and there was shame in her eyes.
"Let's go inside and talk, you and Xiao Ran haven't seen each other for a long time. We're all worried about you. Bai Chuyuan persuaded, mentioned the dishes in Ling Su's hand, and the three of them entered the rental house.
Seeing the simple environment in the house, Bai Chuyuan was full of sadness. Although it is a clean bedroom, a kitchen and a bathroom, in Bai Chuyuan's heart, Ling Su has lived in Jingyi and jade food since he was a child, and now because of his marital relationship with himself, he has fallen into such a situation, he has a sadness in his heart, I don't know whether he is distressed or unbearable.
"I'm fine here, you don't have to worry about me, anyway, I'm used to being alone, and there's nothing out of ...... discomfort", Ling Su spoke, went into the bathroom to tidy up his hair, saw his haggard face in the mirror, sighed lightly, stunned as if he was lost, and then walked to the bedroom with a lot of energy.
Bai Chuyuan heard that there seemed to be a complaint in Ling Su's words, and there was a moment of silence...... Yes, in the past 20 years, he has spent very little time with her, although he has formed a family with her, the relationship between them is still greater than love.
And Ling Su always understood in his heart that Bai Chuyuan had never loved him, he wanted to live with her for the rest of his life, he only cherished her, but he did not cherish her. When her daughter Ling Bu got into college and left this home, she finally figured out a truth, the obstacle between her and Bai Chuyuan was not this innocent child, but him, who had never loved herself.
"Mom, you should still live at home, there is Aunt Lin at home who can take care of you. Dad, he also wants you to live at home." Bu Ran said softly, habitually watching the change in his mother's face.
"Hatsuhara, I have a few words to say to Xiao Ran, you go to the car and wait for a while." , Ling Su said softly, and took her daughter's unstained hand and put it in the palm of her hand.
"This ......", Bai Chuyuan didn't know what Ling Su meant, but seeing that her attitude towards Xiao Ran had become so kind, he nodded to his daughter and motioned for him to go back to the car first.
"Xiao Ran, you finally came home from vacation this year, is your mother sorry for you...... If I could turn back the clock, I wouldn't ......."
"Mom, don't talk about the past." , Bu Ran knew what Ling Su wanted to express, but she didn't want to mention it anymore, she was already an adult, and she was no longer the little girl who only had her parents in her life, and she longed for maternal love in her heart. Especially after Yanxi walked into her life, she suddenly found that the biggest gap in her heart had been filled by him. Crushing on him, missing him, holding hands with him, kissing, the beauty and sourness of youth have just rippled in her heart...... She wants to cherish and experience it.
"Xiao Ran, as long as you can go home, your father can forgive me, in fact, our divorce is mainly ......", Ling Su paused, and halfway through his words, there seemed to be something unspeakable.
"Because of what?" , unstained heart tightened, sensitive heart again uneasy, is they divorced because of their own ......
"Xiao Ran, I shouldn't tell you this, maybe your dad has already told you, in fact, you didn't go home during the first vacation after you went to college, and your dad never gave me a smile, I quarreled with him for this, and apologized, but he still complained that I didn't call you, didn't care about you, he felt that your not going home was completely caused by my previous harshness to you, and he even had a cold war with me and separated...... In fact, my mother also has her own difficulties, I am willing to raise you for him, and even, when I was young, I wanted to have a child, but he disagreed, and I admitted it. However, I never imagined that when I angrily filed for divorce from her, he would be so happy to agree......"
Ling Su's words made Buji's originally calm head fall into a mess, it turned out that his parents divorced because of himself, and his father didn't tell him the truth. Why, why did mom tell herself this, she didn't know what she could do, what to do for their already broken marriage......
And at this moment, Ling Su is as calm as water on the surface, but she is tightly twisting a rope in her heart, this is her last weight, if she can't take the opportunity to save her marriage this time, then her relationship with Bai Chuyuan may really come to an end. She was 10,000 dissatisfied, 10,000 disagreed, since you Bai Chuyuan loved her daughter so much, then this is your death hole, I, Ling Susheng, am your person, and death is your ghost. When you got divorced, you were supposed to leave the house with nothing, but now you treat wealth and reputation like dung, and time has changed, which is very different from the young you who chose to marry me for the future! Bai Chuyuan, your biggest point is soft-hearted, I don't believe it, I am in such a miserable situation now, can you bear it? Now that your father and daughter have come to beg me to go back, I am bound to turn the situation around, and I must not repeat the mistakes I made before......
"Mom, I know, you still love Dad...... Of course I hope you and Dad will remarry. But ......"
"But what?" , Ling Su looked a little nervous.
"But Dad, she should have misunderstood you, thinking that you didn't want to live with him, so she agreed to divorce ......", Bu Zhan saw that her mother, who had never been proud and would not bow to anyone, suddenly became so humble, and her resentment towards her was replaced by deep sympathy in her heart. Once, how she longed for the love and intimacy of the mother in front of her, and even dreamed that she was like someone else's mother, telling herself stories before going to bed, picking herself up from school, and making a loving breakfast, but it was always just a daydream. And today, she can hold her hand and talk to her so much, and her heart is also warm.
"Xiao Ran, if you can move back home, your father will forgive me sooner or later, as for whether to remarry, I haven't thought about this, as long as our family can be happy in the future, this is better than anything else, what do you say? Actually, my mother has lived too confused in the past 20 years, and now she suddenly realizes it, but she can't regret it......"
"Mom, don't talk about it. As long as you can move back home, I'll communicate with my dad about the rest, and he actually really misses you......"
Ling Su listened to the words of the unstained, and the tight strings in her heart finally loosened, this is the result she wants, no matter whether Bai Chuyuan pities herself or misses herself, she will not allow him to live without her, and the last thing he wants is that his daughter Ling Buyan will go to find her biological mother when she grows up, in case their father and daughter find Ling Qingyi and stage a good reunion, she will die blindly.