It's the season of spring again, the flowers, trees, and grasses that have been sleeping all winter are gradually recovering, earthworms are wriggling, swallows are flying back from the south, and the frozen river is beginning to flow slowly, and everywhere is filled with a new green of spring.

I stood under the pomegranate tree in the yard and looked at the new leaves of the tree, full of joy.

Ai'er was watering the flowers in the yard with a small wooden bucket, and seeing me smiling, Ai'er said, "Sir, why are you so happy, is it because Miss Si will get married in two months, Miss Baifu is married, since I came to Fuzhong, this is the first time, and it will be very lively at that time, and the daughter born in the family is really happy."

After the New Year, Bai Qingrui's marriage became the biggest happy event in the mansion of the general Bai Zhanqi.

After more than two months of observation, Jun'er's illness has completely recovered, and there has never been a fainting phenomenon, Mrs. Mu, her heart doesn't hurt anymore, and she is busy all day long for the marriage of her fourth daughter, and she hasn't stopped for a moment. Bai Qingrui's marriage has always been like a big stone on Mrs. Mu's heart, Bai Qingrui grew up in her grandmother's house, although she is not an outsider, she is her own mother's family, but after all, she is not by her side, less care, Mrs. Mu always feels indebted to her fourth daughter, she didn't say it, I can also feel it from what she says on weekdays, so she tried her best to make up for it, not only did she personally go to the city to choose wedding supplies, but also asked me what I could do to make the wedding better and more grand, It is more in line with Bai Qingrui's mind. Mrs. Mu also said that I should accompany Bai Qingrui more, accompany her to read, paint, and play the piano, and asked me to teach Qingrui more about how to behave in the world in the only two months. For the sake of this fourth daughter, Mrs. Mu can be said to have thought carefully, for fear that her daughter would suffer when she got married.

I promised Mrs. Mu on my lips, but my heart was a mess, I don't know if I can see Bai Qingrui get married with my own eyes, whether I can wait until that day, the answer is no, more than two months, dozens of days, I have lived in Baifu for more than three years, I am really reluctant to leave like this, but what can I do, long pain is better than short pain, sooner or later I have to leave. The purpose of my coming to Baifu is to ask Bai Xiaoqiu, do you still remember Su Luofan outside Luoyang City, under the Lion Rock, I want to ask him, I have many opportunities to ask him, but when I see him and Chu Lianwei and Jun'er, their family of three happily together, I know that it no longer makes sense to ask or not to ask, since this is the case, I have no reason to stay, not to mention that Yin Ziran has urged me several times to let me leave Baifu with him quickly.

He is urgent, I always have to go to the palace to do it, but the current problem is how can I go, the white mansion is different from other places, how can the carriage in the house be transferred at will, the saint has not been in good health recently, often sick in bed, since this year to deal with the affairs of the court and politics will be handed over to the prince of the dynasty to deal with, the prince has just temporarily managed the government, many things are waiting for him to deal with, a month before the palace face saint, I saw the prince with a sad face, the copywriting in front of him is like a hill, presumably it is also not handy, there are many large and small affairs, He was already in a state of disarray, so I had to silently stuff the resignation letter back into my sleeve.

Who can help me mobilize the carriage in the mansion, Bai Xiaoqiu can't do it, Bai Yan Leng can't do it, and the eleventh young man is not in the mansion, I don't know where he went. If the fourteen young is still there, he will definitely be able to help me with this, when I think of the fourteen less, my heart began to ache faintly again, Bai Xiaoqiu said that I fell in love with the fourteenth young, is it true, I don't know, I only know that I will often think of him, when I think of him, I will secretly laugh, and I will secretly cry, I remember the bits and pieces of the fourteenth young together very clearly, his glance and smile are imprinted in my mind, can never be erased, I never thought that I would fall in love with another man other than Bai Xiaoqiu. I stood in the yard and thought about it, and there was only Bai Qingrui, didn't Mrs. Mu ask me how to get Bai Qingrui's heart, I remember that Bai Qingrui liked a side of embroidery, embroidered with two cute kittens rolling a ball of thread, one big and one small, in the shop in Luoyang City Market, I saw it when I accompanied Mrs. Mu last time, my heart moved, and I happily asked, "Ai'er, help me invite the fourth lady." As soon as I finished speaking, I beckoned again, "Forget it, I'll go myself."

Ai'er reached out and scooped a scoop of water in the bucket, the water was too full, overflowing and flowing to the ground, she said, "Sir, what are you looking for Miss Four, when I passed by the general's mansion the day before yesterday, I didn't see Miss Four, yesterday Liu Er came to borrow a ladder from our house, I helped her send it over, I also said a few words to Mrs. Mu, Mrs. Mu and her have not seen Miss Four for a day, and I don't know where to go."

I sighed, glanced at the beams of the house, and said to Ai'er, "Fourth Miss is not a child, Baifu is so big, I can't tell where to hide and play, I'll go and see, and by the way, go to Luoyang City with her."

I didn't see Bai Qingrui as I wished, on the contrary, when I went, Mrs. Mu was in a hurry, and she sent the people in the house to look around the entire Bai Mansion early in the morning.

When Mrs. Mu saw me coming, she hurriedly asked, "Sir, have you seen my Qingrui?"

I shook my head, and before I could reply, I saw a little girl running into the hall in a panic with a white face, kneeling at the feet of Mrs. Mu, and said earnestly, "Madam, it's a big deal, Miss Four, Miss Four, she threw herself into the well."

"What 。。。。。。"

I saw Mrs. Mu fall straight in front of me like this, I rushed over and hugged Mrs. Mu tightly, and shouted "Mrs. Mu" repeatedly.

I can't believe it, Bai Qingrui, who is alive and well, is gone if she says like this, her death is not clear, she is still so young and so beautiful, her temperament is so lively, her laughter is as crisp as a yellow warbler, she likes to hum a small tune and lie on the ground to watch the ants move, and she also likes to talk about the theory of Xuanxuan, although she has never begged for a bargain in Xuanxuan, although she has worked hard and is unforgiving, but she is the same as Mrs. Mu, kind-hearted.

I remember she told me that she would live happily ever after, and that in two months, only two months, she would be married, and I couldn't figure out how she would die.

What makes me even more incomprehensible is that Yin Ziran also left, he left quietly, leaving only a letter to me, Mrs. Mu heard the news that Bai Qingrui threw herself into the well, and fainted on the spot sadly, I asked Liu Er, who served Mrs. Mu, to ask Yin Tang for a doctor, but Liu Er did not find Yin Ziran.

I found a letter he left for me on the table in Yin Ziran's room, and the content of the letter was very simple and only two lines: Take care in the future, don't come to me again.

Didn't you already say it, let's go back to Jizhou together, he has waited for me for so many years, why did he leave suddenly now, without any warning, all my things have been packed and quietly packed into bags, just wait for me to enter the palace to ask the saint to resign, fast two or three days, slow five or six days, I can go back to Jizhou with him, why did he leave, why didn't he tell me in person, wasn't the first few days okay, what happened in the middle, why did Bai Qingrui die, I can't figure it out.

Yin Ziran just left, he didn't take the clothes I made for him, they were flat on the bed, they were still brand new, it seems that he didn't even wear them, not once.

Sitting alone in the room and thinking about it for a long time, he thought about everything that had happened to Yin Ziran from beginning to end from beginning to end, and he didn't understand what made him say goodbye without saying goodbye. Yin Ziran is my last hope and destination, he is gone, where should I go?

This time I didn't even cry, I was just laughing, alone in the room looking at the window and giggling.

Bai Qingrui's death made Mrs. Mu suffer a great blow, after passing out a few times, Mrs. Mu finally decided to go back to her parents' house to recuperate for a period of time, and when she left, she entrusted Xuanqi to me, so that I could supervise Xuanxu's reading, the general Bai Zhanqi did not stop it, only said that it was okay, Mrs. Mu smiled faintly and did not say anything, turned around and got into the carriage.

Many people said that Bai Qingrui was dissatisfied with the family affair that Mrs. Mu had set for her, and she didn't dare to disobey, so she had to find a short-term and committed suicide.

I followed Mrs. Mu's advice and became interested in Xuanqiu, Xuanxuan gradually grew up, has reached the age of tying his hair, he has been smart and studious since he was a child, especially in recent years, he has learned a lot of knowledge in military books with Bai Xiaoqiu, and many of the knowledge in books can be read alone, and I don't need to explain too much to him.

One afternoon afternoon, I was chilling at Langting, and Zhao Yinlan also came after a while, she had a big belly, mixed with two little girls, followed by three girls, some holding a fan and clothes in their hands, one holding a warm pot in their arms, and some holding fruits and pastries. Her belly was so big, it was so big that she could walk with great difficulty, and she moved very slowly, and it had been half a year since she was released from the dungeon, and today was the first time I saw her.

After nearly three years, when I saw her again, I still had indignation and injustice in my heart, feeling unfair for Mrs. Mu, and also had an unrelieved hatred for Ju'er, who had long since died, but when I thought of her life in the dungeon in the past few years, now that she was pregnant with Liujia, she was about to give birth. I knew that I shouldn't do unreasonable things at this juncture, so I walked forward quickly and beckoned, "Zhao Yinlan, long time no see."

Zhao Yinlan didn't make a sound, and as soon as she waved, the two little girls beside her hurriedly sat down with her. She glanced at me sideways and said with a smile, "Who should I be, it turned out to be Mr. Su, I haven't seen you for a few years, Mr. Su's demeanor is still the same, and he is still so smart."

I laughed and said, "How dare I compare to you." Originally, I really wanted to take a bad breath for Mrs. Mu, but I heard that since she was pregnant, she was favored by the general, and every now and then she went to find trouble with Mrs. Mu, and said some ugly things in front of the people in the house, which embarrassed Mrs. Mu, and it was really hard to change. But as soon as I saw her high bulging belly, I couldn't say a lot of words, so I had to swallow it back.

Probably seeing that I was staring at her belly, Zhao Yinlan touched it on the stomach, "If it weren't for my belly, the general would value me now, and he transferred a few girls to serve me last month, for fear that I would be hot and hungry, he was too nervous about me, and regarded my baby as more important than his life, then no, you also saw it, now there is a group of people following me wherever I go, and I am annoyed to death."

I can hear that she is specifically saying it to me, she knows that I have a very good relationship with Mrs. Mu, like a mother and daughter, but she deliberately said it to me, the purpose is to belittle Mrs. Mu, and tell me that her current identity is more noble than Mrs. Mu, not to mention that I once quarreled with Zhao Yinlan for Mrs. Mu, I still remember it, how can a villain like her not remember. No matter how unhappy I am in my heart, I can't have a seizure at this time, Zhao Yinlan is now pregnant, which is Bai Zhanqi's last hope, and because of this, Zhao Yinlan dares to recklessly spread joy in front of everyone.

I didn't want to listen to Zhao Yinlan's rambling anymore, and said under the guise that there was still something to do, and I was about to leave, but Zhao Yinlan said, "Doesn't Mr. Su want to know how Bai Qingrui's dead girl died?" ”

In my heart, I have never believed that Bai Qingrui would end her life so easily, she is cheerful, in the words of Mrs. Mu, she is alive without heart and lungs, how can such a person commit suicide, the general has also sent people to inspect and explore, and did not find any suspicious signs, I have no choice but to identify Bai Qingrui as a well thrown by myself, so many days have passed, I still have doubts in my heart, but when I heard Zhao Yinlan's tone, my heart still exploded, and I suddenly had an ominous premonition, I asked"You know".

Zhao Yinlan touched her stomach again and said provocatively, "What do you say?"

I slowly put away the pu fan in my hand, although it seemed calm on the surface, but my heart was beating wildly, "less nonsense, you know what to say quickly, say it quickly".

Zhao Yinlan chuckled, "I just like to see Mr. can't hold his breath, it's so cute, Mr. has always had a good temperament and won't get angry easily, it seems that the death of the fourth lady also scared Mr. Su."

I said sharply, "Zhao Yinlan, what are you talking nonsense, what do you know, tell me quickly."

Zhao Yinlan was still not angry, only smiled faintly, and as soon as she raised her hand, the two little girls beside her hurriedly stood up with her, she touched her stomach with one hand and supported her waist with the other, "Bai Qingrui committed suicide, she threw herself into the well, and the people in the house said so, don't Mr. Su believe it."

I said, "I don't care what the people in the house say, I still don't believe that the fourth lady threw the well herself, she is still so young, and seeing that she is about to get married, how can it be。。。。。 ”。

"Hahaha", Zhao Yinlan laughed loudly, "Yes, she lived a carefree life as soon as she was born, she was favored by everyone, the eldest lady in the general's mansion, how noble her identity is, but what does that mean, who would have thought that a girl who has not been out of the cabinet is pregnant, a girl who is about to marry is pregnant, she is indeed a well thrown by herself."

"How is it possible, I don't believe it, you lied to me, Zhao Yinlan, you spread rumors, it must be you, the death of the fourth lady must be inseparable from you." My body trembled with rage, my hands clenched into fists, and I roared.

Zhao Yinlan walked a few steps forward and stood in front of me, her face was hideous, "Bai Qingrui, that dead girl is young but does not abide by women's morals, is shameless, despicable and obscene, everything is her own fault, just like her aunt who wants to die all day long and win people's sympathy, hypocritical, slut embryo."

"You are talking nonsense, it was you who killed the fourth lady, it was you" My head buzzed, I couldn't think about things anymore, I lost my mind, and pushed Zhao Yinlan hard.

Zhao Yinlan couldn't catch off guard and sat on the ground, she screamed, and a few little girls who followed behind her were frightened, and hurriedly came forward to mix her, I heard Zhao Yinlan hissing and shouting, my stomach hurts, my stomach, it hurts, my child, a few girls cry Aunt Zhao, I saw a lot of sweat on Zhao Yinlan's forehead, the sweat rolled down one by one, at this moment, a girl shouted "There is blood on the ground".

Hearing this, all the people looked towards the ground, and I saw that the bright red blood water flowed down Zhao Yinlan's thighs, flowing on the ground, twisting and turning, and the blood water flowed more and more, merging into a small river of blood.

Zhao Yinlan was already wet with sweat, her clothes were wrinkled, strands of hair were sticking to her face indiscriminately, her hairpin was crumbling on her head, her expression looked so painful, she grabbed the wrist of one of the girls, and begged, "Save my child, my child must be fine."

I admit that I am a timid person, I have done something wrong and have not taken responsibility, at this critical juncture, my legs trembled like chaff, when I saw Zhao Yinlan struggling, she stretched out her hand to me to ask me for help, I didn't say anything and turned around and ran, I kept running, running faster than a rabbit, completely ignoring Zhao Yinlan's painful moans and the screams of the girls behind me. I don't know where I'm going, I just keep running. I didn't want to push Zhao Yinlan, I didn't want to harm her and the child in her belly, I was just too angry, how could she be so arrogant, she bullied Mrs. Mu, disrespected Mrs. Mu, and humiliated Bai Qingrui, if it weren't for what she said, Bai Qingrui wouldn't have thrown herself into the well, everything was Zhao Yinlan's fault, and if the child in her belly really encountered an accident, she would be to blame.

I lay in bed for three days, not eating, not drinking, not talking, not closing my eyes, ignoring anyone, I lay motionless on the bed like a soulless corpse, my eyes only staring at the beams of the room in a daze, not even bothering to move.

Ai'er was so anxious that she didn't know what to do, in a hurry, she called Bai Yanleng, and then Bai Xiaoqiu, and even called Xuanxuan, but no matter who talked to me, I was indifferent, and I didn't have any expression.

After a few days, Ai'er told me a good news, Zhao Yinlan gave birth, I don't know if it's a man or a woman, I don't want to ask, it's not important to me anymore, I used to want to fight for Mrs. Mu, I will still care about whether she gave birth to a man or a girl, and now Mrs. Mu is not here, for me, what is the point of knowing and not knowing.

Good news or bad news didn't matter to me anymore, by the fifth day, my whole face was blue, my eyes were sunken, and there was no flesh left on my body, only a skeleton of bones. Ai'er was about to cry in a hurry, and she really couldn't think of a better way to coax me, so she had to find Eleven Shao.

When Eleven Young came to see me, he also brought two bottles of good wine, and I used to wonder why Eleven Young always liked to squat at the foot of the courtyard wall and pound, because he was making wine, and he buried a lot of wine at the foot of the courtyard wall.

I shouted eleven, and tears flowed out.

That day, Eleven Shao sat in my room for a long time, closed the door, we talked a lot, I had too many words to say to others, I could only tell Eleven Shao, I told all the ins and outs of the matter, I couldn't bury everything in my stomach, that would suffocate me to death, I had to find someone to talk to, tell him all the bitterness in my heart, look at it, there is only Eleven Shao. I told him that Bai Qingrui's death had nothing to do with me, that I was the one who killed Bai Qingrui, and that I was sorry for Mrs. Mu.

Although Eleven Shao comforted me repeatedly, I still felt that my heart hurt, Mrs. Mu treated me so well, how should I face her in the future.

I drank a lot, a lot of wine, but Eleven persuaded me to drink together, and we drank and cried together, and said a lot of crazy things together.

After the eleventh boy returned, I drank a lot of wine by myself, and when I got drunk, I slept on the ground.

I became unmotivated, depressed, I didn't go out of the door all day long, I didn't read or paint, except for drinking, I was lying on the bed looking at the beams in a daze, so I lived like this until one day Chu Lianwei came to me, and she gave me a story.