Chapter 115: Selfishness
Cheering up again, Bo Yan tugged at the corners of his mouth, his voice was much lower but deliberately mixed with some smiles: "The diplomatic relations between the two countries are not child's play, you and I have no each other in our hearts, and it is really helpless to be reluctantly tied together, but the days are still long, I am thinking, when the political situation is stable, if you are also willing, the two of us can also be separated, but the friendship between Zhao and the Western Jin Dynasty cannot be broken because of this, His Royal Highness the Prince has always been wise, and it should not be a person who is angry because of personal feelings." ”
Jin An's cheeks were flushed, and now he only felt that it was not just stuffy, but about to explode: "That's all you have to say on your wedding night?" ”
I really want to see how Bo Yan's heart grows, and it can be like this...... Ay......
A thousand words turned into a sigh, Jin An turned his eyes to look at the dragon and phoenix double candles on the table, the red candle has been half burned, and the dragon and phoenix style on it has been destroyed by wax tears...... Enough is enough, why should I ......
Jin An lowered his eyes: "On the wedding night, the opening is closed, and you are the only one in the world who wants to come to the world." ”
The long eyelashes cast a shadow under Jin An's eyes, and the pitch-black pupils made it impossible to distinguish his emotions at the moment.
Bo Yan noticed the slightest anger in Jin An's voice, and raised his eyes to look at Jin An, he was clearly thinking about him, was he angry? Why are you angry? Do you blame yourself for being too blunt?
Bo Yan was a little confused, but also a little confused, shrunk his neck and frowned, he has never been a very smart person, otherwise he would not have been poisoned by the closest people in his previous life, and he didn't know that he could barely get here in this life because of the ability and luck of the "prophet".
Jin An saw that Bo Yan was speechless, and the anger in his heart was even worse, but he had no way to vent, so he could only sneer: "Since you have planned everything, then it will be as you wish." ”
As he spoke, he got up.
Although Bo Yan didn't know why Jin An was angry, but his intuition should be related to himself, now Jin An was angry, his face was cold, and the king's aura around him was even more ten, Bo Yan had always been timid, and in front of the angry Jin An, seeing this, he couldn't help but shrink back in fear.
Bo Yan is just the most intuitive natural reaction of body and mind, but this shrinkage in Jin'an's eyes hurts his self-esteem a lot.
Jin An clenched his fists, trying to restrain his anger, what? Feel so uncomfortable even staying in the same room by yourself? Did she feel like she was going to do something to her?
"Why are you so nervous," Jin An said coldly: "You also said that you and I are both for the friendship between the two countries, since there is no affection at all, I naturally won't do anything to you." ”
Bo Yan twisted his eyebrows, opened his mouth to justify something, wanted to say that he didn't mean this, but when the words came to his mouth, he didn't know where to start, saying that he wasn't afraid of what he would do to him? It's not right, selfishness is afraid, Bo Yan has his own pride, Jin'an doesn't have himself in his heart, at least not now, he is unwilling to commit to a person who doesn't love him; But if you are afraid? Listening to his words, it is above board, but it seems that he is a villain's heart...... Moreover......
Bo Yan's heart was bored for a while, and a hypothesis came to his mind, if Jin'an didn't have a favorite person...... If...... I don't seem to be so resistant......
After realizing this, Bo Yan was shocked and secretly embarrassed by his thoughts! No, no, no! Jin An should be a married man in his heart for suicide, how can he have such thoughts, he can't be an interfer in other people's feelings, and he doesn't want to be anyone's substitute, his temperament does not allow it, and his upbringing does not allow it.
"I'm naturally going to be above board," Bo Yan said lightly, his voice couldn't hear the emotion, and after a while, he sorted out his thoughts and continued: "And last time...... Mr. Rizuki came to treat me thanks to your blessing, and this kindness ......"
"How do you repay this kindness?" Jin An raised his chin slightly and looked down at Bo Yan.
"I ......" Bo Yan was a little surprised, and looked at Jin'an hesitantly.
Jin An still had a cold face: "How?" ”
"I ......" Bo Yan lowered his eyes and pondered: "If the prince has a useful place in the future......" It's not that he doesn't want to answer, but he really can't think of anything to repay Jin'an, he has helped himself too many times, this kind of kindness is really not easy to repay, and where is it that one or two sentences can be said clearly, he understands that he knows how to repay his kindness, and now he just thinks that if Jin'an can use his own place in the future, he will definitely do his best to help.
"Where to use it? Listening to your empathetic words earlier, could it be that you mean to personally help me marry a wife and take a concubine when I want? Jin An all mocked.
Hearing this, Bo Yan felt a pain in his heart, he just said it nicely, and he really wanted to help Jin'an and others...... Why are you so uncomfortable!
But...... What does Jin An's slow mocking and disdainful tone mean, if there is anything he just can't say!
Thinking of this, Bo Yan was also a little angry, thinking about him all his heart, why did he do this, could it be because he married too one to block Bai Qiuran's way, but he also agreed to this marriage! What a petty character to be here in yourself now.
Bo Yan pursed his lips, snorted in a muffled voice, and said angrily: "If His Royal Highness the Crown Prince opens his mouth, I will naturally do it!" ”
"You!" Jin An almost didn't vomit a mouthful of blood, okay, okay!
Bo Yan raised his chin and looked back at Jin An angrily.
Jin An now feels that his efforts have reached the top of his head, but he really can't vent in the face of the person in front of him, and he smiled coldly after a moment of silence: "Since you are so generous, I am naturally happy, but you don't have to take it as a great favor, I just told Mr. Lizhu about your various things in Zhao State, and Mr. Lizhu felt that such a person's life should not be desperate to lend a hand, but ......" Jin'an glanced up and down at Bo Yan, and shook his head contemptuously: "Now it seems that Mr. Lizhu and I have misjudged you." ”
Bo Yan was stunned, put away the anger on his face, and sank to the bottom with a heart: "You...... What does it mean......"
Jin An also said: "Your father took over the throne. ”
"It's not my ......"
"I know this may not be your intention," Jin An lightly interrupted Bo Yan's words, his expression changed to the appearance of talking about business usually, and his lips seemed to be smiling, as if he was leaving: "However, you agreed." ”
“…… So what...... "Bo Rouge clutched the corners of his clothes,
"This matter is Zhao Xueyan personally ordered, he sympathizes with you, I understand, besides, your father said that he would return the throne when Zhao Xueyan became an adult, but during the more than ten years, there have been many changes, Zhao Xueyan's abdication is for you to give up the country, that is, to give up this throne, I believe that it is impossible for your mind not to understand what he sacrificed."
Bo Yan gritted his teeth, closed his eyes tightly, and his heart was tangled together: don't say it......
"These can be regarded as personal feelings, I don't want to talk too much, but there is only one point, you actually let the Bo family, Bo Zhongqing, and your father take over the throne," Jin An said here and sneered: "From the bottom of your heart, do you think your father is really a qualified emperor?" ”
Bo Yan's breath stagnated, his head hung down anymore, Jin An's words today were like a sharp knife, the knife stabbed to the bottom of his heart, and he dug out the things he tried to cover up and try to ignore......
Is his father fit to be an emperor...... Bo Yan smiled bitterly, he understands that he is not the material of the emperor at all, he is used to being a courtier, and he has been acting according to orders for most of his life, and suddenly pushed him to a supreme position, he may not have a way to fully support the overall situation, let him be the emperor, walking on thin ice, he is incorruptible, pedantic, and many things love to drill the horns, but to be an emperor, the most taboo thing is to be so old-fashioned, with his father's heart, I am afraid it will be difficult to convince the public......
I understand all of this, I understand, but in that case I still nodded, in the final analysis, at that time, I put myself in front, abandoned Zhao Guo, abandoned the Bo family, abandoned everything, I just wanted to escape from the position of the queen mother, regardless of the others, it was the only time in my life that I was selfish, although it was helpless, but after all, it was selfish......
Jin An saw everything clearly, he saw himself thoroughly, he was right, what he did really couldn't afford Mr. Ritsuki's thousands of miles of help.
Bo Rou's nose was sour, his eyes were red, and he buried his head even heavier, grievances and shame welled up in his heart, and he was speechless for a while......
Jin An couldn't see Bo Yan's appearance clearly, but he felt uncomfortable for a while, he didn't want to say it so much, although Bo Yan's move to allow the Bo family to succeed to the throne did make him a little shocked and disappointed, thinking that she was a little selfish, but ...... But...... In my selfish heart, I wanted to take her hand and say to her softly after lifting her hijab: No matter what, she can get rid of the position of the queen mother, and she is very happy.
But as soon as the words came out, he couldn't take them back, Jin An was a little apologetic, but he still stubbornly pinned his head to the side.
Two people who have first met each other don't know how to restrain their edges, and they are bruised all over their bodies in the temptation of each other, which is probably the case when men and women in this world first meet......
The two of them were silent, neither of them would say a word, the red candle crackled, the bright moon outside the window was sinking, and it was already past time.
Jin An hesitated for a moment, and could only leave with his sleeves brushed up: "Although you don't want to, but when your family enters my house, I will respect you...... Rest assured, I Jin'an has always disdained to do what is difficult for strong people! ”
Bo Yan sat alone on the window, pursed his lower lip, and said nothing.