Everything about me, it is easy to know if you have a little fairy and demon background, because it is very simple, so simple that in those two hundred years, I was almost only doing the same thing, going back and forth to the fairy forest, and delivering food to Bai Jinghong. The problem is that it's too simple, too simple to be able to describe "everything."

I think Li Si has some background in the Devil's Dao, and maybe he really knows something that I don't even know myself, but every time I open my mouth to ask, my mouth will be stuck with spells, so I am more convinced that he must know something, but he is determined not to tell me. In this way, I can deduce that perhaps, as Yanyan guessed, she was able to ascend to immortality during difficult childbirth, which was really a blessing to me.

But what the hell could I be, I have a terrible headache when I think about these things, as if I have some kind of barrier in my head, and if I try to break through it, I will be severely punished.

I could only let Li Si hold me in my arms, it seemed that I could feel better in his arms, but I couldn't figure out why I could feel better in his arms. I only know that even if he killed my father with his own hands, even if he was clearly interfering with my experience, even if he was good and bad for me, everything he treated me for a purpose, in this empty Second Prince's Mansion, in this long and boring human world, it was much better to have him than not him.

I fell asleep aggrievedly in his arms, and woke up aggrieved, but when I woke up, he was still holding me, his eyes were full of tiredness, and he should have not slept all night.

I don't know what it was that kept him awake, but I was grateful that he was able to take time out of his busy schedule to spend time with me, which made me sad again.

I wanted to reach out and touch his face, Li Si was slightly stunned, and his voice was a little low, "You're awake." ”

I kind of regret it, normally, he walks away when he wakes up. I don't know what I'm disappointed about, but I know that I can't bear him, and I know that he will still go if I don't want to, he seems to have his own very important things to do, and he will never make extra stops by my side.

I had to turn around and pretend not to care if he stayed or not, Li sighed without an eye, and he really left like this. I lay on the bed and pulled the silver strands in my hair one by one, and muttered in my heart: "Let's go, let's go, anyway, this life is not long, after the tribulation, in the next life I am a fairy and you are a demon, the old lady will not look at you once, and give you a child, give birth to a ball!" ”

I thought so, and the ball kicked me, and before I was born, he teamed up with his father to bully me. I lay down and touched my stomach, thinking seriously about the fate of the ball.

Privately speaking, I have not made any preparations to be a mother, after Yanyan ascended to immortal and gave birth to me, although she attained the Tao, I am a mortal, I live a mortal life, only a few days after landing, I have grown into the size of a mortal seven or eight years old doll. At that time, some Xianjun suggested that Yanyan send me back to the mortal world to find a good family to adopt, Yanyan was not reluctant, so she went to steal the Changshan Holy Fruit, imprisoning my longevity, when I took the Holy Fruit, it happened to be a mortal seventeen or eighteen years old, but I was really just a baby. Even if I have lived in the fairy world for more than 200 years, I am only a 200-year-old baby, except for the three or two things that hook up with Bai Jinghong, I have always treated myself as a baby.

This kind of self-awareness has been more than 200 years, and the mortal world will not change much in the past nineteen years, I am still a baby, how can I raise another baby.

I don't want to be a mother at all, I look at Li Si and I don't really want to be a father, so I still don't do it, let it return to the secluded capital to be reincarnated, if I go through this calamity quickly, maybe I still have time to go to the secluded capital before it is reincarnated, and find him a good family in the next life.

So I began to think about how to miscarriage myself, the abortion pill Tuo Xiaoyu secretly bought a few times, and was caught by Li Si in the bag, humiliating me lukewarmly a few words, I didn't care about him, and instead started the idea of a hunger strike, thinking that the pregnant woman is malnourished, and the baby will not be able to live in peace, so I hope it can retreat from the difficulty.

But all this has no practical effect, of course, there are effective methods, such as finding a corner of the table and hitting it with all my might, but then Li Si knows that I am deliberate, and I will really make the whole Subei Mansion angry.

In short, I was going to toss once in three days, and Li Si was going to come over to teach me a lesson in three days, and then he also saw that I didn't have the intention of having a miscarriage at all, so I used this pretext to lure him over to talk to me, so I had a little unreasonable attitude towards my little tricks.

But gradually, I couldn't care about playing tricks with him anymore, because my health was getting worse and worse, and I couldn't even cover the lotus heart, and I was cold and weak all day long, like soaking in ice water, and no number of quilts were enough. I shivered in the quilt, feeling that it was too uncomfortable to live like this, and it was better to have fun with people, so I told Xiaoyu to go out and ask me for a royal doctor, and make the movement bigger, as if I would die two corpses if I was one step too late.

The imperial doctor was soon invited, and naturally Li Si also listened to the movement and followed, and after the imperial doctor checked the pulse, he said that I had excessive wear and tear before, and advised me to have a miscarriage as soon as possible, otherwise I would end up with a corpse and two lives sooner or later. With a lotus heart covered, it is impossible to have two lives in one corpse, so when I heard the imperial doctor say this, I was not vain in my heart, and even lifted my eyelids at Li Si a little proudly, so that he knew how hard I worked to help him conceive a child.

Xiaoyu was so anxious that she wanted to cry again, persuaded me to make a decision quickly, and went to beg Li Si to do well, saying that if my father knew about it, he would not be able to close his eyes when he saw me like this.

Li Si didn't take it seriously, and said to the imperial doctor straightforwardly: "My lord, although I apply needles and medicines, what this king wants is the blood in her abdomen, and her life is not important." ”

As he spoke, he gave me a blank look, for he also knew that my life would not die anyway.

But these words fell on the ears of others, it is the literal meaning, Xiaoyu saw that I was tortured very painfully because of those medicinal stones, so she simply went to find Song Zhiyi, and told him Li Si's words word for word.

Xiaoyu came back to report to me on their battle situation, and I realized that the child in Liang Shixiu's womb had already been drugged by Song Zhiyi, and it was silent, as if she had never been pregnant at all. That's why Li Si cares so much about the one in my belly, because my father sent a long eagle order to the subordinates of Subei Mansion before he died, if I hadn't given birth to Li Si's eldest son, otherwise Subei Mansion would never support Li Si to inherit the crown prince's position. And before I gave birth to Li Si's eldest son, everything in Subei Mansion had to obey Song Zhiyi's arrangement.

Therefore, Li Si has been back from the border pass for so long, and the East Palace has already been renovated and completed, but the edict of the crown prince has still not been issued, so it turned out that he was waiting for my belly.

Father-in-law is father-in-law, and he still has to put his son-in-law together when he dies, and I feel that it is worth calling him a father in this life.

I listened to Xiaoyu with great interest, and asked her then, Xiaoyu said: "One scolds one is insatiable, one scolds one is delusional, Miss, since this eagle order is here, what are we afraid of, as long as Miss can't give birth to a child for a day, His Royal Highness will not be able to be a prince for a day, it's not that Miss will be offered to you, Miss is still suffering from this sin, what should Miss do, as soon as possible, don't really drag your body down." ”

It turned out that they all thought that I was desperate to protect this fetus because I was afraid that if I couldn't give birth to a child this time, my life would not be easy in the future.

I was about to talk to Xiao Yu, but Li Si rushed in angrily, glanced at Xiao Yu coldly, and said, "Go out." ”

Xiaoyu hurriedly retreated, I cheered up and prepared to quarrel with Li Si, but I didn't expect him to just look at me, and turned around and went out. I couldn't say it well, so I hurriedly climbed out of bed, pushed open the door, and saw Xiaoyu sitting on the ground vomiting blood, and Li Si's palm was still carrying a cloud of inky energy.

Sure enough, it is the Demon Dao, and if this palm goes down, Xiaoyu may have to go to the Youdu to drink soup.

Li Si forgot, I also recovered some mana, teleportation is such a skill, it is not necessary to use it in ordinary times, but it is also handy to use it in a hurry.

So I stood in front of Xiao Yu, and the dark energy just hit my heart.

This palm caused me to sleep for many more days, and when I woke up, my stomach was flat. Li Si was guarding me by the bedside, I don't know how long I had been guarding, and a circle of cyan stubble appeared on my lips.

I asked him what Xiaoyu was.

He lowered his eyes and said, "Kill." ”

"Why?!"

Li sighed and pursed his lips, as if he didn't want to answer.

I burst into tears and choked up and asked, "Is it ...... Do you have to kill everyone who is close to me with your own hands, my child? Did you kill my child too! ”

Li sighed guilty, pursed his lips heavily, and said, "I will go to Youdu to retrieve the child's spirit." ”

I gave him a heavy mouth, and this time he turned his face away from my palm, and turned his gaze away, unable to bear to look at me.

"Get out, you get out of here, I don't want to see you again in my life, get out!"

I sat on the bed and cried, crying that I didn't have the ability to change my life against the sky, so I shouldn't have expectations from the beginning, I hope that there is no possibility to give birth to a child, at a glance, I can experience the taste of being a mother in a moment, and taste how sweet it is to feel that there is a blood connection between a person, after all, after this catastrophe, I probably have no chance to have another child, whether it is with Li Si, with Bai Jinghong, with no one.

Because lately I've been reminded of something about where I came from.