Volume 4 Perhaps Wei Ying Xu Leaves Chapter 23
After walking in a bend, Ye Yin often felt dizzy and had a bad stomach. But because she has been thin, no one notices that she is thinner.
During another follow-up, the attending doctor asked Ye Yin to be admitted to the hospital as soon as possible, and he felt that Ye Yin should do further tests to determine whether there was a metastasis. Ye Yin gave up. She knew that if she didn't vehemently object, Sen would stop at nothing to keep her covered in tubes for a few more days. But she wouldn't.
Ye Yin clearly remembered that she had observed a dying patient in front of the bed for a long time during her internship, and the trivial sounds of the tubes in his whole body muffled the sound of his breathing, and she could only stare at the electrocardiogram to determine whether he was still there. She couldn't accept being part of the machine like that, waiting for the other parts of the machine to run with them until they couldn't do anything about it.
Ye Yin didn't really believe that there was another world, even though she was looking forward to reuniting with her father and Grandma Li. I don't dare to believe it because I am too afraid of being disappointed, afraid that I will not see them.
Ye Yin entrusted the coffee bar to Qingqing to take care of, saying that he wanted to go back to his hometown to live for a while. Before, because of Rong and Wanwan, every time I went back, I was in a hurry.
I came to the former elementary school. It is not surprising that the name of the primary school is the same, the plastic playground is Changchun, and the dusty campus that I played with when I was a child is only in memory. Ye Yin sat in the place where he met Xiao for the first time, and the clearest memory was the first time he saw Xiao, the little boy who was scared out of his body but still maintained his calm and steady demeanor.
People always say that things are not people. Now it's not anymore. In this familiar and unfamiliar place, Ye Yin didn't know how long he had been sitting.
Ye Yin felt that he was exiled by time. The empty playground was silent, and she could hear her heartbeat, and she suddenly woke up.
She thought, she hoped, that this was the last time she would miss Xiao like this. Say goodbye to the original place. Before leaving, he put a small flower that he liked to wear on his head and put it in a corner that was not easy for others to notice.
When Lin Meiya rescued Ye Yin, the people waiting outside the house thanked her, she smiled and said, the little doll doesn't know what to say when she grows up.
Grandma Li remembered this sentence, and later mentioned Lin Meiya inadvertently, and Ye Yin couldn't fully understand Lin Meiya's words at that time.
Ye Yin really hated the person who saved her when she was a teenager, because there was too much pain in life that she couldn't bear. At this moment, she was grateful to that person, because she had gone this time after all. It may not be without regrets, but experiencing grievances and regrets may be a meaning.
Ye Yin always dreams of bending. In the dream, Bend sat on the tree of Grandma Li's house, leisurely looking at the sky and swinging his legs. Ye Yin didn't call her, just looked at her quietly. Only once, she shouted Bend, Bend lightly jumped off the tree and ran to Ye Yin, but Ye Yin only saw the tiger when she looked closely.
accompanied Qi Qi to the early education class, and Xiao fell asleep in the parent-child class. The teacher reluctantly said that the father of a child in another class came to sleep again and again. Ignoring Xiao's embarrassment, she said that a successful person must first be a qualified parent, not only to be able to afford the tuition but also to be able to give time for companionship, otherwise he will not be able to make up for it.
Xiao remembered Jin. A mother who accompanies herself and plays with herself like a child.
Xiao and Liu made an appointment to sweep Jin's tomb during Qingming, and they met Qingqing and Lu who were about to leave, and they had just come to sweep An's tomb.
Because Ye Yin hoped that Wanwan would not be so strange when he saw Xiao, he kept putting Xiao's photo at the head of Wanwan's bed. Qingqing is already very familiar with Xiao's appearance. The Xiao who walked by made Qingqing recognize Xiao after a little hesitation.
Seeing that Xiao was holding the child and was about the same age as when he died, Qingqing rushed to Xiao without saying a word to the road, Xiao thought that Qingqing had recognized the wrong person, and just wanted to dodge, but he quickly remembered who the angry face in front of him was. There are many photos with Qingqing in Ye Yin's album, and he asked Guo Xiao if he and his cousin look alike.
Qingqing asked Xiao if this was his child and when did he get married, Xiao sighed and said that he was not married, but this was indeed his own child. He immediately asked where Qingqing's leaf shade was, and looked behind Qingqing. Qingqing only had the road behind her. Qingqing snorted, Ye Yin didn't come, I just want to tell you, although you are not married, you have two children. Xiao was dumbfounded, and then stopped Qingqing to make her clear. Lu had already guessed who he was, and didn't want Qingqing to continue chatting with Xiao again, but Xiao grabbed Qingqing and refused to let go, and the child in Xiao's arms cried in fright. Liu took the child and asked where Ye Yin was, Qingqing ignored the obstruction of the road, and told Xiao to go to the river embankment if he wanted to see his child, the child was sick and had died and was buried there.
Qingqing looked at Xiao's white face, and there was some pleasure in her heart.
Xiao used to think that his world was big, and Ye Yin only occupied a small part. Later, when she was gone, he suddenly discovered the fact that that little area was in the middle of the world, and without it, the mutilation was so obvious.
I discovered this fact after countless nights of dreaming of Ye Yin. Ye Yin's face was still unclear, no matter how he called her, she refused to turn back and left.
Xiao thought, maybe Ye Yin knew his thoughts and would say, even in the middle of the world, but only a little bit.
Xiao didn't tell anyone that she had just met Yin Yin Rong and herself on the phone.
At that time, Rong heard about Jin from an old friend, although he didn't get involved with the tree, but Rong was already very surprised, and bad spirits are hereditary. She was glad that Ye Yin and Xiao had broken up. Therefore, she didn't have a good word to call Xiao. Xiao put down the phone and cried bitterly, not only for Ye Yin and himself, but also for the past. Crying is a release, but also a letting go.
Xiao sat in front of Jin's grave and looked at Jin's photo in a daze, and suddenly started crying, at first it was silent, and then he cried bitterly and fell to the ground. Like a helpless child who is not understood.
Unlike the bouquets brought by most grave sweepers, the willow brought a pot of violets. He silently wiped Jin's photo. Jin in the photo looked faintly into the distance.