Life is a river, whether it is deep or shallow, it has to be lived.

Watching the car slowly start, watching the car get farther and farther away from him, until he couldn't see it, Gao Xinye left with confidence.

didn't notice that she was in the car, staring at herself all the time, and her eyes didn't move from her body until she saw his back turning away, and she was relieved.

I have never been held in the palm of my hand like this, although I was held in the palm of my mother when I was a child, but I feel completely different, thinking about my own encounter, to knowing, and now they are, Yan Jin's heart is like eating honey.

I never thought I would fall in love with him, I never thought I would be with him, it turned out that everything was destined, but I didn't have time to feel it.

Everything is so wonderful, from the beginning it seems to be a dream, a dream with no end, and I hope this dream will not wake up...

Yan Jin returned home, and just as he was walking the stairs, suddenly the mobile phone in his bag rang. She smiled, she knew who sent it without looking at her phone, and she couldn't wait to take out her phone, it was really Gao Xinye who sent a text message.

"Are you home?" Gao Xinye asked with concern, he still regretted that he didn't send Yan back today.

Yan Jin quickly pressed the keyboard on his mobile phone and replied to Gao Xinye: "I just arrived!" I'm still climbing the stairs, but it's hard to climb..."

Gao Xinye was relieved when he saw Yan Jin's reply, and secretly exhaled, he continued to reply: "Mmmm, it's good to be home..."

"Are you home too?" Thinking of Gao Xinye's reluctant eyes, Yan Jin asked with concern.

"Well, I've just arrived for a while, and now I'm going to go to dinner..."Gao Xinye continued to respond, only now that he realized that it was the feeling of caring about a person!

"Well, then you go to dinner! I'm going to dinner too. Seeing that the message was successfully sent to Gao Xinye, Yan Jin put down his mobile phone and went to dinner, because he was at ease.

I'm afraid you'll be disappointed, I'm afraid you'll be sad, but I still choose not to say it.

At the dinner table, there is still no change, still as usual, Yan Jin knows that many things cannot be told calmly, but it just needs timing, an appropriate time.

"Mom, my sister said that she would come back from vacation in a week, and she said that she took too many zongzi for her, and she would bring them back if she couldn't finish eating...", Yan Jin said to her mother Lin Mei while chewing the rice in her mouth.

"That's a lot! If you are afraid that you will not be able to finish eating, you can divide a few of them to her classmates, and their mothers should not send zongzi to school for them! Lin Mei suddenly thought of saying to Yan Jin, she knew that whenever the festival came, the child was the most excited.

"Well, when I gave it to my sister today, the classmates in her dormitory were very envious of my sister, saying that my mother made zongzi and sent it to her to eat, and then my sister also gave it to them", Yan Jin said with relish, as if she was showing off how competent her sister was.

I just think there are a lot of things to empathize, but about what, empathy is really important.

"It should be distributed to them, their parents are working outside, how can they have time to make zongzi, and when the festival comes, they can just go and buy a few to eat."

"Besides, everyone is classmates, we have to get along together, a few zongzi are not famous, there are many at home, if only my mother wrapped it after eating..."Lin Mei said while holding the vegetables.

When the road of life is blocked, learn to turn around. Many times, when we are not attached, something comes quietly, and some things are solved naturally.

After speaking, Lin Mei seemed to think of something again, and immediately continued: "You went to give it to your sister in the morning, why didn't you come back until the evening?" ”

Faced with his mother's question, Yan Jin didn't react for a while. Suddenly, she began to slurr a little, and said, "That... That..."

She didn't know what she had to say, she didn't want to lie to her mother, and she knew she couldn't cheat on her. However, if you tell the truth, how can your mother accept the past!

Yan Jin's heart was pounding in that nervous pound, and even his breathing seemed to be still, it turned out that the first time he deceived, he was so nervous, so afraid.

Yan Jin suddenly became a mess, but she closed her mouth and didn't answer her mother's question, she was afraid that her mother would find out that she was lying.

It's not that I don't want to tell you, I don't want to deceive you in this life, but, forgive me for being just a child, I can't ignore your feelings and say it unscrupulously.

After a few seconds, Yan Jin sank down, lowered his head, paused, and said, "Today... Today... I happened to go shopping with my classmates today, and then it took some time to take the car, so it's late. ”

"Which classmate? Where are the classmates? Lin Mei continued to ask, as if she didn't have any intentions.

"Uh... It's, that's it, it's the very good female classmate I often tell you, just like my own sister. Yan Jin lowered his head and chewed the food in his mouth, and pretended to be calm and said. It's just that she didn't look up at Lin Mei, because of her humility, she didn't dare to look at Lin Mei at all, she was afraid that her mother would find out that she was lying.

Lin Mei didn't say anything after hearing this, only said: "You have to come back early next time you go shopping, otherwise we will all be worried about coming back so late." ”

"Besides, how bad those people are out there now! You are two girls again, walking on the road at night, how inappropriate and dangerous; Besides, your classmates' parents will be worried, too. After saying it all at once, Lin Mei continued to eat there without the slightest suspicion.

Because of trust, because there has never been doubt, because there has never been deception, how to be willing to doubt, even if there is doubt, how to ask.

"Well, I know..."Yan Jin said softly, her voice was so small that she couldn't even hear herself, she was still humble...

In the face of his mother's trust and concern for him, Yan Jin didn't even dare to stretch out his hand to pick up vegetables, and his eyes no longer dared to look at his mother. Because she was afraid, she felt guilty for her deception, and her heart was like a pinprick.

Until after dinner, Yan Jin felt that she was so uncomfortable eating this meal, and she still couldn't control the blind self-blame in her heart, she had never been like this.

For the first time, her heart was so uncomfortable, such a struggle. Suddenly, the guilt hit her whole body, and she felt that she could no longer wash away the guilt in her heart. She needs to be repaid.

The brain is still mixed up, and I don't know how to explain my "sin" to my heart, perhaps, this will be a "hurdle" that I can't even get over in this life.

is not sober yet, after all, it is the first time that she has deceived the mother who believes in her so much, and she can't even believe that she will have such a day, she still deceived her mother because of him.

There was even a second when Yan Jin wanted to tell his mother directly about himself and Gao Xinye, but his consciousness told him that he couldn't do this...

In the face of his mother's trust in him, he still retreated. Undoubtedly, I am afraid of my mother's anger, afraid of my mother's opposition, and more afraid of my mother's sadness. She can't do it, she can't say it, she can only lie for the time being. It's just that her heart is really struggling there.

Whether to continue or end here, set your mind and think carefully, perhaps, in the end, you will not be able to escape the condemnation of your own conscience...

Yan Jin walked back to his room, and suddenly felt very weak. She silently thought in her heart that when the right time came in the future, she would definitely tell her mother about her relationship with Gao Xinye. Thinking about it, Yan Jin seems to have momentum again, as if his guilt is gradually beginning to degenerate...

Slowly turned on the computer, as if she was hesitating, and as if she was thinking about something, it turned out that she began to think about Gao Xinye.

Yes, she began to think about her, it seemed that the time of the day had kept them together, and they both felt that it was not enough, as if the two of them would become uncomfortable once they were not in each other's sight and could not see each other.

Is this love?

Getting more and more scared, Gao Xinye hugged himself tightly from behind, and they were lying on the sponge mat kissing, and their heartbeat couldn't help but get faster and faster.

I always thought that I was only three points hot in doing things, but what I didn't expect was that I loved you so deeply that I couldn't extricate myself.

Yes, Yan Jin fell in love with Gao Xinye. I feel that in my own world, he is so sparkling and dazzling. Instantly, a thought crossed her mind.

Yes, she felt that she couldn't lose him, she couldn't miss him, she would rather make her own mistakes than miss it, she wanted them to both guard each other and cherish each other.

It is said that the first love is very beautiful, the first love is unforgettable, and the first love will be unforgettable. But how far away is eternity? How close do two hearts need to be in order to walk the road of life together...

No external factor seems to be able to change the facts, to separate them.

They chatted on QQ as usual, and they forgot the time until they chatted until the early hours of the morning, when they became sleepy.

Yan Jin, who never chatted with a person of the opposite sex until late at night, was only because Gao Xinye was her boyfriend, so she had this privilege, and she hoped that he would only belong to the VIP in her life.

Maybe the breath of the night, the silence of the night, always becomes sentimental, becomes...

Chatting and chatting, even he didn't know where he was talking, as if he had suddenly thought of something, Gao Xinye suddenly sent a message, and he asked Yan Jin: "Why do I feel so uncomfortable when you stay with me today!" You're so shy."

began to become nervous, not knowing how to reply appropriately Yan Jin, chose to confess, she replied: "Because I have never been with a person of the opposite sex like this, and it is the first time I have stayed with you, so of course I will be a little uncomfortable."

"Haven't you been in a relationship before"? Gao Xinye seemed surprised, and the speed of his reply was extremely fast.

"No! Someone chased me, but I didn't accept it, so I kept being single."

So, you're my first love! Yan Jin replied very frankly, she didn't want to hide anything, she felt that he needed to know, knew his past, and he hadn't met him before.

You're my surprise, but what about me? Was it your surprise or delight?