Chapter 15: Lies are addictive
He gently lifted the strands of hair that was sticking to her face for Yan Jin, and then continued to let her sleep on his shoulder. Gently, for fear of waking her up, until the car reached the terminal.
The passengers on the bus did not let go of any of the movements between them, but they did not treat them with any words or eyes, even if it was so obvious, but they seemed to be reluctant to disturb them...
This section of the road was not bumpy, just slightly shaky, and did not have any effect.
The car arrived at the station safely, he lowered his head and gently put his face on Yan Jin's face, and said softly into Yan Jin's ear: "It's time to get up." ”
Yan Jin, who was not awake yet, opened his eyes in a daze and found that the passengers in the car were getting off one after another. By the time she came back to her senses, Gao Xinye had already taken her hand and got out of the car.
I don't know who is holding my hand, I don't know why I got off the car at this moment, I don't know where this is, but why so many whys can't match the stability in my heart.
It's always so reassuring, the palm gives me a sense of security, it subconsciously tells me, believe in it, don't be afraid, it will definitely protect me, it has been...
"I just... Falling asleep in the car? Yan Jin touched his slightly hot face, lowered his head embarrassedly and said, it was dark, and the car had already arrived at the station.
"Well, I thought I couldn't wake you up, so I wanted to continue to drive back in that car!"
"Pigs! I can sleep so deeply in the car, I don't know if I sell it to others..."Gao Xinye said to her with a mocking tone, but he was so doting.
"I'm tired today! Go back in the evening and rest early, I must be tired today. Gao Xinye gently stroked Yan Jin's face and said, quietly, he looked at her, his eyes showed pity, he felt sorry for her.
The night is so gentle, and the eyes of the people in front of you are only full of pity, and it is so flawless to blend with the night.
is still the same as before, after Gao Xinye sent Yan Jin to the car downstairs of his home, he watched the car leave, and then turned around and left with confidence.
Every parting, always makes me so reluctant, knowing that we can see each other at any time, but, why, I always don't want to have the word parting with you.
"Dad, Mom, I'm back!" When she got home today, it was quite late, but she was still stuck in traffic on the road, but she was still shocked to see her parents still sitting there watching TV, and she was afraid of being deceived again.
"Where did you go today? Why did you come back so late..."Mother Lin Mei asked, how could she not know about her changes after living together for more than ten years? Even if it's so small, even if it doesn't come out much...
It's just that she is afraid of hurting Yanjin's self-esteem, how willing she is, she has not been willing to say a word out loud since she was a child, she doesn't want to see her sad.
"Oh, I went out with my classmates today, a female classmate, very good, the one I often mentioned to you." In the face of his mother's question, Yan Jin lied again.
However, her eyes betrayed her, she didn't dare to look at her parents talking, she was sorting out the contents of her bag nonsensically, in fact, she didn't know what her hands were doing.
After speaking, seeing that her parents didn't continue to ask anything, Yan Jin slowly moved her steps, turned around and walked into the bathroom, her legs were so soft...
Time and time again, he successfully lied and deceived his parents because of him. I feel so sorry for my cowardice, but in order not to lose, she actually chose to lie...
In fact, Yan Jin didn't want to do such a thing, and every time he lied, he didn't blame himself blindly. It's just that now, she doesn't dare to tell her parents that she is in love, how many parents will agree to their children appearing like this during their studies...
Every time, I can only say that I went out with my classmates, maybe then they will feel at ease, so they won't think too much, how much they want to say the truth, but they are always so scared and not brave, so they keep their mouths shut.
They had long been aware of the change in Yanjin, but they still chose not to say anything, not to expose her, not to pierce the layer of paper. They knew that their daughter's self-esteem was very strong, and they would only talk about it softly when it was just the two of them.
Yan Jin felt very sad in her heart, she didn't like to lie, she wouldn't lie in the past, and she wouldn't deceive her family. However, she still deceived again and again, and even she herself was unwilling to face her current self.
Some lies are not suitable for debunking, so don't debunk them, but are lies addictive?
If time could never have come, I would not have allowed myself to step into that world called feelings, because what I was afraid of finally happened, and I couldn't get out...
Once again, with a heart of uneasiness and guilt, he walked into his room full of words. How she wished she could relieve her guilt of cheating on her parents by getting some sleep, but this night was a sleepless night.
Just lying quietly on the bed, without any words, as if self-reflection, in fact, she really wanted to sleep, she was so tired, but why was she so sad that she couldn't sleep, lying on the bed, couldn't help tossing and turning...
At that time, at that time, at that time, I want to go back to that time, there was no love, I didn't know the meaning of love, I didn't know the taste of love...
However, I don't know why, it seems that every time Gao Xinye appears in front of her, she can't help but leave behind those things that she has reflected, as if nothing happened.
Every regret, every introspection, every guilt, after all, can't withstand the second he appears, can't resist the look at him...
Date after date, looking at the face in front of me that I thought about day and night, going out happily again and again, looking at the familiar face again and again reluctantly going home, and then reflecting again and again...
How many times have I wanted to say, "What's wrong with this world!" ”
Maybe people in love just feel so happy! They only immerse themselves in the world of two people who are only them, and once someone once said to me that the loved person is happy, and the love of someone is painful.
You see, the two of them are now loving each other, there is only happiness and no pain, they are both happy people, will you envy?
"Mu Zi, I accompanied him to play yesterday..."Yan Jin was very happy to send the message to her good girlfriend, she wanted to share her inner joy with Mu Zi.
"Well, that's nice."
"People in love are just different, happy to death you!" Mu Zi seemed to be very envious and replied, unable to see the words of the expression, but did not know the expression on her face now.
In fact, whether it is friendship or love, if one day you have another person in your heart, and it does not belong only to me, then all my losses, do you know?
"However, every time I go home, when my parents ask me where I am going, I always use you as a shield."
"Actually, I felt very uncomfortable, because I lied to them every time, and they didn't suspect it in the slightest. They believe in me so much, and I'm still lying to them..."Yan Jin frowned sadly, and pressed the keyboard with a flat mouth.
She can only tell Gao Xinye these words, because she can't find anyone else to tell, she can't tell Yan Pin, because she knows that Yan Pin will tell her mother, and she can't tell Gao Xinye, because she knows that she can't blame him after all.
"Oops! Today's parents definitely want their children to be learning-oriented! ”
"They definitely don't want their children to fall in love early or something, it's okay, when they go to college, you can confess to them, they will definitely not stop them then..."
"Alright! That's all it takes..."Yan Jin continued to reply, she couldn't think of a better way, there was no better way to have it both ways.
Every love needs to be patient, and being able to endure is love.
"Okay, you just use me as a shield, I'm so pitiful..."Mu Zi pretended to be angry and pretended to be pitiful, because she knew that Yan Jin, who was prone to crankiness on the other end, must be entangled between her parents and Gao Xinye now.
Even though they have raised me, perhaps they have always pampered me. However, when I encounter what I want, how can I confide in you, how can I bear to listen to your opposing words, and my more entangled heart...
"No! I have no choice but to do it! ”
"Because I don't know how to tell them, I feel so uncomfortable every time I lie, so..."Yan Jin replied to her best friend Mu Zi a little sadly, she also felt that it was unfair for her to always use Mu Zi as a shield, but...
There's really nothing she can't do, she can't think of better words to reassure her parents, she...
"Haha, just kidding! Take it when you need me! ”
"For your happiness, let me stand in front of you and let me get hurt! Hahaha..."Mu Zi replied very naughtily, always reluctant to make you sad, this friendship is better than family affection.
Yan Jin looked at the message Mu Zi sent to him and smiled, and said to the computer screen: "Mu Zi, thank you!" It's just that Mu Zi didn't hear it, because Yan Jin just wanted her to feel her silent gratitude.
"I always lie, I always feel that I will be killed by thunder in the future..."Yan Jin continued to reply, because when she was a child, her mother taught her not to lie and deceive people, not to scold her elders, otherwise Lei Gong would go to hack these people.
"Aha... I'm going to die laughing, how could you say that! ”
"Nonsense, there is no scientific basis for this!"
"Thunder will slash people, it depends on the luck of that person..."Mu Zi quickly replied to Yan Jin, she couldn't help but laugh there, because the first time she heard that a lie would be hacked.
"However, what my mother said, scolding and lying will be hacked by Lei Gong..."Yan Jin still felt panicked, she always remembered her mother's words to educate her.
My heart will panic, but you are so safe in my heart, without shaking...