My name is Zhao Ling'an.

After graduating from the police academy at the age of 23, on the first day of reporting, my number was 056618, and this number has since become a more commonly used and important number than my ID card. In the criminal police system of the Ministry of Public Security, this number is my only identification.

That day, I took my uniform and looked at the police badge shining above my head, and I first felt what it means to be a glorious profession under the sun. I really like this dress, wearing it looks thinner, and it makes me look 20 pounds less than a fit of body. It's just a pity that I don't have a chance to wear it.

I still remember when I was in the police academy, in the first class, the teacher took us to the police station and the morgue of the hospital, and said loudly: "I don't know what the police are like in your hearts? Maybe some people are watching TV dramas and think that the police are very majestic in uniforms and holding guns, the first thing I told you today is that the police uniform, for the criminal police, there are not many opportunities to wear it, and you have to apply for a gun, and you can't use it casually. Did you see those people at the police station? ”

I recalled that there were all kinds of people in the police station, some were caught in fights and were covered in blood, some were thieves and hooligans who described them as obscene, and some were caught in a daze and didn't know who they were...

The teacher asked again, "Have you seen the people in the morgue?" ”

There is no need to recall this, there is no one in the morgue. There are only natural and unnatural deaths, and corpses are full of scarred corpses.

The teacher said: "I want to say that you are not white-collar workers in the CBD, nor are you professors in universities, and the people you come into contact with every day are the elites of the society, highly educated and high-quality talents." The people you come into contact with are either criminals or corpses, and your job is to catch criminals and reduce corpses. Even you have to mingle with the criminals, say things against your will, do things against your will, and become as wicked and obscene as them in order to get evidence. Can you accept it? ”

Few people can shout "yes" out loud. Instead of being outraged, the teacher smiled: "You guys are very honest. This profession requires a very strong and very high psychological quality, you can consider changing majors, but this profession is very glorious, it is a solid barrier, it is a solid barrier, expelling evil from the sun, so that the common people can live safely under the sun. If you want to make a career for a long time, you need not only interest, but also courage. ”

In the second class, the teacher took us to a cemetery with several headstones without names. The teacher said, "Before and after death, there are things to consider. There are not a few policemen who have ended up like this, especially after being undercover agents and anti-narcotics policemen. In order to avoid the destruction of the cemetery and the reprisals against the family, many police officers can only be such nameless tombstones after they die in the line of duty. Maybe in a few years, no one will know who is buried underneath. You think about it again. ”

After two classes, three people changed majors, two transferred to police management, one went to economic crime investigation, and one person told me that he didn't want to die so aggrieved.

I stayed. From the day I stepped into the police academy, I didn't plan to change majors. Criminal investigation is the frontline of the struggle against crime. I'm not afraid, being a policeman like Zhao Lichuan is my ideal.

After a year of work, I was sent to Yunnan to fight drugs. My name has changed to Lu Zenghan, and I have a new ID card. Zhao Lingan has become the name in the archives, and the only thing that remains unchanged is 056618.

I don't know if you've ever experienced the collapse of your ideals? I have. When I knew that my target, Zhao Lichuan, was behind drug smuggling and trafficking, and committed suicide in the United States, it was the moment of collapse. Doubt life, even human nature.

But when I dealt with Zhao Lichuan's death from the United States, I felt that things were not so simple. Nancheng is a muddy water, and the woman who looks innocent and simple is a master of murderers.

This is the most powerful murderer I have ever seen, split personality, artistic killing, such a professional way of killing, even if I come up with evidence, few doctors dare to determine that Zhao Lichuan died of depression aggravated by this painting, even if it can be determined that it was her deputy personality who committed the crime, how to determine the criminal responsibility of the main character? I have searched all the cases of criminal law, and there is not a single such case. This means that she will get away with it.

Three years, I waited three years for the opportunity. Since she returned to Nancheng, I will come to Nancheng to follow her silently when I have the opportunity, she is living a really comfortable life, as if there is no psychological burden at all, why? I thought about letting her die in a car accident, from drowning, from a falling building, and I imagined dozens of ways to kill people, and with my methods, the police could not find the slightest flaw.

But I can't do it. I'm a police officer, I can't know the law, and this will pollute this badge on my head. Once I kill her with my hands, I am no longer a barrier under the sun, I am sin, I am darkness.

Contradictions and struggles, I didn't know what to do, until one day, I saw a foreign case in a book of criminal psychology, a psychiatrist treated a patient with split personality, but used the wrong method, so that two personalities hated each other, one of the personalities killed the other, resulting in the death of the subject.

I suddenly became suicidal? That's not my problem, it's her own.

The smuggling and a series of crimes in Nancheng finally attracted the attention of the ministry, and I took the initiative to apply to come undercover. Voyages, Xinkeqiao, are my goals.

The first time I met her face-to-face, I was a little nervous, and the routine I thought of was always a little incomprehensible when facing her eyes, so I could only pretend to be cold. Her eyes were simply permeated with vigilance, like a rabbit, and she had never seen any wind and rain at first glance. Such a woman turned out to be a murderer? For the first time, I was a little skeptical of my own judgment. But when I walked out of that clinic, I came to my senses again, and there is no shortage of people in this world who are good at disguise. What's more, as a psychology student, it is easiest for her to disguise herself as an innocent white rabbit.

I decided to go ahead with my plan.

Falling in love with someone you want to kill is the most disgusting thing in the world. Every time I couldn't help but want to strangle her, I had to turn back to a playful, teasing look, and God knows how much my clenched fists wanted to send her to hell, but I couldn't.

However, when my lips and teeth are intertwined, when her clear eyes look at me, when her eyes are full of my shadow, I feel that I am not a thing. Although I have pretended to be an undercover agent and have dated several women, they are different. Those women will have desires in their eyes, lust for flesh, lust for money.

She is different, she is like a poor little rabbit, sending herself a little bit, and a little entangled to withdraw herself, between advance and retreat, she is distressed by the rare. In fact, she was not like this, when she was painting and analyzing the case, she was calm, rational, and intelligent, and she was a completely different person. That professional appearance is even more exciting than her sister Xin Keyi, who shocked me at the beginning.

Such a smart little woman, in front of me, will be jealous because of Fu Yayuan, will worry about my injury, will buy me food to take care of me, will give me a little injured hand and run far away to buy a band-aid, and will can't help blushing. Seriously, I've never been in a relationship, but if that's what it's like to be in love, it's really cool.

Gradually, I wanted to see her, to see her. When she was in Beijing, I chased after her, and the reason I gave myself was to see how she was doing with the case, or to see if her sub-personality had appeared. But when she told me about her sister, I was astonished to find that my distress was greater than my curiosity.

I hurried away.

Although I kept trying to lure her sub-personality with songs, watches, and a lot of things related to Keyi, I failed to do so. I don't know if it's because she's taking medication, or if her sub-personality is deeply hidden. But this process made me exhausted. More and more, I felt that I couldn't go on. Ke Yi once said to introduce her to me, and I even began to think, why didn't she introduce her earlier, if I had known her earlier, maybe she wouldn't have split into a sub-personality and killed people.

He Xiaomin's case was over, and she found out that I was using her to provide clues to the police force, which was originally incidental, who made Lao Bai and their inefficiency so low that I couldn't stand it. She couldn't accept it and wanted to leave. Seeing her crying sadly, I suddenly felt the urge to hug her, but I couldn't, I could only leave in a hurry.

But I didn't go, watching her walk into the sea, I was a little scared, what if her deputy came out and wouldn't suffocate herself to death? I was about to walk out, but I saw Han Muzhi, who had been following her, and I stopped again. Forget it, mind your own. This play, Lao Tzu didn't want to act for a long time.

I have to say that Zou Shizhao is an old fox, although Zou Yukai is as cunning as his father, but he is psychologically ill, and the sequelae of autism give me a weakness to grasp, and then he has become Zou Shizhao's weakness. But Zou Shizhao is not easy to fool, he has to become a thief.

Xia Mengci appeared just right, and I understand Zou Shizhao's intentions. There are no people under him who can be used, some are faithful, and none are capable. But he is not at ease with me, and wants to use Xia Mengci to test me, but he can also entrap me. Xia Mengci is his niece and his inseparable partner in money laundering. My marriage with Xia Mengci is a help for me to further touch the core of Yuanhang's criminal management.

This kind of thing, when I was an undercover agent before, it was not nothing, but this time I don't know why I was a little resistant. What am I afraid of? I can't tell.

Lao Mei said, I am tempted. I said, "Get out!" ”

Lao Mei said: "Zhao Lingan, if you don't take a fancy to Xin Keqiao, I'll screw my head off and kick you as a ball." ”

I glared at him: "Lao Tzu's name is Lu Zenghan, don't show me your stuffing." ”

Lao Mei said again: "Why don't I chase her, so as to save you from worrying." To be honest, I think she's really good, like a spring breeze. ”

Spring breeze, your sister, I think you are spring. If you knew that she had a split personality and was still a murderer, would you still feel the spring breeze? Will you still be happy to make her coffee? But when the words came to his mouth, his taste changed: "You forgot about Xiaoying so quickly?" ”

Xiao Ying is Lao Mei's love, although Lao Mei hooked up with many girls from the teacher next door when she was studying, but in the end it was planted in Xiao Ying's hands, and Xiao Ying followed him to Nancheng. It's a pity that the two of them didn't go long, Lao Mei was on a mission, the criminal took Xiaoying as a hostage, and the sharpshooter missed for the first time, Xiaoying was not rescued, and he was also injured. Since then, he has moved to the second line, and he is no longer the high-spirited Flying Eagle sniper.

Lao Mei looked at me and smiled: "I'm so stinging, I dare to say that I didn't like her." I'm not a person who can't get out of the past, if you dare to speak, I will dare to chase after me. ”

It's not a fart, when Xiaoying dies, he believes in Buddhism and never touches women again, an old bachelor, and he dares to say that he won't fall into the past. But I didn't dare to say anything, but just said sullenly: "If you let her stay away from me, you will say that I am not a good person." ”