I looked at the face that was exactly the same as mine, and finally sighed, "You're still there?" ”

She didn't say anything, just looked at me quietly, with a tired face, like a seriously ill person, but her eyes were full of unwillingness and resentment.

I tried to say calmly, "You've seen it all, you've heard it." My sister's last words were to tell me not to take revenge. She has no grudges, and even if she did, she would have avenged it now. Tan Enming is already an outlaw, and Lao Jiao is also a dying fish, and sooner or later he will be severely punished by the law. And my sister and Zhao Lichuan are in a life-and-death relationship, but you almost killed the man she desperately protected. ”

"No, no." "She" cried hoarsely, "she wants revenge, she wants revenge." But her voice faded down.

I walked up to her and said softly, "How can there be revenge?" Dad's innocence is already clear, and he is only going through the procedure to restore his reputation. And my sister loves Zhao Lichuan, and Zhao Lichuan also loves her, they must continue to love each other in another world. And Lu Zenghan and I are also about to get married. Who has hatred? ”

"She" moved her mouth, but she only snorted, but did not speak.

I reached out to pull her, "Let's go." ”

She raised her eyes and looked at me hesitantly, but finally put me in the palm of my hand. I took her out of the shadows. The sun was so nice outside, I closed my eyes and felt the sun kissing on every inch of my skin. When I opened my eyes again, she was gone. I was stunned, what about people? I searched everywhere, but there was no sign of her.

A spirit, I woke up from a dream. The sunshine of reality began to sink a little, recalling the dream just now, I suddenly felt a little relaxed, does this mean that she has completely left me? Am I cured? I shook my head, it was a lot easier.

At that moment, I suddenly felt a little nervous, I studied psychology, and I used to always think, what skills and means can I use to make the client recover? But when I faced a serious psychological problem myself, I suddenly discovered that in this world, heart disease can be solved by heart medicine, but in the final analysis, the best remedy is to untie the heart knot, and the means and drugs of psychotherapy are all to treat the symptoms, and the solution to the heart knot is the root cause. Maybe after this experience, I really know how to be a good psychotherapist.

I looked at the two diamond rings in front of me and put my sister's in the box. Putting away my own, I have to wait for Lu Zenghan to come back and put it on for me, I have to let him kneel on one knee, thinking about it, I laughed first.

Suddenly, the mobile phone rang, and I picked it up, it was Lu Zenghan's: "Ke Qiao, Tan Enming's ship was found on the high seas, and we need to arrest it immediately." ”

"You have to be careful. When will you be back? "I was so worried that I could only ask this question.

Lu Zenghan said "um", his voice was deep, with a hint of attachment and reluctance: "Soon, Qiaoqiao, wait for me to go home." With that, he hung up.

Tan Enming, I have goosebumps on my body again. The old fox is finally going to be caught. It was getting a little dark outside. I stood at the window, looking out at the night, a little uneasy. The night of Nancheng is not covered in the sky, nor is it enveloped on the ground, but it is finally closed in the middle. The lights are gradually on, the south city is gradually lit up by the lights, this is really a sad and lamenting city, the sea breeze coconut trees, phoenix blossoms, but it is a calm appearance, behind the prosperity, how many people's joys and sorrows and thrilling are carried?

Suddenly it was raining cracklingly, and I couldn't help but think of the stormy night when I first met Lu Zenghan, and it was so stormy today, and my heart couldn't help but tear a little. I touched the dice necklace on my chest, "May your heart be like the moon of Jiang Lou, only with each other and no separation." "I don't know if I can?

That night, I sat in my sister's room all night, waiting for his call, watching the rain and wind outside the window.

But until seven o'clock in the morning, there was still no news, and I couldn't sit still. I didn't sleep all night and didn't feel sleepy at all, I walked back and forth in the house with my mobile phone, wanting to make a phone call but afraid of disturbing him. There was no news until noon, so I couldn't help but call him. rang for a long time, it was Mei Zijun who answered, and his voice was a little deep: "It's inconvenient for him to answer the phone." ”

My heart was beating a little and I asked him hesitantly, "When will you come back?" I want to go over. ”

Mei Zijun hesitated for a long time, my heart followed his silence almost a few beats slower, I asked again, Mei Zijun sighed and said, "We're coming back soon, you come to Qingsong Wharf." ”

I hung up the phone and my heart jumped wildly for no reason, I almost jumped up, rushed out of the house, and casually stopped a car and went straight to Qingsong Pier.

Qingsong Wharf is not big and there are very few people. I stood by the sea, looking into the distance, the endless sea, the waves rolling as if they were about to swallow everything. My heart was churning with the waves, the sea breeze was blowing, and my whole body was shivering at noon.

I don't know how long I waited, but a few black spots appeared in the distance, and they should have returned. I took a few more steps, clinging to the iron railing of the pier, hoping that the boat would go faster, faster.

The black dot is getting closer and closer, and it is their ship. Sure enough, as Lu Zenghan said, the police took a boat to open the way, which was very powerful and magnificent. The boats docked one by one, and I watched a hat with a police badge approaching, but I couldn't see the one I was familiar with.

I continued to watch anxiously until I saw Mei Zijun, I rushed over and almost fell, but Mei Zijun hurriedly supported me, but the circles under my eyes were a little red. I asked him anxiously, "What about Lu Zenghan?" ”

Mei Zijun's lips were pursed tightly and she didn't speak. My whole body suddenly felt like I had been doused with cold water, and my whole body trembled violently, and I ran to the back to look for them one by one, no, no.

I ran back and shook Mei Zijun like crazy: "You tell me, what about him?" What about him? I roared.

Mei Zijun gritted his teeth and said: "We forced Tan Enming back from the high seas last night, but he was too cunning, ran to an island with an oil refinery, and threatened us that we had to prepare a plane for him to cross the sea. As a result, in the middle of the entanglement, he ignited the oil barrel, and Lu Zenghan, in order to avoid a series of explosions, pounced on Tan Enming's body, and together with Tan Enming, he blew up. Mei Zijun's voice lowered.

My eyes went dark and I fainted.

It would be nice if life was like a dream, you could indulge in the dream without waking up, in the dream, I was wearing a white wedding dress, and Lu Zenghan looked at each other on the beautifully lit beach, and there was only me in his eyes except for the starlight. Unfortunately, it was just a dream after all. When I woke up, there was only a ward full of potions, and Mei Zijun sat on the edge of my bed, looking at me with an apologetic expression: "I'm sorry, Ke Qiao, I-"

I looked at him silently and didn't speak. My long silence made Mei Zijun a little flustered, and he said a little crampedly: "Ke Qiao, I know you are uncomfortable, but you have to say something." All right? ”

What did I say? Mei Zijun's voice seemed to be out of the sky, and I couldn't listen to anything. Mei Zijun held my hand and said eagerly: "It's okay for you to blame me for scolding me, it's because I didn't protect him well, but you don't want to do this." ”

I still didn't speak, I couldn't tell whether everything in front of me was a dream or reality, and for a long time, I just asked slowly, "When will he come back?" "He told me to wait for him and he will definitely come back.

Mei Zijun looked at me with pain in her eyes, and said for a while, "Don't do this, Ke Qiao." If you do that, he will be upset. ”

After a pause, Mei Zijun took out something from his pocket and stuffed it into my hand, and said in a trembling voice: "This was found where he had an accident, and it should be his." ”

When I picked it up, it was the bronze sunflower. I gave it to him when I was still in Beijing. I held the sunflower in my hand and held it tightly, and my whole body tensed. This little thing made me realize that everything in front of me is not a dream. I closed my eyes.

Mei Zijun shook me: "Ke Qiao, if you want to cry, cry out." ”

I didn't cry and I couldn't cry. It's not true, it's certainly not true.

I lay in the hospital for a week, I woke up and woke up, woke up and fell asleep, I subconsciously didn't want to wake up, but I didn't dare not wake up, I was afraid of reality, reality hurts. But I didn't dare to sleep, I was afraid that "she" would appear again. I was always torn between waking up and relying on the drip of nutrient solution to sustain my life. I didn't want to eat a bite of the food that Mei Zijun brought.

A week later, Mei Zijun told me that Lu Zenghan had been buried. I looked at him as if I was looking back, and asked in a trembling voice, "Why didn't you let me see him for the last time and be buried?" ”

Mei Zijun's eyes were red: "No need to see it." It blew up so badly, it was all splinters, we, we didn't get anything whole-"

"Ahh I covered my ears, buried my head in my knees, and fainted again.

I was in the hospital for almost a month before I could struggle to get out of bed. The first thing I did was to beg Mei Zijun to take me to see him.

It was a cemetery on the outskirts of Southtown, and his name was not on his tombstone. I touched the tombstone, still with a hint of fantasy in my heart, and muttered, "Why don't you have a name?" He's not dead, is he? ”

Mei Zijun's voice was a little choked: "No, he has been an undercover agent, and there are many people who hate him to the bone, we are afraid that if we write the name, this tomb will be destroyed by someone, so that he will not be at peace." Moreover, he is also afraid that his family will be affected and retaliated. ”

His family? He doesn't have any family, his only family is me. I smiled faintly: "What are you afraid of?" Let them take revenge, come and take revenge on me! I sat on the edge of the tombstone, stroked the monument carefully, and said softly: "Zeng Han, come out, don't play with me anymore, I know you like to joke the most, but you have been in a coma for almost a month, and it is enough." How are you back? You said I'll wait for you. I've been waiting for a long time. ”

No one answered me, and the occasional wind around me was like a whimpering soul. I hugged the tombstone tightly and put my face on it, it's so cold, won't he be cold? At that moment, I finally realized that he was gone. He and I are no longer in the same world. No matter how close I am, it's just a cold monument, and no matter how hard I cry, he won't take me into his warm arms. I suddenly went berserk, banging on the tombstone and shouting, "Come out! Lu Zenghan, you big liar, you said you married me, you said you had an island wedding, you said you would be with me for a lifetime! You come out for me! ”

Mei Zijun couldn't listen anymore and wanted to drag me out, but my strength was so great that he couldn't drag me at all, so he had to pick me up from behind, and I took a bite at his arm, he trembled and didn't move, and blood quickly oozed from his arm. I was stunned for a moment, and taking this opportunity, he carried me away from the tombstone: "But Joe, you have to cheer up." He's looking at you from below, and he'll be distressed when you look like this. ”

"If he is distressed, why don't he come out!" I screamed, "Why can he bear to look at me like this?" ”

Mei Zijun didn't answer, but dragged me away from the cemetery. And I still can't cry. The extreme of heartache turned out to be not crying, but wanting to cry without tears.

Out of the cemetery, Mei Zijun never left me. I thought about it and asked him to accompany me back to the clinic first, and while he wasn't paying attention, I took some sleeping pills. Then I went back to the house on North Road Street, and Mei Zijun still wanted to be with me, so I had to agree, but while he wasn't paying attention, I added sleeping pills to his water. Mei Zijun fell asleep.

I breathed a sigh of relief, went to the cake shop outside the community, bought a cake, put it in my sister's house, and inserted thirty candles. I took the picture of me taking a selfie with him from my phone and put it behind the cake. In the photo, Lu Zenghan in a police uniform is really handsome, and the police badge on his head is so glorious.

I clicked and chattered to him on my phone: "I finally know your birthday, but I still missed it." I'll make it up for you now, I think you haven't had a birthday in years. ”

The candle was lit, dense candlelight, in the candlelight, he smiled calmly and confidently, I smiled faintly: "You are a loss, stupid, when people are ninety years old, they order the whole cake, that is the scenery, look at you, you can only order thirty in this life." ”

I don't know where the wind came from, the flame of the candle suddenly swayed, I stood up, looked around, are you back? I shouted softly, "Zeng Han, are you back?" Is that you? ”

I looked around, but there was no one except Mei Zijun sleeping on the sofa.

I sat back in front of the cake in frustration, facing Lu Zenghan on my phone, tears falling one by one. I finally cried: "Zeng Han, you are a policeman, how can a police officer not count when he talks?" How can you light only thirty candles? ”

I cried for a long time, until I was out of breath and hoarse. The candles on the cake burned out by themselves, I picked up a blade and smiled at Lu Zenghan: "However, I'm not as good as you, I can't even light thirty." After saying that, I cut my wrist, and I heard the sound of blood dripping to the ground, but the sound made me feel at ease. I suddenly missed the song my sister once sang, the song that I laughed at, "The south wind kisses the face gently, the flowers are fragrant, the south wind kisses the face gently, the stars are hazy, we kiss tightly, I can't say the end of the affection, I kiss tightly, every word is sincere----- we are parting with each other, and we want to see you again in a dream." ”

No matter how long you know each other, no matter how long you know each other, I'm not a cowardly person, it's just that with you in my life, everything has a smart life. Now that you're gone, I'm left alone in the world, too lonely.

If the soul had a place to go, it would probably go to him. If the soul has no place to return, then end the short life of this life.

But when I woke up, it was still just the white walls of the hospital and Mei Zijun with a frustrated face. I looked at Mei Zijun and was a little distracted: "Why do you want to save me?" ”

Mei Zijun was a little surprised when he saw me wake up, he didn't answer me, rushed to the doctor, and ran out. The doctor checked me and said a lot of precautions, but I didn't listen to a word.

After a while, Mei Zijun came back, brought me a bowl of noodles, put it on my bedside and said, "Ke Qiao, let's eat something first." ”

I shook my head: "Don't waste it. You can save me once, but you can't follow me all the time. ”

"Kejo." Mei Zijun's voice was gentle, "You're pregnant." Something must be eaten. ”

"What?" I was stunned, barely able to believe my ears.

"The doctor has examined you, and you are more than 4 weeks pregnant." Mei Zijun stroked my next door, "Don't do stupid things, that's his child." How can you bear to ignore your children? ”

Child, my already silent heart, suddenly jumped up little by little like a bud blown by the spring breeze. his children. At that moment, it was as if a little light pulled me out of the dark corridor.

After a long time, I finally broke off Mei Zijun's bowl of noodles and ate it in a big gulp. But since I hadn't eaten for a long time, I vomited after a few bites, and I patted my chest hard and continued eating. I was so embarrassed that I burst into tears after eating...... Mei Zijun turned her back and let out a long sigh.

Three months later.

I'm standing at Green Pine Pier, which is now my most frequented place. I like to look at the sea and blow the sea breeze. In the sea breeze, there seems to be Lu Zenghan's breathing. The sea breeze is blowing, as if Lu Zenghan is caressing my skin, my belly, and our children.

Mei Zijun was beside me and said, "Your father's affairs have been approved above, when will you go over and sign it?" ”

"Hmm." I responded, "I'll go back and sign with you later." ”

"Also, Han Muzhi's case has been transferred to the court, he said he wants to see you, you see?" Mei Zijun's voice was a little hesitant.

"No need." I categorically denied it. I don't want to see him. The past is gone, and I don't hate him, which doesn't mean I can forgive him.

Mei Zijun breathed a sigh of relief: "How are you doing, is your appetite better?" What do you want to eat? ”

"It's fine." I stroked my stomach and looked into the distance with an indifferent expression. I'm relieved, I still have hope, I'm content, and even though I've been traumatized again, this time I'm not holding back, I'm not letting my counterpart bear and cover for me. I was finally able to accept all the suffering on my own and find hope in the suffering.

"Have you figured out what the child is called?" Mei Zijun asked, laughing to herself again, "It seems too early to talk about this now." But after saying that, you have to recognize me as a godfather. ”

"I've figured it out." I looked at the sea in the sun, "No matter whether it is a boy or a girl, it is all the same name, Lu Yanqing." ”

Yan Qing, I only wish that this sea, from now on the sea Yan River is clear.