Seeing that Lu Zenghan's struggle was still very strong, the doctor ordered the nurse to tie his arms and legs to the bed with ropes. I bit my lip and watched him suffer but could not do anything about it. He tried his best to restrain himself, but he couldn't help but struggle, his arms and legs were full of scars from the friction of the rope, but there was no way. After about half an hour, he finally stopped struggling, sweating profusely as if he had been fished out of the water, and his breathing became weak.

The doctor untied the rope and tied him with a drip, a nutrient solution and a potion. When the doctors and nurses left, I stayed by his side. He was already in a semi-comatose state, and I dressed his wound with a hot towel, my fingers lightly running over his face, and my heart was about to drip blood.

I don't know how long it took, until Mei Zijun came over again and brought me back to my hospital room, and he continued to guard Lu Zenghan. I lay back on the hospital bed, but my thoughts were flying, I couldn't be so hurtful anymore, I couldn't continue to let "her" make waves, but how could I treat myself? I thought about it all night, and the next morning, I told Mei Zijun to help me bring a box of colored pencils and some paper when he came next time.

On this day, Lu Zenghan's condition was still not very good, either he fell asleep under the effect of drugs, or he had seizures, and he could occasionally calm down, but he was so tired that he was paralyzed, and he didn't even have the strength to talk to me. Seeing him like this, I blamed myself even more.

In the afternoon, Mei Zijun had already brought me what I wanted. Twelve o'clock in the evening, in the dead of night, should be the best time to talk to yourself. I took out the white paper and colored pencils, but my hands began to shake. For so many years, I didn't know anything and didn't want to draw any other drawings except the patterns I needed for treatment. The first step, perhaps, is to stop resisting the brush.

With what little memory I have left, I remember my favorite patterns when I was a child and scribble them on paper. I remember that my favorite painting was sunflowers, and my parents said that I was very good at drawing. I drew little by little, but this hand, as if it did not obey the call, could not draw anything while shaking, and every stroke of the stroke, it was like using the strength of the whole body, sweating profusely. I still can't get past the threshold in my heart. But why do I have a problem with drawing?

After thinking about it, I drew a colored spiral curve on the white paper myself and stared at it closely, trying to put myself into a hypnotic state. But if you paint it yourself, it's like you have the power to resist, and you can't see it no matter what. I was so anxious that I was sweating again.

In a hurry, I touched the dice necklace around my neck, hurriedly untied it, hung the necklace in front of myself, raised my hand and shook it, and put the spiral curve behind the necklace.

I don't know how long it took, everything seemed to be darkened, and I followed a dark path back to the door of my childhood memory. Dad, Mom, and Sister are all here. Dad was frowning and looking at me: "Qiaoqiao, you are also good at drawing, you can't let your sister draw for you for the sake of high scores." You're called cheating, and Dad hates dishonest kids the most in his life. Painting can be bad, but character can't be bad. ”

Dad was so strict that he tore me up with a perfect score. My sister and I huddled together and listened to my father's teaching: "Keyi, you are more wrong, you are a sister, don't teach your sister to take the right path." You remember, your sister's character is also your sister's responsibility! ”

Fragments of the past flew clearly before my eyes. Until I promised my father that I would paint seriously and that next time, no matter how good or bad my grades were, I would paint by myself.

In another test, I got the highest score in the class on the sunflower I painted, and I happily ran home to show my dad, but he was gone, and my mom said that my dad was on a business trip. I waited and waited, but in the end, my mother took my sister and me to Nancheng to get my father's ashes. Since then, I have not painted again, because of my mistakes, no one has forgiven me.

Memories are like a labyrinth of grids, and when I came out of my childhood house, it was darker in front of me. I subconsciously wanted to go back, I didn't want to go any deeper, but it seemed that a voice came out of my heart: "Xin Keqiao, you have to insist, to get rid of your heart demons, you must first know what your heart demons are." ”

I gritted my teeth and walked on, and then I came to another cubicle, where the lights were dim, and I curled up in my sister's arms, looking at my mother, who was covered in blood, and several uncles in uniform, taking care of the aftermath. My sister's eyes were full of resentment: "I know that you wronged your father and forced your mother to death." "I couldn't understand what my sister was saying, but those uncles were not influenced by my sister and continued to do things silently until my mother became a jar and was buried in the ground. An uncle gave his sister some money, which was thrown by her: "You are not policemen, you are murderers!" ”

I came out of here again, continued to walk forward, another checker, in the United States, I graduated with a master's degree, my sister attended my graduation ceremony, I took a lot of photos of her wearing my master's uniform, my sister touched my master's uniform and said: "Ke Qiao, I can finally explain to my parents, all these years, I haven't let you grow crooked, you have become a talent." ”

"Sister, you have paid too much for me." I snuggled up to my sister, "If it weren't for me, you could have studied for a master's degree in art, and your youth would have been used to make money for me." ”

"Fool." My sister poked me on the forehead, "It's going to be this kind of heart-wrenching sadness." I'm not interested in reading that thing, how hard it is to read, how can you make money, and only you, a fool, love to read. ”

I didn't say anything, my sister was pretending to be relaxed, and she betrayed her heart with her envious eyes touching her master's uniform. I took my sister's hand: "Then you find a good person to take care of you, and I can rest assured." Are you not interested in reading, nor are you interested in falling in love? I think that Han Muzhi is good. He came to the United States on a business trip and invited me to dinner. ”

My sister laughed and said, "He's good, but it's not for me." I'm not interested in dating right now. I still have a task to complete, and when it's done, I'll have my wish, so let's talk about anything else. ”

I stepped back from this scene and continued to walk, but the scene in front of me was getting darker and darker, and my heart began to beat a drum, and I crossed several areas and went straight to the darkest place.

One stormy night in Tennessee, USA, I was lying in the house and received a call from my sister: "But Joe, I finally found out, Dad was wronged." He is an undercover agent, not a traitor. Someone did something to him back then, and the goods should have been sent elsewhere, but the person deliberately said the wrong place, and his father sent the goods to the wrong place, which led to him being discovered by the drug dealer who connected him, and finally died in vain, the police said that he was black and black, and gave him a black hat. I've found all this evidence, but my time is running out, but Joe, if I'm alive, everything is fine, and if I'm dead, you must take this evidence and get justice for my father. ”

I retreated from here again, there are still many areas, bright or dark, I wanted to push the door, but suddenly my sister's figure appeared, she stood in front of me, and said coldly: "But Qiao, don't go any further." ”

"Why?" I looked at her face, and I only felt familiar and unfamiliar, "You're not a sister, you're "her". ”

"Whoever I am, but don't go any further. Isn't it bad to have me here? She looked at me incredulously, "Which of those men is reliable?" Especially Lu Zenghan, he wants to kill you, why are you obsessed? Would you rather have him than me? I'm protecting you. ”

Speaking of Lu Zenghan, I was angry, I pointed at her and said, "I tell you, you are not me, nor my sister, you are a demon." I warn you now, that you leave my body, or we will perish together. ”

"She" suddenly had a fierce look in her eyes, stared at me and said, "It seems that you are toasting and not eating and drinking." Useless stuff. Ke Yi is such a strong woman, how can there be a sister like you! You've ruined this body for nothing, so I might as well replace you. After saying that, she rushed at me and grabbed me by the neck, "Anyway, I am you, you are me, instead of letting you drive me away, I should drive you away first." ”

I just felt that I couldn't breathe, I couldn't breathe, I struggled to tear her up, but it was difficult to tell the winner, her strength was even greater than mine at times, and she grabbed my neck and didn't let go. I couldn't breathe again until it seemed as if a pair of hands had ripped her off of me.

The darkness around me was suddenly broken by daylight, I opened my eyes, Lu Zenghan, Mei Zijun and the doctor were all at my bedside, the doctor frowned and looked at me and said, "What are you doing?" ”

I looked at the dice, colored pencils, and drawing paper in front of me, took a deep breath and said, "It's nothing, hypnotize yourself." ”

"Nonsense!" The doctor snapped, "Your body hasn't recovered yet, and the sequelae of morphine are still uncertain, how can you do such a dangerous thing?" "The doctor instructed the nurse to inject me with two pills and walked out with a black face.

I looked at Lu Zenghan and said in surprise: "You can get out of bed?" ”

"It's okay, I'll be scared to death if I don't get out of bed." Lu Zenghan frowned and said, "Why did you remember to hypnotize yourself?" ”

I didn't care about talking to him more, I looked at Mei Zijun and said, "Zijun, you help me arrange it, I want to see He Jiangang." I have something very important to ask him. ”

Mei Zijun looked at Lu Zenghan and said with a smile: "Obey." Whatever you say, I'll just do it. ”

I looked at Lu Zenghan and said, "I have decided, I will treat myself, and I will never let you get hurt because of me again." ”

Mei Zijun smiled owingly: "It's him, not me." I'm fine, but some people don't play well as soon as their emotions come up. ”