Chapter 120: Self-blame
Zhang Manlian said: "When I was beaten, I only felt that my fist smashed all over my body, and in the end I was unconscious, I didn't feel pain, I thought I was going to die, in short, my brain was not very clear, and I really didn't notice whether the fist hit my face at that time." ”
Xu Dirong said: "It seems that Zhao Kelong did not completely lose his mind at that time, he deliberately did not slap you in the face, and then he took Zhao Youwen home from school to see, Zhao Kelong did not want this family to disperse, and wanted to maintain this family." ”
Zhang Manlian said: "If there is no Zhao Youwen, this family will definitely be scattered, Zhao Kelong really loves Zhao Youwen very, very much, even if he knows that Zhao Youwen is not biological, he still loves him very, very much, maybe Zhao Youwen's biological father Wang Futian does not have that kind of love." ”
Xu Dirong said: "Then I don't understand, since you know that Zhao Kelong loves Zhao Youwen very much, why did you kill him?" ”
Zhang Manlian said: "This is a matter for the future, everything will change, as for what changes have occurred, I will tell you later." ”
Xu Dijon said, "Well, you can continue with the above words." ”
Zhang Manlian continued: "Zhao Kelong came back from buying food, bought three servings, the three of us ate together, Zhao Youwen, who didn't know anything, was like a cheerful bird, chattering non-stop while eating, Zhao Kelong also responded a few words from time to time, and I kept my head down, eager to bury my head in the bowl, and kept silent. After Zhao Youwen fell asleep that night, Zhao Kelong talked to me, saying that he loved Zhao Youwen very much, and for his daughter not to let this family break up, hearing him say this, my tears couldn't stop flowing, he made me swear, this matter can't be leaked out, can't let anyone know, Zhao Youwen has only one father, only one biological father, that is Zhao Kelong, if I leak out Zhao Colon said he would kill me. ”
Xu Dijon said: "This matter is reconciled like this? ”
Zhang Manlian said: "I also thought it was a reconciliation, everything went back to the beginning, but things were not what I thought, I swore that night, we didn't share the same bed, he slept on the sofa." Since then, Zhao Kelong still loves Zhao Youwen, but to me for some trivial things to beat or scold, the relationship between the two of us is extremely poor, I want to save our feelings, to him shush the cold, take care of everything, but he doesn't appreciate it at all, he sees me like seeing the enemy, no matter how good I am to him, his attitude towards me has never improved, just like this we have lived for a few years, this kind of life makes me physically and mentally exhausted, every day I can feel that I am gradually aging. ”
Ma Jing said: "Your life is so uncomfortable, why don't you just divorce early?" It wasn't until Zhao Youwen became an adult that she divorced. ”
Zhang Manlian said: "I mentioned that I wanted to divorce, Zhao Colon said that he wanted to divorce me for a long time, and he wanted to divorce the moment he saw the paternity test results, but for Zhao Youwen, he couldn't divorce, he couldn't let this family disperse, and he wanted his daughter to grow up healthily, and it would be detrimental to his daughter's growth in a single-parent family, so he didn't agree to divorce, unless he waited until Zhao Youwen became an adult." ”
Zhao Youwen muttered, "I know my dad loves me very much, but I didn't know that my dad loved me so much." ”
Zhang Manlian said: "He really loves you very much. ”
Zhao Youwen asked puzzledly: "But why did you kill my father?" ”
Zhang Manlian said: "I'll explain this to you later." ”
Zhao Youwen said: "I still have a question for you. ”
Zhang Manlian said: "You ask." ”
Zhao Youwen said: "You said that my father's relationship with you has become very bad, but he still loves me deeply, but this deep love makes me feel uncomfortable. ”
Xu Dijon asked, "What do you mean?" What kind of deep love makes you uncomfortable? ”
Zhao Youwen said: "To give a few examples, my mother took me out to buy groceries, but my father didn't allow it and let me stay at home; At night, my mom and I slept under the same quilt, and my dad would bring me a quilt or drive me straight back to his room. Anyway, I had the feeling that he was deliberately trying to separate me from my mother, and if I followed him all day and surrounded him, he would be so happy, even so happy that he would lie on the ground and let me ride a big horse, even though I was fifteen or sixteen years old, and his love for me made me very uncomfortable. ”
Xu Dirong said: "You didn't understand Zhao Kelong's abnormal behavior before, can you understand it now?" Think about it, you should be able to figure it out. ”
Zhao Youwen thought for a while and said, "My dad knows that I am not biological, and he also asked my mother to swear not to let this matter be leaked, I think my dad is worried about losing me?" ”
Xu Dijon nodded, "That's right, that's right. ”
Zhao Youwen said: "Even though my dad is worried about this, I think what he is doing is still a bit puzzling. ”
Xu Dirong said: "Actually, it's not puzzling at all, because there is one thing you don't know, and your mother doesn't know, only Dong Linghua knows about it, and she told me." ”
Zhao Youwen hurriedly asked, "What's the matter?" ”
Zhang Manlian looked at Xu Dirong and was eager to know about it.
Xu Dirong said: "Actually, you are not biological, it is a very big blow to your father, the more your father loves you, the more this incident hits him, your father is worried about losing you all day long, and he has psychological problems after a long time." ”
"What's the problem?" Zhao Youwen asked.
"Zhao Colon suffers from paranoia, delusional all day long that he may lose you, especially after he divorced your mother, he is even more worried that he can't keep you by his side, as long as you stay with your mother, he is delusional that your mother will take you away from him."
Zhao Youwen opened her mouth wide in surprise and shook her head lightly, unable to believe it.
Zhang Manlian was also very surprised, but she thought for a while and nodded, and said: "If Zhao Colon really suffers from paranoia, then his behavior can be fully explained, and it is indeed possible for him to suffer from paranoia." ”
But Zhao Youwen shook her head and said: "I don't believe that my dad has paranoia, she Dong Linghua is not a doctor, she said that my dad has paranoia, my dad has it?" Captain Xu, you believe in this kind of unfounded words too much! ”
Xu Dirong said: "Dong Linghua has taken your dad to the hospital for a check-up, there is nothing wrong with paranoia, Dong Linghua and your dad have been together for a few years, she can feel that your dad is weird in treating you, but it is normal in other things, so she took your dad to the hospital for an examination." ”
Zhao Youwen asked: "Then why did I never hear my dad say that he had paranoia?" ”
Xu Dirong said: "Your father didn't want to go to the hospital for an examination at all, saying that he was very normal in dealing with you, and he was dragged to the hospital by Dong Linghua, and in the end your father didn't want to believe that he was suffering from paranoia, thinking that he was physically and mentally healthy." ”
Zhang Manlian asked: "Then why have I never heard Dong Linghua talk about it, she deliberately concealed this matter?" ”
Xu Dijon said, "Yes. ”
Zhang Manlian asked, "What is her intention in doing this?" ”
Xu Dirong said: "Dong Linghua is a scheming person, she wants to take Zhao Kelong's property. ”
Zhang Manlian almost jumped up from her chair and said angrily: "I have long known that Dong Linghua is not a good person, she and Zhao Kelong really have a plot together, and Zhao Kelong can live with her for three years." ”
At this time, Zhao Youwen did not scold Dong Linghua, but blamed herself, "I'm really stupid, I know that my dad is behaving abnormally, but I never thought about taking him to the hospital to see if he is sick, I am like a fool." ”
Xu Dirong said: "Don't blame yourself too much, in your impression, Zhao Kelong was normal before you were eight years old, the family was harmonious, everything changed after the age of eight, you always thought that something happened when you were eight years old, which caused Zhao Kelong to behave abnormally, so you have been trying to figure out what happened that year all these years." ”
Zhao Youwen lowered her head and hid her face, looking very uncomfortable.
Zhang Manlian did not blame herself for failing to find out that Zhao Kelong had paranoia earlier, but continued to ask about Dong Linghua, "Captain Xu, Dong Linghua should have told you more than just Zhao Kelong has paranoia, right?" ”
Xu Dijon said, "What do you want to know? ”
Zhang Manlian said: "That will, the will was indeed written by Zhao Kelong, why did Zhao Kelong write that will, and how did it fall into the hands of Dong Linghua?" ”
Xu Dirong was very honest and told everything he had interrogated from Dong Linghua.
Zhang Manlian and Zhao Youwen were all shocked after hearing this.
Zhao Youwen muttered: "Fortunately, my dad didn't marry her, as long as I get married, my dad will be killed by Dong Linghua, this vicious woman." ”
Zhang Manlian said: "Dong Linghua really deserves to die, I didn't kill her wrong, killing her is the most correct thing I did." ”
Xu Dirong asked: "Killing Dong Linghua is the most correct thing you did, but what about Zhao Kelong?" ”
Zhang Manlian was silent for a while, and finally admitted, "He didn't deserve to die, I killed him by mistake." ”
Xu Dirong then asked: "What about Wang Futian's death?" ”