Chapter 356: Self-Defeating Love
Situ Nanyun ran directly to the Qingjie Palace.
There were guards guarding the outside of the Qingjie Palace, but it was not difficult for her to enter it quietly.
She lightly threw a stone over, and with a single blow, she easily diverted the eyes of the guards and slipped into the inner sanctum.
After patrolling for a while, she found Xuanmingzi sitting on the swing reading a book.
"Sister Nanyun? Are you looking for me? Xuan Mingzi raised his head, a little surprised.
"I'm here to remind you that your Holy King will definitely come to inquire about the person who sent the letter, and when he knows that you have seen me, then he will be a goof, and my plans will not be able to be carried out." Situ Nanyun said solemnly.
"I've already thought about this, don't worry, even if the Holy King finds the person who delivered the letter, he won't know that the person behind the scenes is me." Xuan Mingzi blinked confidently.
"That's fine." Situ Nanyun groaned, and continued, "In order to be safe, I have to meet the person who delivered the letter, so as not to be seen by Lin Yuelan when I get it." ”
Returning from the Qingjie Palace, Situ Nanyun felt a sense of exhaustion that he had never felt before.
This is the first time that she colluded with outsiders to cheat in front of her husband, just to do everything possible to leave him, and to make him hate her as much as possible and forget her, her heart is actually very bitter, very bitter.
Before breakfast, she went straight to the stove room, but the two brothers Xuan Yi and Xuan were nowhere to be seen.
Although she didn't have much appetite, she still had a little man in her belly, and she had to force herself to eat something. After a few mouthfuls of rice, she removed the dishes and chopsticks.
Lin Yuelan should still be in the study at this time, and right now, at this opportunity, she has to do something.
This incident had been brewing in her mind for a long time last night.
If this matter can be done, it will undoubtedly be a fierce medicine, which can uproot Lin Yuelan's love for her, but it is not easy to implement, and it will affect another innocent person.
She hesitated, but there was no other way, and she finally made up her mind.
When Lin Yuelan walked into the room, she saw Situ Nanyun put away the letter in her hand and hurriedly stuffed it into her sleeve.
When the two looked at each other, there was a moment of silence.
Lin Yuelan sighed slightly, "Yun'er has nothing to say to her husband, it seems that her husband is a stranger in your mind." ”
Situ Nanyun felt a pain in her heart, her lips trembled, and she didn't speak.
Lin Yuelan turned around and walked away with some disappointment.
Situ Nanyun thought he had walked away, and his fingers clenched his palms tightly.
But Lin Yuelan didn't go away, he took a wet handkerchief from the washstand, and under Situ Nanyun's unexplained gaze, he picked up her hand and gently wiped the ink on the back of his hand.
Situ Nanyun was a little stunned, and his other arm unconsciously leaned to his side, his thumb tightly buttoned his dress, and his lips opened, "Thank you." ”
Lin Yuelan's gaze fell on the small half-section of the envelope that had been hastily stuffed into the cuffs of her coat that had not been completely covered, but his eyes only swept away, did not say anything, and then walked out with a dirty handkerchief.
After he left, Situ Nanyun breathed a sigh of relief, with a hesitant look on his face, hid the letter in his sleeve under the quilt, and sat on the bed.
Lin Yuelan came in not long after, and when she saw her stunned, she said, "Yun'er, the sun is just right outside, going out for a walk with your husband will make you feel a lot more comfortable." ”
Situ Nanyun shook her head, "No, I didn't sleep well yesterday, and I was woken up early this morning by those palace maids who arranged the wedding hall, I want to make up for my sleep." ”
"Okay, then you rest, I'll lay out the quilt for you."
Lin Yuelan unfolded the quilt as she spoke, and at this time, it was too late for Situ Nanyun to stop it.
At that moment, a letter shook out of the quilt and fell to the ground.
Lin Yuelan's gaze sank as she touched the envelope.
The yellow envelope was impressively written with the name of "Xu Xifeng" and the words "Yun'er personally opened".
He looked at Situ Nanyun, waiting for her explanation.
"This ...... This is my letter. Situ Nanyun picked up the letter that fell to the ground, and her eyes were a little flustered.
"It's a letter from Xifeng." After a pause, she added.
It was a bit of a stretch, but she couldn't find the right words.
Lin Yuelan's expression was indifferent, and her lips pursed into a straight line.
"Yun'er, you were hiding it just now, just afraid that I would see this letter, right?" His eyes swept over the letter coldly, leaping to Situ Nanyun's face.
Situ Nanyun didn't speak, her look told him the answer.
He smiled bitterly, "Yun'er, you have changed, I don't know you anymore, before, there was never any estrangement between us and secrets that we didn't know each other, and now you don't hesitate to hide it in front of me for him, I'm really chilled." ”
He actually rushed to read the contents of the letter, but Situ Nanyun clenched it tightly, his eyes were stinging, and he withdrew the hand that was about to be stretched out.
Situ Nanyun continued to be silent.
Lin Yuelan sighed lightly, "Yun'er, if I'm not mistaken, you were restless all night last night, and early in the morning you said that you would break away from me, because of this letter, right?" It is because of him that you will leave me and leave me behind. And you said in the morning that you were tired, exhausted, tired of all these ups and downs, and wanted to leave me, in fact, all this is your excuse, right? ”
After a pause, pain flashed in his eyes, his throat tightened, and his voice was a little hoarse, "You are already my wife, why do you still miss other men?" Do you think of me as your husband? ”
Situ Nanyun only felt that his words were like a knife, but the arrow was already on the string, she had no way to retreat, and smiled desolately, "Lin Yuelan, I concealed your letter from him and deceived you, it was my fault, but I did this to not embarrass you and leave you a little dignity, because even if I want to leave you, I don't want to hurt you, at least I don't want to hurt you for this reason." ”
Lin Yuelan didn't expect these words, and he froze.
"Lin Yuelan, in the half a year that you are not by my side, it is Xifeng who has been by my side and has never abandoned me to take care of me, and when I am in danger, I have sacrificed myself several times to save me, how can I easily forget this affection? And he has always been the only one with me, and more importantly, he can give me the life I want as an ordinary person, I don't have to worry that my husband will leave me and marry another woman, and we don't have to go through so many ups and downs between us, and we can grow old in peace. ”
Situ Nanyun's nails were deeply embedded in his palm, and he forced himself to say these cruel words with the pain of piercing his heart.
Lin Yuelan's mind suddenly flashed in the time and space of the Great Elder, and she saw Situ Nanyun and Xu Xifeng fighting side by side, birth and death, and finally jumping off the ethereal cliff.
This affection for living and dying together is indeed extraordinary, and it can naturally penetrate into their feelings, and Xu Xifeng takes care of Situ Nanyun, isn't it what he hoped at the beginning? Is he going to turn over these old accounts now?
He sighed, like a fish in his throat, like a thorn in his heart.
Suddenly, at this moment, a picture that he tried so hard to suppress and was extremely reluctant to think of jumped out.
At the bottom of the cliff, Xu Xi's poisonous fruit attacked, and Situ Nanyun had a husband and wife relationship with him.
That scene seemed to have taken root, and he couldn't get rid of it, and it appeared in his mind repeatedly.
He put his hand on his forehead, trying to stop the scene from happening, but in vain.
He sat down in utter decadence, his eyes filled with a deep sense of powerlessness and loneliness.
He thought he had Situ Nanyun completely, but it turned out that she never really belonged to him; He thought that the love between them was solid, and it turned out that there was also a day when it was also broken by human drops, but in the end, Xu Xifeng still infiltrated their lives everywhere and occupied a place in her heart.
Perhaps, Situ Nanyun never forgot Xu Xifeng.
Otherwise, when she was in Luoxia Villa, she would not have gone out to see him without regard to the danger, and under the ethereal cliff, she would not have disregarded her own reputation and innocence to dispel the poison of the love fruit for Xu Xifeng, nor would she have shaken her mind as soon as she received Xu Xifeng's letter when she proposed to grow old with him, and said to him that she would never leave.
The two have experienced so many ups and downs, divided and reunited many times, and finally there will be a day when the song ends and everyone is separated.
This time, his Yun'er was finally going to leave him ruthlessly, take away the love for him, and throw herself into the arms of another man,
And he is powerless to recover, and he has no qualifications to recover.
Xu Xifeng is indeed more qualified to be by her side than him, he still has a lot of time to accompany her, and he will die soon, and he can't accompany her to old age, and Xu Xifeng doesn't have to bear the burden of the mission to marry a woman he doesn't like, there is no flaw in his feelings, and he can give Situ Nanyun a stable life.
He laughed sadly and got up and walked away.
Seeing Lin Yuelan walk out dejectedly, Situ Nanyun trembled against the bedpost.
This time, she broke his heart hard, his body had been destroyed by Acacia and Sumeru, this emotional betrayal, but another knife was inserted in his scarred heart.
Let's hope he can withstand this blow and survive.
If he doesn't die and despair, he can't get rid of his love for her. Rise from the ashes!
"As long as you live, I can do anything for you, even if it's my life, take care!"
"It's just Xifeng, I have no choice but to stir you in, please understand."
She muttered alone into the cold air around her.
Just now, the short moment when facing Lin Yuelan seemed like a century, and it exhausted all her strength.
At this point, she was dizzy and physically and mentally exhausted, and she sat back on the bed. Suddenly, there was a violent spasm in her abdomen, cold sweat broke out on her forehead, and the little people inside began to kick and beat uneasily inside.
The spasm in the abdomen should be that I haven't eaten a few bites of food since yesterday, coupled with emotional sorrow, which hurt my body and caused gastrointestinal disharmony; And Xiao Rong'er probably felt her grief and worried about his mother, so she became uneasy.
"Rong'er, my mother has to do this in order to save your father, you have to understand your mother's distress." Situ Nanyun withdrew a trace of consciousness and stroked her belly.
She felt so tired, so tired, that she wanted to go to sleep.
But she can't continue to stay here, she has to leave, she has to disappear from Lin Yuelan's field of vision, otherwise, the night is long and dreamy, and when he finds out the clue, everything will be wasted.