"I'm sorry." Mu Shaohan, who suddenly realized what she had done, turned her back to Tang Xiaotang, her voice trembled, and the whole person looked so lonely and lonely, as if she would be shattered at the touch of it.

The person who was obviously close in front of him, but it seemed to be far away, Tang Xiaotang sighed helplessly: "I'll come back early today and take you to the hospital." ”

But Mu Shaohan didn't give any reaction, she sighed again and turned to go out.

Seeing Tang Xiaotang leaving, the person on the bed still didn't move, as if she didn't hear her words at all, she really didn't hear it, because she was sad and about to die at this moment.

Because she was facing away from Tang Xiaotang just now, she didn't see tears flowing from Mu Shaohan's eyes, and she felt as if she was about to be devoured again, her face turned pale, her whole body trembled, and the surging sadness almost overwhelmed her.

No......

I didn't mean to......

I didn't mean to yell at Tang Xiaotang, why can't I control my emotions? It's really painful, I know she's my friend, I know she's for my good, I live with her, eat, drink, use her, and finally I yell at her?

However, my brain is not under my control, and I am also very weak, like an independent entity standing there, watching this body do nonsense.

Mu Shaohan blamed herself and was about to go crazy, she thought of what a lively girl Tang Xiaotang was just now, but her cautious face just now, and that tone......

I'm just a liability, right? It didn't help, but it dragged her down.

All the memories poured into Mu Shaohan's head in an instant, and she felt that her headache was about to crack, Luo Xiangyu's betrayal, Ah Zi's death, Tang Xiaotang's conversation with her employees, everything was tormenting her nerves, and she was almost about to collapse.

Her hands were shaking, she kept crying, crying until her mind went blank, she was sad and wanted to cry out, and even the things around her gradually changed from familiar to unfamiliar.

Which is more painful, physical torture or mental torture? If someone asked her so now, she would definitely choose the latter without hesitation, and when she was so sad that she couldn't extricate herself from this emotional manipulation, she stood up, opened the bedroom door, and slowly walked towards Tang Xiaotang's design room.

Every day of my life is torment, this world is so beautiful in the eyes of others, but in my eyes the world is gray, covered by the haze, I can't see a little light, the darkness makes people panic, so ah, I really want to escape from this world.

In the design room, Mu Shaohan stood at the door staring at the utility knife on the table not far away, and a voice in her heart kept urging her, go and pick it up, pick it up!

She raised her footsteps, walked over slowly, looked at it with straight eyes, her hand trembled, picked up the knife, raised her other arm, looked at her delicate and fair skin, and gently moved up, when the knife was against the skin, she felt that the blood in her whole body was boiling, and she felt the joy from the bottom of her heart.

This emotion, which had not appeared for a long time, covered Mu Shaohan's whole body in an instant, pressed the knife down, cut the skin, the pain of drilling the heart spread, and the blood seeped out of the wound, but she felt extremely relaxed, sighed with extraordinary satisfaction, raised the blade again to cut the second opening, and watched the blood slowly flow out of the wound, she began to feel no pain, only unparalleled pleasure.

Mu Shaohan marveled at such a wonderful, her chest rose and fell violently, and the feeling of the knife cutting through the skin relieved her tortured nerves, she was about to fall in love with this way! Let her forget the pain for a while, the terrifying faces of those people.

Her heart was beating faster, her arms were numb to the point of being unconscious, she began to feel dizzy in her brain, her whole body was a little numb, she sat weakly on her knees on the ground, leaned against the table and fell asleep.

Today's Tang Xiaotang deliberately left work early, although she locked the door of the house when she left, and even checked all the windows, she was still worried when she worked all day.

When she got to the door, she first twisted the doorknob, but she couldn't push it open.

There was no sign of the door being opened, Tang Xiaotang breathed a sigh of relief, took out the key and opened the door.

When she entered the room, she couldn't wait to go to the bedroom where Mu Shaohan was, and opened the door with nervousness to see that it was empty.

Tang Xiaotang's brain was clouded in an instant, she shouldn't have gone to work, she shouldn't have left Mu Shaohan at home alone, why did she do such a stupid thing again?

Tears scrambled out of her eyes uncontrollably, and she ran to another room like crazy to see, but when she reached the door of the design room, she froze in place.

What did she see?

The sound of her head as if it had suddenly exploded made her body shake as well, and she could only stand firm by holding on to the door frame as if she had collapsed, and she gasped violently, her brain blank.

In front of him, it was Mu Shaohan who was wearing pajamas with bloodstains, and a large patch of bright red on the ground almost blinded Tang Xiaotang's eyes, lying there quietly, no longer like his eyes were open, his expression was unchanged, he was holding a knife quietly, lying in a pool of blood, and with the other arm, Tang Xiaotang almost didn't dare to look at it directly.

The criss-crossing wounds almost covered Mu Shaohan's entire arm, and at this moment, blood was slowly flowing out of it.

The second she came back to her senses, Tang Xiaotang ran over almost instantly, she stumbled and knelt in front of Mu Shaohan, clasping her wrists tightly, her eyes were red and staring at those wounds, some of which were even deep into the bones.

Forcibly endured the discomfort in her heart, she dialed the emergency number with trembling hands, and the moment she connected, her tears surged out again, and she told the person opposite the address with a crying voice with trembling lips.

Suddenly remembering something, Tang Xiaotang stood up violently, her eyes were black because of the lack of oxygen in her brain, but she didn't care so much, she looked around, her eyes locked on a piece of cloth, and she grabbed it and wrapped it around Mu Shaohan's arm.

Because there was no medical kit at home, there was not even gauze, Tang Xiaotang regretted it in his heart, and secretly said that he must have these tools at home in the future.

Tang Xiaotang hugged Mu Shaohan and called her loudly: "Hanhan, wake up, I'm back." ”

Seeing that Mu Shaohan showed no signs of waking up, she kept talking to her.

"Do you want to wake up quickly?"

"Mu Shaohan, let me tell you, if you don't wake up, I'll break off my friendship with you!"

"Hanhan...... Don't sleep anymore, when you wake up, I'll accompany you to eat your favorite roast duck, okay? ”

From threats to coaxing, no matter what Tang Xiaotang said, she didn't react at all, looking at that familiar face lifeless at this time, the despair in her heart was spreading rapidly, until the ambulance siren sounded outside.