Rather than being fulfilled, losing it again, and returning to loneliness. It's better to let her be lonely all the time, and she has never experienced the fullness of being accompanied by someone, and there will be no great loss after the loss.

That's what she really thinks. She is always used to being alone, and she always likes a person, it's really not that she has a cold personality and thinks that no one is worthy of her, so she only plays with herself. No, she just would rather be alone all the time than have it again, and fall into the darkness of a person again.

For such a thing, it is enough for her to experience it once. I never want to go through it a second time.

The death of her father and the abandonment of her mother made her deeply understand a truth-

If you put expectations on people, people will definitely disappoint you.

On the other hand, if you put things like expectation on top of dead things, you will never be disappointed.

So she devoted all her energy to studying and reading.

"Sister-in-law, I've always admired you. You're in my heart, you're amazing. ”

An Ning was stunned, "What's so powerful?" I didn't really have much to do except that my academic performance was better when I was in school and my professional ability was stronger when I was working. ”

But these two powerful things about her are not how powerful she is. It's just that she's trying hard enough. As long as you put in as much effort as her, everyone can be as good as her. In fact, everyone can do these achievements that she has made. As long as you work hard enough, be serious enough, and be diligent enough.

It's pretty simple.

On the contrary, she still thinks that Lin Wanwan is very powerful. No, it should be - the people around Fifth Master Quan are all powerful.

These awesomeness of others are completely different concepts from her achievements that are completely made by hard work. She can't compare to other people's at all.

Lin Wanwan shook her head seriously, "No, sister-in-law, what I admire about you is your strong heart." ”

"Huh?!"

A strong heart? Lin Wanwan, this girl, what nonsense is she talking about.

"Sister-in-law, I'm not deliberately revealing your scars."

"I know, you can say whatever you want."

"You see, when you were young, Prosecutor General An died, what about your mother...... Don't talk about it. It's the same if you have a mother as if you don't have a mother, to put it bluntly, you might as well not have a mother. At least no, you won't even think about her. This kind of situation of obviously having a mother, but not having a mother, is the most disgusting. ”

Disgusting?

An Ning tilted her head and smiled shallowly.

Lin Wanwan's word is really interesting,

Nothing else, I just think it's disgusting.

Yes, she is obviously a person with a mother, how can she be the same as a little orphan without a mother?

"If your business were on me, I'd break down."

An Ning pursed her pink lips and said casually, "You think I didn't collapse?" I was going to collapse and die. My father, who was hugging me and hugging me yesterday, is suddenly gone, and my mother doesn't want me for two days. If I was a little older, I guess I would have wiped my neck. ”

Simply, she was still young at the time, and she didn't know that there was an option to commit suicide.

Collapse, but after the collapse, she has to wipe away her tears and continue to live. Work hard to stay alive, learn to live alive.

Could it be that you have been immersed in the mood of collapse? So what does she eat? What to drink?

It was more than a year before Professor Feng's little old man began to sponsor her. After all, her father is also a prosecutor general, and a prosecutor general died during the handling of the case, and the death was very strange. This is not a trivial matter, and when the procuratorate investigated the cause of her father's death, it kept the news of her father's death strictly confidential.

If you want to investigate the case, it's normal to keep it secret.

It was more than a year after Professor Feng learned of her father's death that she received a grant from Professor Feng. But before receiving financial support from Professor Feng, she could only rely on herself if she wanted to survive.

This is why she can still have a little affection for Sun Yangshan now. She didn't have any affection for Sun Yangshan, she just thought that in the first half a year or so, Sun Yangshan would still allow her mother to give her some living expenses every month no matter what. The cost of living is pitiful, but for a small child, it is enough to eat.

Dad's house was assigned by the procuratorate, and the hospital knew her situation, and the expenses such as water, electricity, and gas were all waived for her. Of course, the house left by my father can be kept, and it is not stolen by Sun Yangshan to pay off the debt he owes, and it all depends on my father's group of lovely colleagues.

is also in the legal profession, and it is not difficult for her father to help her keep a house.

Moreover, in the family building of the Supreme People's Procuratorate, it is expected that no matter how greedy he Sun Yangshan is, he will not be able to move a penny.

After Sun Yangshan's business failed and went bankrupt, it was not that he didn't have the idea of leaving the house behind his father, but Sun Yangshan didn't have the ability to touch this house. She vividly remembers that one day, her father's colleague found her and asked her to sign many, many documents. The uncles and aunts also told her that she could not sign the documents that anyone brought her. She had to bring it back first, and after showing it to her aunts and uncles, they agreed to it, and she could sign the paper.

At that time, she didn't understand how much those uncles and aunts had done to help her keep the house left by her father. She only knew that these uncles and aunts who came to the house, after her father's death, would come to the house from time to time to see her, buy her food, stuff the refrigerator at home for her, and take her to her home for dinner on weekends. Although these uncles and aunts did not give her a dime, these uncles and aunts paid her tuition, and when she was sick, these uncles and aunts also sent her to the hospital, accompanied her to the hospital for injections, and told her to take medicine on time.

She had also heard with her own ears the theoretical conversations between these uncles and aunts and her mother. Now that I think about it, at the beginning, my mother could still give her some living expenses every month, and it was also because of the uncles and aunts from these procuratorates.

So she trusts these uncles and aunts more than her mother.

The document that her mother asked her to sign, she refused without hesitation. If it weren't for those uncles and aunts, the only house left by my father would have been sold to Sun Yangshan to pay off his debts.

It's a pity that the group of lovely uncles and aunts in the procuratorate gradually disappeared. Either I was transferred and left because of my job, or I was promoted and left. But now she is still in contact with several uncles who had a good relationship with her father. These uncles have always taken good care of her. Until now, during the New Year's holidays, she will call one by one to say hello. On the day she received her acceptance letter from college, several uncles gave her a sum of money that was not particularly large but not too small.

That money is enough for her to pay off the tuition fees for four years of college, not to mention, even enough for living expenses.

But she didn't take it. The prosecutor uncle, who has a good relationship with his father, must have the same temperament as his father. The personality is basically the same as Professor Feng's virtue-

The two sleeves are breezy and empty.

In short, the poor don't say that they are jingling, anyway, the economic situation is definitely not good.

It is not easy for several uncles to take out this money. She thought about it, she didn't want to owe more to others, it was too troublesome to pay off the favor debt.

She still caught Professor Feng alone and owed it to death. There are many lice in the horizontal and vertical directions, and they are not afraid of biting.

So, she confiscated the money.

But this kindness, she has always kept it in her heart.

Because of this group of lovely uncles and aunts, her determination to work in the procuratorate has been strengthened a lot.

After listening to her tell a story about her childhood, Lin Wanwan was silent for a while, and then said: "Sister-in-law, I admire you even more after listening to you." Really, you're too strong inside! At such a young age, my father is suddenly gone, and my mother doesn't want to be herself, and everyone has to collapse. But when you're done with the breakdown, you can dry your eyes and continue to live. Leave me alone, I guess I'm really going to kill myself. Even if I don't commit suicide, I don't think I'm in the mood to study. It's too normal to be willing to fall and abandon your studies. ”

To be able to study harder like their sister-in-law, there are really few cubs who can do it! At least she couldn't.

Children, after experiencing a particularly big encounter, most of them become bad, not better.

"If you grew up in the family home of the procuratorate, you will know that what is willing to degenerate and abandon your studies is something you don't even think about."

The influence of the environment on a child is deep-rooted and unimaginable.

In such an environment, she just wants to fall, and she doesn't have that chance.

Really, she is surrounded by prosecutors and prosecutors general, where does she dare to degenerate? I'm scared to death, okay?

"Anyway, sister-in-law, you are amazing, I admire you!" Lin Wanwan watched her boil the decanting soup on the pot, and handed her the flower tea that had already been brewed, "Sister-in-law, don't say anything else, I admire you very much just because of your strong heart that can endure loneliness." ”

An Ning just smiled lightly at this and did not respond.

Strong heart? Don't make a fuss, she's just a cowardly person to the extreme.

How did it get to Lin Wanwan's girl's mouth, and it became a manifestation of her inner strength?

She's ...... It's because she's afraid of losing something after getting something, so she's becoming the virtue she is now. I'd rather never have it than have it and lose it.

A person who is lonely, refuses to have contact with others, and refuses to have any relationship with others, is just her cowardice.

She knows all too well that people's hearts are fickle.

When her father was just away, the uncles and aunts in the entire procuratorate were considerate of her. She had a little bit of a problem, and more of her uncles and aunts stood up to help her. But what about after a while? Those uncles and aunts disappeared a lot at once, and those who stayed behind could be counted on five fingers.

It's not that she can't understand it, it's so easy to understand.

Before the people left, the tea could be cold. What's more, those uncles and aunts have done a very benevolent and righteous job, and her father has been dead for a long time, so this cup of tea is cold. Really, benevolence and righteousness have been exhausted.

It's good to be able to take care of other people's children, what do you ask for more? That's moral kidnapping!

Who stipulates that when a colleague dies, no one will take care of the colleague's children, and as a colleague, you must take care of it to the end? Wherever you put it, there is no reason for this.

There is no filial son in front of the bed for a long time. That's what I'm saying.

In the short term, if she wants her family to take care of someone else's child for a long time who has no obligations, she asked three words-

Why?