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After that, whenever Zhang Huai recalled this incident, he would not be at the beginning.
That is, on that day, Zhang Huai's father who shipped out of the car had a car accident because of fatigue driving, and even the car crashed into a guardrail by the river, and directly overturned into the river, when the news reached Zhang Huai's house, Zhang Huai still remembers what he looked like at that time.
At that time, Zhang Huai was devastated, he didn't believe that his father, who was thinking about buying him a birthday gift when he was leaving, would disappear from this world like this, and would leave himself and his mother like this.
But the facts are the facts, and Zhang Huai's mother never dared to believe it and slowly began to accept it, because she knew that she couldn't fall now, because she still had a son who needed to take care of herself, and she had to be strong.
Zhang Huai, under the influence of his mother, slowly began to accept this fact, but after that, he was like a different person, and he began to slowly retreat from the top three in the whole grade in terms of academic performance, until he fell into the bottom 100 of the grade, and he also changed from a good student to a problem student in the eyes of teachers and classmates.
At the beginning, the teachers and classmates took more care of him because of Zhang Huai's father, and wanted to slowly let him adapt to the current life, and accept the changes in the family, and then let him talk to each other about what he looked like before, but slowly everyone began to be dissatisfied with what he did, no longer tolerated him, and even began to reject him, forgetting that he was once a good student with excellent academic performance and was liked by teachers and classmates, but a person who did not learn and did not know how to fight all day long. A mess of bad students with poor grades.
Zhang Huai's mother thought at first that it was because of his father's sudden departure, so Zhang Huai couldn't accept it to become like this, she didn't say anything to him, she just wanted to give him time, so that he could slowly accept and let go, but the result was contrary to what she expected, she didn't know that she secretly cried several times hiding from Zhang Huai alone, but every time she was in front of Zhang Huai, she never showed it a little, because she knew that even if Zhang Huai didn't show anything on his face, But in fact, he has always felt that he was the one who killed his father, if it wasn't for him pestering his father to ask for that very expensive gift in terms of his current family situation, and his father didn't have to drag his tired body to ship, then there would be no such thing, she also went to Zhang Huai's room several times at night, and heard him talking in his sleep, desperately screaming to prevent his father from going out of that trip, and seeing his closed eyes and tears, she knew that the pressure on this child's heart was much more than he showed.
In fact, how could she not have resentment in her heart, when Zhang Huai's father had just had an accident, she ignored the sadness in her new mileage, that is, her hatred for Zhang Huai, if it weren't for him, his father wouldn't have had to go out of that trip at all, then there would have been no such tragedy, but knowing that her son couldn't dream well every night, looking at his immature face, her hatred disappeared all of a sudden, after all, it was her son, even if his father knew, he didn't want to treat him like this.
Meeting Wang Jingjing was a redemption for Zhang Huai.
In the winter of that year, Zhang Huai was beaten by a group of thugs lying on the ground, and when he couldn't move, he felt that his body was very cold, and his heart was also very cold, he didn't doubt at that moment that he might die at that time, he was just a little sad, not for himself, but for his poor mother at home, his father was also in this world because of his own accident, and now he was leaving, leaving her alone in this world, and the dead people walked cleanly, The living are to live alone with great sorrow.
However, at that time, in addition to the reluctance and self-blame for his mother, he was more relieved, he finally stopped having nightmares every night, and it was good to see his father's unrecognizable face in his dreams, he didn't have to face it anymore.
Just as Zhang Huai closed his eyes, feeling the temperature of his body slowly draining, and his whole body became cold, he waited quietly for the arrival of death as if he didn't feel it.
"Hey, 120? There was a man lying in the snow, cold and dying."
Zhang Huai heard the voice, tried to open his eyes, wanted to see clearly who was talking, he wanted to tell her to shut up, but he didn't have any strength at all now, not even the strength to open his eyes completely, he could only see the person squatting down in a trance, leaning to his side, reaching out to cover his forehead, and talking in his mouth.
"His body temperature is very low now, which is dangerous." As soon as the girl's hand touched the boy's forehead, she was startled.
Zhang Huai listened to the girl's voice and knew that she must have been frightened by her current temperature, and he suddenly wanted to comfort her and tell her that she was 'afraid', but no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't make a single sound out of his mouth.
"Please come over quickly, now the patient's consciousness is starting to dissipate." The girl was obviously frightened by Zhang Huai's appearance, and she anxiously reached out to cover his face, wanting to warm him up.
Although Zhang Huai couldn't see clearly, he couldn't forget the temperature of the girl's hand on his face, a small hand, but with a warmth he had never felt.
I don't know how long it took, the ambulance finally came, and the girl quickly stood up and gave way to the ambulance staff, so that they could take the patient back to the hospital for treatment as soon as possible.
When Zhang Huai left from the girl's hand on his face, his heart was full of a sense of loss, he knew that the girl was leaving, he reached out and wanted to grab the girl, not letting her leave him, but he didn't touch her, but he grabbed something, he tightly grasped the thing that he grabbed in his hand, as if he had grasped something important.
When Zhang Huai was carried into the ambulance by the medical staff, he was actually very grateful to that girl in his heart, he suddenly didn't want to say goodbye to the world, he also wanted to see the world more, after all, there were still his favorite mothers and friends here, and even the girl who didn't even see her appearance clearly.
Han Yiran saw Zhang Huai, who was now sitting next to him, and knew that he was okay at that time, after all, his people were safe in front of him now.
"The girl who saved you is Wang Jingjing" Han Yiran looked at Zhang Huai with a surprised face, and asked in disbelief, could the Wang Jingjing that Zhang Huai said be the Wang Jingjing they know now? It's not too bloody.
"That's right, that girl of mine is Jingjing." Zhang Huai looked at Han Yiran's expression of disbelief, and was amused all of a sudden.
"That's too bloody, isn't it?" Han Yiran raised the corners of her mouth in embarrassment, but this also makes sense why Wang Jingjing was so kind to Zhang Huai, and Zhang Huai was so desperate to treat her.
"yes, I think it's bloody, too." Zhang Huai looked at Han Yiran approvingly, "At that time"
At that time, after Zhang Huai woke up from the hospital, he saw his mother sitting on the edge of the bed, her face was tired, and the dark circles under her eyes were very heavy.
"Xiaohuai, are you okay?" Zhang Huai's mother watched Zhang Huai open her eyes, and the tiredness of the past few days was all diluted by her son's sober joy, and she stood up eagerly and wanted to pour him a glass of water.
"Mom!" As soon as Zhang Huai shouted, he felt uncomfortable in his throat, his voice was hoarse, it sounded like the sound of a saw sawing wood, which was very ugly in his ears.
Zhang Huai's mother hurriedly poured a glass of water, then helped him up and leaned against the head of the bed, and handed the cup to his mouth so that he could drink water.
Zhang Huai obediently drank a glass of water, then leaned on the bed, looking at his mother, he suddenly felt that he hadn't looked at his mother so carefully for a long time, as if since his father died, he didn't dare to look at his mother carefully, for fear that he would see a trace of eyes that he didn't want to see from the eyes that had been looking at him full of love, so he refused to look at her.
"Xiaohuai, do you feel better now?" Zhang Huai's mother looked at Zhang Huai nervously, afraid that he would be a little uncomfortable, after all, before these few minutes, her son had been in a coma, and she had just been notified by the phone that her son was now dying, so scared that she couldn't think of anything in her mind for a while, and then when she came back to her senses, she rushed to the hospital in a panic, only to know that her son was still in the operating room, receiving treatment, at that moment, she really felt that her sky had fallen.
At the beginning, when her husband had an accident, although she was also sad, she thought that she still had a son who needed her care, so she quickly came out of the shadow of losing her husband, and then began to work hard, because his family is now a laborer, her son is still young, she can't work hard, but the second she knew that her son had an accident, she really felt that her sky had fallen, and the dependence in the world she lived in was gone, she didn't dare to imagine, What would she do if her son really had three longs and two shorts? Is she still alive in this world?
"Mom, I'm fine." Zhang Huai comforted his mother with a hoarse voice, obviously even now, who has not come back to his senses.