Mother's words were particularly tough, and this blow to the head instantly made Sun Xiaohong's self-esteem invisibly hurt, and she stood there in frustration, feeling helpless and overwhelmed.

When her mother left, Sun Xiaohong looked at her back with a sad brow, tears falling from her eyes. Mom is really old, her back staggered in the alley a few times, and then turned out. Sun Xiaohong retracted her blank gaze nervously, she stood at the gate of the courtyard with a sore heart. Needless to say, such a deliberate injury pierced her heart, and it was a hundred times more painful than piercing her.

As the dusk sun sets, the fiery clouds on the horizon rise and slowly turn into a gray curtain. The courtyard was quiet again, and after Sun Xiaohong returned to the house, she threw herself into her cabin and raised her hand to close the curtains. She lay quietly on the kang and slowly closed her eyes, and it was dark again. She didn't want to talk, and she didn't want to get out of the blind spot of confusion. There was no light in the room, there were flickering shadows everywhere, and she could faintly feel its dead silence and claustrophobia.

She thought that life could be as romantic as poetry and as quiet as a tree, but only now does she gradually understand that the cruel reality is more cruel than she imagined. She sighed faintly, with a series of heartfelt questions, lamenting her cowardice and humility.

Outside the window was a dark world, and the thorns of sunlight held the shadow of time and gradually darkened. The surroundings are endlessly cool, and time walks by minute and second, like a snail, crawling slowly in the boundless silence.

By the time Sun Guodong and his five sons returned from the ground, it was already completely dark. After they had set up a hut in the vegetable field, they took advantage of the fine weather to pick a lot of vegetables in the vegetable field with baskets. The vegetable field that had just rained was full of mud, and when they carried the picked vegetables to the ground, Xiaohong's mother came to the field to answer, and they rushed back from the field.

Sun Guodong hurriedly ate dinner, and in the courtyard, silently set up the carriage, and he had to go to the vegetable field to bring back the baskets of tomatoes, eggplants, and cucumbers, and then wait until the sun came out tomorrow morning, and pull them to the vegetable market in the city to sell, and they will definitely sell at a good price. When he saw that Xiaohong was not moving in the house, he knew that Xiaohong was robbed by her mother, and he was still angry with himself.

His daughter he understands, this child seems to be soft and weak, but her personality is very strong and sensitive, if at this time, touch her shortcomings face to face, how can she stand it! No matter how angry she is, she is also her own daughter, and she is not an enemy, why do she say so many hurtful things. Sun Guodong thought like this, and he kept complaining in his heart that Xiaohong's mother didn't speak deep or shallow.

Before leaving, Sun Guodong quietly glanced into the room through the glass of the blue lattice window, and saw that Sun Xiaohong was still lying there motionless in a daze, so he shook his head, frowned, pulled the reins of the white horse, and drove the carriage out of the courtyard gate.

After the carriage walked out of the courtyard gate, the courtyard was quiet again. Sun Xiaohong walked to the courtyard blankly, and the light in her heart was instantly shattered in such a silent sunset. A swallow suddenly passed in front of me, and it could rain again tomorrow. Sun Xiaohong was secretly sulking, but there was no reason in her mind.

The wind was blowing, the wind was loud, and it was speeding through the air, sweeping around without direction. Sun Xiaohong looked at the sky timidly, and the tumbling dark clouds pressed down low, like ghostly shadows, spitting blood-red tongues, circling and entwining from the air, forcing over one by one, enveloping the world in front of him in black terror. Her mood was even more complicated, and her face was full of loss. She is like a lonely bird, without direction, the huge world, it is so hesitant and helpless.

The courtyard door rang, and Sihuan came to the house to find her to work on the construction site together. After she entered the door, she saw Xiaohong lying on her stomach in the hut, so she opened her loud voice and shouted: "Xiaohong, come out quickly!" It's just getting dark, and you go to bed, isn't it too early? ”

"Sihuan is here! Wait, I'll be angry right away! Xiaohong heard Sihuan's voice and agreed. She knew that Sihuan came to the house so late, and there must be something important to find her, so she supported her stiff body, hurriedly got up from the kang, got down to the ground and put on her shoes, and walked out of the back room unkempt.

"Xiaohong, why is your face so ugly? Is there something uncomfortable? If you are sick, take medicine quickly, and don't be stiff! It's a big deal, but no one feels sorry for you! When Sihuan saw the haggard Sun Xiaohong walking out of the hut listlessly, he asked with a glare.

"It's okay, I'm just a little dizzy, maybe it's not good to rest for a while! I get sleepy with my eyes closed during the day, and I can't sleep at night with my eyes stared! Sun Xiaohong said with a wry smile.

"You, I think you must be thinking all day long, and then you overthink, you don't rest well at night, and you have a nervous breakdown, right?" Sihuan said with a smile.

"You say I'm a big idler, and I don't need to do the work at home, what is there to think about, but I just feel tightness in my chest and panting unevenly?" Sun Xiaohong said, tugging at the placket with her hand, lifting the bangs on her forehead, revealing a look of anxiety. From her sunken eye sockets, Sihuan could see the complex emotions in her brain.

"I see that you just stay at home, you have nothing to do and go out to find some work, you have money to earn, and you can also see how good it is! You're always so stuffy at home, it's no wonder if you don't hold back your problems! Why don't you come with me to work on the construction site tomorrow? Sihuan looked at Xiaohong face to face and said with a smile.

"Okay! I'm worried that I don't have a place to work, when will I go and let me know in advance? As soon as she heard that there was work to do, Sun Xiaohong suddenly came to her senses, and her two eyes suddenly emitted the same light.

"You can think about it, there is no light work on the construction site, if you really agree, you can go tomorrow, but you must stick to it. If you are halfway through the work, you will leave it behind, but don't blame them for not paying you a salary. Sihuan looked at Sun Xiaohong without blinking, and said seriously.

"You can't be tired of working, what's not to persevere! As long as they dare to use it, I dare to do it. Although Sun Xiaohong is skinny and walks shakingly, as if a gust of wind can blow it away, she is also a child who grew up crawling on the ditch, and she did not give it for nothing.

After graduating from primary school, she followed her brother to the construction site like a tomboy, either moving bricks or cement, and doing some rough work. Don't look at her as a girl, sometimes, there are not enough people on the construction site, she can replace a bricklayer with a finished hand, stand on the gangplank, pick up a brick knife and build a wall. Because of this, the people on the construction site call her Master Sihuan.

During the summer vacation, the central school in the township was renovated, and Sihuan's brother contracted the project through various channels. Look for younger ones, but they are pampered at home and have not suffered much, and they are scared away before they can work on the construction site. Let's find a few older people, but they all have families and jobs, and when they come to the construction site and don't wait for work, they have to pay their wages in advance, and the foremen are afraid that they won't wait for the work, so they will kidnap the money, so they don't dare to use it. They searched and searched all over the village, but they couldn't find a few suitable ones.

Later, someone came up with the idea that it was okay to find a few girls who could do the work, even if it was to help move the bricks, and the end cement bucket was better than no one. So, Sihuan remembered that Sun Xiaohong had nothing to do all day at home, she came back from the construction site, had dinner, threw her chopsticks on the dining table, and hurried over.

Sihuan listened to Xiaohong's words, and she was secretly surprised: the work on the construction site is very tight every day, but she doesn't know if Xiaohong's body can withstand it. They have lived in the front and back yards of the two families for so many years, and they know each other very well, and no matter how Xiaohong looks like this, it is estimated that they will not be able to drop the chain for themselves.

"Alright then, if you can really go, I'll go home and talk to my brother in a while, and let him pick you some good work, you have to be ready tonight, I'll come to you tomorrow morning, let's go together!" Sihuan nodded and said.

"Okay! I'll go to bed when I'm ready, and I'll get up early tomorrow morning, and I'll be sure to leave at the right time, and you'll see how it goes! Sun Xiaohong patted her chest and swore that she said. Take advantage of this opportunity. She felt that she really should go out to exercise, and in the eyes of everyone, she lived humbly, and if she couldn't get out of herself, she would soon become demented.

She suddenly remembered that Dayan's mother had scolded her like this. said that she didn't have anything left over from eating, and she couldn't do anything. This hurt people no less than feeding her a mouthful of poison, making her worse than death. At that time, she was not quite convinced, but she couldn't argue, this could be endured. Now it seems that I failed the exam three times and twice, and after several laps around, I didn't get anything in, and I was disappointed again and again, and even I felt extremely frustrated.

Isn't it just going to the construction site to move bricks? If others can do it, you will definitely be able to do it. Don't steam steamed buns to fight for breath, I haven't fallen to the extent that everyone looks down on me, it seems that only by going out to see in person can I know how big the world is. Let those with broken mouths see if they are unenlightened elm bumps.

After sending Sihuan away, Sun Xiaohong also thought about it, whether her parents agreed or not, she would try it, so she rummaged through the cabinets in the house and found a set of clothes and put them next to the pillow. In the dark, she plunged into the bed, closed her eyes, and fell asleep.