The courtyard gate opened, and the big white horse, which had been drenched by the rain, finally entered the courtyard tremblingly. The rain was still falling, and the sky was shrouded in dense rain and fog, and there was no clear light. After Sun Xiaohong and her mother unloaded the car together in the rain, she hurriedly ran to the warehouse, found a piece of tarpaulin from it, and quickly pulled up the vegetable basket on the carriage tightly.

When she returned to the house, she saw her grandmother squatting in front of the stove to boil water, and she also came to her and used the coals in the stove to make a fire.

The big white horse was led by her mother to the stable and tied up, and slowly ate it at the trough where the hay was mixed, and she lovingly used a brush to brush away the rainwater from the white horse, and then returned to the house with satisfaction, she sat on the edge of the kang, kept shivering, slowly took off her wet clothes and pants, and took a long breath.

The rain outside the door was still falling exaggeratedly, like a violent ruffian, without moderation. The flickering sky is more like a strange face, ever-changing, moody, and endlessly venting the anger in his heart. Sun Xiaohong didn't have the courage to face her mother, she stood quietly in the corner, squinting at the crack in the door and watching her actions, constantly speculating about her mood.

A few days ago, Sun Xiaohong went to the city to take the adult college entrance examination. Although the questions in the exam were not very difficult, the people who came to the exam were so skilled that the competition was very fierce, and there were so many students who took the exam that everyone stared at each other and riveted their strength. This exam was different from the past, Sun Xiaohong answered the exam carefully in the examination room, and did not dare to be negligent.

After walking out of the examination room, when Sun Xiaohong saw the candidates coming out in a stream, she felt that she was under a lot of pressure. She was caught in the crowd and listened to the candidates' relish, listening to the tone of their voices, it seemed that they all did well in the exam, thinking that there were thousands of people who applied for the exam for a place with only a few people, and her chances of getting the exam can be imagined.

She returned home nervously, and kept stuffy, not daring to tell her parents about the exam. Mom is always so anxious, she can't rub half a grain of sand in her eyes, and she can't escape her eyes for anything. In fact, it has been two or three days since the results were announced, and she also secretly looked at it, but the score of her exam was more than 20 points away from the score of the major. She felt sad when she thought that she had been reviewing for nearly three months, and that she had failed in the exam.

However, what she doesn't want to say doesn't mean that she can hide it. Mom wanted to know her score, and when she saw that Xiaohong was still unhurriedly baking the fire in front of the stove, she asked loudly: "Xiaohong, didn't you go to the city to take the adult exam a few days ago?" Are the results out? Xiaohong was shocked when she heard this, Mom, which pot is not opened. But paper can't contain the fire, whether she can pass this exam or not, her mother wants to get to the bottom of it, if she knows that she still hasn't been admitted, she will definitely be even more angry, this kind of expected situation, Sun Xiaohong feels that she will have to face it sooner or later. Therefore, she replied resignedly:

"I came out the day before yesterday, and I didn't get in!" Xiaohong didn't look up, the fire in the stove reflected her face even redder, and she replied weakly, which made her mother extremely annoyed. As soon as Xiaohong's words fell, she narrowed her eyes and began to count: "Tell me about you, the family doesn't let you do anything all day long, just holding those two books and swaying, but swaying around, and not swaying any tricks, pretending to read all day long, it's better to go to work in the field early!" The more my mother spoke, the more angry she became, and with a "snap", she threw the wet clothes in her hand into the basin, so angry that her eyes were about to fall out.

Sun Xiaohong stopped talking, she lowered her head and let her mother count her various wrongs. Sun Xiaohong knows her mother's temper, a gust of wind, a gust of rain, they are all her own children, and they are fine after arguing and scolding.

"It's not me who is a mother, I follow everything. Look at you, you're all twenty-three or fourteen people, and people of your age in the alley, children are running all over the ground. It's good for you to introduce you to someone, either this one doesn't match, or the one doesn't like the eye, and I don't know if people pick you or not, I always feel that I am amazing! Having said this, Xiaohong's mother saw that Xiaohong was still sitting motionless, and she was even more angry, "Let's take the exam as an example, you took the private teacher exam on the left and the adult exam on the right, and I didn't see you get admitted to the exam any time. I used to expect you to give me a long face, but now it seems to be all in vain. 'Hey'! How did I raise you unproductive child! "Mother's words are serious, Sun Xiaohong is already embarrassed, listening to her count like this, she is even more inferior, her head is lower, if there is no fire in the stove, she will go into it and burn herself.

Inside the house, her mother quickly changed her clothes, although her hands and feet were cold, she still put the changed wet clothes into the basin, Sun Xiaohong saw it, hurriedly stood up, found a low stool from the stool, handed it to her silently, and squatted next to her, watching her wash gently.

"Mom, you lie down on the kang and rest for a while, I'll help you wash this pile of clothes!"

"No, you can't wash it, I'd better wash it myself!" Sun Xiaohong wanted to help her mother wash those clothes and pants several times, but her mother blocked them with her hands. This kind of work, her mother never let her do it. However, when she and her mother looked at each other, she saw her mother's distressed gaze again, and she lowered her head in shame.

"You said you kid, I said what are you doing, I'm really worried about me!" Mom shook her head helplessly, put her hands in the basin, and washed the clothes in her hands vigorously.

Sun Xiaohong couldn't bear to hurt her mother, and she didn't want to deceive herself. Sun Xiaohong, who was dazed, stood there in astonishment, carefully peeking at her mother's face with a pair of complicated eyes. She still wants to find an opportunity, muster up the courage, and admit her mistakes to her mother.

In her impression, her mother is very good at earning money, she is a strong woman, she takes care of her family very much, and she never cares about herself. In order to provide for her own education, she and her father planted a lot of land and ran a vegetable field day and night. Every summer, my mother and father ate and lived in a tent next to the vegetable field, and they worked hard as if they were working, planting vegetables, picking vegetables, buying vegetables, and earning thousands of yuan every day, with little rest every day. Even this kind of income is far from keeping up with the speed at which their sisters spend money.

But Sun Xiaohong suddenly felt that she had failed her hard work and all her efforts. Therefore, Sun Xiaohong looked at her mother's actions with a weak heart, as if she had done an unforgivable bad thing. She suddenly remembered an undoubted truth: no matter how strong the parents are, they are ruined in the hands of their unsuccessful children. Now, many good wishes have become foam in the water, and she silently lowered her head, not daring to think about it anymore.

The rain finally stopped. The rain-washed alleys are filled with a damp coolness. After her mother finished lunch, she was going to pick vegetables in the vegetable field, and when she left, she also rummaged through the cabinets and brought a few pairs of clothes and pants for her father and five sons, and then replaced them and came back for dinner. Before her mother went out, Sun Xiaohong walked up to her very unnaturally, lowered her head, and didn't dare to look at her mother's eyes. Her lips pursed, trying to keep the voice in her throat as low as possible, and then she said in a particularly chilling voice: "Mom...... I want to go to work in the fields with you! ”

"Huh? I don't think you should go and make a mess, there is water everywhere in the vegetable field, you can't do anything, it's better to stay at home, there is so much work at home, just help your grandma do more, don't keep thinking about running into the field! Mom listened to Sun Xiaohong's words, and was slightly stunned, and after she said these words, she walked out very strongly.

When she walked to the gate of the courtyard, she glanced back at Sun Xiaohong again, and the disappointed look seemed to have expected that Sun Xiaohong would not be admitted. When she turned around and walked out of the courtyard gate again, she never looked back, the staggering shadow, seemed to have a kind of contempt and disgust, and hurriedly walked into the blisters in the alley in a few steps, her appearance became the biggest pain in Sun Xiaohong's life.

"Huh?" Sun Xiaohong's eyes widened in surprise, she couldn't say a word. Mom didn't stop, Sun Xiaohong chased after her quickly, grabbed in front of her, and said timidly: "Mom, let me go to replace my father and come back for dinner, can you rest at home and leave?" "The voice was very unsubstantial, and it sounded weak.

"Resting? Every day is like you, who is going to do all the work in the vegetable field? This rain is already disturbing enough, and if the vegetables picked today can't be sold tomorrow, there will be more things lost. You'd better mind your own business, and don't add to the mess! Mom said coldly, without raising her head, and continued to walk forward. Sun Xiaohong was obviously trying to please her, but her mother didn't appreciate it at all. It seems that she has broken her mother's heart to the core.

"Mom, just let me help! I can do all the farm work in the fields! Sun Xiaohong begged her, hoping to get her understanding. In fact, she wanted to take this opportunity to find something to do for herself, although she didn't get into college, she couldn't stay at home all day and eat idle meals with her eyes open.

"There is no grass next to the vegetable field, it has just rained, and the ditches are full of water, you go, you can't do anything, can your father come back to eat with confidence? You better take care of the house, and when it gets dark, lock the courtyard door for your grandmother! Remember, don't go out and around if there's nothing to do! "Mom's words were very tough, and there was no doubt at all. When she spoke, even the saliva she spat carried strings of dazzling sparks.

Looking at her distrustful gaze, Sun Xiaohong suddenly felt that she was really useless. In the eyes of my mother, I will always be a child who will not grow up, I can't carry a basket in my hands, I can't carry a burden on my shoulders, and a child who can't even read well can still have a lot of money. It may be that Sun Xiaohong misinterpreted her mother's original intention, she was afraid that her mother would be angry again, so she didn't continue to grind.