"If anyone still asks me, have you ever been in love" / 2016-03-01

If anyone else asks me,

Have you ever been in a relationship?

I would say,

In this world,

In addition to loved ones,

There was a man who loved me,

We are fortunate to come together,

It's just a phone call, though.

afterward

Because of certain things,

She felt that the identity of her partner had put me too much burden,

So he proposed that we should be friends,

I asked her why she didn't want me anymore,

She wouldn't tell me anything,

Just say that I miss my classmates,

I thought she might be with her out of sympathy, so she stopped loving me.

The misunderstanding arises, and the contradiction deepens!

No matter how hard I tried to redeem it, she wouldn't come out to see me, and at that time, I hated her, why was she so ruthless,

She also gave me many hints, but I didn't understand, at that time, I didn't understand, and she was sad again and again.

-----2016.03.01

It's been almost five years,

Our relationship,

It's been frozen there forever,

No more touching.

It's the second year of research,

I have to plan for the future,

Relatives are also urging to find a partner,

There are a lot of people in the village who are still in their forties,

My uncle was one of them.

Flipping through their QQ friends,

Among your friends who might like you,

And among friends with similar family conditions,

And among friends who have similar experiences,

And among friends who have similar hobbies,

Singled out an H.

Talked about something,

Coupled with the previous exchanges,

I was deeply convinced that it was fate with H.

I wrote a lot of things ready to H,

Thinking,

All sorts of accidents and coincidences occur from time to time,

The more I write, the more I feel that this is fate.

Recently, my roommates have seen it,

often come back from a walk on the playground very late,

Actually, I was listening to a song and writing while walking.

One day,

（time 2016.02.28 05:00）

What it looks like at 5 a.m.,

Still busy preparing a marriage proposal letter to H,

It needs to mention previous relationships,

But

I can't figure it out,

What the hell is going on,

I'm so good to her,

Why doesn't she want me?

It's that she really loves me,

Or as she said,

I'm not your girlfriend.

It's almost finished,

When there is only a little bit of revisions and polishes left,

With a strong sense of fate with H,

While revisiting the Wings of Chronicity for inspiration,'

Inadvertently,

Suddenly, I realized,

It turns out that this is the truth,

It wasn't until I was about to propose to someone else that I was 100% sure that she had loved me before.

It is impossible to understand only in the process of the whole event, even if I look at it, because I only have a limited first perspective, and I can't see the whole picture, and she is sometimes good and sometimes bad;

Although it seems that I know it, it is impossible to really understand it, because putting myself in the shoes of someone is not the same concept as experiencing it, because I have never had such a strong sense of fatalism to analyze whether I like someone or not, as for A, it is completely based on feelings.

People tend to make themselves believe that the part they want to believe is the truth, because if you don't think like that, you can't go on at all.

At that time, I thought,

It's also understandable.

At that time, I firmly believed, (then=2016.02.28 05:00)

Similar = Suitable = Liked = Destiny,

Just as the film critics finally understood why Lu Tao didn't love Milley.

At that time, I firmly believed,

The so-called love,

If you like each other first, you lose,

It's about making the other person like you.

At that time, I firmly believed,

The association of non-consensual people will only invite misfortune,

It's better not to like each other or not to be together,

For their own happiness,

also for the well-being of others.