Chiba didn't notice that he had undergone some kind of strange change from his heart.

Chiba's heart: I should thank her, it's right to be friends with her, what will happen to me if she accepts it, it's unimaginable, if she decisively refuses, doesn't give any explanation for indifference and no longer be friends, then it's not even worse, thank God for letting me meet her first, such a good person.

Chiba's heart: As for the future, what should I do? I don't know, I don't want to know, in addition to the education and truth I learned from it, I don't remember anything about the thing itself, whether it is sad or happy, living in a moment, no memory, bravely facing nature will not be painful, as long as I don't stipulate anything, just use a vague concept to roughly point out the direction, there will be no restrictions, and I will not go to extremes, but the intermediate balance fluctuations, this is the balance.

Chiba's heart: I still believe in having friends, I still believe in the light, I still am myself, I still continue to walk the same path, I am still the original self.

Chiba's heart: What will happen next, what will happen, I don't know yet, and I don't want to know, because it doesn't matter what it is. Nothing has changed, except that my heart has faded, everything has faded.

Chiba's heart: Everything is not important, just live happily and happily.

Chiba's heart: Regarding this relationship, there is no development and no ending, only the initial kindness and kind rejection, whether it is pain or happiness, I don't have to care, at least I really liked it during that time, and she also taught me a lot.

Chiba's heart: Life is a drama, and it is often more tragic than comedy. It is precisely because it is a tragedy that it will be so unforgettable!

Chiba's heart: Don't take anything too seriously, don't expect too much, the deeper the dream fantasy, the greater the disappointment, and having expectations for others will only hurt you, take good care of yourself and live in social reality.

A few days passed, he figured out a lot of things, felt that nothing was too important, and gradually accepted the fate, and learned that the meaning of life is to repay the favor!

He began to absorb the food he had received from the library—to bathe his soul.

Is life heavy or light? It all depends on how we look at it.

You must not let the attitude of others control your mood, and you must not let the surrounding environment affect your emotions.

Sometimes an unrealistic attachment is a kind of ignorance and ignorance, try to correct the paranoid character, do not overly suppress yourself, have a healthy character, and open your heart to others is the best way.

Temporary suffering can be well honed and embody one's will.

Opening the closed door of the heart can increase mutual understanding and intimacy, but also allow you to get more happiness and ease, release inner pressure, and help cultivate harmonious interpersonal relationships.

……

He then continued to supplement his diet from his initiation Japanese anime, Inuyasha.

You didn't belong to this era in the first place, now, take this and go back to your time......

I have been intoxicated by the bitter taste of bellflower flowers, and when I look back, I realize that I am the same, the lonely night sky, the withering of roses, blooming bitterly under the starlight.

……

Speaking of pain, he even condemned his high school homeroom teacher, doubting whether he was right or wrong to meet him, it was he who made Jean choose the character of loneliness, their homeroom teacher was different, so he was also different.

He also found that his thoughts and actions were stuck in the past.